The Doctor's Compelled Affair

Chapter 1

Dr.Thomas Hyden Ron Pov

My principles in life were vanished and also my dream to have a family, soon. I made a decision that ruined my relationship with my fiancee because I forgot my Anchor that gave me life direction.

It's good to scream! It's good to fuck! It's good to killed! because of the decision I made because I have no choice. I don't have a choice, plus I'm pressed for time and if I don't act, I'll lose him. I don't want to lose him without doing anything, so I would rather make sacrifices just so that he can live for a long time. And one more thing, I'm not ready to lose her to be honest, because she's the only woman who has stayed in my fight in life, ever since I met her.

I'm stupid Man, aren't I? because I do sacrifice my freedom because my assistant nurse is also really the only answer for him to live for a long time. To be honest, the weight, the weight of my burden is now because I carry it with me every day. It's up to batman! my mind said and headed to the dining area. I was planning to drink water but my eyes landed on my medication organizer so I grabbed it and took it out.

"Tsk!" I mumbled and without a second thought headed to the trash to throw them away. Totally I don't need to drink because everything doesn't say anything and my medication is useless because my fiancee won't be with me for a year. I have no intention of starting a family with a woman I have never dreamed of.

After I threw away my medicines I organized all the trash and took it outside the gate of the house before I went to my room to rest. I saw her standing in front of the mirror looking at herself, her reflection. I wasn't surprised when I entered because I expected him. I just shook my head when our eyes met because we both knew this would be the truth a year from now.

"You need to rest my sweet little lies, it is already late for you to sleep," I said to him. I choose to call her my sweet little lies because when I see her she just reminds me that the foundation of my love for my fiancee has failed because of the contract that she only likes you.

I raised an eyebrow at him because he didn't even respond to what I said. She's, Alia Bless Emerald, my wife in a one-year contract. Actually she's young for me because our age difference is more than a decade. I meet her in their house because Isaiah gave her a scholarship because of what his older brother did to his wife. I never thought that it would all start there, his obsession with me. If I had known, I wouldn't have gone to their house then.

"I swear to God!" I ejaculated. He looked at me with surprise, as if he heard what I said. He narrowed his eyes at me but I wouldn't budge from him because he had no impact on me, nothing at all.

"Why can you look like that?"

I was surprised by his question so I automatically turned my head in another direction because I didn't even realize that I was staring at him.

"You put me there first in your mind?" he asked seriously and faced the mirror again.

"I'm not thinking anything like that," I defended myself because there really wasn't anything. If I wanted to kill him, he would have been dead during the operation, but I will not dirty my hands because I will fulfill the negotiated contract.

"Your not wearing your ring, Babu?" she asked while combing her long hair. I looked at him and saw the pain in his eyes that made me swallow. Actually, beautiful is not enough when I describe him. I know that beauty is in the eyes of the beholder but she, she's like an angel.

"Why would I use that cheap ring like yours?" I ask seriously. We only used that sing-sing when we got married to the Mayor and he provided. He was the one who wanted the wedding so he took care of it.

"Even if it's only 299 sing sing, at least it's from my savings. I can't buy something to love because I'm saving to study medicine, but even so, I'm happy because its match is now yours," he answered. I just shrugged because the couple ring we used was only 299. Shame on the mayor who married us if he finds out.

"Tsk!" I mumbled.

"But I won't remove it from my mouth Babu because it is said to be Stainless Steel Hypoallergenic and non-tarnish rings. I will only remove it when a year without love from you is over," he said and turned his back on me .

"Go to sleep. You still have work tomorrow," I ordered him because I had no reason left.

She's my assistant nurse because she has finished her studies as BS in nursing and so she can get experience. I told her before that she should take the board but she insisted because she wanted to pay more attention to me then and bw*set me every day. The weather was really in his favor because he got me a chance.

"Go to sleep little cheetah!" I was annoyed because he didn't seem to hear anything.

"Your appearance in the mirror will never change. No matter how many millions you get back - go back there!" I said annoyed before I headed to the bathroom. Today is Saturday, so I'm at home with him. This is the set-up between the two of us because he granted me my request to take care of my fiancee.

