What the heart keeps quiet

It all started without being plane. I had already seen photos on Instagram stories and it caught my attention, but I didn't have any information about her or where she studied, I only knew her name. The first day of second term classes, I was talking with my friends and a classmate told me:

- Samuel, there goes Eva, your future girlfriend.

I turn and see her, but not very well, she was entering the school and I was outside. It was my turn to study in the morning and her turn in the afternoon. I decided to go back to school to see her. I never believed in love at first sight. However, everything was different and unique. She was walking and I was behind her. At one point, he stopped walking, turned around, saw me and said:

-Are you chasing me?

For the first time, I saw her from the front. I could say that she was the prettiest girl in the entire school. He had an enviable smile; his hair was long and dark brown. Just like his eyes and his skin was light. He said that and I was speechless. My mind was processing how he turned. The sun hit her eyes and they looked honey-colored. She had a frown, small freckles on her nose, her lips were pretty, and her eyebrows were unique, as were her eyelashes. While I watched her, she was waiting for a response and I could only say:

-No, I'm not following you

Eva smiled, looked at me and walked away. I spent a few days thinking about what happened. That girl was driving me crazy and now I wanted to see her for as long as possible.

Day after day, I saw her and stayed at school in the afternoon even though I wasn't supposed to be there at that time. However, I just wanted to see her. In addition, i saw her hair move, her gestures. The color of her eyes, perfect when she smiled, her way of walking, everything about her was unmatched. I wanted that girl to be for me.

He was in love that was obvious. I started talking to Fatima, a classmate who knew Eva, she told me:

-She seems to be a little interested in you, but you must understand that she is beautiful and there are many behind her. You have a reputation as a womanizer and the most likely and safe thing is that they will say those things to her and she will lose attraction. Likewise, I'm going to talk to Eva and tell her that it has to take a while to get to know you and that you are also interested in getting to know her.

That same day Fatima gave me Eva's phone number and I wrote to her.

I admit that at first I thought that he was not going to answer me, most likely they had already told him that I had a bad reputation and that it was best that he not try anything with me, but after half an hour, he answered me:

-Hello

I didn't know who he was because he didn't have my number.

-Hello, it's Samuel.

Moreover, after that message she didn't respond to me again, the truth is I was getting desperate, I wanted to talk to her, get to know her. Something was different; I decided to approach her the next day if I saw her at school.

The day came when we were going to have a conversation; I was waiting for him to come. Her mother took her and looked for her. After almost half an hour, she came in and sat with her friends. He saw that he was walking in his direction, got up and walked to the bathroom. I understood what he meant by his action. She knew I was going to talk to her and she didn't want to. So I decided to follow her, I grabbed her arm and turned her towards me, at first she looked surprised and confused, then she said.

-Let go

-Who do you think you are to grab me like that?

New obsession unlocked, seeing her upset. After watching her for a few minutes with her annoyed face, I said:

-I just wanted to talk to you, but for some reason you always ignore me and pretend I don't exist, I would like to know why?

Now she was looking at me with those little dark brown eyes and then she said.

-I ignore you because I don't want to have any kind of conversation with you and you should get away from me and stop looking for me.

I didn't think about anything, I just said what came from my heart.

-I am not going to stop looking for you nor am I going to get away from you, I want to get to know you and know more about you, you are different, different and I know what they are talking about, let me show that things are not like that.

Once again, I could see his astonished and confused face and after a long time that in my opinion was centuries, he said:

-I consider that I can give you an opportunity to get to know me, but you should know that I am not easy, I am cold, I do not give my affection to just anyone, so tell me, what do you plan to do to make me interested in dedicating a little of myself to you? Time?

I didn't expect her to say that, I thought she was going to ignore me and leave but on the contrary she told me that she would give me a chance to meet her and warned me about her

-I don't have anything in mind to make you interested in giving me a "little" of your time, I know you feel that something in me attracts your attention, but you don't want to seem easy.

I said all that trying to make her realize that I've been analyzing her:

-You may be a little right in certain things you said, if I feel some attraction towards you, but I must hide it. I already know a lot about you and I could say that I know more than I would like. You do not have a good reputation in relation to women. In addition, I think what you feel is a whim.

Said:

-So you are accepting that there is attraction towards me, but you want to hide it and you do not intend to do anything about it because they have told you "how I have been with women." You don't give yourself the chance to hear my side of the story and I want you to know that you are not a fad. There is something in you beyond the physical, and yes, I have acted stupid with the girls who have been my girlfriends, but no one had me like you have me and they didn't act nice to me either.

