Threads of Betrayal

"Hey girl, you need a special invitation to get up or you want me to get up there and beat your ass into it. "Said Ary my landlady or let's just say my maternal figure

"Do you really need to shout that much Ary? I'm awake already okay?" i said

"You better be cause you know there's no time to waste here girl, so get up already"

"Yeah yeah " i mumbled still on my bed

"And yeah listen there's some sandwich here in the kitchen make sure you take some bite before you leave. And yeah, you still have the house key with you right?"

" No I don't, you already collected it from me Ary when you lost yours like three days ago woman" i said grumbling

"Oh yeah true, I'm living the one with me on the table right now, you can just put it under the doormat when you're leaving in case I come home early, which I doubt because I think I might be working a double shift today. Ok that's it, I'm out, make sure you lock the door, close the windows and the sandwiches must be gone before i come back...no leftovers okay?"

"Yes ma'am '' I said to myself as I heard her slam the door on her way out. Ary has been so much like a mother to me ever since the death of my mother, her death took a toll on me but Ary has been the best i could ever wish for ever since she took me in.

Ever since I was a kid I've wanted nothing but a happy life i mean that isn't too much to ask for but life as it is hadn't being too fair to me and girl have to struggle out her ways in life

Being in a world full of people has been amazing getting to know people isn't really my thing..... i get cold feet when I'm about meeting new people and i just don't know why, weird right i know and it isn't just getting better when you are the shy type and you have different types of mind blocks and that, isn't a good thing trust me, but i guess i got that from my mother she'd also feel so anxious too whenever she wants to meet new people and especially her boss, those days are usually funny ...

I'm a girl who lives in her fantasies ...yeah everyone does but I am drowning in them. I live my days in my fantasies and my mother has always told me to try and turn my imagination to reality but I haven't just figured out how to do that yet. There was this one day I told her about how my classmates used to make fun of me whenever I'd tell them about some of my imaginations. She would laugh at me and trust me I'd always get so pissed whenever she laughs at what's like giving me the hardest time ever. And whenever she sees that I'm annoyed my mother would say

"My girl, you wanna know something"

"No I don't, I'm so mad at you right now that I don't want to talk to you" i would reply her and try to walk away but she'd quickly carry me in her arms and say

"You know you can't run away from me with this tiny little legs of yours you know that right" my mother would say as she tickles my feet playfully

"Listen, do not think about what your friends say but instead use those words as a stepping stone, you have a very wild imagination Diana you just have to try and make them real, turn them into a reality that no one can ever imagine. Hey listen" she'd say as she caresses my face with her palm.

"I know this is scary but you've gotta keep that little light in you shining bright no matter what comes your way baby"

"But i don't know if i can" I'd say to her in my tiny voice

"Well I do, wanna know how?" She said

"How?" I'd say again in my tiny voice

"Because you are my Warrior Princess" she'd say as she throws me in the air and I'd laugh so much that I forget i was ever mad at her

"You just have to believe it Diana, Believe" and her words still echo in my head till today. In one word i am a dreamer hoping one day to be an achiever

But life haven't really been fair ever since I was a kid , there's been a lot of ups and downs, struggling and hoping to survive ...and humans can be so mean and cruel sometimes that they don't think about others rather than themselves never caring if they are hurting others or not, they just want things to go their way. And every night I'd always wonder what could happen if things were a little bit better than this ..but I guess that's how my life is supposed to be.

Struggling and mumbling i managed to get up the bed and headed towards the bathroom to get a shower, i entered, poured some liquids and soaps on my body, as i was scrubbing i put on the shower for water to come out so as to rinse my body and to my surprise what came out was a pile of air which is so much disgusting by the way

"Arryyyy" i shouted with so much annoyance

With the kind of house I live in no one would ever imagine I'd have a shower but Ary made sure she got one made just for my sake and now she just wouldn't let me use it in peace. I mean how can a normal human use up all the water in the house..arrrghhh..Ary can be so much annoying at times

I can't believe I have to go out with me looking like a polar bear.