"Duh! I'm not cheetah!" he shouted so that I could hear because I was already in the bathroom and was removing my top.

"Nah! You are!" I gave a short answer but still screamed so that he could hear and annoy him even more. I removed the necklace from my neck so that it wouldn't get wet because the ring of his ring was hanging on it. It's non-tarnish, but maybe it needs to not fade because its 299.00 is a waste.

A smile appeared on my lips because he didn't answer. I know he has a long snout now because I called him Little Cheetah. Cheetah is a symbol of speed, agility, and grace. Actually, he was really fast because he took me through the process of me needing him and it's a blessing because without him I might not see the woman I love still breathing today.

I have my Idioma that referring to an intelligent person. A word to the wise is sufficient, that's why? no more discussion. I will fulfill the one year negotiation and one year agreement because there is nothing to lose by trying. I would be a fool if I didn't say a word to the girl who just tried to establish my love. I know my fiancee will understand this and also I don't intend to keep it a secret from her for a long time because I just did everything for her to live.

I do pray for her hundred percent recovery because this is my secret decision when she is not totally well yet. I hastened my shower because the night was getting late and my body wanted to lie down with my husband on the paper.

I was overwhelmed when I felt that there was a hand that warmed my body. I secretly swallowed as I felt his hot tongue also travel up and down. That's why my body responds differently to what his tongue passes by. I stopped the weakling because of what he did as if all the electricity in my system was alive. The fact that he drew a circle with his tongue and went inside my navel was a different sign because my forehead was already sweating.

Fuck this little Cheetah! My brain screamed, he was really fast. I wanted my mind to stop what he was doing but my body wanted something else, so I just pretended to be asleep while I felt his hand play with my left nipple and his tongue peacefully reached the target.

I bit my lip hard as he bit my nipple. She does her best to make me h*rny but I really won't give up even if I'm alive. I'm also really holding back the um*g*l so that he doesn't think that my body reacts when he fucks me but I feel like my whole system is about to lose its way and I might not be able to hold back if he doesn't stop . Maybe I will do to him what he is doing to me now. It's a good thing that the room is dark and only the light of the moon gives light to what he's doing. He won't be able to see the reaction on my face because the shadow of the moon is right on the veranda of the room.

I can feel his hand bit by bit because I can feel the pain especially my n*ppl* because he pinched them lightly. She doesn't know how to pleasure a body. Of course! she's young, she's trying to arouse my entire system but it won't happen because I'm stopping it, so no matter what she does, nothing will happen and she'll just get tired of fucking and playing with my upper body if she doesn't stop.

"F*ck!" I growled. I will not prepare for what he did. I raised my head slightly to see what he should do when he also looked at me. I saw her badass look.

"Moan my name is Babu, don't be cursed! That's foul," he answered and bowed suddenly.

"Stop emerald!" I looked at him and quickly stopped his head.

"You're hot to me too, eh!" he promised seriously and quickly got off the bed.

I didn't follow him to see where he was going because of the intensity of what he did and to this day I am still short of breath. I was very nervous there because if I didn't stop her, she's definitely playing my m*nho*d. He squeezed it so and I know what he will do next just in case because he bent down.

"this kind of woman. Her kind of play ran through my veins," I said and felt my penis and wiped the sweat that was accumulating on it.

"I swear to God!" I'm murmuring. Because what he does is mind-numbing and heart-wrenching.

I took a deep breath to calm myself down. I closed my eyes because I don't want to see him in case he comes back to the room and if not it's better because I won't release my juices in case even though I haven't had s*x*al interc*re for a long time now.

My eyelids are getting heavy so this is a signal so that I can sleep soundly from him disturbing me. I planned to take my clothes down because it was still up and I was about to move when I was suddenly surprised by the coldness that he placed on top of my body.

"Alia Bless Emerald, please?" I can't help but call his name. I don't know why I'm talking. I saw his eyebrow raise because my dim light was on.

"There is nothing like this in the agreement and in our conversation?" I still worry about him.

