I was Liam Hayes' s human diffuser, a vessel for a scent he owned, a living reminder of his mother' s tragic death that he blamed on my family. Tonight, I watched him with Chloe Thompson, hidden in the shadows where he told me to wait.
Then, a sharp pain shot through my abdomen. It was happening again. The baby, our seventh, was only three months along, but I knew the signs.
Liam' s smile vanished when his eyes found mine. He dragged me to our bedroom, screaming, "You are useless, Ava!" He paced like a caged animal, snarling, "I gave you one job, and you can' t even do that." He wanted me to suffer, to feel the same emptiness his mother felt, for the rest of my life. The next day, he paraded me at a gala, a trophy for his business associates to touch. He said, "She' s all for you tonight, Marcus. Enjoy." As Marcus' s hands roamed, Liam whispered, "I own you. Your body, your scent, your shame. This is what Monroes deserve."
I had lost seven children, seven tiny sparks of hope. Chloe, the woman for whom my babies' "essence" was harvested, gloated over my most recent loss, wanting to use my dead son' s ashes for a ritual bath.
My grief turned to rage. "They were my children!" I screamed, clutching the urn to my chest. "Let them rest in peace!" But she threw it, and Daniel' s ashes spilled into the birdbath, dissolving into murky water. I cradled my hands, bleeding as I tried to scoop them up, when Liam appeared, his face a thunderous mask. "You dare to lay a hand on her?" he growled, fueled by Chloe' s lies.
"What do I owe you, Liam?" I asked, a cold clarity settling over me. "I have given you my body, my scent, my children. What more do you want?" He grabbed me by the throat, squeezing. "I want your soul. I want you to suffer until you beg for a death I will never grant you." As the world faded, I welcomed the darkness, whispering my children' s names. He released me, then ripped my dress, exposing me to the guards. "Do what you want. Let everyone see what a Monroe is worth." Something snapped. I ran, throwing myself in front of a truck. This time, I would choose my own ending.
I am Liam Hayes's human diffuser.
That is my identity. My only purpose. He stripped everything else away. I was once Ava Monroe, a perfumer with a future. Now, I am just a vessel, a walking scent he owns.
He was with Chloe Thompson tonight. I watched them from the top of the grand staircase, hidden in the shadows where he told me to wait. He held her close, his hand resting on the small of her back. Chloe leaned her head on his shoulder, looking up at him with wide, innocent eyes. She was the picture of delicate beauty.
No one would guess the poison that lived inside her.
Liam laughed at something she said, a deep, genuine sound that I hadn't heard directed at me in years. It echoed in the cavernous hall, a painful reminder of what I could never have. He looked happy. He looked free. My presence was a chain, and he wore it only when he wanted to feel its weight.
A sharp pain shot through my abdomen, a familiar cramp that signaled the beginning of the end. I pressed a hand against my stomach, my breath catching in my throat. It was too soon. The baby, our seventh, was only three months along. But I knew the signs. The dull ache that had been my companion for days was sharpening into a blade.
I had to endure it. For him. Liam had made a promise. If I could carry a child to term, just one, he would let me go. He would release my family's company from his grip. It was a lie, I knew it was a lie, but it was the only thing I had to hold on to. Hope was a poison, too, but I drank it willingly every day.
The pain intensified, a hot, coiling serpent in my womb. I bit my lip to keep from crying out, the metallic taste of blood filling my mouth. I couldn't show weakness. Not here. Not when he was watching.
He looked up then, his eyes finding mine in the darkness. The smile vanished from his face, replaced by a cold, hard mask. He said something to Chloe, his voice too low for me to hear, and then he started towards the stairs.
Each step he took was a hammer blow against my fragile control. He stopped in front of me, his tall frame blocking out the light from the party below. The air grew thick with his expensive cologne, a scent designed to project power and control. It choked me.
"What is it?" he asked, his voice flat.
"It's starting," I whispered, the words barely audible. I couldn't look at him. I stared at the polished marble floor instead.
"Again?" The single word was laced with disappointment and disgust. Not for the child we were losing, but for my failure. My body's failure to produce what he wanted.
He grabbed my arm, his fingers digging into my flesh. "You are useless, Ava."
He dragged me up the stairs and into our bedroom suite. The room was beautiful, all white and gold, but to me, it was a prison. He threw me onto the bed, the impact jarring my already aching body.
"I gave you one job," he snarled, pacing in front of the bed like a caged animal. "One simple thing. And you can't even do that."
I curled into a ball, wrapping my arms around my stomach as another wave of pain washed over me. "I'm sorry," I sobbed. "Liam, I'm so sorry."
He stopped pacing and turned to me. His face was a mask of fury. "Sorry doesn't fix this. Do you know what your parents did to my mother? Do you have any idea the hell she went through because of their ambition?"
He knelt by the bed, his face close to mine. His eyes, usually a cold, distant gray, burned with a fire I knew all too well. It was the fire of pure, unadulterated hatred. A hatred that had been simmering for over a decade.
"Your family's precious formula," he spat the words. "The one that was supposed to enhance human connection. It destroyed her. It made her a joke, a pariah. They watched her die, Ava. They did nothing."
"That's not true," I cried. "They didn't know-"
"They knew," he interrupted, his voice dropping to a dangerous whisper. "And you will pay for their sins. You, your body, your scent. You are the legacy of their failure, and I will own you until there is nothing left."
He stood up, his face once again a cold, indifferent mask. "The doctor will be here in an hour to collect the...placenta. Chloe needs it. Her health is fragile."
