The Ninety-Ninth Goodbye

Eliana POV:

The ninety-ninth time Jax Little broke my heart was the last time.

We were supposed to be the golden couple of Northgate High. Eliana Carter and Jax Little. It had a nice ring to it, didn't it? Our names were practically woven together in the school' s mythology, spoken in the same breath since we were kids building forts in his backyard. We were childhood sweethearts, the quarterback and the dancer, a walking, talking cliché of high school royalty. Our future was a neatly drawn map: graduation, a summer of beach bonfires, and then, two adjacent dorm rooms at UCLA. A perfect plan. A perfect life.

Jax was the sun everyone orbited. It wasn't just that he was handsome, with that easy, lopsided grin and eyes the color of the California coast on a clear day. It was the way he moved, a casual confidence that bordered on arrogance, as if the world was his to conquer and he was just waiting for the right moment. He was the king of our small universe, and I, willingly, was his queen. His family, newly wealthy from his father's ventures in the oil and gas sector back in Russia before expanding aggressively into the American market, had ensured Jax never wanted for anything. He carried an air of entitlement, an unconscious expectation that his desires would always be met, his path always clear.

Our history was a tapestry of shared moments. First steps, first words, first kisses under the bleachers after his first big win. I knew the scar above his eyebrow was from a fall off his bike when he was seven, and he knew the melody I hummed when I was nervous was from a lullaby my grandmother used to sing. We were intertwined, our roots so deeply tangled that the thought of separating them felt like ripping a tree from the earth.

Then, in our senior year, the perfect map was torn.

Her name was Catalina Manning, a transfer student with wide, doe-like eyes and a story for every occasion. She was beautiful in a fragile, broken-doll kind of way that made people want to protect her.

The principal, Mr. Davison, had called Jax into his office. "Jax, you're a leader in this school," he'd said, his voice earnest. "Catalina is new here, having a tough time adjusting. I need you to show her around, help her feel welcome."

Jax had groaned when he told me later that day, slumping onto my bed and burying his face in my pillows. "Another chore. As if I don't have enough to do."

"Just be nice," I'd said, running my fingers through his hair. "It'll be over before you know it."

I was so naive.

It started small. He'd miss our study sessions because Catalina "got lost" on her way to the library. Then he'd be late for our lunch dates because Catalina "needed help" with a calculus problem he'd already mastered.

His apologies were initially sincere, laced with the frustration of his "duty." He' d wrap his arms around me, kiss my forehead, and whisper, "Sorry, Ellie. She's just... a lot."

But "a lot" quickly became his priority. The apologies grew shorter, then devolved into dismissive shrugs. His phone would buzz with her name, and he' d step away to take the call, leaving me sitting alone with our cooling food.

The first time I threatened to break up, my voice trembled and my hands were slick with sweat. "I can't do this anymore, Jax. It feels like I'm sharing you."

He' d gone pale. That night, he showed up at my window with a bouquet of my favorite stargazers, his eyes filled with a panic I hadn't seen since we were fifteen and he thought he'd lost me in a crowded mall. He swore it would stop, that I was the only one. He didn't just want me back; he needed to be the center of my world, the one who held all the power. And I, desperately afraid of losing him, believed him.

The second time, after he ditched our anniversary dinner to drive Catalina to a "family emergency" that turned out to be a forgotten purse at a friend' s house, my threat was firmer. "We're done, Jax."

His apology this time was a long, heartfelt text, filled with promises and memories of our shared past. He reminded me of our UCLA dream, of the apartment we were going to rent by the beach. He knew exactly what levers to pull, what insecurities to exploit.

I caved.

By the tenth time, the twentieth, the fiftieth, it became a sick, exhausting dance. My threats, once born of genuine pain, became empty pleas. And Jax, he learned. He learned that my threats were hollow. He learned that I would always be there, that I couldn't imagine a world without him.

His arrogance solidified, fed by the constant reassurance of my inability to leave. My pain became an inconvenience, my tears a childish tantrum. "Ellie, relax," he'd say, his tone bored, as he texted Catalina under the table. "You know you're not going anywhere."

He was right. I hadn't. Until tonight.

The ninety-eighth heartbreak had come a week ago, leaving a lingering, bitter taste in my mouth. But this, the ninety-ninth, was different. It was a public execution of my last shred of hope.

It was a graduation party at Mason Riley' s house, the kind with a sprawling backyard and a shimmering blue pool that reflected the string lights overhead. Catalina, in a ridiculously short dress, was clinging to Jax' s arm, laughing a little too loudly at something he said.