"Can I get my Jelly to the top of your body and after that we go to sleep?" he asked. That's why I first looked at the three cold jelly above my body.

"Get it! You've been saying so much, take it?" I ordered him.

"Nuh! I decided to use my tongue to get those three jelly's. I want to explore the reality of roleplay," he said mischievously and without hesitation went to my lap.

"Stop that kind of nonsense Emerald I shouted angrily and violently tore his body apart with the three jelly's from my body and stood up angrily.

What kind of thinking would his tongue take three jelly's up my body? Even though I'll bet he'll reach for syam-syam, his tongue won't get the jelly's if his mouth doesn't help even if he watches roleplay on sites, there's no jelly's for s*x excitement.

"Tsk!" His nonsense to think really hurts his head. His mind is based on his age.

"I'm easy to talk to Dr. Thy Ron," he said seriously so I looked at him happily.

To Be Continued...

Chapter 2

"What the h*ll, what you want?!" I asked angrily. My headache is with him because now he has the ace.

"You know what to do," he threatened me and stood up. See! I know what he wants to convey.

He faced me and looked up because he was only up to my chest. She is that girl who is no longer afraid of me even when she is little because she is used to me. There is no use in my treatment of being stuck or whatever that aspect of negative attitude is because he was already immune to me before.

"Don't lead me because I'll kill you!" I answered him.

"Ohhh!" he said as if he insulted me.

"Well, we have nothing to talk about," he said and passed me. I quickly grabbed his waist and pulled him closer to me.

"Don't mess with me my sweet little lies," I whisper and throw her into my bed. I didn't see any surprise on his face but only excitement called. She even managed to bite her lower lip like she's flirt*ng with me. Jusko! This girl is a flirt, so I have no choice but to annoy her and let's just see.

"I'll show you how to arouse your entire system," I hung up and took off my top and came to his feet.

I quickly pulled her legs and knelt in front of her before removing her lace panties. I separated his two knees and smiled weakly because I couldn't resist him but to annoy him and I knew that was the only way I could make up for it.

"You want to explore, huh?" I asked mischievously. I swallowed when I saw her smooth legs and I started to rub them. Even though my hands are still shaking, it's even better if it's better to touch her inner tights.

"Ohhh!" I heard him growl. My hand crawled up to my intention. I almost expected him to stop me but it didn't happen. I cleaned her h*wa and separated it. I saw her fresh and pinkish kabibe.

"Mmm!," she growled because I'll start to play her cl*t and that's when she arched her upper body and actually put her feet on my shoulders.

I pulled her waist a little so I could explore her. I slowly brought my head closer to his when I finally stopped. I almost forgot that I just wanted to annoy him because that was my goal. My stomach hurts so his stomach should hurt too because, it's tie

I took a deep breath and slowly stood up even though I really wanted to kiss him and feel the sweetness of his pussy again but not now. She's my wife in a one year contract and it's not new that I dived into her because I did it after our wedding. The purpose is? to annoy him and know if I succeeded because I'm sure his heart hurt then.

I wanted to smile at the thought but I didn't. I turned my back on him and headed for the door when I heard him speak.

"Why didn't you continue?" he asked confused. I didn't answer and just opened the door.

"Does it stink?"

"Does it smell like anchovies?" I was surprised by his question.

I offended him the way I did. I couldn't expect that he would think like that. I left the room without any statement or conclusion. It's up to him to think and at least that way I can recover from him lulling me to sleep.

After what happened last night I'm sure CASA MONTELEAGRE will be peaceful. I left the library and headed to the area where I go first thing in the morning to make my coffee.

My house has a coffee nook and I separated it to the kitchen area so that my kitchen is not crowded in the morning because I don't want my housemates to be crowded when it comes to cooking and I also don't want to disturb them when I make coffee. I am a coffee lover so I actually have a pantry here at home.

"Good morning doc," my maid greeted me and bowed. He is from where I am going so he knows if the things I will use there are prepared.

"Good morning too manang," I politely greeted him.

"Where is nurse Emerald?" I ask seriously.

"Leave earlier doc," he answered me.

