obsessions

~~~~~~~Ayita~~~~~~ Call it my stupidity or something but i didn't know how I was tell zayn off anymore. The fear in his eyes was enough to make me change my mind, i have seen this man crying and I don't want to see him hurt again. I was leading him to sin again and it was not something I wanted to do again, even my mum warned me but here I was, my heart winning over my head.

"Flower" zayn called out to me while cupping my face, "are we back together?" "What do you think?" I asked back, "you are not even giving me the chance to speak for myself" His lips curved into a smile, "I have missed you so much Ayita" his hands were caressing the small of my back, "I thought I was going to lose my mind and I even wanted to confess to the bishop and tell him to take me back" "It seems you are still feeling conflicted about leaving the priesthood right?" I questioned and he sighed. "The moment Dmitri hears that I quit, he would do everything humanly possible for me to take care of the family" "He is threatening you?" An expressionless look flash across his face but he quickly masked it up with a smile. "He can't do shit" I leaned into his embrace and allowed myself to hug him. I have missed him so much and I didn't know how to explain it. "You know I am not allowing you to leave again right?" "You have to make me a promise though" I said, still leaning into his embrace. "Anything for you, Bella" his voice held so much authority and he sounded so dominating. "Promise not to take anyone's life again?" I asked and I saw him gulp. For zayn I knew it was a hard pill to swallow because his jealousy could get really ugly if he was pushed to the wall but it was not like I was going to do anything wrong right? "Promise me, zayn" I said again and he nodded. "I promise I won't take a life again, okay?" "Thank you" Part of me was happy that he made that promise but I was still conscious of the fact that he still had to meet the bishop and the ridicule he would have to face. I have always been scared of that and now it was coming to pass faster than I can even comprehend" "Are you scared?" He asked after a while and I turned my attention to him. "What do you mean?" "You are scared for me right?" This man could see right through me and he knew exactly how I was feeling. "I am really worried about Zayn, I don't know how everyone is going to react when they find out that you are quitting. I mean you are the ideal......." "Shhhhh" he shushed me while placing his index finger on my lips, "I will handle it okay?" "Are you sure?" "I promise, princess" He then bent down and captured my lips while his hand cupped the small of my back. The kiss was slow and intense, we both were hungry for each other and the only thing I wanted to do at that point was just to be one with him. I have missed this man so much and I didn't want to lose him again. "I missed you so much zayn" I managed to say at a a certain interval and a smirk appeared on his face. "Should I show you how much I missed you?" "What are you planning on doing?" "I will show you, gattina" Before I could say anything, he yanked me from the ground before making his way upstairs slowly. "Your workers are watching zayn" I managed to say. "Let them" he rasped out, "I don't want to hide you anymore okay? I want to show the world how much you mean to me my love" I felt color creep up on my face and I couldn't stop myself from blushing in his embrace, how I loved this man. The moment we got to the room, he placed me on the bed gently before claiming my lips again. This time, the kiss was not gentle. It was filled with so much need and want. Our tongues danced in sync and I wanted the whole of him for myself. Zayn kept caressing my body while his lips worked wonders on mine, no matter how many times I have tasted his lips. I still couldn't get enough of it. "How I missed your body, flower" his sensual voice reached my ears and I could feel some heat rising in my body especially when he kissed my earlobe. His hand cupped my bum and he gave it a little squeeze which made me groan in pleasure. He was the only man who made me feel more like a woman. I enjoyed sex with my husband but zayn made me feel a lot more, he made me feel like I was the only person on earth that mattered. "Permission to ravage your body, princess" he said between breaths, his hand was on my boobs and he was playing with it so hard, I could already feel mg juice dripping from me. "Za...yn" I managed to stutter as I grabbed a handful of his long wavy hair. "Say what you want princess" he whispered back, his hand working wonders on my nipple. I could feel a huge bulge pressing against my abdomen and I knew he also wanted me, he was damn hard. "You are fucking hard" Zayn smirked, "I get hard every fucking time I see you, baby" He didn't let me say a word again and claimed my lips again before yanking my gown off my body. I was wearing a lacy pantie but not a bra and I could tell he was happy with the sight in front of him. "Delicious" zayn smacked his lips and took one of my peaks in his mouth which made me groan in pleasure. His hand circled my other nipple for a while before slowly making its way to my tummy. His hands were like magic working