He saw me watching them from across the lawn and met my gaze. There was no apology in his eyes, no guilt. Just a cool, challenging stare, daring me to react, to prove his continued power over me.

Later, she "accidentally" tripped near the edge of the pool, her eyes darting to Jax before she stumbled, pulling me in with her as she fell. The cold water was a shock, my dress instantly heavy, pulling me down. I sputtered, trying to find my footing on the slick tile. Catalina was flailing dramatically, crying for help, ensuring all eyes were on her.

Jax dove in without a second's hesitation. But he swam right past me. He wrapped his arms around Catalina, pulling her to the edge of the pool, ignoring my own struggle just a few feet away. His expression, when he looked at me, was not one of concern, but of exasperation, as if my struggles were an inconvenient interruption.

As he helped her out, his friends cheering, he glanced back at me, my hair plastered to my face, my body shivering, my mascara running down my cheeks in black rivers.

"Your life isn't my problem anymore," he said, his voice as cold as the water I was drowning in. It was a calculated cruelty, a final, definitive push to break me, certain I would come crawling back once I realized my "threats" were meaningless.

I managed to pull myself out, water streaming from my clothes. I stood there, dripping and humiliated, as he wrapped his letterman jacket around a perfectly fine Catalina.

I walked straight past them, past the pitying and mocking stares of our classmates. I didn't say a word.

"We're done," I whispered to the empty street as I walked home, the words tasting like ash.

He didn't believe me, of course. He probably thought it was just another turn in our tired old dance. He probably expected me to come crying back in a day or two.

He didn't even follow me. I glanced back once, and I saw him laughing, his arm still securely around Catalina.

Something inside me, a fragile, worn-out thing I' d been clutching for years, finally shattered into dust. It wasn't a loud explosion. It was a quiet, final crack.

The ninety-ninth time.

There would not be a one-hundredth.

I got home, my clothes still damp, leaving a trail of water on the marble floor of the foyer. I walked straight to my laptop, my fingers moving with a clarity that felt foreign. I opened the UCLA student portal, my heart a dull, steady drum in my chest. Then I opened another tab. NYU.

My fingers flew across the keyboard. I navigated to my application status, my acceptance letter glowing on the screen. There was a button: "Commit to NYU."

My parents' recent corporate relocation to New York, a move they'd been agonizing over, suddenly felt like a sign from the universe. They had wanted me to go to UCLA, to stay close, but they had always said the choice was mine. They were always supportive, though deeply invested in our shared vision of my future in California.

I clicked the button.

A confirmation page appeared. "Welcome to the NYU Class of 202X."

I stared at the screen, the words blurring through a sudden film of tears. But these weren't tears of heartbreak. They were tears of a terrifying, exhilarating freedom.

Then, I started erasing him. I deleted his pictures from my phone, my laptop, my cloud storage. I untagged myself from years of photos on social media. I took down the framed pictures from my walls, the smiling faces of a boy I no longer knew and a girl who no longer existed.

I gathered everything he had ever given me: the varsity sweatshirt I always wore, the mixtapes from our freshman year, the dried corsage from our first prom, the little silver locket with our initials engraved on it. I placed each item, each a small ghost of a dead memory, into a cardboard box.

The box felt heavier than it should have. It held the weight of my entire childhood.

The final item was a small, worn teddy bear he' d won for me at a carnival when we were ten. I held it for a moment, the worn fur soft against my cheek. I almost faltered.

Then I remembered his cold eyes by the pool. Your life isn't my problem anymore.

I dropped the bear into the box and sealed it shut.

Eliana POV:

The next morning, I drove to Jax' s house with the heavy box sitting on the passenger seat. The sun was bright, the sky a mocking, perfect blue. It felt like the world hadn't gotten the memo that mine had ended.

His mom, Karen, opened the door, her face breaking into a warm smile when she saw me. "Eliana, honey! Come on in. Jax is upstairs in his room." She' d known me since I was in diapers; their house was as familiar to me as my own.

"Thanks, Karen," I said, my voice steady as I hoisted the box.

She frowned slightly at the box but waved me through. "He's been in a mood all morning. Maybe you can cheer him up."

I walked up the familiar staircase, each step a small echo in the quiet house. His bedroom door was slightly ajar. I heard laughter. A girl's laughter.

I pushed the door open without knocking.

And there they were. Jax was sitting on his bed, leaning against the headboard, and Catalina was nestled beside him, her head on his shoulder. She was wearing his football jersey, the one with "LITTLE" and his number printed on the back. The same jersey he' d given me after his first varsity game, the one I used to sleep in.

It was like a physical punch to the gut. The air left my lungs in a silent whoosh.