"Okay thank you."

I passed him and went to my destination. Today it's a blessed Sunday for me because I know I succeeded last night because he didn't wait for me to go to the hospital together this morning. That's my goal, anyways.

When I reached the pantry, I immediately took a cup and filled it with hot water before heading to where the various coffees and milk we used were stacked. I drink native coffee because it has many benefits like improve overall health, Protect against Type 2 diabetes, Slow the progress to dementia, Reduce melanoma risk and many others because it is natural without chemicals and another is the aroma, it does not smell like anchovies, life-giving blood.

I inhaled the fragrant aroma and slowly sipped it. The plan was to have coffee in the garden area so I headed there. My CASA has a green patch and minimalist garden that is connected to the veranda and the aquarium that is Cheetah's idea is beautiful to the eyes of grandma to make wonderful and kept comfortable to my veranda.

I looked at the fish swimming freely in their aquariums. It feels so good that I'm smiling now while drinking coffee. I still have time to reflect because I don't have a schedule right now at the hospital because my work is only on-call now but I only have a meeting later. So I'm going to make the most of this whole day because it's tomorrow? I will be tired again, for sure.

My life was not easy when I was a child because I was completely orphaned. All I have left is my last name because our family is rich. My parents are my father's cousin who is brother Isaiah's parent. They treated us like a rare cruel to teach us how to become independent and stand on our own feet but that's okay because we overcame it and we are now known in different countries especially Asia and Europe.

I sipped coffee first and sat on the chair while still watching the fish. My CASA MONTELEAGRE is a gift given from my grandfather. Its area is five hectares

that's why I made Emerald live here because it's a private place and another one that others don't know about, especially my fiancee. This is where I rest when my body is tired from work because it's free when everything is done. On the other land there stands CASA MONTEFALCO it's the same hectares of mine because it was the same gift to us from my cousin brother Isaiah. Behind my house there is a wide garden, it's a garden of hybrid and rare roses and in the middle of it I have a customized water fountain that gives life to the different kinds of roses that my friends here at home take care of and there you can also see the identically designed houses of the Bachelor's

It feels so good that I'm smiling now as I reflect because no one is wandering around. I even plan to go swimming later when I finish my coffee because I really want to relax because it's Sunday and I only have a meeting later.

My swimming pool has a glass an underwater window. It's a cryst blue water, because that's the color I like so it's as beautiful to the eyes and he's on the other side of the house.

"Doc?" Meme called me. He is now the butler's son I am teaching at home.

"Yes?" I asked and looked at him.

"Sir Isaiah doc called, saying you should go to the hospital, it's urgent," he informed.

"Thank you," I said to him. I finished my coffee first and stood up before entering the house. I thought I would still be able to go swimming and relax, but it turned out not to be because my meeting was early.

I moved quickly and organized myself because today is Sunday I wonder if I left a critical patient on Friday because I might be called later when I'm in the middle of a meeting I don't want to disturb. I left the house and drove my car to the hospital. This is a reality of being a doctor, you must be quick especially when it comes to life because it is only borrowed from god

"Good morning doc," they greeted me at the same time when I was about to enter the hospital.

"Good morning too," I answered them seriously while walking to the medical office. I was still far away from hearing the laughter of my doctors and nurses inside the office so I just shook my head because brother Isaiah was starting his joke time again while waiting for me to arrive.

"Anal?"

"Penetrate?" I heard a familiar voice ask. That's Emerald! Thank you!

"Yes. In married life, anal intercourse and penetration will never disappear because this will make your relationship stronger. When there is no Anal.."

" I shouted angrily. I cut off what he wanted to say because I knew Emerald would overthink what he was saying. What the h*ll that Anal and penetrate word, makes hairs stand on end. It sucks!

"Let me finish my sentence, Thomas!" he said.

" I shouted and looked up.

"Tsk! You had a dirty minded Thomas! your a doctor, isn't it?" he asked annoyed and sat down in the front. I know that but it seems ugly to talk about anal and penetrate in front of my doctors and nurses. If he and his wife are doing that, it should be up to them. No need to e-advise this because in my opinion, there are different ways to handle it so that the union of the husband and wife can be successful.

