The marble floor was so cold, it sent a tremor straight through Selene, bone-deep and immediate.
She'd knelt here a hundred times before-her wedding day in her spotless white dress, those stiff-backed council meetings, funerals for men she wouldn't bother to remember in prayers. But this? This was new. Now she was shaking, bleeding, and the crowd of faces she once called her own just watched as she came apart.
Light sliced down from the chandelier, shards scattering across the chamber. Selene blinked, biting back the pain, counting faces-people she trusted, people she'd sheltered, people she'd risked wars for.
Not one of them looked back.
Reginald Cross spoke, syrupy and false as ever, his voice trying and failing to soften the knife wedged under her ribs. "You understand why this has to happen. The Syndicate can't be led by a woman the blood doesn't recognize."
She nearly laughed. Five years holding it all together, patching up every wound Aldric left behind, guiding every strategy, signing off on every deal using her own damn name. Five years of secrets and scars she earned herself. And none of it mattered. All they saw was blood-perfect excuse to shove her out.
"Bianca." She turned, desperate for loyalty, just one person to remember what she'd built. "You saw everything. You were there."
Bianca wouldn't even meet her eyes. Guilt flooded her expression.
That hurt more than the knife.
For a moment, things were quiet-a single scuffed shoe broke the silence. She knew the sound: Damian.
Selene fought the urge to collapse. Her muscles screamed, but she forced herself up. Not here. Not in front of him.
He stepped into the circle, eyes locked with hers for a heartbeat.
She searched his face, hungry for anything-a flicker of anger, a shock, some trace of the partner who'd fought at her side through hell for years. Just stand up for me. Now.
But Damian went iced-over. He didn't speak. Didn't move.
That was it. Five years fighting for a throne that was never hers. Five years tied to a man who'd watch her bleed just to keep the council happy.
"Say something." Her voice barely scraped out-still a command, her last, not a plea.
Damian's jaw tightened. That was all.
Pain crashed through her, shoving her down onto the marble. She slumped, cheek pressed to the floor, staring at Damian's shoes. Spotless. Not a single drop of her blood on them-like he'd always known how to stay clean.
Even now, you won't step closer. Won't risk staining yourself.
Behind her, voices picked up. The council was already dividing her seat, talking over funeral plans, debating whether Marco or Isabel would grab her job. Tearing up the Syndicate before her heart even stopped.
Fear stayed away. Only fury cut through now-knife-cold, eating her up inside. She'd handed everything to the Syndicate: her name, her years, every future that might've been. And they spat her out like she was nothing but a bad bet.
If I ever get another chance, she promised herself as the pain closed in tight, I swear-it won't be for a crown that comes with a chain.
Darkness swept her under before the thought finished.
She jerked awake. Sheets twisted around her hands, heart pounding inside a body that felt whole again.
Moonlight washed across unfamiliar walls and a ceiling she couldn't place. Just another night in a life she didn't recognize.
And on the nightstand, untouched, her name waited-scrawled over dotted lines.
A marriage contract. Signed three years before the night she died.
The silk under Selene's fingertips was all wrong. Instead of smooth and cool, it scraped her skin-almost stung. Not in that expensive, smug way high-end fabric sometimes does, but rough and jarring. She lay there stiff in the dark, heart beating too fast. Whatever happened just now, it wasn't a nightmare. Nightmares fade when you wake; they don't leave your chest pounding or your mouth tasting metallic and wrong, like you just chewed a handful of pennies.
Her hand pressed to her side. She braced for blood, but her skin was smooth. No wound, nothing aching. And the nightgown clinging to her wasn't even hers. Not just the wrong gown, either-this felt like slipping into someone else's life altogether.
Selene sat up, slow and careful. Even the air was thick, every move weighted down. The room pressed in around her-shadows too close, furniture shoved into the wrong spots, window on the wrong wall, ceiling uncomfortably low. She could walk the east wing of the Voss mansion with her eyes closed, still remember her old bedroom perfectly. But this place wasn't what she remembered.
Moonlight slid through drapes she'd never choose. Perfume hung in the air from crowded bottles on the vanity. An open wardrobe gaped across the room, letters stacked on the desk in neat, unfamiliar piles. When her feet finally found the floor, she shivered so hard she nearly toppled over.
She gripped the bedpost until her knuckles went white. Breathe, she told herself. In and out. Get a grip.
Then it hit her. My room. Not just any room-her old room, before marriage, before the Syndicate turned her life inside out, before Damian Voss became both her undoing and the silence she still fell into, even now.
Her eyes locked on the thick envelope beside the bed. Red Voss wax sealed it shut. She knew that wax. And then the memory crashed in: the contract. All those years ago, trapped with men calculating her price instead of seeing her worth.