Catalina looked up, her eyes widening in feigned surprise before settling into a smug, triumphant gleam. "Oh, Eliana. I didn't hear you come in." She snuggled closer to Jax, a possessive little gesture. "Jax was just letting me borrow this. It was a little chilly."

Jax didn't move. He just looked at me, his expression unreadable for a moment before it hardened into impatience. "What do you want, Ellie?"

Not Eliana. Not Ellie-bear, his childhood nickname for me. Just Ellie. Curt. Annoyed. The lack of any familiar endearment was another small cut.

A wave of bitter self-loathing washed over me. What had I expected? That he' d be sitting here, pining for me? That he' d be filled with regret over his actions last night? I was a fool. An absolute, grade-A fool.

I remembered all the times he' d stood at my door in the pouring rain, begging me not to leave him. He had once driven three hours in the middle of the night just to apologize for a stupid argument. He had carved our initials into the old oak tree behind the school and swore he' d love me forever. He had played the part of the devoted boyfriend so perfectly, so convincingly.

He had used my love, my forgiveness, my inability to let go, as a safety net. He kept pushing, kept testing, just to see how far he could go before I' d pull him back. He' d made a sport out of breaking my heart, confident that I would always be there to piece it back together for him. His deep-seated need for control and validation, masked by his charm, had finally come to light.

But the glue had run out. The pieces were just dust now.

"This is it," I thought, the realization settling in my bones with a cold, hard finality. "This is the very last time."

I lifted the box. "I'm just here to return your things." My voice was eerily calm, devoid of the tears he was so used to hearing.

He glanced at the box, then back at my face, a flicker of something-annoyance? confusion?-crossing his features. He waved a dismissive hand. "Just throw it out. I don't need any of it." His entitlement was so profound he couldn't even grasp the weight of what the box represented.

His words were meant to hurt, to tell me that our shared history was garbage. And they did. But they also severed the last, threadbare cord connecting me to him.

Without a moment's hesitation, I turned and walked to the top of the stairs. His bedroom overlooked the two-story foyer. I leaned over the railing and simply let go of the box.

It fell, tumbling end over end, and hit the polished hardwood floor below with a sickening crash. The sound was loud, definitive. A sound of breaking.

I didn't look to see the contents spill out. I didn't need to. I turned back to the doorway.

"Wait," Jax said, his voice sharp. He was standing now, his brows furrowed. "What about your stuff? You still have things here."

He wanted a clean break too, it seemed. Fine.

"Take it all," he ordered, his voice laced with a cold fury. "I don't want any reminders of you in my space."

I didn't answer. I walked back into the room, my movements stiff and robotic. I started with the bookshelf. I pulled out the worn copy of The Great Gatsby I' d left here, the framed photo of us at junior prom, the ridiculous little bobblehead of a dancer he' d bought for me. I piled them in my arms.

The entire time, he and Catalina went back to their own world. He sat back on the bed, and she started chattering about some upcoming party, her voice grating on my raw nerves. She accidentally knocked over a glass of water on his nightstand, and I braced myself for his explosion. Jax hated messes. He was obsessively neat, a minor trait that sometimes hinted at a deeper need for control.

But he just sighed, grabbed a towel, and started wiping it up. "Be careful, Cat," he said, and his voice was gentle. A gentleness he hadn't used with me in months.

He used to get angry if I so much as left a book out of place. But for her, he cleaned up the mess himself.

Then he did something that made the blood in my veins turn to ice. He stood up, walked over to his closet, and pulled out a new, pristine football jersey. "Here," he said, handing it to Catalina. "This one's clean. You can have it."

My heart, which I thought had already been shattered, somehow found a way to break even more. I was numb. Utterly and completely numb. The pain was so vast it had become a void.

I finished gathering my things from the main room and moved toward his en-suite bathroom to get my toothbrush and face wash.

Catalina blocked my path. She stepped in front of me, a malicious smile playing on her lips. "Trying to get his attention, Eliana? Playing hard to get? It's not working. He's tired of your little games."

"Excuse me," I said, my voice flat.

"He's mine now," she whispered, her voice a venomous hiss. "I'm going to UCLA with him. I'll be in his dorm, in his bed. I'll be the one he texts good morning and good night. I will erase you completely."

I tried to step around her, but she grabbed my arm, her nails digging into my skin. "Your parents are rich, right? What did you do, buy your way into his life? Well, money can't buy love. He loves me."

Her words were absurd, but the mention of my parents ignited a spark of fury in the icy void of my chest.

"Let go of me," I said, my voice dangerously low.

She laughed. "Or what? You'll cry to Daddy?"