-I have never had luck in any of my relationships and it is logical that I did not want to try anything with someone who has a bad reputation with women. I'm not here to waste time with people who aren't worth it, I want to focus on my studies. Go away and leave me alone. I'm not going to try anything with you and forget what I said about giving you a chance, have a good day.

After he finished saying that, he left and I stood there remembering repeatedly everything he said, but because he said that, I'm not going to walk away from Eva or give up trying to get her to give me a chance. Days passed and I continued seeing her from afar and she ignored me. He was focusing on his studies and getting better every day. The truth is that he didn't deserve to have a child with a bad reputation take up his time, I did want to do things right and I decided to tell him everything I felt sincerely.

The next day I saw her sitting at some tables in the school parking lot, she was alone, making a picture, I arrived and told her:

- Do you need my support?

- No, I don't need your help, thank you anyway.

- Why do you have to be so difficult?

- I just told you that I don't need your help, you should worry better about doing your school activities.

- I do my homework, I saw you sitting here making the cardboard and I wanted to see if I could help, that's all, you don't have to get like that with me.

- I'm not getting defensive, I want to finish my task without any distractions.

Just then, a friend of hers "Camila" arrives and says.

- Eva, hurry up, in 15 minutes we have to present and we need the sheet, I will be in the living room waiting for you.

That was my moment, I still needed to highlight the letters and finish coloring some drawings, so I told him.

- I think you do need help because in 15 minutes you are not going to be able to make the sheet yourself, are you?

He looked at me with a "I hate you" face and then said.

- Okay, but that doesn't mean anything.

- I'm going to help you finish the sheet.

- Hateful?

-Yeah.

- I'm not hateful and just shut up and grab a color so you can start coloring

In 10 minutes we finished the task and she went to the living room to present, I helped her draw, but it starts for a reason, after that I went home because it was already three in the afternoon and my mother was surely waiting for me.

When I got home, my mom asked me

-Samuel, if you leave school at 11:30, why do you come home here at 3 in the afternoon? I want to know what you do all that time

- Okay, I'm going to tell you the truth, I'm interested in a girl who studies in the afternoon and well for that reason I stay until two or three in the afternoon.

- You are in love.

-Yes mom

- And that girl belongs to you?

- I know that she has feelings for me, but they already told her at school that I have a reputation as a womanizer and that it is most likely just a whim for me.

- If you are so in love, show her that you are not what they say and that you can become the boy she deserves.

My mother's words were all I needed; they were my motivation.

-I'm going to fight for Eva mom, I promise you.

- Let's see and tell me more or less, what is it like?

- A little shorter than me, she has long, dark brown hair. She is white, her eyes are brown, in the sun they look honey-colored, she has small freckles, her mom smile is perfect, she should be a Colgate model, her hands are so delicate, she has a very good body and her way of being and acting is so only.

-You detailed it perfectly and your eyes shine.

-Yeah?

-Fight for her and don't make her lose the interest she has in you.

All my life I knew that mothers' advice is the best, but what my mother told me that day touched my heart. He had already given me permission to stay an hour or two after I got out of class. That meant that he no longer had any obstacles to trying to conquer her. That day was Friday, so I wasn't going to see her the next day because there were no classes until Monday. I spent the whole weekend thinking about what I was going to do to make her stop being so dry and cold to me. I went to Facebook as usual and saw a post that she shared about coffee cookies and said "I have an addiction" and I thought I could buy it from her so she could see if I noticed her in general.

The long-awaited Monday finally arrived and I saw her, I realized that for some reason that I didn't know she had let her guard down with me. I told him he would have no problem accompanying me to the school canteen and he agreed to go. When we arrived, he started talking to a girl and I bought her the coffee cookies that were her addiction, according to the Facebook post, I hid them and told her.

-Ready, let's go.

-What did you do?

I stood in front of her and gave her the coffee cookies. At first it made me laugh because she was as red as a tomato and then she said.

-I don't accept anything from anyone, so I can't accept them.

-If they are your favorites, do you feel sorry for them?

-Yes, it makes me sad and I'm not going to accept them.

- Ha ha ha.

I grabbed his hand, opened it, put the cookies in, and walked away so he wouldn't give them back to me and after 1 minute he said.

-Thank you, I really love them.

- I know, that's why I bought them.

-Don't tell me like that and how did you know that they fascinate me?

- I'm starting to notice the things you like.

-That was nice of you.

Mission accomplished, under guard, interest in me returned and that meant "opportunity."

That day we were together for a long time, I would say about an hour and a half, we talked about the things we liked and what we didn't, what made us feel good and what didn't. Every minute I fell more in love with Eva, after spending time with her I left happy, the next day I was going to see her again.

