Tessa's palms were slick against the cold bathroom sink. She was on her knees again. Scrubbing up after Nathan. Again.
Vomit clung to the tile grout like it belonged there. The stench of cheap whiskey and perfume filled her nose, and she was close to gagging but kept going. She always kept going. Always cleaned up. Always stayed.
Her fingers trembled. Her eyes burned. Her heart was numb.
Some girl's bra-lacy, red, expensive-hung off the corner of his bed. Tessa had stepped over it without blinking. That part didn't sting anymore. Not like it used to.
She rinsed her hands under freezing water and stared at her reflection in the mirror. Hair matted to her forehead. Mascara smudged under her eyes. Lips cracked. Hoodie two sizes too big-it was Nathan's, smelled like his cologne and sex. And yet, she couldn't take it off. It felt like the last thing tying her to him. To the idea of him. The version of him she kept in her head-gentle, grateful, hers.
But he was never hers.
Her phone buzzed against the bathroom floor. A text from Zara:
Don't forget your shift in the morning. Rent's due. Don't fuck this up.
Tessa sighed and pushed herself up. Her knees ached. Her chest was heavy.
Nathan was passed out on the couch, face-down, arm dangling, mouth open. He didn't even know she'd been in his room for the past two hours. Didn't ask how she got home. Didn't know she'd stayed up all night the night before helping him write a paper he wouldn't read.
She picked up her heels, cradled them in one hand, and walked out the door barefoot.
The porch creaked under her weight. Her toes curled against the cold concrete. She took a deep breath. It was humid. Sticky. Like summer was trying to suffocate her.
She started down the sidewalk, eyes on the grass, heart somewhere behind her, probably still sitting on the bathroom floor.
That's when she nearly slammed into the parked black sedan.
The passenger-side window rolled down slow. Tinted glass slid back like it was waiting for her.
Inside was a man. Not a boy. A man.
He wore a suit, black-on-black, with his collar open. Salt-and-pepper stubble along a sharp jaw. And eyes-gray, unreadable, a storm barely held together.
He looked at her like he knew her. Like he saw her. Not the invisible girl Nathan dragged around. Not the emotional maid. Not the disposable helper.
"You shouldn't cry for a boy who doesn't know how to hold onto a woman," he said, voice smooth and deep and dangerously calm. "Especially not when his father does."
Tessa froze.
His father?
She blinked,looked again. And suddenly, the resemblance hit. Same jawline. Same brows. Just sharper. Older. Colder.
Dorian Cross.
She'd seen pictures. Nathan didn't talk about him much, but when he did, it was with venom. She'd assumed he was long gone, out of the picture. Clearly, she was wrong.
"I-" she started, but nothing came out. Her throat was too dry.
He stepped out of the car and stood beside her, tall and silent. He didn't touch her. Didn't move too close. But the energy between them shifted like gravity had chosen sides.
"You look exhausted," he said quietly.
"I'm fine."
"No," he replied. "You're loyal. Not fine."
Her eyes flicked up to his.
He was calm. Too calm. The kind of man who didn't speak unless he meant every word. The kind who didn't need to raise his voice to make you listen.
She wanted to say something-anything-but her voice was trapped in the back of her mouth.
He opened the car door. "Come with me. Just for a drive."
Tessa's head screamed no. Her feet didn't move.
"I'm not trying to fuck you," he added, almost lazily. "I'm just offering you a moment away from the mess."
She hesitated, then nodded once and slid into the passenger seat.
The leather was cool against her thighs. The car smelled like tobacco and expensive cologne. She kept her hands in her lap, trying to keep her heart steady.
He drove smoothly, one hand on the wheel, the other resting on the console like he had nowhere better to be.
They didn't speak for a while. Just silence and streetlights flashing past the windows.
"Why do you stay?" he asked.
Tessa looked at him.
He didn't look at her back.
"I don't know," she said. "Maybe I'm stupid."
He shook his head. "You're not stupid. You're starving."
Her throat tightened. He wasn't wrong.
"I thought if I stayed long enough," she whispered, "he'd eventually see me."
