I try to reach the door, but the heat folds around me, hot silk over skin. My lungs seize. And just before the ceiling gives way, I see a silhouette standing beyond the glass-tall, still, backlit by the inferno. His hand is raised, fingers spread as if in farewell.
Then everything collapses.
I wake to the taste of ash.
The ceiling of my apartment swims into focus: plain white, hairline crack like a scar down its middle. The radiator hums softly, the world outside muffled beneath a February drizzle. Seoul's skyline bleeds gray through my window.
Another dream. The same one.
I sit up, breath unsteady, shirt clinging to my skin. For a moment I can still smell burning lacquer, though my apartment carries only the faint scent of instant coffee.
It takes effort to peel the nightmare off my body. I force my feet onto the cold floorboards and murmur, "It was just a dream."
Except it never feels like one.
In the bathroom mirror, my reflection stares back-dark-eyed, hair tangled, a faint red mark wrapping my right wrist. It looks like a healed burn, thin and pale against my skin. I don't remember getting it, yet it's been there for as long as I can recall.
"Reincarnation scar," my roommate once joked when she saw it. I laughed with her then. I don't laugh now.
The university clock tower tolls eight times, dragging me into the day. I throw on a black sweater, jeans, and the long camel coat I bought from a thrift shop. The rain outside has turned to sleet, peppering the windows like static. Seoul looks beautiful from my tiny rooftop studio-gray, cold, alive.
By the time I reach the subway, the morning rush has already begun. The train car is full of damp umbrellas and murmured phone calls. I wedge myself between a salaryman and a student scrolling through social media. The tunnel lights flash past like streaks of memory-white, then black, then white again.
Every time we dive into darkness, I see flames reflected in the glass.
At campus, the world feels brighter but not safer. Psychology Building B looms ahead, its glass façade dripping with rain. Inside, my friend Jina waves from the vending machine.
"You look like you haven't slept in a week," she says, handing me a canned coffee. "Nightmares again?"
"Same one," I admit.
Jina frowns. "You should write it down. Sometimes dreams mean something."
"I think mine just mean I need therapy," I say, trying to sound light.
But when I sit through the lecture on trauma and memory, every word seems to tilt toward me: suppressed events, repressed identity, recurring imagery.
After class, I walk alone through the quad. The rain has stopped; the air smells of wet pavement and distant exhaust. Students cluster under cherry trees stripped bare for winter. One tree trunk is blackened-lightning strike, someone told me. It looks eerily like something that's burned.
My phone buzzes. A news alert: "Fifth Anniversary of the Cheongdam Fire – Victim's Case Revisited."
My thumb freezes. The photo thumbnail shows a house half-collapsed, charred beams silhouetted against orange light. For a second, my heart forgets how to beat. I open the article, scanning-
_The 2019 fire that claimed the life of twenty-two-year-old pianist Lina Vale remains one of Seoul's most tragic unsolved cases..._
The name hits me like smoke in the lungs. Lina Vale.
I whisper it under my breath, and something inside me shifts-like a lock clicking open.
The name lingers on my tongue long after the article ends.
Lina Vale.
It feels borrowed-like a line from a song I once knew by heart.
The article says she was a rising pianist, the "prodigy of Cheongdam." Twenty-two, promising, beautiful. Died in a house fire that started near her music room. Official cause: faulty wiring. The investigation closed after a year.
There's a photograph: a young woman at a grand piano, half-turned toward the camera, sunlight threading through her hair. My pulse stutters. Her eyes are mine-or mine are hers. The shape, the tilt, even the faint mole near the left brow.
My breath fogs the phone screen.
"Coincidence," I whisper. "It has to be."
But the next line makes my stomach twist.
_Rumors suggested the victim's boyfriend, a volunteer firefighter, was first on scene._
A firefighter. My mind supplies the silhouette from my dreams-the one framed by flame.
I close the article, pocket the phone, and head out into the afternoon drizzle. Campus drains into the city like a tide of umbrellas. My legs move automatically, yet my mind runs elsewhere: the burn scar, the nightmares, the piano in flames.
The subway hums beneath my feet. Seoul's winter light is sharp, metallic. By the time I reach the station stairs, rain has turned to a fine mist. A gust of cold air carries the faint smell of smoke-so brief it could be imagination.
A man passes me on the steps, tall, dark hair damp against his forehead, uniform jacket slung over his shoulder. Fire Department patch. He's talking to someone on a radio, voice low, calm. For a heartbeat, the world slows.
