"She has a head injury, Alexia," he said, his voice tight with a panic he never felt for me. "We have to prioritize. You know how fragile she is. We need you to be strong right now."
Because of his "priority," I missed the critical window for surgery.
My fingers, once capable of spanning octaves and dancing through concertos, healed into stiff, alien claws. The grand piano in our living room became a coffin for my dreams.
For three months, I lived as a ghost in my own home.
I watched Jacob comfort Cassandra through her minor headaches while ignoring my ruined nerves. I watched him let her take credit for my music, steal my son's affection, and finally, crush my late mother's locket under her heel with a smile.
When I confronted him, he only checked to see if she had twisted her ankle.
That was the moment the silence broke. I realized I wasn't his partner; I was just collateral damage.
So, when the Vienna Conservatory called offering a position, I didn't ask for his permission.
On the night of their engagement party, while fireworks exploded for them outside, I packed a single suitcase.
I left the signed divorce papers next to his medical negligence report on the counter, unlocked the door, and walked into the night.
I was done waiting for him to choose me.
Chapter 1
Alexia POV
"We need you to understand, Alexia."
Jacob's voice was calm. Terrifyingly, clinically calm.
He wasn't looking at me. He was looking at the gurney being rushed past us, the wheels screeching against the linoleum as they headed into the trauma unit.
He was holding her hand. Not mine.
My right hand was throbbing with a pulse of its own, a sick, blinding rhythm of absolute agony. I tried to lift it. I tried to shove the mangled, swelling mess of flesh into his line of sight.
Blood was soaking through the sleeve of my white blouse, turning the silk a heavy, wet crimson.
"Jacob," I whispered. My throat felt like it was full of shattered glass. "My hand. I think it's crushed."
He didn't turn. He didn't blink. He just kept pace with the doctors swarming around Cassandra.
"She has a head injury, Alexia," he said, his voice tight with a panic I had never seen him feel for me. "We have to prioritize. You know how fragile she is. We need you to be strong right now."
Strong.
That word was a trap. It was the gilded cage he had been building around me for ten years.
A nurse grabbed my shoulder, her grip firm but professional. "Ma'am, you can't go in there. Please, step back."
"But my husband-" I choked out, pointing at Jacob's retreating back.
Jacob stopped for a fraction of a second. He looked over his shoulder. His eyes were blue ice, entirely devoid of the warmth they had held only moments ago for the woman on the stretcher.
"I'll find the best doctors for you later," he promised. "Just wait here. Please. Do this for us."
For us.
The doors swung shut with a pneumatic hiss. The silence of the hallway crashed down on me, heavier and louder than the sirens had ever been.
I stood there, clutching my ruined hand to my chest, realizing that "us" didn't include me. "Us" was Jacob and Cassandra.
I was just the collateral damage they expected to survive on my own.
Later never came.
Not really.
Three months passed. The bones had knit together, but they had knit wrong. The nerves were shot. My fingers, once capable of spanning octaves and dancing through complex arpeggios, were now stiff, alien claws.
The grand piano in the living room sat like a black coffin. I walked past it every day, a ghost haunting the ruins of my own life.
Jacob was rarely home. His tech empire was expanding, swallowing up smaller companies, swallowing up every second of his time. When he did come home, he smelled of expensive scotch and exhaustion.
He never looked at my hand.
"Do you need anything?" he asked one evening, loosening his tie with practiced apathy. He didn't wait for an answer. He was already scrolling through his phone.
I looked at him. I really looked at him. I saw the man I had given up everything for.
I remembered the day I got the acceptance letter from Vienna. I was twenty-two. I was going to be a composer. But Jacob had looked at me with those sad, pleading eyes.
Anton needs a mother, Alexia. I need a partner. Not a long-distance wife.
So I stayed. I became the mother Anton needed. I became the wife Jacob wanted.
And now, I was simply part of the furniture.
"No," I said softly. "I don't need anything."
He nodded, satisfied with the lie. "Good. I have to check on Cassandra. She's still having headaches from the accident."
He walked out of the room. He went to the guest wing. To her.
I walked into the library. It was cold. My old scores were piled on a desk in the corner, gathering dust. I ran my deformed fingertips over the paper. I couldn't feel the texture. The numbness wasn't just in my hand anymore. It was spreading to my chest, freezing my heart.
My phone buzzed in my pocket. An international number.
I answered it with my left hand.
"Ms. Bell?" The voice was accented, crisp. "This is the Vienna Conservatory, regarding the guest professor position. We heard about... your situation. But your mind, your theory... it remains brilliant. We want you."
My breath hitched. A tear leaked out, hot and stinging. Someone remembered. Someone thought I had value beyond my utility to Jacob and his son.
"Ms. Bell?"
I took a deep breath. The air in this house was stale, recycled. I needed oxygen.
"Yes," I said. My voice shook, but then it steadied into something unrecognizable. "Yes. I accept."
I hung up. I walked over to the wall calendar.
Jacob's schedule was written in black ink. Anton's soccer games in blue. Cassandra's doctor appointments in red.
There was nothing for me.
I picked up a pen. I circled a date two weeks from now.
The day I would stop waiting for "later."