"And did he?"
She shook her head.
Dorian pulled into a quiet side road, turned off the engine, and let the silence hang heavy.
"You deserve more than crumbs, Tessa."
Her name sounded strange in his mouth. Intimate.
She stared at the dashboard, too afraid to look at him.
"What if I offered you more?" he asked, voice low and thick.
Her chest stuttered.
"I'm not asking you to answer now," he continued. "Just think about it."
He handed her a card. Silver, heavy, embossed.
Dorian Cross. CEO. Cross Industries.
And his number.
He started the car again and drove her back. Smooth. Unbothered. Like nothing had happened. Like he hadn't just turned her whole chest inside out.
He parked in front of Nathan's house, glanced at her one more time.
"Good night, Tessa."
She stepped out without a word. Watched him drive away.
She stood in the driveway, barefoot, heart racing, card clutched in her hand.
Inside, Nathan snored on the couch. Oblivious. As always.
She dropped the card on the kitchen counter beside his empty bottle. Took off his hoodie. Left it there, too.
By the time she stepped into the shower, her body was shaking-not from fear, not from shame-but from something else.
Something darker.
Something that whispered,
> You don't have to wait anymore.
The diner smelled like burnt coffee and mop water
Tessa moved through the tables like a ghost wearing someone else's skin, her apron stained, sneakers still soaked from the storm that morning, and her smile-the hollow, tip-hunting kind-just another mask she couldn't take off
Nathan had already texted her twice
"Thanks for last night. You're the best"
"Can you bring my lucky hoodie tomorrow? Game day"
No apology
No explanation
Just routine, like she was part of the furniture in his chaos
She hadn't replied
She poured coffee at table six, dropped pancakes at nine, floated through her shift trying not to think about how easily he got to sleep through the fires he set while she walked around carrying buckets to douse the flames. Her wrists ached. Her neck screamed. Her phone buzzed again and this time she didn't check. She didn't want to know what version of herself she had to become today
"Blake," someone called from the counter. "Corner booth. New customer"
She turned, pen already ready, mind guessing-eggs, maybe, or a double stack with bacon-until she saw him
Dorian Cross
Again
Seated in her section like he owned it, like it wasn't strange at all. Navy coat, black shirt, sleeves rolled up to his elbows, silver watch catching the light like it had something to say. He held a coffee mug with one hand, calm and slow, like he had nowhere else to be and all the time in the world
Her heart skipped. She lowered the pen
He looked up and smirked
"Miss Blake"
She moved toward him, cautious and unsure if she should feel flattered or worried or just quietly afraid that he'd come back at all
"Mr. Cross," she said, because names were easier than truths
"You're working yourself thin," he said, not like a question, more like he already knew
"You make a habit of stalking your son's... friends?"
He let out a soft breath of amusement
"If I wanted to stalk you, you wouldn't know I was doing it"
She swallowed, turned halfway, jotted down an order from a nearby booth without listening, hoping her cheeks weren't burning as badly as they felt
Dorian reached for the sugar, stirring it in slow
"You're smart. You know what he's doing to you"
"I don't need a lecture"
"I didn't offer one"
"I have other tables," she muttered, stepping away
He didn't stop her
She barely made it three steps before Zara fell in beside her, sharp eyes flashing like sunlight off broken glass
"Girl, who the hell is that? And why does he look like he could pay my tuition and still afford to break my soul in half before dessert?"
Tessa exhaled through her nose
"Long story"
Zara bumped her with a shoulder
"Tell it. Let me live in your drama for a minute"
"He's Nathan's dad"
Zara blinked
"No. Fucking. Way"
Tessa nodded, tight
"He showed up outside Nathan's last night. Offered me a ride"
"And you got in?"