With soap all over my body, I tied my towel and went to the balcony to get myself some water to finish up. As soon as I was done, I picked up a pair of baggy jeans and a sweater to wear, went to the kitchen to quickly finish up the sandwiches and cleaned up the messes I made in the kitchen cause if Ary should come back to see all this, I am so dead. I hopped out of the house, closed the door and put the keys under the doormat as instructed, and made sure I didn't forget anything in the house.

As I walked through the main door I asked myself

"Did I forget anything?"

"Naa, I don't think so"

"Way to go girl" I said to myself as I hit the road hoping to see a brighter day ahead.

As i left the house I started walking through the neighborhood hoping to see a bus that's gonna stop and I can manage to sneak in cause I ain't got no money right now and even if I do I'd rather save up than pay for any t fare and right now five different buses have passed and none stopped and I'm freezing already. As I continued to walk I heard some noises ahead and I quickly walked up to the scene to see what's up and to my surprise it's a bus that's probably broken down... yay! I said to myself as I managed to sneak in when the passengers were busy shouting at the driver.

As I got to my destination I started banging the walls of the bus hoping to get the attention of the driver and yeah he stopped trying to figure out what's happening. As he opened the back door from where the sound was coming from, with a huge smile on my face,

"Good morning sir" I greeted trying my best to look cute but I guess that's not really my thing.

The driver shoved me out of the bus as I tripped over my woodland and landed on my ass on a snowbank. Cold wetness burns the back of my thighs as he points his rough fat finger at me.

"How in the name of Jesus did you get on this bus" still trying not to look like a badass I told him how I sneaked in when the bus broke down.

"Come on pay up" that was the next thing I heard him say. Goshhh with all this explanation I just made, didn't he understand I've got no shit with me right now? I mean if I had money would I even sneak in the first place. "You such a dumbass big man" I murmured quietly

"What did you just say" he asked

"Nothing sir" I lied

"Then pay up already I've got no time to waste here" he said

"Well, actually sir I don't have any money on me right now, I mean not even a dime, but you can take me away if you want I'm a good cleaner, in fact squishy clean is my middle name" I said to him grinning like I meant every single word I said, well I can't believe I just said that anyways "Squishy Clean" ewww that's horrible I said to myself.

All of a sudden I saw him walking up to me staring at me as if he's gonna eat me up, he such looks like a Lion ready to pounce on its prey

"Oh, this better be good" I murmured to myself as I stare at him as he continues walking towards my direction

Suddenly I felt a huge grab on my tiny arm as he started twisting my arm "ouch!" I cried out in pain.

" You gotta pay for the fees just like everyone else kiddo and the next time I catch you sneaking on, I'm so calling the cops"

That's if you catch me "Asshole!" I said as I ran away. "I'd rather beg than clean up your mess anyways" I said to myself

"You lil Delilah" he said as he made a snowball to throw at me

"Well I better not catch you next time or ya dead gal" he replied as he walked up to the bus to continue his journey.

"Would you get in already" a passenger shouted out from the bus

"Oh please, I'm coming already... would you rather have me fly?" The driver replied in frustration as he entered the bus and started the engine.

As the bus zoomed off I catched my reflection in the windows: I saw temporary wrinkles on my face, my hair hanging over my forehead with pale skin. Passengers looking through the glass like I'm sort of an alien. But to hell with them and what they think , they don't know me or what I've been through . At such a young age I've been wandering around hoping to survive and they don't know all that and probably if they knew they wouldn't care a shit about it.

Regaining my dignity I hid my face in my palms to warm up my cheeks with my breath . Shit, it just has to be the coldest of the year too.

All I wanted was a lift, just a goddamn lift just to keep my head under this frigid weather but it was so stupid of me to think he'd show any sort of mercy or just a lil bit of kindness. It doesn't matter if a red and green light illuminates the colony or if Santa Claus with his reindeer flies through the billboard above. It's Christmas time in Hawthorne and the only people who care are the ones so rich enough to celebrate it.

Whateves. I'm closer to my destination than ever, right? I have to keep moving .

Like my mother always said "Though the road maybe tough there's always light at the end of the tunnel" I always made sure to have that at the back of my mind.

By the time I reached Ember, the restaurant where I worked, two blocks away, I could feel a silver of sweat brushing my upper back. I dived into the delicious smell of burnt coffee and sweet pastries as I went through the back at the kitchen where I worked as a waiter.

