The Twin He Wanted

May. POV.

I woke up ina groggy state. The left side of my stomach was hurting as the anesthesia wore off due to me donating my kidney to my elder twin sister .

Truthfully I was exhausted mentally or physically as I think that I don't deserve all this. The emotional detachment from my parents and me sacrificing my dreams and achievements for my sick elder sister just because they think that she deserves this.

I have three elder brothers Jason the eldest, Jack the second eldest and Joseph the third eldest and my parents only wanted one daughter but when they got to know about my existence they tried to erase my existence but on the way they met with an accident due to which I was born. But I was born healthy and my elder sister with chronic illness.

My sister name is Jospine.

My mom has black hair and brown eyes and my dad has blonde hair and blue eyes.

All the brothers have black hair and blue eyes.

My sister has blonde hair and black eyes .

My and my sister have same features except for me having blonde hair and blue eyes. My siblings are the perfect mixture of my parents and I guess I am the odd one out.

I was always unloved because I felt that way . As my parents always made out time for my brothers and sister but for me they were always absent. My brothers cold treatment towards me was enough for me to never be close to them.

After the birth I became a living Organ donor. I have to donate blood, bond marrow,liver,etc whatever possible to make my sister healthy.

And infact I would love to do this but their ruthless behaviour towards my feelings and their apathy made my heart cold. They all acted as if I owed my sister .

To the donating it was fine but all my achievements which I got during major international competitions were all named in my sister. My family presented my achievements as my sister's and in the world's eyes I became a worthless child whose sick sister is the genius and she an ingrate.

And today is the last time I am donating as after donating my Kidney everything is all right as my sister will get better soon as this is the last thing I could give her.

And the last time I would stay with my family. I guess after going through so much emotional detachment I feel nothing and I know that if I don't leave I can do the unthinkable which I don't want. Now I want to do something for myself.

I have been in this ward for two days but none of my family members have visited me and I know that they are busy paying attention to my sister. Except for the nurses and doctors I have seen no one. Not even my grandparents who people say that they are kind.

To be exact sometimes I wonder that how would my parents have treated me if I was the sick twin but I guess it would be the same opinion as they never wanted me in the first place.

I took my phone from the bedside table called the company who offered me a work contract based on my qualifications.

My sister and me did the graduation is design for jwellery and ornaments but I have two degrees one for fashion designing also. And my sister took the credits of my ornamental tournaments.

My family is unaware of my fashion designing which I am glad as they would have not allowed me the unwanted twin to shine. I have won some tournaments in fashion designing under a pseudoname otherwise my parents would have found out and with those designs only I got the job offer from the famous company 'ORNA' in the city K.

I have not told my family about this because I am a guarantee for my sister's well being nad I think I have done enough. I can't live like this forever. Now I have to live and grow for myself.

I took my clothes and went to washroom took a shower careful of my sitches on the side of my stomach. Changed into a black hoodie and loose grey pants and blue sports shoes . Then I entered the ward and took my wallet and checked my documents inside and left the hospital after checking myself out. I took the taxi home and when I entered the house after putting the password which consisted my the birth time of my sister. The whole house my quiet as my frustration.

I might be overreacting but the pictures on the wall depicts it all as it has no space for me. It all contains the beautiful pictures of the family of five people and I don't think I am welcome here. Most of the times during these pictures times I was busy taking part in the competitions on the behalf of my sister in the persuasion of my family. I wanted to take part in my own name but the emotional blackmail and silent treatment was too much for my younger self but now I don't think I need any of their affection.

As when I needed it the most they choose to disregard my wishes and feelings and now I don't want any emotional entanglements with them.

I went to my room which is as bare as my emotional life. I took all the necessary documents making sure leaving nothing behind for them to track me back.

My family members don't even have my phone number which is absurd but this is what it is.

My family might have given me monetary satisfaction but this isn't what I needed and now I can earn it myself so I am leaving. I think I have paid up enough for this family which was never mine.

If they would have hugged me even once I would have happily even given away my heart for my sister but I think we can't fake emotions.

So I am breaking the minimal bond we have left and I will never look back.

The world is a beautiful place and I think there will be place for me to love happy for once because this family is making me question my own sanity .

I left the room not before leaving a note of them I informing me leaving the house as I am old enough to live on my own incase they file a complaint about my disappearance.

I left the house which gave my emotional setback for the last twenty three years of my life.

As I entered the flight which will take me to my new destination and new life . For the first time I don't feel stuck a d anxious because this is my own decision and the decision which I hope will give my the satisfaction I want.

I hope life will not let me down and will let me live the way I want. I took the medications required after surgery and took a nap hoping the life will be best.

May. POV.

Its been one month that I have landed in City K . The company 'ORNA' have provided me with staff quarters which are in a big buliding. Usually nobody lives in there but as I have no one to live with so I have got a big apartment to live in. If you want a bigger and fancier apartment then it's maintenance cost will be cut from your pay but I am living alone so I am happy with a one room apartment.

My apartment consists on one big room with a queen sized bed, a washroom , a lobby and a balcony in which I have kept beautiful potted plants which gives fresh air whenever you go outside during morning. I have stopped taking pain medications as the wound is healed and now I can live properly. I can't take excess protein as my one kidney is doing the work for two and it can become enlarged so to keep myself healthy I only eat what is recommended by the doctor and avoid alcohol and coffee. I only drink juice and mineral water.

I can't risk as I don't think anyone would give their organ to me If I will need it in the future .