wonders on my tummy. Trails of hickey followed suit as he kissed and licked my body which made me shudder in pleasure at intervals. His hand found my lace and he tugged it off making me naked in front of him. "I can't get enough of you, princess" he whispered into my ears and I felt his hand find my fold which made me curl my legs. "Zayn" I managed to whisper. "You like what I am doing, princess?" He played with my clit for a while and my juice kept pouring out in abundance while his fingers kept pumping in and out of me. I was going crazy with ecstasy and the bulge underneath his trouser was getting bigger with each passing minute. "Faster zayn" I managed to scream and he Increased the intensity of his finger thrusts while my breasts danced in rhythm, I was loving the feeling. "Cum for me, princess" his fingers were still going in and out of me and it was like the permission I needed, I ached my back and released all of my juice onto his finger while his lips curved into an evil smirk. Beads of sweat were all over his face and the zayn I knew was just getting started with me. "We are just getting started my love" That night, zayn took me for hours and he was not satisfied, I practically begged him when I couldn't feel my legs anymore. ***** The sun ray's slowly crept up on my face and I opened my eyes to see a beautiful sight before me. Zayn was sleeping so peacefully and his body was bare down to the waist where the sheets tangled around him. He looked like a god of seduction and I couldn't get enough of the man in front of me. How could a priest look so appealing and that tattoo on his body was making her all hot again, a mafia priest suits him well. "I can feel your eyes boring into me, Ayita '' zayn's deep voice reached my ears and I gulped. His long lashes fluttered open and a smile was gracing his lips. "I can't get enough of you even if I want to, zayn" I said with a sly smirk on my lips, "you are an all round shade of sin" He bit his lips, " now you are making me hard" "How hard can you be daddy?" I asked him again. Before I came to say jack, he flipped me over and he was on top of me. "Do you have time?" "What do you mean?" "Maybe you should call your mum and the office, you may not be able to walk after this" He didn't even let me speak again before claiming my lips and sending one of his fingers into my already wet entrance.

~~~~~~zayn~~~~~~ Let's just say my morning started on a fruitful note because I had the most beautiful woman on earth and I loved her to the moon and back. I just had to quit and move away with her to a safe place. Speaking of quitting, I knocked gently on the bishop's door and I entered. He was engrossed in the book he was reading but when he saw him, a smile appeared on his face and my whole countenance changed. I knew he loved me like a son but our relationship ends here.

"Zayn" the smile on his face continued to linger, "you are here earlier than I thought" I smiled and lowered myself on the sofa, "today is Tuesday and I know you have a lot to do today at the cathedral so I don't want to waste your time more than necessary" My eyes hovered over the room and a feeling of nostalgia enveloped me. I could vividly remember seven years ago when I first entered this office by the time I was to be ordained a priest and I loved every ambiance of the room. Here I was, seven years later about to quit and be with the love of my life. "I am a bit surprised that you want to quit zayn" the bishop began and I sighed, I was in for a big lecture. "I mean, when you came here seven years ago, you were a determined young boy and I could see the power of God in you, what happened? You can talk to me" One thing about bishop Bernard, he never judged and I loved that about him. He was a simple man and I will respect him till my last. He leaned forward and removed his glasses, " talk to me zayn, what happened?" The bishop paused for a while and sighed, "is it because of that lady that you have been seen with lately? What is actually going on?" I didn't want to lie to him and I know he was already aware of my relationship with Ayita, so what was the need? "Yes bishop bernard" I finally answered and a sad look flash across his eyes but he quickly masked it up with a smile. "I don't mean to be disrespectful to the sacred priesthood but maybe I was not caught out for this life bishop, I didn't plan for any of this to happen and I am truly sorry for all the atrocities I must have committed" The man sighed again and leaned back on his reclining chair. I knew he had a lot to tell me but he was restraining himself. "You don't have to sugarcoat anything bishop, I am ready to listen to anything you say at this point" Bishop Benard sighed for what seemed like the umpteenth time, then he picked up his pen. "For how long have you been having an affair with her?" "Long before the trip to Mauritius" "And you didn't deem it fit to let me know? You have been serving mass and doing things since then zayn, this is atrocious" He was right to a hundred but what could I do? I didn't want to lose the chance to be with her. "I am willing to accept the punishment of the church, bishop" I finally said and a bizarre look appeared on his face for