I know if they were all surprised when I entered and shouted because they actually stood up and bowed at the same time. I walked in front of them to the front. I am serious in terms of work because I am their boss so it is natural for them to respect me.

"Sit down!" I ordered seriously and they all sat down together except for brother Isaiah who was already sitting.

"I know you all here are open-minded," I said. This brother is annoying no matter what he says. I looked at him and he just grinned and shook his head so I gave him a bad look because I couldn't stop him either.

"Everyone, Anal and penetrate is a every important for the couple especially when..."

"Stop!" I cut him off again.

"What?" he asked seriously.

"Stop that word brother, it's non-sense."

"It's going to be non-sense if you don't let me finish speaking," he complained.

"We're here for something important, not something like that," I promised seriously. Just then, I caught sight of Emerald, who was grinning with her index fingernail and just staring blankly at me.

"I have to answer Alia's question, Thomas?" My brother is still trying to convince me.

"That's a nonsense question brother!" I also emphasized.

"You are the dirty minded one there Thomas. Let me finish first before you accuse me. You think like Noah too!" he said authoritatively.

"What I'm saying is that couples need ANAL and Penetrate, because they really need it. You're just a dirty minded doc so whatever you think."

"I mean. Husbands and wives need to analyze things so that the relationship built between the two does not become toxic."

When I heard what he was saying about anal - analysis I was speechless. I must have been thinking about the wrong thing. Well, he can't blame me.

"Penetrate you have to overcome the relationship you built no matter what happened because you are married. That's why I said penetrate because the meaning is to make way for something."

"If General Sanchez is still his word of freedom is Work for success, which is also right."

"No word came from my mouth but just analyze and penetrate, you just have a dirty mind doc because you think differently," he looked at me and arrogantly patted my left arm.

"Tsk! Disgusting!" I mumbled.

"By the way, doc, officer Monte means Analys..."

"Shut up Patricio!" I looked at the gay eye doctor.

We're open minded because vulgar words are normal to us. Except for the woman at the end who was biting her nails because I'm sure she has a lot on her mind right now in addition to last night. It's up to him! said my mind and seriously started the agenda of the meeting.

To Be Continued...

Chapter 3

Hon! Why are you like that? These past new months after seems to be moving away from me? You're with me, but I feel like you're far away, you're not even claiming me!" Shantal yelled at me in annoyance. And since it's Monday, I'm here at her condo because I'm the one who did the hands-on take care of him.

"Honey, you know you're still recovering, right?" I explained. I really did everything not to stutter. I know that the operation and the side effect of the Kindey transplant had a big impact on him, so he is easily irritated now. Because it's a small thing that is wrong in his eyes, he says a lot of negative things, especially to me. Her woman instinct is not hidden from me but I do everything even knowing that Emerald has more right to me than her.

"Maybe there's a girl that's why she's staying away from me?" he asked seriously before standing up from his seat. I quickly shook my head to defend myself.

"Defensive?" he asked again without interest and made me roll my eyes. My situation is annoying because I love her so much that I sacrifice my freedom just to kept her alive.

"There's no point in talking like this because I live right here in your condo. You know me a lot Shantal and you know that you're the only woman I promised and gave an engagement ring to that you're wearing right now."

"It's that not enough to prove myself that I am with you and I'm not doing anything wrong in our relationship?" I'm asking seriously because if I don't defend myself, he will think that I have a woman because she's had a motto in life that silent means YES.

"Ohh! Why are you talking so much? I am just asking you! The answer is simple, yes and not just Thomas!" he answered back. I surrender, I raise my two hands and bow. I made a mistake. I want to apologize but I'm afraid because he's not one hundred percent good yet, he might kill himself if he finds out the truth.

"The more words coming from your mouth, more negative impact of mine Thomas. So get better!" he threatened me so I just let out a sigh so as not to contradict what he was saying so there would be no trouble.

"Ohh! Why are you so quiet?!"

"Don't tell the truth..."

