The Road to Me

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This Filipino novel that is just translated into English is a work of fiction. Unless otherwise indicated, all the names, characters, places, events and incidents in this book are either the product of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner that is based on Filipino culture, system, belief, etc. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events are purely coincidental.

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PROLOGUE

I clasped my hand, it's sweaty and kind of trembling. I'm so nervous. My heart keeps thumping frantically. I couldn't help but close my eyes and sigh to calm myself.

At that moment, I heard the door open. The people began to applaud. So I opened my eyes and saw them smiling brightly, all attention was on the woman standing on the doorway, wearing a graceful white dress while holding a flower.

She started to walk using her genuine smile. My heart keeps on beating. I felt like a statue here as I watched her closely.

I gulped when her eyes landed on me. A tense smile plastered on my lips. She's trying to read my eyes again so I let her. That's when her sparkling eyes slowly had a form of tears. I just smiled and nodded, trying to assure her that it's ok and everythings alright.

People got silent when the ceremony began. I can't name my feelings. It's just. I just played with my fingers while looking at her.

"You may now kiss the bride."

My heart beat so fast. I literally heard my heart crazily pounding. I felt like I would have a fever when I heard that. I didn't even notice that the exchanging of vows was already over.

I held my breath when she smiled brightly. Slowly closing her captivating eyes and going nearer.

I licked my lips and closed my eyes as well as my tears escaped.

This day will always be painted in my mind and my heart. I love you. I love you so much it hurts.

Lara's POV

"Hahay! What a tiring life." I yawned and slowly lay down like an eighty year old woman.

I'm in my younger sister and I's bedroom right now and all the stuff that is needed on our project is on the table.

I extended my right hand to reach my phone that is also on the table and immediately went to the facebook app to entertain myself for a while-with memes I might see. While scrolling, I decided to wait for that 'cold royal' person to go online before I start to do the things I needed to do even though I'm not sure if I'll get anything out of waiting.

I can't help but use my cellphone, I'm too lazy to do my project especially when it's by group but I'm the only one who is doing it. Well, it's better for me to be alone tho, than doing this with my groupmates-who's just bothersome. It's already enough for me that they gave contributions with materials that are needed because I really prefer to be alone doing stuff like this, I am more productive being alone.

But that will be later, I'll scroll to facebook first. I'm still not in the condition to study.

Scroll-scroll. Share-share. I just do it over and over again... I've been waiting here for a minutes but that 'cold royal' is still not online. All I know is, this is the time he goes online, eh.

"Tsh! The check isn't still got shaded." I frowned looking at our conversation.

I have a long distance relationship with this guy-cold royal, the one I pertain to. I called him cold royal because he's cold but loyal to me.

To prove that, there's a time that I created a dummy account and I tried to entertain him but he said that he has a girlfriend! Of course! My heart felt flattered! But still, our conversation is too cold, too dry, like an idiot.

He reasoned out that he's busy with his study... that's why we just get to communicate on weekends. It is so annoying the fact that even if he's online on weekdays he can't even give me a minute to update or check me out... like that. I'm also a busy person but I can find time for him. Maybe it's his will to just ignore me? But you know... I'm more irritated with myself. Because, how could I choose to stay with this kind of person? Ahh.. I don't know anymore. This makes me feel sick.

I got closer to him because we're friends on facebook... I already know him because my former suitor and him are friends. Actually, he's just living in our neighbor-municipal but even though we planned to meet, up until now, it's just a drawing, not getting colored. We're three months in a relationship and this is the very first relationship I have longed for.

But, dude, would you still stay with your long distance relationship who just shows up once a week? He even surpassed the power of the ghost to disappear! So, I think, this is the time to end this obtuseness. Not because he's a handsome guy I will turn into a desperate woman? No way!

"Yaz! He's online now... finally!" I said, trying my best not to shout when the check was shaded.

Me:

Denver, let's stop this.

You don't even have a time

for me, I might just a nuisance

to you, I think, its for the better

to stop this and let's just focus

on our studies.

I can clearly hear my heartbeat while repeatedly reading the message I sent him an hour ago.

"Omg! Omg! He's typing now!" I immediately covered my mouth when I saw 3 dots moving in our conversation.

Denver:

Why, babe?

Are u serious with that, babe?😕

How could you say that babe?

Is it because I'm a useless boyfriend?

"Luh, why is he calling me with that... he even uses emoji? He makes me feel guilty..." I whispered.

Don't be twiggy, Lara, this is for your own good. But...

Me:

I think, I'm the one who

is useless here, eh.

Don't you want to end this, Den?

Denver:

Suit yourself, the decision

is yours...😟

"Gosh, why is my answer like this?!" I said, still covering my mouth. "Why does when it comes on him, I'm turning into a fool?"

I bit my lower lip and started to type again.

Me:

You might get angry at me.