"I didn't... plan to"
Zara raised an eyebrow
"You don't accidentally get in a man's car like that unless your heart's already halfway melted"
"I didn't sleep with him, Zara"
"Yet," Zara said, with a smirk that knew too much
Tessa didn't reply. Because the word echoed louder than it should've
Back at the dorm, the air was thick-heat, silence, and something unspoken lingering just behind every breath
Zara sat cross-legged on her bed, picking at the lint on her leggings
"You're in love with a man who only loves himself, Tess. That's your poison"
Tessa paced
"I've known him since we were sixteen. We've been through everything. He just... needs time"
"No, he needs therapy. You need someone who sees you, not someone who disappears into your kindness"
Tessa stopped
"If he fails this class, I lose my scholarship. I can't afford to walk away"
Zara's voice was lower now
"So you'll keep babying him? Let him drag your future down with his?"
Tessa didn't answer
She just grabbed her notes, shoved them into her bag, and left before her silence became something she couldn't take back
Nathan's house was quieter than usual
She let herself in with the spare key from under the mat. The living room was clean-for once. No beer cans. No pizza boxes. Just a bowl of cereal half-eaten on the counter and music playing low from the kitchen
"Nathan?" she called
No answer
She moved toward the stairs, already irritated that he wasn't ready to study. He probably slept through the afternoon again. She climbed slowly, fingers grazing the rail-and froze
A girl's laugh
Moaning
Sheets rustling
Bedroom door cracked open
Her breath hitched
Stomach knotted
Of course
Of course
She turned to go, already retreating, but that's when she heard a voice. Not Nathan's
Dorian
Talking. Low. In the guest room across the hall
With Nathan's mom
Her chest tightened like a vice. She backed away, step by step, like maybe if she moved slow enough, her shame wouldn't notice
She hit the last step and shoved the front door open too fast
Outside. Heat wrapped around her like punishment. Her heart beat loud in her ears. Anger burned up her spine like hands wrapping around her throat
She wanted to cry
To scream
To burn the house down
But all she did was sit on the porch steps and bury her face in her hands
Minutes passed
Maybe longer
The door creaked open again
She didn't have to look up
Dorian sat down beside her, quiet. Present. Saying nothing
They sat in silence, side by side, not touching, not speaking
Eventually, he broke it
"You knew," he saidShe nodded
"And you came anyway"
She looked at him, eyes glassy, jaw tight
"Because I still want to believe he's worth saving"
"And do you?"
She didn't answer
He pulled a silver handkerchief from his jacket and placed it in her lap
She wiped her face
Didn't thank him.
He didn't need gratitude,Only her attention
Back at the dorm, Tessa dropped her bag with a soft thud
Zara looked up from the couch, remote in one hand, noodles in the other
"You look like shit"
"Thanks"
"Where'd you go?"
Tessa hesitated
"To tutor Nathan"
Zara frowned
"And?" Tessa opened her mouth.Closed it..Took a breath
Zara narrowed her eyes
"Wait... Did you cry? Did he-" "I saw his dad again"
Zara blinked "Okay... and?" Tessa collapsed onto the bed
Zara paused the show
"Tessa... You do know that's Nathan's father, right?" Tessa froze
Her chest cinched tight. Breath goneZara tilted her head.
"You didn't know?"
"I knew," Tessa whispered
But now it felt different Now it felt dangerous
Now it felt like the beginning of something she couldn't undo.
Tessa missed the last bus by six minutes. She stood at the stop beneath a flickering streetlamp, arms crossed over her chest, hoodie zipped up to her chin. The wind cut through the thin cotton like it wasn't even there. Her phone was dead. Her charger? Still plugged in at Nathan's. Of course it was.
She could walk home. Forty minutes, maybe more. But it was dark. And she didn't have it in her tonight-pretending she wasn't scared, pretending she was fine.
Tires sliced through the wet street and her breath caught. A sleek black car eased to a stop in front of her, headlights dimmed like it didn't need the attention. The window slid down slow.
Dorian Cross.
Because of course it was.
He didn't speak right away. He just looked at her like she was something pressed between glass and fire-visible, fragile, burning.
She hesitated.
"You're going to get sick," he said, calm, certain, like he hadn't expected anything else.
She pulled the hoodie tighter. "It's just wind."
"The wind turns into pneumonia when you've been wrung dry all week."
She blinked at him. "Did you follow me?"