I glimpse his profile-the line of his jaw, the faint scar near his temple-and my chest tightens. I don't know him, but my body does. A jolt of recognition flashes through me so fierce it hurts.
He looks up as if sensing it. Our eyes meet-just a second, maybe less. The noise of the station fades to a hum. Then he nods politely, passes by, disappears into the crowd.
My hands are shaking.
"Get it together, Mira," I mutter, pressing my palm against the cold railing.
The name tag on his jacket had read PARK EVAN.
The rest of the day blurs. I skip my evening seminar and wander aimlessly through Myeongdong's narrow streets. Neon signs flicker over puddles; the smell of roasted chestnuts mixes with exhaust. Everything feels too bright, too alive, as if the city itself is daring me to remember.
At a crosswalk, a street musician plays an old upright piano beneath a plastic awning. The melody is soft, minor key, haunting. I pause. My fingers twitch unconsciously, mapping invisible notes.
The song ends. The musician looks up and smiles.
"Want to play?" he offers in accented English.
"I ... don't play," I start to say-but my voice falters. My hands ache with an impossible nostalgia.
Before I can think, I sit down on the bench. The keys are cold beneath my fingertips. I press one, then another. The notes tumble out-not random, but familiar, forming a tune I don't remember learning.
People pause to listen. The rain hushes. My chest tightens, emotion rising like smoke. Then, in the reflection of the piano's polished lid, I see it: a flash of flame curling along the edge of the mirror, swallowing my face whole.
I jerk back with a cry. The onlookers flinch. The fire is gone. Only my reflection remains, pale and shaking.
The musician blinks. "Miss? Are you all right?"
"I-sorry," I stammer, standing. "I just-thought I saw something."
He frowns, concerned, but I'm already backing away into the crowd.
By the time I reach my apartment, the city's lights shimmer through fog. I lock the door, lean against it, and exhale. My pulse refuses to slow.
On my desk, my laptop screen glows with the half-finished article I'd been writing for class: "The Psychology of Recurring Dreams." I stare at the cursor blinking like a heartbeat.
Maybe Jina was right. Maybe dreams mean something.
I type a new line.
*Case Study 1: Lina Vale.*
The words feel inevitable.
Outside, thunder rumbles low across the Han River. The lights flicker once. In the window's reflection, a faint orange glow ripples behind me-like the room's edges are smoldering.
When I spin around, everything is dark again.
Only the smell of smoke remains.
Rain drums against the windows long into the night.
I should be finishing my assignment, but every time I blink, Lina Vale's face flickers behind my eyelids. The resemblance still unnerves me-the eyes, the scar, even the tilt of her smile.
I open my laptop again and start to dig.
There isn't much about her online; the case is five years old, buried under newer scandals and tragedies. But in an archived article, I find her biography: Seoul Arts Conservatory graduate, winner of the national piano competition, planning her first European tour before the accident. Parents deceased. Only child.
Then a quote:
_"She was devoted to her music and to her boyfriend, Evan Park, a volunteer firefighter who often helped at the local arts center."_
The words make my skin prickle. The silhouette. The name.
I keep scrolling until I find an old news photo. The frame is grainy, taken at night: a fire engine, smoke, a stretcher. Two figures blurred by movement-one kneeling beside it, one being lifted away. The man kneeling has a hand stretched toward the flames, palm open, as if trying to reach someone.
A strange, painful longing wells up in my chest.
I whisper his name out loud. "Evan."
The sound fills the small room like an echo returning from a distance.
For a moment, I'm somewhere else. The hum of Seoul fades, replaced by the crackle of burning wood and the deep boom of collapsing beams. My lungs seize from the heat. I smell varnish, perfume, panic. Then a man's voice-rough, desperate-calls out through the fire;
"Lina, hold on! Please-"
I gasp and slam the laptop shut. The apartment is silent except for my own heartbeat.
"What is happening to me?"
I cross to the sink and splash cold water on my face. My reflection wavers in the mirror-half-lit, ghostly. For an instant, I see another version of me overlaid: hair longer, lips painted red, wearing a white dress streaked with soot.
The image fades, leaving only Lee Mira-twenty, alive, trembling.
Unable to sit still, I dig through my drawers for my old sketchbook. Sometimes drawing helps me think. On the first blank page, I start to sketch the house from the news photo. The shape of the roof, the windows, the balcony.
The pencil moves faster than my thoughts, as if my hand remembers what my mind doesn't. When I finish, I stare at the page in disbelief.