Gosh, Lara! Please! Someone slap me please!

Denver:

Yes or no?

Me:

I don't know🥺

"Argh! This is really annoying! Why does the question come back to me?! I'm the one who's breaking up here. Why was it turned upside down!?" I stomp in annoyance. I was frustrated with myself.

Denver cleared his own nickname. Edit

Denver cleared your nickname. Edit

"Ahy, ok. Just wow." I can't help but to roll my eyes. "He already cleared nickname, I guess this is the end."

Denver:

Well... ummm, thank

you for everything.

Me:

Ow, ok. Thank you

for everything too.

We can still be friends tho,

when you need something,

just chat me, anytime, I am

available.

Denver:

Ex-friend.

I couldn't help but laugh. I reacted haha ​​to his reply. This guy really... It's like a screw on him had been removed.

Me:

Hahaha! Okie. Suit

yourself. Bye-bye.

Denver:

What a shame... our

4th month is coming...

Me:

We're friends though.

Don't you like it?

"Wow, he's offline again." I sigh and roll my eyes again. "Whatever, it's his life though."

I put down the phone before wiping away my tears.

Tears?! Luh, why am I crying? Dzuh? I was the one who broke up here. Stupid.

I shook my head and went to facebook. As I scrolled... I saw memes again.

Christmas is near. Guess it's

time to admit to my crush.

I smiled at what I read and thought of sharing it with the caption, 'what a bad, I don't have a crush.'

I turned off the data after I shared the meme, then I drinked water to prepare myself. I need to focus on doing our project in Social Studies.

As I was drawing a map on manila paper, I couldn't help but to laugh.

This is crazy. I just realized that I haven't had a long-term relationship. I've had three exes but it hasn't lasted long. And suddenly, I'm on the point of-like I don't want them to consider that they become my official boyfriend.

Hayz, I need to stop this. I'll just entertain someone again when it's my soulmate... if I finally meet my soulmate.

"Wow, soulmate." I giggled on my self-deprecation.

But seriously. I don't want this kind of lovelife anymore, like bullshit.

....

An hour passed and I finally finished the project. I finished it early because I had already done a draft at school. I only did drawing and a bit of writing.

My younger sister entered the room just in time so I turned off the light. And as usual, I checked my social media first, before going to sleep.

I smirked in frustration when I saw that Denver didn't even have a response to my chat.

Hahaha! He doesn't really like me. Ew! He's really my last, I really don't want to entertain anymore, period.

After I checked my messenger, I then went to facebook and received 15 notifications. There were three who reacted haha about the meme I recently shared-the one about crush and there were two who commented.

Wehh?

Commented by Ate Andrea, one of my friends.

I reacted haha ​​ to it, before reading a comment from Mico, a friend of my friends- Ashbelle and Kate.

Will I admit now?

I bit my lip to suppress a grin before typing.

Like a fool. Why are you asking me that? Go and ask turtles?|

I'm ready to send what I typed but I realized something and deleted it immediately. I don't want to ruin this opportunity. We're still not that close. I want him to be my friend, a very close friend so I don't want to break his trip, I might lose the chance to be closer with him.

Hey! Who is that? Ehem, mind sharing it?

That's what I replied and I just received a national response.

HAHAHAHA

As soon as I read it, I wanted to knock his head. But he's far away from me so I can't help but to just pinch my pillow.

"This man is mean, he doesn't want to share it with me," I said, frowning.

I just ended up playing music and was about to turn off the data when suddenly... someone chatted. It's Mico.

Mico Teranza:

Hey!

He chatted and I immediately replied.

Me:

Hey you too!

I kept on slapping my thigh because I find my reply kind of funny. But my happiness immediately ended when I read his response.

Mico Teranza:

Ur my crush, HAHAHA!

My hand unconsciously went on my mouth to cover it as my eyes widened. "WHAT THE FUDGE-e barr is yummylicious!!! Ekk-"

What the... I just promised to myself a little while ago that I don't want to entertain for now. But, what is this again?

"Why is my life like this..." I stomped because of my incomprehensible feeling. I don't know what to do! "What's the matter - tsk!" I stopped talking when Irene, my younger sister, turned around and hugged me. I really don't want to receive a hug from someone. It's ok with my friends, but when it comes to my sister-I'll really kick her just let her embrace remove. When he turned around again, I chatted with Mico.

Me:

What kind of joke is that?

It's not fun bonding with you!

Of course, I'm playing safe here, why would I quickly believe what he's saying? This guy is also kind of a mischief, that's the reason why I wanted to be close with him, I think, my life would be fun around him.

Mico Teranza:

HAHAHA. It's a prank!

It's worse bonding with you too.

You still not received my reply yet,

you already know it's just a joke.

Me:

Hahaha! Yeah, just what I think.