"No. I just tend to be where my son isn't." He tilted his head slightly. "And yet, you're always where he is."
She didn't respond. She didn't need to. The truth of it already sat too heavy in her chest.
"Get in, Tessa."
Her name again. The way he said it-soft, deliberate, dangerous.
She should've said no.
But her fingers were already curling around the handle.
-
The car was warm. Too warm. Quiet, except for the low hum of classical music from the speakers. She sat stiff, hands in her lap, trying not to notice how close he was. How his thigh brushed against hers with every slight turn. How her skin reacted without asking her permission.
He didn't drive off immediately.
"Why do you let my son treat you like furniture?"
Her breath caught. She turned to the window, jaw tight.
"Is that what this is? A lecture?"
"No," he said. "It's a question."
Her hands balled in her lap. "Because he doesn't mean to. Because he's overwhelmed. Because... I thought if I was always there, maybe he'd finally see me."
"And has he?"
She didn't answer right away. "Why do you care?"
Dorian turned toward her, one hand on the wheel, the other resting casually in the space between them-close enough to touch her thigh if he wanted to. He didn't. Not yet.
He just looked at her.
Not the way Nathan did when he remembered to. Dorian looked like he was reading her, mapping every fracture, every reason she stayed broken.
She shifted uncomfortably. "You're judging me."
"No," he said, his voice low. "I'm wondering how a girl who holds herself like a queen ended up kneeling for a boy who doesn't even know what it means to serve."
The words hit something deep. Something buried and bruised.
She blinked hard, staring at the dashboard.
He turned the key, started the car.
-
Rain tapped softly against the windshield. She leaned her head against the window, watching streetlights pass in blurs. Counting intersections. Pretending her pulse wasn't still thudding from the things he said.
Then her bag spilled.
Notes. Pens. The silver business card he'd given her weeks ago.
"Shit-hold on," she muttered, leaning forward between the seats to reach it all.
Her hoodie rode up slightly. She didn't notice. Not until his fingers brushed the small of her back.
A light touch. Barely there. Fingertips over cotton.
But it lit a fuse inside her like someone struck a match.
She froze.
His hand didn't move. But it didn't leave her either.
She shifted-subtle, instinctive-and felt the way his touch followed her.
She grabbed the pen. Sat up slowly.
The car kept moving.
Neither of them said a word.
The rain got louder.
Then-
"Pull over," she said, her voice almost breaking.
He didn't hesitate. Just turned, smooth and sure, and stopped under a streetlight.
The car idled. Her heartbeat didn't.
She looked at him. He was already watching her like she was the only thing in the world not blurred by rain and regret.
She leaned in, but stopped halfway.
"I don't know what this is," she whispered.
His hand rose, gentle, and traced a line under her jaw.
His thumb skimmed her lower lip. Her breath caught.
"You want me to stop?" he asked, voice lower, rougher now.
She should've said yes.
She didn't.
He leaned in close, his mouth brushing her ear.
"Say it," he murmured, warm breath against her skin.
She turned toward him, mouth so close to his they shared the same breath.
"I don't know what I want."
He didn't kiss her.
But he brushed her lip with his.
Once.
Then again.
Soft. Measured. Like he was learning the shape of restraint.
Her hand slid into his shirt without thinking. She moved before she could change her mind-half into his lap, knees straddling him.
The kiss deepened but never lost control. His hands stayed at her hips. Anchoring her. Not claiming. Not yet.
That made it worse. Or better. Or both.
Then he pulled back.
H
Breathless. Silent.
The streetlight painted them in something too real.
She was in his lap, heart thundering. His hands let go.
He gave her the space to leave.
She climbed off slowly. Adjusted her hoodie. Sat back in the passenger seat like nothing happened.
He didn't say a word.
He just started the car.
Outside her apartment, the rain had stopped but the tension hadn't.
He parked and kept his eyes forward.
She hesitated, hand on the handle.
"Don't overthink it," he said quietly. "It was nothing."
But it wasn't. And they both knew it.
She opened the door. Stepped out.
Didn't look back.
But she felt him watching her walk away.