He turned and walked out of the room, leaving me alone with my pain and the ghost of another lost child. For three years, this had been my life. A cycle of forced pregnancy, loss, and torment. Each time a child was conceived, my body would produce the rare, potent ingredients of my family's formula in a highly concentrated form. And each time I lost the child, that precious "essence" was harvested and given to Chloe, a booster for her supposedly weak constitution.
This time, the seventh time, something inside me broke. The last thread of hope snapped. I lay on the bed, bleeding and empty, and I knew I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't be his diffuser, his broodmare, his symbol of revenge.
When the pain finally subsided into a dull, throbbing emptiness, I got up. My legs were weak, but I forced myself to walk. I found the small, velvet-lined box where I kept the ashes of my last child, the only one I had managed to carry long enough to be cremated. I clutched the box to my chest.
I walked out of the room, down the stairs, and past the lingering party guests. No one stopped me. I was invisible, a ghost in my own home. I walked out the front door and into the street. The roar of traffic was a symphony of escape.
I saw the headlights of a truck approaching. This was it. This was my release. I took a step off the curb, clutching the small box to my heart.
Suddenly, strong arms wrapped around me, pulling me back from the edge with brutal force. I fell to the pavement, the box of ashes scattering across the asphalt.
Liam stood over me, his chest heaving. In his hand was a torn piece of paper. It was my family's formula, the very thing he had used to destroy me. He had ripped it in two. His face was a twisted canvas of rage and something else, something that looked terrifyingly like fear.
"What do you think you're doing?" he screamed, his voice raw with an emotion I couldn't name. He grabbed my shoulders and shook me. "You don't get to escape, Ava! You don't get to die!"
His words were meant to be cruel, a promise of more suffering. But as he held me there, amidst the scattered ashes of our child, I saw a tear trace a path down his cheek. It was a single, solitary tear, but it was enough to shatter my world all over again.
Liam dragged me back into the house, his grip on my arm like a steel vise. He didn't speak, just pulled me through the foyer, past the stunned faces of his remaining guests and the concerned look of his butler. He shoved me into the library and slammed the door shut, the sound echoing the violent beat of my own heart.
"You think you can just end it?" he snarled, his face inches from mine. "You think I'll let you off that easily? You belong to me, Ava. Your life is mine to control. Your death is, too."
He was breathing heavily, his chest rising and falling with a rage that seemed to consume him. For a moment, his eyes flickered down to my stomach, where a fresh stain of red was beginning to seep through my dress. A flicker of something, maybe concern, crossed his features before it was gone, replaced by that familiar coldness.
"I'm sorry," I whispered, the words a conditioned response. In our life together, "I'm sorry" was the only safe phrase. It was my shield, my surrender, my plea for mercy.
"Sorry," he scoffed, turning away from me to pace the length of the room. "You're always sorry. Sorry for failing me. Sorry for being weak. Sorry for existing."
I flinched at his words. They were true. I was sorry for existing. My existence was a constant reminder of the pain he carried, the pain my family had supposedly caused. For three years, he had made it his mission to make me feel the full weight of that sin.
He had turned me into a human work of art, a living, breathing perfume bottle. The monthly "scent treatments" were agonizing. A team of specialists would rub specially formulated lotions into my skin, the massage so intense it left bruises. The process was designed to maintain the unique fragrance my body produced, a scent derived from my family's secret formula.
Then came the public parades. He would take me to high-profile events, showing me off like a trophy. I was his beautiful, fragrant possession. His business associates, drunk on power and champagne, would corner me, their hands roaming freely over my body, their whispers filled with lewd suggestions. Liam would watch from across the room, a smirk on his face, enjoying my humiliation.
The pregnancies were the worst part. He forced himself on me, his touch devoid of any affection, driven only by a cold, calculating need. He didn't want a child. He wanted the "placenta." The word was a cruel euphemism for the life I carried, the life that was sacrificed for Chloe Thompson.
Seven times. Seven times I had felt the flutter of life inside me, a tiny spark of hope in the darkness. Seven times I had lost it. Miscarriages, he called them. But I knew the truth. The last two were terminations, scheduled by him, the procedures clinical and cold. All to harvest the "essence," the vital nutrients that would boost Chloe's health and keep her by his side.
A memory of the pain, the blood, the emptiness, made my body tremble. I wrapped my arms around myself, trying to hold the pieces of my shattered self together.
Liam stopped pacing and turned to face me. "Get on your knees," he commanded, his voice low and dangerous.
I hesitated, my body refusing to obey.
He strode towards me, grabbing my hair and forcing me to the floor. "I said, on your knees."
Tears streamed down my face as my knees hit the cold, hard floor. This was another part of his ritual of revenge. He wanted me broken, humbled, utterly stripped of my dignity.
"It's time for your treatment," he said, his voice flat. "Tomorrow is the gala. You need to smell perfect."
"No," I begged, the word a choked sob. "Please, Liam. Not now. I just lost..."
"You lost nothing but a tool," he said coldly. "A tool that failed to do its job. Now, you will do the other job I have for you. Or do I need to remind you what happens when you disobey?"
I closed my eyes, the memories of his punishments flooding my mind. The days locked in the dark, the withholding of food, the chilling way he would describe in detail how he would destroy the last remnants of my family's legacy.
"I'll do it," I whispered, my voice thick with defeat. "I'll do the treatment." My own voice sounded foreign, a hollow echo of a woman who had given up long ago.