That was it. I yanked my arm back, a sudden surge of adrenaline coursing through me. The movement was sharp, and she stumbled backward, her eyes wide with shock.

Just as she lost her balance, I heard footsteps pounding up the stairs.

Jax.

Catalina' s eyes darted toward the sound, and in a split second, a look of pure, calculated cunning flashed across her face. As she fell backward, she reached out and grabbed the front of my shirt, pulling me down with her. It was a deliberate, malicious act, a theatrical performance for Jax.

We tumbled backward together, a tangled mess of limbs.

And went straight over the low banister at the top of the stairs.

The fall felt like it happened in slow motion. A scream tore from my throat, mixing with Catalina's shriek. We hit the polished hardwood floor below with a brutal, bone-jarring impact.

A searing pain shot through my head as it connected with the floor. I felt something warm and wet trickle down my temple. Blood.

Catalina was already crying, her voice pitching into a hysterical wail. "Jax! She pushed me! Eliana pushed me down the stairs!" Her performance was flawless.

I saw Jax's face appear at the top of the landing, his eyes wide with horror. He stormed down the stairs, his face a mask of thunderous rage. He rushed straight to Catalina, kneeling beside her, his hands hovering over her as if she were made of glass. He didn't even glance at me. His focus was entirely on his new obsession.

"Are you okay? Cat, are you hurt?" he asked, his voice thick with panic.

"I-I think my ankle is broken," she sobbed, pointing a trembling finger at me. "She did it on purpose! She said she was going to kill me!"

Jax' s head snapped toward me. I was trying to push myself up, my vision swimming, the pain in my head making me nauseous.

"Jax, I didn't-" I started, my voice weak.

"Shut up!" he roared, his voice echoing in the foyer. "I don't want to hear your lies!" His face was contorted with a fury that was absolute, unyielding, fueled by his need to believe Catalina.

"She grabbed me," I pleaded, tears of pain and frustration finally breaking free. "She pulled me with her."

"I saw you, Eliana," he spat, his eyes filled with a disgust that cut deeper than any physical blow. "I saw you yank her. Are you insane?" He refused to even consider my perspective, his judgment already made, his loyalty completely shifted. He wouldn't even look at the blood matting my hair, his entire focus on Catalina.

"Get out of my house," he said, his voice dropping to a low, menacing growl. "Get out before I call the cops."

He carefully scooped Catalina into his arms, cradling her as if she were the most precious thing in the world. As he carried her past me, he didn't even glance down.

I remembered a time when I' d fallen and scraped my knee, and he had carried me all the way home, kissing the wound and promising to fight off the "pavement monster." That boy was gone. In his place was a stranger, a cruel, cold stranger who looked at me with nothing but contempt.

All the explanations, all the years of love and devotion, all the pain and sorrow, died on my lips. It was useless. He had already chosen his truth.

Somehow, I managed to get to my feet. Every movement sent a spike of agony through my head. I left my things scattered on his floor. I didn't want them anymore. I didn't want any part of him.

I stumbled out of his house and into the blinding sunlight, leaving a small trail of my own blood on the pristine welcome mat.

I drove myself to the emergency room.

The doctor told me I had a concussion and needed three stitches above my eyebrow. As I lay in the sterile white room, waiting for my mom to come pick me up, my phone buzzed.

It was a picture message from a number I didn't recognize. I opened it.

It was a photo of Jax, his brow furrowed in concentration, gently wrapping an ice pack around Catalina' s ankle. She was looking up at him with adoring eyes. The background was clearly his bedroom.

The text underneath read: He' s taking such good care of me. Some people just know how to treat a girl right.

I stared at the photo, at the tender look on his face that used to be reserved only for me. I felt nothing. No anger, no jealousy, not even a pinprick of pain. Just a hollow, echoing emptiness. The part of me that loved Jax Little had finally, truly, died.

I deleted the message, blocked the number, and turned my phone off.

Eliana POV:

A week later, with three small stitches hidden by my hair and a faint purple bruise painting my temple, I walked into Tyler's graduation party. My friends had practically dragged me out of the house, insisting I couldn't miss the last big hurrah of our high school lives.

The moment I stepped into the crowded living room, I saw them. Jax and Catalina were in the center of a laughing group, his arm draped possessively around her waist. They looked like a couple. A real one.

A few of my friends, the ones who still held out hope for us, rushed over to me.

"Ellie, what's going on?" Chloe asked, her eyes darting between me and the happy couple across the room. "Everyone's saying you two broke up. For real this time?"

I managed a small, tired smile. "Yeah. For real this time."

The words felt solid, real. Not like the shaky threats of the past.