"What!" I asked in shock and looked up. I didn't finish what he was going to accuse me of. It's nonsense. I've been holding back so that there won't be a fight between us, and then he uses his narrow mind. So I'm going to get tired of this over and over again. It's only the weekend, but I don't have any rest yet because I'm still tired from fighting the temptation.

"You are the one who said the more words came to my mouth is negative impact of yours then if I don't speak you will say what you are accusing is true? Isn't it enough for you that I am with you Shantal and no woman will enter your heart me but only you!" I screamed in annoyance.

"Why is it so hard for you to trust me?" I asked one after another.

"Your big issue is that I don't take you? For Pete's sake!"

"We both know that your body is still recovering because you've been in the hospital for a long time. You've only been out for two months," I promised.

"So it's my fault?" he asked and pointed to himself.

"I didn't say anything was your fault. All I'm saying is for you to trust me because I'm not doing anything wrong, especially when it's about your life," I explained carefully.

"So you have a girl?" he asked and looked at me. He's catching me so I can answer you correctly, my mind said.

"You are my only woman. All I want is peace of mine, please?" I asked and approached him and hugged him tightly.

"I'm sorry for hurting your feelings Hon," I consoled him. I caressed his long hair to calm him down and then kissed him on the forehead. I'll really love this girl so I'll do everything to give her a long life and enjoy the beauty of the world and I'm always ready to humble myself for her.

"I'm sorry if I hurt you with your thoughts and if I did something wrong to you, please forgive me right now."

"Then take me? Surprise me with a child, please?" please talk to him. I took a deep breath, bowed my head and my tears began to fall. When he is ready and wants to have children, that will also destroy my personality because we are the only ones who know the truth.

"You know the reason don't you?" I asked wiping away my tears before lifting my head to meet our eyes. It's not wrong to cry especially to the woman you love when the situation is like this that you dreamed of having a family but you can't give it. I am useless!

"Why do you still make me look like I'm a useless man? It's been a long time, oh, it's been almost 1 year that your friend, Shantal, has been using me. I take medication and we've tried many times but still nothing, how can you give you child if I cannot bear a child!"

Her best friend diagnosed me, A male infertility. A barren man. At first I didn't believe it so we got a second opinion from another OBGYN but it's still the same. This is the truth that hurts me because I'm a good doctor but I can't treat myself and I look useless when it comes to children.

"What the hell!" I'm cheap.

"I'm sorry," he apologized and quickly hugged me.

"I thought we were going to talk about it?" I asked him.

"I'm sorry. I'm frustrated with my health so maybe I'm going to beat you up," he promised. I wanted to tell him that I started not taking medicine because nothing was going to happen but I didn't because I was still tied to Emerald for a year.

"You don't have anything to worry about with your health, hon. All you have to do is get well so you can return to your old strength and return to the hospital as a doctor, not as my patient."

"Thank you for not giving up hon, and I'm sorry," he promised.

"It's okay. I love you," I said with all my heart and kissed her forehead again.

"I love you too honey," he replied with a smile and quickly kissed my lips to which I responded.

And I slowly laid him down on the sofa and he immediately wrapped his arms around my neck. As time went on, our kiss deepened and I could feel his warm and soft lips so I couldn't stop myself and one of my hands traveled on his body.

"I miss you, hon!" I whispered and removed her upper clothes and soaked her healthy d*bd*b. I kissed him again on his lips, down his neck and slowly removed the rest of his cover... The next three doorbells from the door rang us so I quickly stood up.

"T*ng* again!" I frowned and looked at my fiancee. Who wouldn't be hanged like this? I first took her clothes and put them on before I kissed her forehead and headed for the door that was busy with us.

Suddenly my head got hot and all my blood rushed to my face when I saw who was outside the door.

"Hi," he smiled at me. Damn this Cheetah! When you are really looked at, yes.

"Wh*t the h*ll are you doing here?!" I asked angrily.

"I was just going to say hello to your attachment," he whispered and handed me a folder.

"Get ready!" I looked at him before taking what he reached for.

"Kaya Isaiah is giving it to me and I will go to Batanes," he informed.

