The lonely wolf (bxb)

(Elias)

"Today is the day Elias, are you happy?" My mother asked, and I nodded my head while smiling.

"I'm delighted, I finally get to shift into my wolf, I can't wait to meet forest." I replied, and she laughed while nodding her head as I finished my favorite peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

"Well since you're done, let's get going then, no time to waste here." Dad said as I looked at him with adoration. I wanted to be just like him, my father is the alpha of the Green Bay pack located here in California. I was going to take over once I turned eighteen. I'm sixteen years old, and now I will be able to meet my wolf and see if I am going to be the next alpha as well.

My mother is of beta's blood. Her father was a beta before he died, so if I'm not going to be an alpha, then a beta would be my next guess. They told me that either would be fine, that I was their pride and joy, and that they will always be here for me. I smiled as I started reminiscing on what had happened back then, the way we were and still are a happy family. They love me a lot and I couldn't be happier. I just want them to be proud of me like I was proud of them. Standing outside with the rays from the sun shining down on us, everyone had gathered to watch my transformation. They were eager too because they respected my parents.

"It's time, Son, get ready." I nodded my head and closed my eyes as I felt an excruciating pain coursing through my body. It was expected, though, first time shifters have to bear the pain that comes with it. My bones started breaking which caused me to scream, but I could still hear the comfort of my parents' words, even if it was faint. It took a couple of minutes before I was fully transformed into my wolf, I heard gasps of shock coming from the pack members, and I was feeling a bit proud, thinking maybe they loved what they saw.

"No this can't be, tell me that this is nothing but a sick joke the goddess is playing on us." My dad said, and I whimpered as I looked at him, trying to get him to comfort me.

"This can't be happening! I'm a beta's daughter, you're an alpha!" Mom shouted and dad turned to her with hatred in his eyes.

"It only means one thing, you cheated on me, didn't you!?" Everyone started talking at the same time, while I was left there confused as to what was going on. I tried to stand but fell because I wasn't used to walking on four legs.

'Mom, dad can you help me please?' I asked through mind link. They stopped and stared at me with so much hatred in their eyes that I felt my heart being broken in two because I didn't know what I did to deserve their hate. All this time I've known nothing but love, I was spoiled by them, and now they were looking at me like they wanted to murder me. Forest was a whimpering mess, I couldn't blame him though because I was the same. He still hasn't said anything to me because this wasn't the welcome he was expecting. He hoped that our parents would praise us, but all that hope went down the drain.

"From now on, you, Elias Emerson is no son of mine. You are a rogue and will leave this pack immediately. I Desmond Emerson of the Green Bay pack, banish you to live in the wild among the animals since you are now one of them. I want you to leave immediately, or you'll be sentenced to death if you stay. You are nothing but a disgrace to this pack! Leave! Leave rogue and never come back!" I started trembling from fear after seeing the way my father had just reacted. I looked at my mother for help, but she asked me to leave as well because she hated me, so with all of my efforts, I ran. I didn't know where to go, nor did I care. If my parents didn't love me, then I didn't love myself. I was nothing without them.

'I'm sorry you have to go through this, Elias, it's all my fault.' Forest said, but I disagreed with him.

'Don't take all the blame, ok? We are in this together. Let's just see how long we can survive before the goddess calls us home.' After reaching the border, I stopped and looked back at the place I once called home.

'I Elias Emerson is no longer a part of this pack.' I howled a painful one after I stepped through the border that would make me a rogue. I didn't have any family, I didn't have any friends. This was something I wish I were prepared for, but I wasn't. I have to go through this alone for the rest of my life.

'Hang in there Elias, this is my fault, I know it. Just let me take over from now on. You need rest, I'll do everything, so you won't have to worry anymore, ok?' Forest said, and I debated on whether I should allow him to do that. I would rather not rely on him all the time, but I also needed the rest.

I was mentally and physically exhausted, not knowing how my life would turn out had left me in a state of madness. I guess it doesn't hurt to try, right? So I allowed him to fully take over. From now on, its going to be just about him keeping us safe until I was ready to return. We were going to make a home in the forest, to live as a wild animal, like my father had said. I just hope we can get through this, but if we don't make it, at least we won't have anything else to worry about from now on.

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(Two years later)

(March 5, 2022)

(Forest)

Ever since that day when I took over, my human was still resting. I didn't want him to see the struggles I faced day in and day out while living in the forest, so I blocked him from contacting me. It was better this way. Knowing him, he would want to take over, and I was too overprotective of him to let that happen.