A wave of shock rippled through my friends. "But... you guys are Jax-and-Eliana," Madison said, as if it was an immutable law of physics. "You're supposed to go to UCLA together."

"Remember freshman year when he filled your entire locker with gardenias because you said you liked the smell?" Chloe reminisced, a sad look on her face. "He told me he spent his whole allowance for a month on them."

"And what about the time he turned down a date with that senior cheerleader because he said he was 'saving all his dances for Ellie'?" another friend added.

Each memory was a tiny, sharp sting. It hurt to remember the boy he used to be, the boy who had loved me so fiercely, the boy I had convinced myself was still beneath the layers of his arrogance. The past was a beautiful, sunlit memory, but the present was a cold, harsh reality. That boy was gone.

"He was great," I acknowledged, my voice quiet but firm. "But people change." I nodded my head subtly toward the other side of the room. "And as you can see, he's doing just fine. They look happy together."

My gaze met Jax's over the crowd. He'd been watching me, a complicated expression on his face. When he heard my calm declaration, his jaw tightened. He seemed to be expecting tears, a scene, a jealous outburst. Something. My indifference was clearly not part of his script.

Instead of looking away, he deliberately pulled Catalina closer, his hand sliding lower on her back, and whispered something in her ear that made her giggle and press her body against his.

It was a performance. A deliberate, cruel performance designed to provoke me, to reaffirm his control. He was waiting for me to crack.

But I was already broken. There was nothing left to crack.

I simply turned back to my friends, a placid smile on my face, and started talking about summer plans, about New York, about anything other than him.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw his smile falter. A flicker of uncertainty, of panic, crossed his face. This wasn't part of the script. I was supposed to be chasing him, begging him, reminding him of what he was losing. My indifference was a variable he hadn't accounted for, a threat to his deeply ingrained sense of self-importance.

I saw him start to take a step toward me, but Catalina tightened her grip on his arm, pouting up at him. He hesitated, then let out an exasperated sigh and stayed put.

Later, someone suggested a game of Truth or Dare. The bottle was spun, and the night air grew thick with a new kind of tension. Inevitably, the bottle landed on Catalina.

"Dare!" she squealed, her eyes already finding Jax in the circle.

The girl spinning the bottle, one of Catalina's new friends, smirked. "I dare you to give a real, passionate kiss to the hottest guy here."

A collective "Ooooh" went through the group. Every single eye in the circle swiveled to Jax. He was, without question, the 'hottest guy here.'

Catalina's smirk widened. She looked directly at me, her eyes glinting with malice. "Eliana, you don't mind, do you? I mean, it's just a game."

Her friend chimed in, her voice dripping with false sympathy. "She's his ex, Catalina. She doesn't get a say anymore."

The humiliation was a physical thing, a hot flush that crept up my neck. I could feel everyone's eyes on me, waiting for my reaction. I looked at Jax. His gaze was intense, burning into me. He was waiting. Daring me to object. Daring me to show that I still cared.

This was his test. His final, cruel power play, designed to reassert his dominance. He believed that even now, I couldn't bear to see him with another girl. He thought one word of protest from me would be enough to reaffirm his control, to prove that I was still his for the taking whenever he decided he wanted me back.

I lifted my chin, my expression a mask of cool indifference. "Why would I mind?" I said, my voice clear and steady. "It has nothing to do with me."

The change in his expression was instantaneous. The smug confidence vanished, replaced by a flash of raw, unfiltered fury. His face went rigid, his jaw clenched so tight I could see the muscle jump. My indifference hadn't just surprised him; it had enraged him. It was a rejection he couldn't stomach, a direct challenge to his deep-seated narcissism.

A cold, humorless laugh escaped his lips. "You heard her," he said, his voice dangerously soft. He grabbed Catalina's face with a roughness that seemed to surprise even her, and crushed his mouth to hers.

It wasn't a game-like peck. It was a deep, punishing kiss, a public spectacle of possession and rage. He was kissing her, but he was trying to hurt me. The silence that fell over the group was heavy and suffocating.

I watched, my heart a leaden weight in my chest. I felt the stares of everyone, felt their pity, their morbid curiosity. It was like watching a car crash. Horrifying, but impossible to look away from.

When he finally pulled away, Catalina was breathless, her lips swollen.

Her friend, seizing the moment, asked with a wicked grin, "So, Jax? How was it? Better than you-know-who?"

Jax didn't take his eyes off me. They were dark, filled with a cold, triumphant cruelty.

"Far better," he said, his voice loud enough for everyone to hear. "Catalina is a far better kisser than Eliana ever was."