a brief moment. "I will affect your decision tomorrow and I will announce to the church that you have left. I don't have any physical punishment to give you but you won't be allowed to climb the pulpit again" My punishment was even too little and I was grateful to him, I made a mockery of my faith and it was not something that would easily be forgiven. By the time I left the office, I knew I would be a free man before the end of the week. I couldn't wait to share the good news with Ayita but before I could dial your number, another call entered my phone. "Hello" I said as I pressed the phone against my ears. "It's been a while bro" Alex's voice filtered into my ears from the other end of the phone and I had the inkling to roll my eyes. "Why are you calling me out of the blue?" I asked him. "Your dad said you would be coming back to the hood, is that right?" I hissed angrily, Dmitri was now getting on my nerves more than necessary. "Should I chop off your tongue and feed it to my dog?" I immediately asked and Alex sighd, he didn't like my dog at all. "I am quitting and going to the countryside with Ayita" "Wow" he exclaimed, "finally" "Shut up" I didn't wait for him to finish what he was saying and I ended the call. I needed to talk to my woman and not that delinquent. Ayita answered on the first ring and my lips curved into a smile, how I loved her. "Hey" her beautiful voice filtered into my ears and I found myself smiling harder than I should. "I miss you, Bella" this was the first thing I said and the Ayita I knew was already blushing. "How did your meeting go?" "I will be a free man soon" I finally answered. "Did he give you any punishment?" I sighed and shook my head. Ayita had alway been concerned about what would happen when everyone found out I had a woman while I was a priest. "Nothing really, I am just banned from climbing the pulpit until everything is rectified" She sighed and I knew she was sad, she was blaming herself for what happened. "Baby" I called after a while. "Yes" her voice was calm and meek, i just wanted to hug her at that moment and tell her everything was going to be fine. "Don't beat yourself up okay? Nothing was your fault okay?" "Hmm" We were both quiet for a while, each of us had something running through our mind but we didn't know how to voice it but the main thing was that I wanted to see her. "Come for dinner, I want to properly introduce you to my mum and my son" I didn't know why I felt very happy when I heard her and believe me when I say I was looking forward to dinner.

The time was 7 pm and I was already dressed up for dinner when a call came through my phone. It was an unknown number and it made me crease my forehead into a frown, who would be calling me at such a time? Sighing to myself, I answered the call and it was the sad voice of a woman that I heard. "Father zayn" I could recognize that voice anywhere and anytime, she was Ayita's mother. "Hello ma'am, what happened?" My heart was already beating faster than usual. Naturally when people called crying, it was always because of bad news.

"Ayita..." her voice trailed off and my own world came to a halt for a few seconds. What the hell happened to my woman? "Calm down ma'am and talk to me" "She is gone," the woman said after a while. "What do you mean she is gone?" "I can't find her zayn, I looked everywhere and i can't find her" I was already feeling frustrated, what the hell was she saying now? Ayita called me to come for dinner right so how the heck was she gone? Was the mother and daughter duo trying to tease me now? "I am on my way okay?" I didn't bother to wait for her response and ended the call before grabbing my car keys and I rushed out of the room. I kept calling and calling her but her line was not going through. I was already feeling apprehensive as I climbed out of the car and rushed to the front door which was immediately opened. I could see how sad the woman looked and I was wondering why Ayita would leave and make her mother cry like this. "Did you try calling any of her friends?" I asked her. "She left with Asher, her clothes are not here and I can't find anything" she paused for a while, "I have called her a hundred times but her number hasn't been reachable" I didn't know what to do or say, this was like a dream to me. She invited me for dinner and was not here? What kind of a play was that? I was still in my reverie of thoughts when the old lady outstretched her hand and handed me a piece of paper. "I saw this lying on the bed in her room, it is for you" A look of confusion flashed across my face as I collected it and immediately opened it. I wanted to know what exactly was happening. "My beloved, I know by the time you are reading this letter now, you must have come home for dinner and discovered that I am no longer here right? You must be wondering what is going on and why I left without seeing or even telling you anything but this was for the best. I don't see myself spending the rest of my life with a murderer and a man who is capable of doing anything because of love zayn. I thought I could turn a blind eye to what you were doing and love you wholeheartedly but the fact that I have to live in constant fear of you