"Happy Anniversary," my husband said, sliding the divorce papers across the table.
This was the eighteenth time in five years I'd signed these documents.
Matteo De Luca, New York's notorious mob boss, was divorcing me again.
"Just sign them, Sierra. Bianca's at the cliff's edge again. She needs to see we're divorced, or she'll jump."
Bianca. The fragile soul who dominated every moment of my marriage.
I signed, and once again, on our anniversary, he left me alone to go save her.
But when Bianca pushed me down the stairs, fracturing my spine, I thought Matteo would finally choose me.
I was wrong.
"The security footage has been deleted," he told me. "You fell, Sierra. That's what happened."
He erased the truth. He ignored my pain.
He abandoned me to protect the woman who'd crippled me.
Two months later, he pushed my wheelchair into a gala, playing the role of the devoted husband.
He didn't know I'd already planned my revenge-one that would send him spiraling into the abyss.
Chapter 1
Sierra's POV:
I stared at the pen hovering above the eighteenth divorce agreement.
I fought to suppress the trembling, which came not from fear, but from a profound exhaustion that felt like it was grinding my very marrow to dust.
My husband, Matteo De Luca, the most cold-blooded boss in the New York underworld, checked his Rolex impatiently.
"Just sign them, Sierra," he said.
"Bianca's at the cliff's edge again," he continued, straightening his silk tie, his tone as casual as if he were discussing stock market fluctuations, not the systematic dismantling of our marriage.
"If I don't show her the signed papers by noon, she'll jump. I can't have another death on my conscience."
Happy fifth anniversary to me.
I looked up at him.
"Matteo, do you remember what day it is?" I asked.
He didn't even blink.
"I know what day it is, Principessa," he said, the old nickname now feeling like a brand.
He only used it when he knew it would hurt me.
"That's why I made reservations at Le Bernardin," he added. "But right now, I have to go save someone."
Saving. Always her life.
Never mine.
I picked up the pen and traced my signature onto the divorce papers.
They weren't real divorces.
These were rituals performed by the family lawyers whenever Bianca Rossi's fragile psyche decided to splinter.
She was the family's ward. The wounded bird. The woman whose father had taken a bullet for Matteo's.
The day of our wedding, the day meant to solidify the alliance between my family and his, she'd been kidnapped. Matteo hadn't answered my calls. Hadn't said "I do."
I slid the paper across the table.
"Go," I said. "Go save her."
Matteo snatched the paper, a flicker of something-melancholy, or maybe regret-crossing his eyes for a single moment.
"It's just a piece of paper, Sierra," he said, leaning down to kiss my forehead.
But I flinched back involuntarily, every muscle in my neck contracting.
"It's nothing," he insisted, his tone trying to convince himself as much as me. "Dinner tonight."
He turned and strode out of the study.
I watched him go.
He thought he was protecting me.
He thought that by legally severing us every time she spiraled, he was keeping her toxicity away from me.
But he didn't understand.
Matteo, papercuts still bleed.
Sierra's POV:
I sat alone at a table set for two.
He was forty minutes late.
He'd missed our anniversary party. Now he was late for dinner.
I signaled the waiter for another glass of water, my throat raw from silently rehearsing the ultimatums I planned to deliver. But it wasn't the waiter who appeared.
It was them.
Matteo walked in, his hand firm on her waist.
Bianca.
She looked frail, wrapped in an oversized cashmere shawl, her eyes wide and wet.
She wasn't supposed to be here. She was supposed to be talked down from her episode and tucked into a bed in the guest wing of our estate.
Matteo guided her to my table, his jaw tight. A flicker of guilt crossed his face when he saw me, quickly replaced by exhaustion.
"She's afraid to eat alone," he said, his gaze sliding past my shoulder. "She's traumatized, Sierra."
I looked at Bianca.
She gave me a tremulous, tear-streaked smile that didn't reach her eyes.
"I'm so sorry to intrude, Sierra," she whispered. "I just... I can't be alone. The memories..."
She reached for the breadbasket, and her shawl slipped.
She was wearing a silk scarf tied around her neck.
It was identical to the rope the kidnappers had used to bind her five years ago.
It was her trigger. She always wore it.
"Bianca, why are you dressed like that?" I asked, my voice flat.
Her eyes widened; she gasped as if realizing it for the first time.
"Oh my God!" she cried.
She flinched back, her hands flailing.
One connected with the tall glass of Americano the waiter had just placed in front of me.
Scalding black liquid didn't just spill; it arced, a wave of heat splashing across my chest and neck.
I couldn't make a sound. A gasp lodged in my throat. The heat seared my skin like a brand, stealing the air from my lungs.
"Sierra!" Matteo yelled.
But he didn't reach for me.
Bianca started hyperventilating, screaming that the black liquid looked like blood.
Matteo pulled her into his arms, murmuring to her, stroking her hair.
"It's just coffee, look at me, breathe," he whispered.
I sat there, coffee soaking my white silk dress, the delicate skin of my chest burning.
The pain was intense, unbearable.
But it was nothing compared to the dull, familiar ache settling in my stomach.
That burning sensation pulled me back.
Two months ago.
Matteo had stayed with Bianca through a thunderstorm because she was afraid of lightning.
