The cold gurney, the execution chamber ceiling, then a familiar, hateful face: Kevin, my ex-fiancé, the President.
He was there to watch me die, bloodshot eyes, rumpled suit, looking deranged.
Treason, they said. A lie so colossal it had already swallowed my father, my sister, my entire family.
His whispered words were a final, chilling insult: "I found her, you know. Crystal. She was happy. You took her from me. You murdered the woman I loved."
My vision blurred as the lethal cocktail burned, my tongue heavy with the truth I couldn't speak – that I' d saved Crystal, not hidden her for myself.
His face, twisted with a grief entirely his own twisted invention, was the last thing I saw before blackness swallowed me.
Then, a gasp tore from my lungs, and I was bolt upright in my own silk sheets, sunlight streaming into my Georgetown townhouse.
My phone buzzed. Kevin. The date on the screen made my blood run cold: today was the day he was supposed to run off with Crystal Vance.
My "first life" had begun its nosedive on this very day.
This time, it would be different. This time, I knew the enemy. And this time, I would not be merciful.
The cold from the gurney seeped through the thin sheet, a final, physical insult.
I stared at the ceiling tiles of the execution chamber, counting them. One hundred and twelve.
A familiar face leaned into my view. Kevin. My ex-fiancé. The President of the United States.
His eyes were bloodshot, his tailored suit rumpled. He looked insane.
The warden had already read the charges. Treason. A lie so vast it had swallowed my family whole.
My father, Senator Connolly, was already dead. My sister, Megan, too.
Now it was my turn.
Kevin' s voice was a ragged whisper, meant only for me.
"I found her, you know. Crystal."
The name was a ghost from a life I barely remembered. The Instagram model he' d left me for, years ago. The scandal I was forced to clean up.
"She was living in Oregon. A new name. A quiet life. The life you gave her."
The chemical cocktail started its burn up my arm. My vision began to blur at the edges.
"She was happy," he hissed, his face contorting. "She didn' t even remember me. You did that. You took her from me."
I tried to speak, to tell him the truth, that I' d saved her, not hidden her for myself. But my tongue was heavy, useless.
"You murdered her in my mind, Sarah. You killed the woman I loved."
His face was the last thing I saw, twisted with a grief that was entirely his own invention.
"If it wasn' t for you, she would have been my First Lady!"
Then, blackness.
A gasp tore from my lungs.
I was sitting bolt upright in my bed, in my family' s Georgetown townhouse. The sheets were silk, not the coarse cotton of a prison.
Sunlight streamed through the window.
My phone buzzed on the nightstand. The screen lit up with a name.
Kevin.
The date on the screen made my blood run cold. It was the day. The day he was supposed to run off to Miami with Crystal Vance. The day the party leadership would give me the ultimatum.
The day my first life started its nosedive.
I answered the phone.
"Sarah? Are you up? I need to talk to you."
His voice was the same, but now I heard the weakness under the charm. The insecurity.
"I' m on my way to your father' s office," I said, my voice unnaturally calm. "We can talk there."
I hung up before he could reply.
I looked at my hands. They were steady.
This time would be different. This time, I knew the enemy. And this time, I would not be merciful.
The air in the Speaker' s office was thick with cigar smoke and fury.
The Speaker of the House, a man whose political career my father had made, slammed his fist on the mahogany desk.
"This is a catastrophe, Sarah! A governor-elect running off with some... internet whore? On the eve of his inauguration? You have to handle this."
I knew what "handle this" meant. In my first life, it meant making Crystal Vance disappear.
Kevin stood by the window, refusing to look at me. He was the picture of a man trapped by his own stupidity.
I remembered this moment. I remembered my pride, my anger, my cold, efficient solution.
This time, I chose a different path.
I walked towards Kevin. He flinched as I got close.
Then, I dropped to my knees in front of him.
The Speaker stopped yelling. The silence in the room was absolute.
Tears, real and calculated, streamed down my face. I let my voice break with a sob.
"I love you too much, Kev. I can' t... I can' t be the reason you' re unhappy."
Kevin stared at me, his mouth hanging open in shock.
I turned my tear-streaked face to the Speaker. "He loves her. We can' t destroy him for that. We can' t destroy the party."
"What in God' s name are you talking about, girl?" the Speaker growled.
I took a deep, shuddering breath. The performance of a lifetime.
"We don' t hide her. We embrace her. A makeover, some tutoring. We sell it. A story of love, not scandal. The governor, a man of the people, falls for a girl from a humble background. My family... the Connollys... we will welcome her. We' ll show the world what true grace looks like."
I looked back at Kevin, my eyes pleading. "I' ll step aside. I' ll give you my blessing. Publicly."
Kevin was speechless. He was cornered. How could he refuse such a selfless, public sacrifice? He would look like a monster.
The Speaker' s face turned a dangerous shade of purple. He understood immediately.
I had just taken control.
I had made Crystal his problem. I had made his affair a public spectacle that he, and the party, now had to manage.
And I had painted myself as a saint.
"You' re a fool," the Speaker spat at me, but the words had no heat. He saw me not as a tool anymore, but as something far more dangerous.
An unpredictable player who had just changed the rules of the game.