I can't allow him to take all the burdens by himself in human form, that's why it was better in my form. I couldn't hunt, didn't know a damn thing about it.

My parents never let me go hunting because they said if I were to be the next alpha, I didn't have to do those menial tasks.

I couldn't even catch a damn rabbit, no matter how hard I tried. Dammit, who knew coming into this world would already be so challenging? I sighed as I made my way back to the cave that I took up residency in ever since that fateful day.

It seemed as if it was about to rain because of the gray clouds that were rolling in. I stayed as close as I could to my pack because I had hoped that my parents would forgive me for whatever wrongs I did and accept me back. I was too attached to them, I didn't even know the time or date, but I could tell we had been here for a long time.

I had some fruit in the cave, that would be enough to give me the energy I needed to resume hunting when the rain stopped. At least there wasn't any lightning and thunder, that's the part I hated the most.

When I made it back to my hideout, I ran towards my stack of fruits since I was starving and tired too. I whimpered when I saw an animal there eating my meal.

I growled at it, not knowing whether it was a threat or not, but it stopped and started chasing me, so I ran. I ran out in the pouring rain to try to escape this ferocious beast. I know I wanted to die, but this wasn't the way I wished to be gone from this place.

I managed to escape the chase after a long time but stopped when I realized where I was. I had somehow managed to run onto the dark sea pack, a pack my parents once told me to stay clear of.

I whined in defeat and dropped to the ground while my ears flopped over to cover my eyes. Angry wolves were already approaching me, getting ready to kill me any second now.

I uncovered my eyes and saw one of them getting close to me, right as he was about to deliver the final blow I shifted. I don't even know how that's possible since Elias was still blocked, but somehow I managed to shift, and now he lay there naked in his human form, smiling at the wolf who was about to kill him.

"Thank you." Elias mouthed, and I felt a searing pain in my chest knowing that he was thanking the wolf for taking us out of this miserable world.

"Wait!" Someone shouted, which distracted Elias enough for him to shift back, giving me full control once more. I was whimpering, my whines could be heard a mile away because of how broken they sounded to the ears. I didn't want anyone to pity me or my human, I only wanted my parents.

Is that too much to ask for Selene? I wanted my parents here with me, so they can tell me that they love me. I couldn't deal with this anymore, I couldn't give up. Not only that, but I have to go back. I didn't know whether they were alive or not, I only wanted to see for myself, to be sure, so I can leave this world peacefully.

I found all the strength I needed and ran, I ran as fast as I could go. I only remembered where my pack land was because I studied it. I memorized it from scratch because I was hoping that this day would come when I returned to my loving parents.

I blocked Elias once more because if we got rejected again, I was strong enough to handle it and he wasn't. He was thanking them for killing him, he wanted it. He wanted to die because he knew we couldn't survive out here for too long. I didn't want to risk going to another pack and asking for help because I was scared. Scared of how they were going to treat Elias and me.

If it was not for that animal, I wouldn't have wandered onto the dark sea pack, where I was almost slaughtered. With a newfound purpose, I hurried home. Making sure I followed the same path even though it was challenging because of the rain.

A couple of hours later, I arrived and crossed the border which would lead me to my home. I was trembling because my fur was wet, what I would give for a warm blanket right now.

I purred at the thought, knowing that I was about to see my parents again, and they were going to hold me and tell me how sorry they were for sending me away. If that were to happen, I would forgive them, maybe they sent me away as a form of training! Yes, that's it.

I've learned enough, so now I was returning to show them that I have done a good job. I wanted their praise, I wanted them to tell me that they love me like they used to. I guess what I wanted or what I needed wasn't about to happen as I was surrounded by the warriors with my parents standing there with a pup in my mother's hand.

That pup looks a little like me, so perhaps he's my sibling. I was about to shift and do the happy dance because I've always wanted a sibling, but what happened next had me wishing I had never been so dumb for even thinking that my parents would welcome me with open arms. But no matter how they treat me, I still love them with all of my heart.

(Ryker)

"Sir, we had a rogue crossing onto the territory not too long ago. He escaped unharmed." I glared at miles for not following through on his job. He had one job to do, one fucking job, and he messed it up.