When I got home, I changed my clothes, ate and went to the court that was nearby, I spent an hour or two playing basketball with some friends and then I left, took another shower and had dinner. Before going to sleep I wanted to send her a good night message, so I did and she only left me in the know, it was obvious that something was happening and I was already starting to worry, but I went to sleep peacefully because the next day I would see her and we would go to speak.

The next day I went to school, handed in my homework and prepared to wait for Eva to appear. After half an hour she arrived with a friend, she passed me by and completely ignored me. I didn't understand what was happening if yesterday she was sweet to me, the attitude she had today was very different from yesterday. I needed to know what had happened, so I went to where he had sat with his friend when I arrived, I told him.

- We can talk.

She didn't even turn to look at me, she was ignoring me and I didn't understand what was happening until her friend said.

- No, neither Eva nor I want to talk to you, so if you would be so kind, go, we were having a conversation when you arrived.

- Aha and I want to know why you don't want to talk to me?

- I'm not going to tell you anything, go away, you liar.

- Eva what is the reason why your friend doesn't want to talk to me and neither do you? I deserve an explanation, don't you think?

- No, I don't think you're worthy of any clarification, you know, and I found out.

- What did I do now?

- What did they tell you?

- Nothing, they showed me that it's worse, so go away and forget about me and getting to know me more and everything and take here are the cookies you bought me the other day.

She left them there and went with her friend and I couldn't say anything anymore because I didn't even know what they had shown her, but I wasn't going to be left wondering either, so I went to where the girl was who had all the information in the book school and I told him:

- Hi Elena, How are you?

- They showed him a photo of you kissing your ex and told him that they had taken it yesterday, bye I have class.

- thank you my life, you are a sun.

I called my mom and told her that I was going to stay at school until four to wait for Eva, she told me it was fine.

I saw her leave the room with the boy she hated the most in this world, his name was Pedro, and there I began to understand that it was most likely that he had shown her that photo that was from two or three months ago when he was dating with her. I didn't want to get close to Eva while he was there because he knew me and I knew I would be capable of starting a fight and really at that time it was the least I wanted. I saw a friend and went over to talk to him while Eva finished talking to my biggest enemy.

- Hello Héctor, how is everything?

- Hello Samuel, well, what about you?

- Have you already found out that Pedro wants to like Eva?

- That?

- I thought you already knew.

- No.

- Yes, Pedro was the one who showed your photos, in which you were kissing with Angela, to your ex yesterday.

Ah, ok, so it was thanks for the information.

Without thinking twice, I started walking in the direction of Pedro and when I was facing him, I hit him with all my strength in the jaw. I must admit that after the first one I couldn't control myself, I gave him another and another. I was hearing everyone saying "let him go, you'll kill him" "Samuel now please" "Someone separate them for God's sake." At that point, Héctor grabs me and tells me "that's enough." I knew that he was going to let me get all my anger out because it was obvious that he was in love with Eva. That he came to ruin everything I had been building with her until now filled me with hatred. When I finally came out of the trance, I told him:

- Keep acting like a child and showing her things that you know happened months ago so that she stays away from me and you stay with her, but let me tell you that everyone here knows the truth and she was going to find out from Angela and the others that that didn't happen yesterday.

After that the director took me to the office and they summoned me to the representative, when my mother arrived she just told me:

- I told you to fight to be with Eva, but I didn't tell you to beat yourself up for her. What's wrong with you? Are you crazy or what?

After that, he slapped me. The director said I was suspend for three days so I could reconsider what I did.

When I got home, I wanted to explain to my mother why I reacted that way and she told me.

- If I want to know, why did the crazy thing come on like that all of a sudden? What's the matter?

- I arrived and wanted to talk to Eva and she ignored me, the friend told me that neither of them wanted to talk to me, I asked her why and she told me that I should know and not to act crazy that Eva had been shown "some things".

I went to talk to a friend who knows all the school gossip and she told me that they had shown her some photos of me kissing Angela and that the photos were from yesterday. Those photos are from when I was her boyfriend, that is, three or two months ago and that bothered me a lot. When I spoke to Héctor and he told me that Pedro was the one who had shown him the photos; and that he wanted to like Eva, I felt like hell, I swear, mom.

- I already understood, even I would have acted the same as you. Calm down, it's only three days and you'll be able to see Eva, although she also behaved badly in believing that and getting upset without talking to you first.

-The truth is, if you're right, she had to talk to me first and show me the photos and there I would explain to her that they are not recent from when I was Angela's boyfriend.

-Exactly or maybe there is also the option that she will be upset because seeing that she would think that you want her for one more, since yesterday you were kissing with Angela, so we have to put ourselves in her shoes too, don't you think?

-Yes, you are right.