and what you are capable of doing makes me so scared. Don't get me wrong, I loved you and I still love you with the whole of my being but I just can't be with a dangerous psychopath like you who can't control his jealousy or his anger. A man like you is bad for me and that is why I left without saying anything to you or my mum. I am leaving forever and I hope I never get to see you again. You are too big a sinner to remain in the house of God, when you finally quit being a priest you should go back home and join your family. That will be best. I love you but can't be with a man like you" This was where the letter ended and for a while I couldn't understand what she was saying. She invited me for dinner to break my heart? Was this her plan all along? To tell me horrible things and leave me at the crossroad of life? Was shs this heartless to do a thing like this? I loved her so much and this is what she did? I didn't know how to wrap my head around everything and in no time, tears already escaped my eyes. "Where did she go?" I asked the woman in front of me but the look in her eyes showed that she didn't even know where her daughter was. My whole world came crashing down and I could feel an immense amount of pain in my chest. "I am so sorry zayn" I didn't hear her because I was already out of the house, it felt like even the heavens had pity on me because the rain began to fall in torrents and the only thing I wanted to do at that moment was just stand inside for the rest of my life. The woman I loved and was doing everything for betrayed me in the worst way ever, she called me names and to her maybe I was the devil. This was too much for me to bear and I just didn't know what to do. I stood in the rain for what seemed like ages and by the time I looked up, the sky was already clear but I was dripping with water and sorrow. There and then, I kept asking myself one question. "Why?" With one last glance at the house, I entered into my car and zoomed off, my eyes were blurry and teary. I wasn't seeing the road ahead and the next thing my car and I were leaping high in the air while I watched my life flash before my eyes. ***** I opened my eyes slowly and for a moment I didn't know where I was. Everything was white and the smell of medicines greeted me. I was in the hospital. So I was alive? I thought if I had died in that accident, it would have been better. "You are finally awake" a voice filtered into my ear and I turned to see Alex beside me. He had a grim look on his face and I knew he was scared when I was unconscious. "How long have I been here?" I managed to ask. "A month" he then stood up from the sofa and came to me, "what the hell happened zayn?" His voice was laced with so much worry, "everyone was worried about you and I almost lost my senses" "Aren't you supposed to call the doctor when a patient wake up?" "Oh" a look of realization hit him, "I will do just that" As I watched him walk out through the door, the thoughts of a certain someone filled my head. If I have been in the hospital for a month that means it was real and she didn't come to see me. My heart broke again and I could feel my eyes sting with tears. How did she expect me to live without her? Wasn't she being inconsiderate right now? The door creaked open again and I was hoping to see the doctor but Dmitri and his wife entered and for the first time I saw the look of fear in her eyes. "Thank goodness you are awake zayn" she walked up to me and threw herself in my embrace but i didn't feel any kind of empathy towards her. "Please stay away from me woman, you are inconveniencing me" I said to her she quietly disengaged from me. "What the hell happened to you, zayn?" Dmitri asked. He didn't look worried but I know somewhere inside of him, he was. Thankfully the door opened and this time, the doctor entered with Alex. "How are you feeling now, Mr Vander?" He asked with a bright smile on his lips which I hated. "You should be the one to tell me if I am all better" "Of course you are, it's a miracle but seeing you still talking and all that, you are better" "Thank you so much doctor" I said and he nodded. "You will be under observation for a while then you can go home" "Sure" He turned around to leave but I halted him. "Can you take these two with you? I want to have some quiet time" Dmitri gave a smile but he didn't say anything but I knew he was boiling with rage. "Should I also leave?" Alex asked when they were gone and I rolled my eyes at him. "Find someone for me" I said. "Who?" He inquired. "Ayita" "Why?" A look of confusion was hovering over his face, "did she leave?" I didn't answer him and realization dawned on him. "Is she responsible for what happened to you, zayn?" Alex was already getting hyper, " is she?" "She broke up with me, called me all manner of names and left" The guy beside me scoffed, "you got into that accident because of her and you still want me to find her? "Find her Alex" I ordered, "i really need to speak to her" He sighed, "sure but I won't allow her to hurt you again" I didn't answer but I was on the same page with him, I won't allow her to hurt me again but I still loved her like I did before. I just wanted to ask her a question, "Why?"