"I was about to kill him, I swear! But Damian shouted at us to wait, and that's how he got away." I slammed my fist down on the desk, scaring the crap out of my beta. He wasn't easily frightened, but with me, he knows what it's like when I'm angry since he has been on the receiving end of my temper a couple of times before.

"Find him. No one crosses onto my territory and gets away with it. When you find him, bring him to me, I'll deal with him myself." He nodded his head and left to do what I asked. I called Damian to my office, so I could talk to him and find out what he was thinking about when he stopped the kill. No rogues were allowed on my land, let alone be near it, that's where he messed up.

"What I want to know is why you stopped miles from killing that unwanted mutt, you know the rules Damian, so why did you have to fuck it up?" He sighed as I continued to rant about his mistake. He didn't like it, but that's not my problem.

"You know I wouldn't hesitate to kill a rogue before Alpha Ryker, I just sensed that there was something special about him. I can't seem to put my finger on it, but, I sense that it wasn't his time." I narrowed my eyes at him, half expecting him to be joking. Was he on something which had him so high he wasn't thinking straight?

"Don't come at me with that voodoo shit. Keep your beliefs and your feelings to yourself and next time you fuck up, gamma or not, you'll be punished. For now, you can go with miles and find that bastard who was brave enough to let his presence be known here." He nodded his head and left as quickly as he could to do my bidding.

I was out for blood, no one was going to stop me this time. Damian should have just shut the hell up and let them kill that mutt, but no, he had to interfere. It was about a couple of hours later that I received the good news that I wanted to hear.

'Alpha we have eyes on the rogue, it's not looking good.' Miles said through mind link and I asked him to bring the rogue to me using all necessary force if he had to. I decided to do some work to get my mind off the mess Damian had created. If it was up to me, that rogue would be dead by now, I would have carried out the kill easily because some say that I was an evil bastard with no soul, which was true.

Shortly after that, Miles sent me a mind link telling me that they had the rogue, but he wasn't in great shape. I got up and went outside, so I can do what they failed to do before.

With one thing on my mind, I made it there in no time. I saw a wolf lying on the ground covered in blood. I was about to praise them for it, but Damian shook his head and told me it wasn't them. I marched up to the rogue and started kicking him, trying to get him to wake up, but he was unconscious.

'Don't Ryker, you know why I'm warning your so don't do it.' My wolf max said and I groaned in frustration.

'It's my kill, I deserve it, don't I?' I replied, but he didn't answer. Fine, if he doesn't want me to kill the mutt I won't.

"Take him to the dungeon. Starve him and beat him if you like, I don't care. Make sure you use wolfs bane on him too if he would rather not talk. I'll be in my office." Miles and Damian lifted the wolf and walked away with it. I tried to ask max why he didn't want me to kill him, but he only called me stupid and said that the only sense I have is the instinct to kill. That my brain was like Patrick in SpongeBob and I wasn't even useful.

Fuck, my wolf was telling me off. Did I deserve it, though? I don't even know what I did wrong. I eventually blocked him since he was disturbing me. I needed to concentrate on my work, trying to figure out which pack I should invade and take over. Shit, I wasn't going to kill the members, I would only ask them nicely to join me or face the consequences.

'Alpha we have a problem.' Miles said, and I groaned in frustration because I couldn't believe these idiots couldn't do a simple job without involving me. I got up and made my way down to the dungeons, thinking of how I was going to punish them for disturbing me.

When I got there, my eyes became wide at the sight before me. Miles and Damian were trying to calm the boy down, who was shaking like a leaf. Oh, gosh that smell, his scent is...no it couldn't be...

'Took you long enough.' Max said, before disappearing once more. So he's my mate, what made him so sure that I even give a fuck about it? Like I said, I didn't want a mate, and it turned out that he's a boy too.

"Get out." I ordered, and they nodded their heads while walking away. I opened the cell and walked in, so I could get a good look at him. He had red hair and the bluest pair of eyes I've ever seen that were staring back at me with fright. It didn't matter that he was naked, it wasn't turning me on like I heard them say about mates, which were probably proven to be a lie.

"What's your name?" I asked, and he opened his mouth to reply but nothing came out.

"Cat got your tongue?" I asked as a joke, but then he broke down crying, which was a disgusting sight to see. I cringed so hard from it that I wish I wasn't here to witness this.

"You know what, never mind. I Ryker green of the dark sea pack, rejects you as my mate and Luna of this pack." I walked away from him, leaving him there on the dirty ground writhing from the pain I knew was there, which I'm sure he deserved.