POV Makidi
I opened the door to my house, feeling the sweat still clinging to my skin despite the cool evening air. My heart hammered as I stepped inside, each beat a reminder of the truth I'd uncovered. Nicolas...my son, or at least, the one I had raised as my own. The truth had blindsided me, a revelation I'd chased for years but never expected to find so close to home. My thoughts were tangled, running in all directions, yet they kept circling back to that undeniable fact: Nicolas was not mine.
My legs felt heavy as I walked through the familiar rooms, each one a quiet witness to years of secrets and shadows. But it was the living room, where Julianna and I had spent so many nights together, that I found myself pausing. Her absence lingered there still, like a perfume long faded but never truly gone. She'd taken her secrets with her to the grave, or so I had thought.
Mande was the only one left who knew the truth now. She'd been with us for years, caring for the house, for Nicolas, for Julianna in those final months when illness had drained the light from her eyes. Mande had loved Julianna as fiercely as I had, and it made sense that she would hold the secrets Julianna had kept.
But now that truth was out, and I couldn't ignore it. I needed to hear it from Mande's own mouth, to see her eyes and know she'd been keeping this from me, swearing herself to an oath that had bound her long past my wife's death. I felt a surge of anger and betrayal, but underneath it, a gnawing ache I couldn't shake. For years, I had raised Nicolas, poured everything I had into him. I'd taught him the code, the strength that a Makidi needed in this world, the resilience and ruthlessness to keep our family's legacy alive. He was supposed to be my son.
I found Mande in the kitchen, quietly tidying the dishes as if tonight were no different from any other. When she saw me standing in the doorway, her eyes flickered with a knowing sadness, a look that told me she had always feared this day would come.
"Mande," I said, my voice rough. "Tell me the truth. Tell me what Julianna swore you to keep from me."
She looked down, her hands twisting in her apron. For a long moment, I thought she wouldn't answer, that she would take that vow to her grave, just as Julianna had intended. But slowly, she nodded, a heavy sigh escaping her lips.
"Sir," she began, her voice trembling, "Julianna wanted to protect you. She didn't want you to know the truth because she feared what it would do to you...to your family."
I clenched my fists, the anger rising again, but I forced myself to stay still, to listen. "And Nicolas? Why didn't she tell me about him?"
Mande swallowed, her gaze softening. "She loved you, Mr. Makidi. And she loved Nicolas. But he was not yours by blood...she made me swear, in her final days, to keep that secret. To raise Nicolas as your own, to protect him from any harm this truth might bring."
The weight of her words hit me like a blow. Julianna had known all along, and she'd kept it from me, trusting only Mande with the truth. My heart twisted, torn between grief for the woman I had loved and the bitter taste of betrayal. But the truth was out now, and there was no going back.
I looked away from Mande, trying to make sense of the wreckage Julianna had left behind. Nicolas was not my blood, but he had been my son. I had shaped him, molded him to carry on my legacy. And yet, standing there in that quiet kitchen, I felt more alone than ever.
When I finally spoke, my voice was steadier than I felt. "Thank you, Mande. You've kept your word...until now."
She nodded, her face etched with sorrow, as if she, too, mourned the loss of this secret. The truth had come to light, but at what cost? And now I had to decide what that truth would mean for my family, for Nicolas...and for myself.
****20 years ago
I first noticed him in the hospital waiting room, slouched in one of those uncomfortable plastic chairs, staring at the wall with an intensity that seemed to mask the pain beneath it. I'd just come from a brutal appointment with the doctor, his words still hanging over me like a shadow. They said the medicine was supposed to help, to keep things from getting worse. But the side effects... I could already feel them gnawing at me, draining my energy, my spirit. It was the kind of despair that makes you feel invisible, and maybe that's why I was drawn to him; he seemed to carry that same invisible weight.
When I took my seat a few chairs away, he looked up, his dark eyes catching mine for a fleeting moment before he looked away again. But that one look was enough-it was as if he understood, as if he could see through the layers I'd carefully put on to keep people out. The silence between us wasn't awkward; it was almost comforting, like finding a stranger who understands your language.
Days passed, and our paths continued to cross in that waiting room, each of us stealing glances, each of us caught in our own battles. We never spoke, not at first, but somehow, his presence became a steady thing in my chaotic world. The treatments wore me down, and on those days when I felt weakest, it was as if he could sense it. He'd nod slightly, a silent gesture that grounded me, a reminder that I wasn't facing this alone.
Then, one day, he was gone. I couldn't bear to admit how hollow I felt sitting there, waiting for the doctor's routine prognosis, and glancing at the empty chair beside me. But just when I thought I'd never see him again, he showed up again a few days later, this time with bruises and a stitched cut above his eye. I couldn't help myself-I reached out, my fingers barely grazing his arm as I asked, "Rough day?"