Hey Kira, I greeted with a smile as I entered the Kitchen.

"Really Dia, you late again, the boss is fu****g mad and he wants you in his office right now, and trust me he isn't smiling, and when I said right now i mean RIGHT NOW"

Oh great! I mumbled as I found my way to his office. And the one thing about my boss, he never smiles,goshh i can't believe how a human can do without even wearing the faintest of smile on his face, and whenever he's angry it's like an hot larva ready to blow out some Volcano, and the last time i saw him lashed out on Kira, trust me, it wasn't good he almost tore her into pieces but i guess it's my turn today. What a way to start the day.

"Here goes nothing " I murmured to myself as I knocked on his door.

"Yes, come in. " I heard him say from the inside. As I entered his office, I saw a Dark, huge man relaxing on the couch with his back facing me. "It's Diana sir" I announced, and as he turned to look at me, "Diana." He said with his leg crossed and on the table, his arms crossed over his tuxedo with a large computer on his table. His eyes staring like a cold sky on a winter morning, his piercing gaze ready to tear into pieces anything it comes in contact with, his dark hair smoothly and perfectly curled. And oh boy! He seemed pretty annoyed with me.

I felt shivers run down my back as I couldn't break eye contact. As he lifted up his gaze he offered me a seat and to my surprise he wasn't yelling and shouting like he always does, but I said in my mind maybe he wants me to feel relaxed before shouting at me. As I walked up to sit still shivering I managed to get my ass sited trying as much as possible to hide my nervousness.

"Diana Diana Diana" he called out to me staring at me like a Lion ready to pounce on a prey "yup, i saw this coming, you are so dead girl" i said to myself as i heard him continue

"You know, there are certain people in life who don't have this kind of life you're living."

"oh please my life? I'm sure no one lives a life as rough as mine" i kept saying to myself

He started rolling a pair of dice an his table as he continues"

You come late to work every damn time and all you give me are lame excuses about you trekking here all the way from your street?" "Actually sir I ain't lying I said to him" when i clearly know he knows where i live and that I'm just capping.

"Oh really!" He shouted at me "you know you don't lie to me, i will always find out one way or the other, or what do you think that just because I'm being lenient on you while you pull out shit in my restaurant when clients and customers try to get close to you"

"But sir,"

I tried to speak but he didn't listen as he kept lashing out on me and tears managed to find their way to my eyeballs.

"You know girl, we get our money from these people, I get to run this restaurant only when they patronize us, and only then I get to pay you motherfuckers and that's from their money, that's how I get to pay you girl! Only and only if you satisfy their wants and that is what you're paid to do.

And what do you think, that you're more than your colleagues who tends to me customers whenever their service is needed?

Oh no girl you are nothing less than them..and you know you are as worthless as a church rat without me in your life.

Ohh! Oh! Oh! Or are you thinking that just because I was acting all nice when I found you, I'll just overlook all the atrocities you committed in my restaurant? You know i picked you up on that street that night so that you could get to make me money and get to feed yourself a little and you know this by now, if it hadn't been for me that night you probably be dead like your mother or perhaps locked up in jail because the cops caught you stealing so that you can fill your little tummy. He said as he points out his hands to my tummy

So "Diana" he called out to me one more time as he walked back to his cabin and sits down

"You better not be an ingrate or you sure will regret it for the rest of your life that you know pretty well.. Understood?"

"Yes sir!" I managed to answer back as rivers of tears were already rushing down from my eyes. I rubbed the tears off my face with the back of my palm as I walked to the exit of the office.

My friend Kira was there peeping through the door and listening to our conversations, but I guess she knew it was gonna turn out like this one way or the other.

"Hey Dia shake it off, you really don't have to think about any of what that asshole said, you know it's not true right?" She tried to cheer me up,but wasn't helping matters anyways.

"I know it's true Kira, every fucking thing he said in there was true and i know it, we both know it" I replied

"Errmm you know what I'm just gonna go to my section and start working already hun? Take care Kira" I said to her to avoid prolonging the conversation and started walking away without waiting for a reply from her.