I usually work from home. Once a week I submit my designs and whenever there is a meeting Required I have to attend to discuss the theme for designs I have to attend. To get inspiration for my designs I go to many different places and look through historical designs.

I love when people wear my creation. It gives me immense happiness. I always make it sure that my designs don't concide with anyone and if I take inspiration from someone's work I always mention their name as I know how hard it is to create a design and when someone plagiarises your designs it hurts a lot.

Mentioning someone's name doesn't do anything but it also doesn't let the other's artist's efforts go waster and maybe they can also get new offers for work it they like their original work.

But I do ask for their permission before doing it because sometimes people don't want others to messup their designs and till now I have no met with anyone amd it is not everyday that I look into other people's designs for inspiration .

Most of the designs are my own creation and I have my own trademark on my clothes which If someone would try to plagiarise will come to my knowledge as I always embroider my name is a secretive way which even my company doesn't know.

My apartment is colourful and is designed the way I want. I have installed a shelf with glass cover just to keep small plushies and toys as I love them a lot but my family always have the ones I collected to my sister and now I own them solely. I am actually very territorial over my things and friends. I don't like to share and this is me . I work hard so that I can live the way I want because we only have one life and can't spend it with longing and regrets. We should move on from the things which are suffocating and doesn't provide any happiness.

Today we have a party organised by the company where all the designers and company's employees and executives are being called. I actually introvert but I don't mind spending the day with other people and trying to make new friends because I don't want to miss out my life and somehow we have to take step otherwise we will remain as the frog of the well.

For the party I decided to wear spaghetti straps cascading ruffels Vintage Purple dress with purple wedges. I also decided to wear a purple sapphire pendant whole outline is covered with diamonds with matching earings .

I let my wavy hair loose. Even though me and my sister Look the same we are different in personalities. She is extrovert and I am introvert. We have different styles but my parents tried to mold me into my sister which I don't like and now I can eat, dress and live the way I want.

In the one month I have never even for once missed my parents and they also haven't called me for once and even tried to find me. Which somehow hurts a little but the constant hurtful behaviour is familiar to me and I know that I can get over it. I know they might be spending their time with my grandparents in their family's farmhouse and I am good and living happy without them.

I hope I can meet new good people because I don't think that I can handle more pain in life because it will easily make me give up. I want hope to live happy and for that I will go here and there till I find it and once I do I am not going anywhere.

May. POV.

The Owner of the 'ORNO' company also has chain of hotels and has also invested in many other fields of work so it is no suprising for me that they were able to organise the party in such a lavish hotel. I guess it could cost thousands just for a fine cup of coffee. But it doesn't matter to me as I will get to eat free food. I am a foodie and I am proud of that. The doctor has told me that I can eat everything untill or unless it doesn't cause stain on my kidney. And as an Adult I think I can do it. When I entered the venue with the help of the taxi I booked I was nervous as hell as it was my first time socializing as my family never took me to any events as they always took my sister claiming that she needs to see the world even though she is sick but I guess they forgot about their healthy daughter.

Sometimes I wonder that how can parents ruin a healthy child just to save a Sick child.

As far as I know that parents are meant to love each and every kid equally but Not all parents are the same and I guess thinking about them always makes my mood sink. So I need to lighten up my mood and enjoy for what I left that depressing house.

When I entered almost all the people were there and trust me they all were looking so handsome and beautiful. Some of the people who I see in their casual clothes are also looking like model figure. I think our company only choosed models but I guess not because basically all of them has dressed up in their best clothes. I think someone important is also visiting but it has got nothing to do with me.

I quickly went to the area where they are serving food and starting eating Starters. When I was eating someone tapped me form behind and when I turned back I found my colleague named Ananya . She smiled at me and said

"Hi . When did you come?"

"I just came and hello."

I replied to her.

" I never thought this party is so huge. Look at me just wearing jeans and t shirt." She said to me with a sad face.

Anaya is a beautiful girl with a small face and with a figure like her I think she will even look best in rags.

"No Anaya. You are looking beautiful. You have got the body to die for and you curves are being nicely showcased in the t shirt and jeans you are wearing and don't mind it is just a party and we are only here to eat so let's enjoy. Okay."

"okay."

And then together we started stuffing our mouths with delicious food. Anaya knows about my kindey donation so she keeps a check in me and makes it sure that I don't eat what I am not supposed to eat. She cares for me more than my family has ever done for me because for my family my care only meant as a living ticket for their favourite daughter.

I put these thoughts behind my mind and after we were done eating the music started playing and all couples started dancing together. I looked at Anaya and said

"Shall we?"

"With Pleasure."

Anaya took my hand and then we both started dancing to the tune. Both me and Anaya know couple dance and right now she is playing the role of the make and me the female just because I am wearing the dress. Some of our colleagues are looking at us and are smiling at us and we are also happy. Looking into her sky blue eyes If I were a man I would have already smitten with her but I guess being a bestie with her is also fine.

She twirled me under her arm and our laughter got mixed up with the song 'Perfect' by Ed Sheeran.

After dancing continuously on three songs we both were tired and we even digested the food in our stomach. I got the need to use the washroom . I told Anaya and left for the washroom. When I came outside the washroom I saw a man in a blue suit leaning on the washroom wall sweaty and pale. Concerned I went towards him and asked

"Mister. Are you okay?"

He looked at me with his grey eyes and sudden held my hand tightly and said

"Call the ambulance!'

And then he passed out on me and his heavy weight took both of us down with me bearing the brunt of the fall and it actually hurts like hell.