He chuckled, a low, rough sound, and finally, he let me in. His name was Makidi, and he was every bit as stubborn and scarred as I was. We started talking in bits and pieces, sharing things we'd probably never tell anyone else. He had a sharp wit, an unexpected kindness beneath the gruff exterior, and before I knew it, he was more than just a stranger in the waiting room.
I fell in love with him slowly, almost reluctantly, as if my heart knew it was dangerous, but I couldn't stop myself. He became my reason to smile, my reason to keep fighting, and I wanted more than anything to bring him into my world, the good parts of it. So, one evening, I asked him to come home with me, to meet my family. I could see the surprise in his eyes, the way his guard dropped for a moment, and then he nodded.
When I brought him home to my parents, I realized just how much I wanted them to see what I saw in him. To see past the bruises and scars, to understand that he was the first person in a long time who made me feel...alive. They were cautious, unsure of him at first, but eventually, they softened. He had that effect on people-once he let them in, they couldn't help but care.
As the days turned to weeks, I clung to the hope that we could build a future together, that I could put the shadows of the hospital and the harsh drugs behind me. Makidi became my anchor, my steady force through the ups and downs. I didn't know where life would take us, or how long I'd have with him, but I knew I'd found something real. In the bleakness of my hardest days, he'd been my light, and with him by my side, I finally felt like I could face whatever came next.
The first time it happened, I wasn't expecting it. I never planned for it. I'd always been cautious, measured in my actions-especially around Julianna. She was different from anyone I'd known, a force of nature wrapped in mystery and allure. The way she moved, the way she spoke, everything about her drew me in like gravity, but I never let myself get too close.
It was late that night when she came into my office, the faint glow from the desk lamp casting shadows over her face. Her usual confident stride was replaced by something softer, something uncertain. I could tell she was tired-her eyes, though sharp, had a weariness to them.
"Makidi," she said, her voice low, almost hesitant. "Can we talk?"
I looked up from the papers in front of me, surprised by the vulnerability in her tone. Julianna was never one to ask for anything, let alone show weakness.
"Of course," I replied, motioning for her to sit.
She hesitated, then moved to the chair opposite me. For a moment, there was silence between us. It wasn't uncomfortable, but it was charged, thick with things unsaid.
"I've been thinking a lot," she began, her eyes meeting mine, dark and searching. "About everything. About this life."
I leaned back in my chair, sensing where this might be going. "And what have you decided?"
She ran a hand through her hair, a nervous habit I hadn't seen before. "That I'm tired. Tired of pretending that everything's fine, that I can handle it all on my own. I don't want to do this anymore, Makidi. I don't want to be this... this cold person."
I watched her carefully, the weight of her words sinking in. Julianna had always been the strong one-the one who never let anyone see her cracks. And now, here she was, vulnerable in front of me.
Without thinking, I stood up, closing the distance between us. She looked up at me, her breath catching as I reached for her hand. "You don't have to pretend with me," I said softly, my voice rougher than I intended. "You never have to."
Her eyes flickered to my lips, and in that instant, I knew. She was feeling it too. The pull between us that neither of us had acknowledged until now. I leaned down, slowly, giving her every chance to pull away. But she didn't.
When our lips met, it was like the world stopped. All the barriers I'd put up around myself crumbled in an instant. The kiss was slow at first, tentative, as if we were both testing the waters. But it quickly deepened, an undeniable hunger taking over.
I could taste the mixture of whiskey on her lips and the faint trace of something sweeter, something uniquely her. My hands found their way to her waist, pulling her closer, and I felt the tension between us ignite. I didn't want to think about consequences or what this meant. In that moment, it was just the two of us, caught in the intensity of something neither of us had expected.
She wrapped her arms around me, her body pressed against mine, and I couldn't help but pull her even closer. Her breath hitched as I kissed her again, deeper this time, more urgent. The room seemed to shrink around us as everything outside of this moment faded away.
When we finally pulled apart, our foreheads rested together, both of us gasping for air. I looked at her, my mind racing. This was dangerous. This wasn't just a fleeting desire. This was something else. Something I wasn't prepared for.
But Julianna, with her wild heart and fierce soul, had a way of making me forget everything I thought I knew.
"Makidi," she whispered, her voice barely audible. "I'm not... I'm not sure where this goes."
I pulled back slightly, brushing a strand of hair from her face. "Neither am I."
She met my gaze, her eyes dark with the same unspoken longing. "But we'll figure it out, won't we?"
I didn't answer right away. Part of me wanted to say no-to tell her we couldn't do this. But another part of me, the part that had been quietly craving her for far too long, knew there was no turning back.
"Yeah," I said, my voice low and steady. "We will."
And in that moment, I knew this was only the beginning.