She picked it up. Strangely, her hands didn't shake. The cold, trained part of her-the one used to deals and danger-clicked awake, already lining up the facts.
The seal stood unbroken. Contract unsigned. Somehow she'd landed here-maybe in her younger body, on this exact night-before any of it happened. Before the vows, before the ruin.
She walked to the vanity and met her own eyes in the mirror. She hardly recognized herself. Almost familiar, but not quite right. Softer, no dark circles, hair still untouched-long, uncut, not yet ruined by spite or time. Life hadn't had a chance to wear her down.
Nineteen. That was the face staring back-nineteen, just before Selene became Selene Voss.
Her fingers pressed into the wood until she thought it might splinter.
And suddenly, she saw them all again: Reginald Cross charming the room, Bianca looking away, Damian by her side as everything unraveled. When the dust settled, anger was all she had left-solid anger, strong enough to build a fortress on.
Grief? She never counted on grief. Grief took time, and she knew better than to dream about things she might be allowed to keep.
You've stood in front of worse, she reminded herself.
She'd survived monsters. Outlasted sharks like Aldric Voss. Every time she'd been knocked down, she'd crawled out again-even when victory returned just to bite her back. She wasn't letting go, not now.
Selene picked up the contract, fingertips tracing the wax. Three years sat between her and the ballroom, betrayal, the night someone slid a knife beneath her ribs.
Three years was enough, as long as she didn't mess up.
She called back their faces: Reginald with his sugar-fake smiles, Bianca selling out anyone for a chance, Nikolai lurking, Silas with his quiet promises. She'd already lost Silas once. Not again.
Now she knew their tricks, their masks. She'd wandered into traps blind before. Not this time.
The thought pulsed inside her. She'd put her faith in competence before-trusted herself right into disaster. Never again. Love and loyalty were easy to forge, easier to fake. Even Damian, as twisted as it got, had just stood there when she bled.
She wasn't looking for hope this time. She wanted something untouched, hers. She could play along-let them sleep easy, let them look past her, never see her coming.
She let the contract rest and turned back to her mirror image. Her face showed no scars yet, but she could see the anger, the edge-everything real, still just beneath the surface. They couldn't steal who she was.
Time. That's what she had now.
Light footsteps trailed outside her door. Selene's heart jumped. Lucia-her little sister, sixteen, still limping from that summer. Last time, Lucia wilted inside herself and tried to disappear.
Not this time.
She waited until the footsteps faded before letting herself breathe. She wasn't ready to see anyone yet. Not till she found her footing and stacked her deck.
She crossed the floor and cracked the curtain open. The garden shimmered in moonlight; the drive already twisted toward tomorrow and her wedding. Last time, that walk felt like surrender. Now she saw it differently-this was the beginning, not the end. The last moment she made her own choices.
She thought of Damian again-not the cold-eyed man who let her bleed out, but the boy he was right now. Sharp, amused, always watching. It wasn't respect he had for her-only curiosity. She wasn't confusing that again. He could look all he wanted. Her secrets stayed hers.
She let the curtain drop and faced the room. The contract waited. Tomorrow she'd sign it-and this time, her eyes would be wide open. Enemies would get perfect smiles, nothing real. No fear, no more mistakes, just her best mask.
She picked up the envelope and rolled it back and forth under the moonlight.
Read it closely, Damian, she thought, mouth twisting into something too sharp for hope. This time, I'm writing the rules.
The night pressed on outside her window. But Selene wasn't waiting for morning. For the first time in years, every heartbeat felt wild and ready.
By the time sunlight spilled into the house, Selene had already rehearsed her best "nothing's wrong" face in the mirror. Not too calm-people start probing when you seem too chill. But she couldn't look rattled either. That just wasn't her style. Plus, Renata Marchetti-her mother-noticed everything, especially when Selene's mood felt off. So she aimed for somewhere in the middle, just enough to pass for a girl about to marry the man who scared the hell out of half the underworld.
She saw how ridiculous the whole thing was. Five years spent learning how to control men twice her age, and here she was, trying to fool her mother into thinking she was still just a nervous girl.
She picked a faded blue dress, pinned back her hair with Lucia's favorite braid, and headed downstairs. Each step felt... strange. This wasn't really her home anymore. Ever since she married into the family, coming back meant security checks and remembering what you said out loud.
The smell hit her before she even reached the kitchen-coffee and toast. For a second, it stopped her right there in the hallway. That old, familiar ache. She pressed a hand to the wall, got herself together, and walked in.
Renata was at the head of the table, glasses low, sorting through letters. Lucia-sixteen, all elbows and wild energy-was annihilating a croissant one shred at a time.