"Even if you don't come back," I said straight away. I saw his face turn sour and bowed.

"Alright. I'm leaving, just say hello to Dr. Shantal," he said sadly and turned his back on me. I looked at him first until he disappeared from my sight.

"Who is that?" Shantal asked before hugging me from behind.

"Emerald," I answered briefly and released from his embrace. I showed the papers I was holding regarding the list of medicines they would bring to Batanes. Because we had a private hospital that was built there before, so I supply the missing medicines for the people who need them.

"Let's eat first," I said to Shantal and put my hands on the table before heading to the kitchen.

Emerald POV

I woke up early because my duty at the hospital is early today and my friend Elisha and I have a walk after my duty later. I don't want to think about anything now because I'm still ashamed of myself and doc Thy Ron. It's embarrassing because what he did to me the other night is his ugly bonding.

"He's so annoying!" I shouted and managed to pull my hair out of my so much annoyance. So we'll really wander around later and I'll look for a night care feminine wash and then another PH care for every day care that I used to use and I'll just return it. I thought I would use something different in the morning and something different at night, but I won't use the branded feminine wash here at his house because you have no love for him. Those branded ones are useless because they come from Europe and they just smell like anchovies.

"Nah!" I ejaculated. At the same time as scratching my head because my allowance will be used up and I'm also worried that I won't be able to proceed with medicine if by chance my savings will only go to feminine wash. I kept regretting using a branded feminine wash and if I had only known that that's what she smelled like, I would have just used the PH Care that I used the other night so that I wouldn't have to think about being ashamed of my personality. I. PH Care is even better with care!

In the one year contract, I didn't demand anything, he said enough assurance that he will try to love me even if it's difficult. I only go with him to the hospital on Saturdays and Sundays because he lives here at CASA so I can save on the fare but on weekdays because he is at Doc Shantal's condo so I commute. His joint is still healing completely so I understand.

I stood up and lifted the top I was wearing and turned my back to the mirror. I'm fine because I follow all the treatments and I'm really healthy so my immune system is helping to heal the wound on my side. Self-discipline is all that is needed for a person to heal quickly and it's been three months so the only trace left from my operation is a scar.

"It can't be removed. It's a memory engraved on my personality because of the word love," I said and smiled bitterly while caressing the scar on my side. It's sad on my part that he didn't even give me any importance even if he would have taken care of me but that didn't happen and he just left me to his doctors then especially after the operation he didn't care about me until it came out I was at the hospital and went to CASA MONTELEAGRE. I do understand that his priority is different and it is the woman he loves. Because me? I was his only option to keep his beloved alive. But even so? it's okay because I really liked it, as long as what was important to me at the time, before the operation we were married and the dr. Shantal.

I wiped my tears because I didn't realize they were falling. It's okay to cry, it's okay to be hurt, I'm okay because I'm not weak, as long as everything is okay. I took a deep breath and took out my wallet and counted my allowance.

"Ten thousand one hundred two pesos and one centavo!" My count is final. I looked at the compartment of this wallet one by one and I thought I still had one thousand folded but it was gone. Jusko! I'm the one who invited Elisha to go for a walk, so I'll book him dinner later.

I was humbled and thought about what my chosen decision would be. Can I sacrifice my allowance to that feminine wash? I asked myself while biting my thumb nail. Actually, for me, especially when I smell it, it really smells good. Because I was curious, I actually touched my kabeb* and smelled it the night he left me. I was still fresh and had just taken a bath. I spent some time in the mirror trying to seduce him but nothing happened so when he was asleep I was the one who made the moves because he was staring at me. But when that happened? Hey! I really feel that he was turned off by the smell so he left the room and never came back.

"Annoying!" I said in shock. I was still biting my thumb because of the bite. I couldn't decide so I just stood up again and straightened myself up because nothing would happen if I just thought.

"Your mind is your true enemy, if you don't control it, it will control you," I reminded myself because I might even go crazy with this thought.

I put on my nurse hat and put a pin on it so it wouldn't fall off. I put oil base liptint on my lips and powder on my face because I'm simple.

To Be Continued....