I got a deep sigh while putting down my phone. "Why do I feel like... I suddenly got disappointed? Tsk! Like a fool." I just shook my head and looked at our convo again. I received a chat on him again.

Mico Teranza:

HAHAHAHA!

Me:

What with your laugh.

You're really that happy?

Mico Teranza:

Yes. Why? Should I be

serious then?

Just kidding. HAHA!

Me:

Boi, you're confusing

me as hellapad, yeah

Mico Teranza;

Sorry, I do it on purpose.

Even if I tell the truth,

you're already taken.

You might get angry.

Me:

Taken? Hope all is taken.

Mico Teranza:

Crazy! You said you have

a bf. You even mentioned

that he's cold towards you,

right?

Wow! How could he say that easily! What a palsied mouth he has.

I couldn't help but to wonder how he found out about that. I was about to ask him but I remembered that sometimes, he was there when I'm talking with Ashbelle because they're friends, it's normal that they are always together, so he probably heard it.

Me:

Well, we already broke up.

I was about to sleep but

you mess up my brain.

You're so annoying!

Mico Teranza:

HAHAHA!

Me:

Why are you laughing?

Hey, clean the mess you

do to my brain! Hahaha!

Mico Teranza?

What?

"Is he making fun of me?" I pouted while typing.

Me:

Nothing. Ok, bye.

Mico Teranza:

Just in case my feelings

are true, WTH? I might

ended up like him, 3 yrs.

HAHAHA!

Me:

HUH?

My forehead creased as I tried to understand what he was saying. Then I realized that he knew about Denver and Kevin. But I bet... he didn't know Denver-my recent ex, because he's from another municipality. But they are friends on fb tho.

Well... there was a time we were in the hut, at lunch time. We were together with Ashbelle, Kate, Hannah and Mico, we're doing our assignment on mathematics.

Yes, it's an assignment but we're doing it here in school. Rebukeful child.

So that's it. I'm just focusing on solving because the schedule on our subject on math is in the first hour of afternoon class, so I needed to finish it quickly. While I'm answering my assignment, my friends, as always, are too loud. Then, they suddenly stopped talking, like they saw an angel. Because I'm curious, I lift my head to see what they're doing and I catch this one who's always beside me that I don't even know why the set up ended like that- it's Mico, he's pointing at me while on his paper has written by himself that says-Shh... keep quiet she's studying.

I unconsciously smiled, even my system wondering what it was for. "It's so cold," the only word I could say.

"Really? You still feel cold like you don't used to your boyfriend being cold towards you?" Kate sarcastically teasing me and we just laughed it off.

I'm not that affected though, because I already accept the fact that he's cold towards me. I'm aware that I'm just infatuated with him, I already made up my mind to stop myself from falling too deep into him and to prevent that... I also tried to be cold. I had planned to break up with him many times but because he's slow, I couldn't just do it, and I can't straightforwardly break up with him. But our relationship can work out and be healthy if only he wants it. I gave him a chance to change the way he treats me but, I don't know. I'm just glad that I finally got the courage to stop and honestly I'm tired of understanding him.

"It's really easy for Lara to get cold, the reason why she also breaks up with Kevin." Hannah added.

Tsk! It's really true that the weather is cold. Why does the topic end up with them? And also, about my relationship with Kevin, that's not the reason why I broke up with him, they don't know anything. Can I force my heart to return the way it feels to him? If only I could, I would have done it before so that I could have fulfilled my promise to myself and to him as well. It's so hard to teach the heart.

I just smiled at them even though my mind kept on talking. It just stopped when Mico asked me something.

"How long has he been courting you?"

I looked at him and he immediately avoided my gaze. "3 years? I don't know..." I shrugged "I'm not sure because he keeps on ghosting me."

"3?!" He immediately looked back at me as his eyes widened and his red lips were slightly parted.

I just raised an eyebrow at him in astonishment at his reaction but nodded as well to confirm that what he heard was true.

"Really, Mico? Are you really that surprised? Eh, you have admired someone for 7 years. Don't you remember? It's-" He got alarmed by that and in just a snap, his hand is now covering Kate's mouth to stop her and he shyly smiled at me.

I forced myself not to smile. Why did he cover Kate's mouth? He doesn't even have to do that because I already know who's Kate's pertaining, it's Jewelle-which is 1 year ahead of us.

"It's not anymore," he defended. I just let them make noise as I went back to what I'm doing.

Mico Teranza:

Kevin courted u

for 3 yrs, right?

Me:

Oh, and then?

Mico Teranza

Nothing. Nvm.

Ah before I forgot,

What I said is true.

Ur my ideal, 50/50

Me:

Are you sure? Hahaha!

50/50?🙄

Btw, since when did

I got your attention?

Mico Teranza:

Dunno

Me:

What? Are you serious?

Hmmm... it's just a few days?

Months?

Mico Teranza:

Maybe.

Me:

Really. So, what now?