"There she is," Renata said, still reading. "I was beginning to think you'd sleep through your own wedding eve."
"I wouldn't dare," Selene shot back, and her voice actually sounded normal. She sat down. The chair's familiar shape almost broke her composure.
Lucia gawked at her, croissant in midair. "You look weird."
"Lucia," Renata sighed, with that universal mom-exasperation from a thousand corrections.
"No, I mean it." Lucia squinted, the patented little-sister glare. "You look like you saw a ghost."
She wasn't entirely off the mark.
Selene busied her hands with the coffee pot, choosing her next words. "Didn't sleep, that's all. It's not every day you sign away your life."
She tugged for a joke, tried to laugh off Lucia's comment, but it landed heavier than expected. Now Renata was really looking at her.
Her mother's stare almost made her flinch. Selene made herself meet it, stayed steady, pulled up that version of herself her mother needed-a little shaky, not shattered, hiding five years and a death behind her eyes.
"You don't have to pretend," Renata said quietly, setting her glasses aside. "I know this isn't the match either of us wanted."
If only you knew.
"It's not really about that," Selene said, keeping her voice even. "It's about the family. I understand."
"You always did." Something sad flickered over Renata's face, then she masked it. "Damian Voss. Do you know anything about him, I mean, besides the stories?"
I know what his voice does when he's angry but won't show it. I know he practically inhales his coffee. I know how long he can watch me break and not blink.
"Just what everyone says," Selene said. "Dangerous. Unforgiving."
"That doesn't scare you?"
It should have. The Selene from years ago-nineteen and soft-would've been terrified. But she'd already survived him-and loved him, in a way that didn't matter anymore. Now, seeing him again didn't scare her at all.
"I'm at peace with it," she said. Almost true.
Renata held her gaze a little too long, and Selene felt exposed, like her mother was reading the truth anyway. She took a casual sip of coffee, and eventually Renata glanced away, pretending to care about mail again.
Lucia wasn't distracted so easily.
"You're being weird," Lucia said, voice a notch lower, leaning in. "You keep looking around like you're saying goodbye."
That stung. Selene hadn't even realized she was doing it-studying the chandelier, the fading stain on the ceiling, the chipped sugar bowl. All those things from a different future.
She reached over, gave Lucia's braid a gentle tug, like old times when storms kept her sister awake. "I'm not disappearing. I'm moving three blocks away. You'll get sick of seeing me."
Lucia smirked, some of her worry fading. "Right. Just remember your sister still needs help with chemistry, okay?"
"Forget you? Never." Selene's words came out weightier than she planned, and Lucia heard it-maybe not the whole truth, but enough to glimpse the edge of something big.
She forced a grin, softened her tone, before Lucia could really start digging. "Eat your croissant before it turns into dust."
Lucia groaned, but listened, and the mood lightened a hair. Selene let herself breathe. She listened to her mother shuffling mail, to her sister rambling about homework, soaking in this quiet, predictable morning she never thought she'd have again. The first time around, Renata pulled away, worn down by watching her daughter disappear. Lucia had watched Selene die in a ballroom, and couldn't do a thing.
Not this time. This time, Selene would protect them both. From the world. From her own ghosts. From everything.
"You've gone quiet," Renata said, breaking the silence.
"Just thinking." Selene bit into her toast, made herself look relaxed. "About the wedding. What happens after."
"It's a lot," Renata said, finally loosening up a little. "But, for what it's worth, I know you'll manage. You always have. You're sharper than people see. Sharper than I was at your age."
That cut deep, in a place Selene thought had gone numb. The first time, her mother never got to say things like this. Life got in the way. Death did too.
"Thank you," she whispered, and really meant it.
Across the table, Lucia studied them both, certain she was missing something important. "Are we gonna talk about the dress, or is breakfast just feelings now?"
Despite herself, Selene laughed-a real laugh, pulled out by Lucia's impatience. "The dress is fine, Lucia. Same as always."
Lucia stared at her, stubborn. "Something's different, though. I don't know what. But I know it."
Selene met her sister's gaze, weighing out how much of the truth to share. Just a little. "Whatever's changed, it's for the better. Someday you'll understand. Trust me."
Lucia eyed her like she wanted to argue, but she let it go, grabbing the jam and steering everything back to safer topics-reception details, homework, regular family noise.
Selene ate, quiet and grateful, blending into the rhythm as a daughter, a sister. Not the woman shaped by her own death.
Tomorrow, she'd sign the contract. Tomorrow, everything would shift.
But for now, she let herself stay. Just a little longer, tucked inside the safety of this ordinary morning, loved by people who still didn't know what she'd survive next.