I'd been left alone to entertain the Bratva emissaries.
I'd had to outdrink three Russians to salvage a deal Matteo had failed to close.
The lining of my stomach had torn. It had taken two days to recover.
Then I'd lost my position as principal dancer with the Bolshoi because my body was too battered to survive the season's training.
Matteo had called it a sacrifice for the family.
I stood up, my chair scraping against the floor, shattering the restaurant's hushed ambiance.
Matteo looked up at me, his gaze finally landing on the angry red mark blooming on my skin.
"Sierra, you're hurt," he said, with a note of absurd surprise in his voice.
"I'm leaving," I said.
I grabbed my purse.
"Wait, I'll call the driver," Matteo started, but Bianca let out a sharp wail, clutching his collar.
"Don't leave me, Matteo! Please! The men in black are coming!"
Matteo looked at her, then at me.
"Go to the clinic, Sierra," he said, his voice hardening. "I'll meet you there when she's calm."
I turned my back on them.
I walked out of the restaurant, the cold night air biting my burned skin.
I pulled out my phone and dialed a number I knew by heart.
"Dad," I said.
"Principessa? What's wrong?"
"He signed again," I said, my voice flat. "The eighteenth time. I can't do this anymore. This time, I want it to be real."
Silence greeted my words.
"Are you sure?" he asked finally.
"Yes," I said, looking at my reflection in the dark window. "This will be the last time. I'm divorcing him for real."
The clinic staff bandaged my burns and gave me strong painkillers.
Matteo never came.
My phone buzzed with a text: She's threatening to starve herself. I have to stay. Come home. I love you.
I didn't reply. I just deleted it.
I went back to the De Luca estate.
The house wasn't quiet; it was still. An unnerving stillness.
I climbed the stairs, my only goal the master bedroom. I needed to get out of this ruined dress and sleep for a week.
But the door was ajar.
Inside, chaos reigned. Boxes everywhere.
Bianca stood in the center of the room, directing two terrified-looking maids.
"Put those in the attic," she ordered, pointing a manicured finger at a pile of my things.
My ballet shoes. My old practice tutus. My photos from Moscow.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
Bianca turned.
She was wearing one of Matteo's crisp white shirts, the hem brushing her thighs.
"Oh, Sierra," she said softly, her eyes wide with manufactured innocence.
"Didn't Matteo tell you?"
"Tell me what?" I stepped into the room, my heart beginning a dull, heavy thud against my ribs.
"A pipe burst in the guest wing," she explained lightly.
"It flooded. Completely unlivable."
She smoothed the front of Matteo's shirt.
"Matteo said I should stay in the master bedroom until they fix the guest rooms. He said you wouldn't mind moving to one of the guest rooms down the hall."
She paused, her smile sharpening.
"Since... since you two are divorced anyway."
She gestured with her chin towards the signed divorce papers on the nightstand.
Rage, hot and stinging, finally broke through the numbing haze of the painkillers.
"Get out," I said.
She smiled, a cruel twist of her lips that Matteo never saw.
"He doesn't love you, Sierra," she murmured, stepping into my personal space.
"He married you for the alliance. He stays with me because of blood."
Her gaze drifted over my bandages.
"You were just a placeholder."
She picked up a framed photo of Matteo and me from our wedding day.
She held it for a moment, then let her fingers go slack.
The glass didn't just break; it shattered with a deafening crack, exploding across the hardwood floor.
"Oops," she said, not looking down.
"PTSD tremors. I'm so clumsy."
I lunged at her.
I wasn't thinking. Adrenaline erased the pain.
I just wanted to wipe that smug smile off her face.
I grabbed her arm.
She screamed-a piercing, ear-splitting shriek that echoed through the house.
"Get off me!" she shrieked.
And then she pushed.
Hard.
I was standing at the top of the landing, near the open door.
My heel caught on the edge of the Persian runner.
I tipped backward.
Time stretched, becoming a slow, agonizing crawl. I saw the crystal facets of the chandelier above me, winking like a thousand indifferent eyes.
I saw Bianca's face, the muscles twitching in a grotesque victory smile.
And then I saw Matteo, sprinting down the hallway, his eyes locking on mine just as gravity took hold.
"Matteo!" I screamed.
But he was too far away.
I hit the first step.
Then the second.
Bone against marble.
The ceiling and floor became a kaleidoscope of pain and color as I was thrown down the long, curving staircase, my body slamming against the unforgiving stone.
When I finally came to a stop at the bottom, a profound silence rushed in.
I couldn't feel my legs.
I stared at the ceiling, a single tear escaping the corner of my eye.
Matteo was beside me instantly, his hands hovering over my broken body, his face white as a ghost.
"Sierra! Oh God, Sierra!"
From the top of the stairs, Bianca started screaming hysterically.
"He hit me! The kidnapper hit me! Get away!"
She was reenacting the past.
Matteo looked up at her, torn-the screaming woman above, the broken wife below.
Then he looked down at me.
I saw it in his eyes.
The hesitation.
That single moment of hesitation hurt more than the fall itself; it was the final blow, the one that truly shattered my spine. The marble had just caused the cracks. This would be the last time.