I've drawn details not visible in the photo-furniture layout, the piano in the corner, the spiral staircase. And in the top left corner, I've shaded something small and metallic on a table. A locket.
I don't remember seeing it anywhere.
My phone buzzes again, snapping me out of the trance. A notification: "Cheongdam Fire: Anniversary Memorial Tomorrow, 10 AM." The location listed is a small park near the Han River.
My fingers tighten around the phone. Maybe if I go there, I can prove something-either that all of this is coincidence, or that my nightmares are trying to tell me the truth.
I leave the sketchbook open on the desk. The drawing's lines shimmer faintly in the lamplight, as if heat still radiates from them.
Sleep doesn't come easily. When it finally does, it's shallow, fragile.
In the dream, I'm standing in the same burned house I just drew. The walls are blackened, but the piano is untouched, gleaming like new. On top of it sits the locket-silver, heart-shaped, glinting in the half-light. I reach for it.
The moment my fingers brush the metal, the lid snaps open by itself. Inside, two faces stare back at me: mine and Evan's.
Then the fire starts again.
I wake with a scream caught in my throat and the taste of smoke on my tongue.
Outside, dawn is breaking over Seoul, pale light spilling between gray towers. I glance at the clock. 6:47 a.m. Three hours until the memorial.
My decision is made before I can think about it.
The morning air carries a bite sharp enough to wake every nerve.
Seoul after rain is silver and new; puddles mirror the gray sky, buses hiss past like exhaling giants. I clutch a paper cup of coffee in both hands and tell myself I'm only curious, that this isn't obsession.
The park is small-a wedge of green pressed between high-rises. At its center stands a memorial stone carved with the names of the Cheongdam Fire victims. There was only one name. Lina Vale. Fresh flowers lean in a vase at its base, the petals trembling in the breeze.
A handful of reporters pack up their cameras. A few passers-by bow briefly before hurrying off. Soon I'm alone with the sound of the river.
I kneel, tracing the engraved letters.
Cold seeps into my fingertips. The name feels too familiar, as if my body recognizes it even if my mind refuses.
"I don't know who you were," I whisper, "but you won't leave me alone."
Something glints in the grass beside the stone. At first I think it's trash-until I see the chain.
A silver locket, half-buried in wet leaves.
My breath catches. It's identical to the one from my sketch.
I glance around; no one seems to notice. Carefully, I pick it up. The metal is icy, heavier than it should be. Mud dulls its shine, but when I rub it clean, a faint engraving appears on the back: L & E.
My pulse thunders in my ears.
The clasp resists when I try to open it, then yields with a soft click. Inside-two faces. The photo is water-damaged, but the outlines are clear enough: a young woman, smiling, her head on a man's shoulder. My stomach flips.
I know that smile. I know that jawline.
Me.
And Park Evan.
A chill races up my spine so fast it makes me dizzy. I drop the locket, then snatch it back up, terrified someone else will see.
"Miss, are you all right?"
The voice behind me is low, steady. I freeze. Slowly, I turn.
He's standing a few meters away, sunlight sliding along the reflective stripes of his jacket. The same man from the subway stairs-tall, calm, eyes the color of steel under smoke. Park Evan.
For a heartbeat, neither of us speaks. Wind rattles the dried reeds by the riverbank.
"You dropped this," he says, stepping closer. He doesn't realize I'm already holding it; he's pointing to the spot where it had fallen. His gaze shifts to the locket in my hand, then back to me. A flicker of recognition passes through his expression-quick, uncertain.
"I-found it here," I manage. My voice sounds strange, like it belongs to someone else.
He nods slowly. "There's been a ceremony every year since the fire. People leave things behind sometimes."
"You were here five years ago," I say before I can stop myself.
His eyes sharpen. "You knew her?"
The question cuts deeper than he intends. I force a shaky laugh. "No. Just read about her. Piano prodigy, right?"
He studies me for a moment, then looks away toward the river. "Yeah. I was first on scene. Couldn't save her."
The words land heavy between us. Something in his voice-regret, maybe-tugs at the edges of my memory.
I close my fist around the locket until the metal bites my skin.
"I'm sorry," I murmur.
He gives a small, tight smile. "So am I."
A siren wails somewhere across the bridge. Evan glances toward it, then back at me. "I have to go." He turns, jogging toward a red rescue van parked by the curb.
I watch him leave, my heart hammering. The sound of the siren fades, swallowed by the city.
When I look down again, the locket's lid has shut itself.
Inside my palm, it feels warm-as if it remembers fire.