Tatiana gazed wistfully out the tall, mullioned window of her bed-chamber, admiring the verdant hills rolling gently in the distance. A light breeze rustled the leaves of the tall oak and maple trees dotted across the landscape. How she wished she could feel that breeze and smell the fresh outdoors.
But the walls of Beaumont Manor had been her home and her prison for all of her 19 years. She pressed her hand against the cool glass pane, imagining what it might feel like to walk barefoot through the grass, the morning dew kissing her skin.
As a child, she'd begged and pleaded with her father to allow her outside, if only for a few minutes under his close watch. But Lord Henri Beaumont refused to even entertain such a notion. A young lady of noble birth had her place, and the wilderness of nature was not it.
A wistful sigh escaped her lips as she leaned against the window frame. She wondered what the velvety petal of a rose would feel like between her fingertips or the tickle of grass on her bare feet. What might it be like to amble through the woods, no walls or fences hemming her in?
Just then, Tatiana was startled from her reverie by a familiar stern voice.
"What are you doing over there dreaming the day away?".
She turned to see Ariana sweeping into her bedchamber, raven hair pulled back severely beneath her white linen cap. Tatiana self-consciously smoothed the skirt of her cornflower blue gown.
"I was just...admiring the view," she offered meekly.
Ariana's sharp gaze drifted toward the window. "It's time you stopped wasting time on such fancies. You know Father would not approve."
Even after all these years, Ariana remained a loyal follower of their father's restrictive rules. She had embraced her role as mistress of Beaumont Manor and saw no reason to yearn for anything more.
"I'm sorry, you're right," Tatiana murmured, turning from the window. She knew Ariana meant well in steering her toward more productive pursuits.
Tatiana turned back to the window, lost again in bittersweet daydreams, when Ariana spoke again.
"I'm afraid I have some rather unfortunate news. Father informed me he has arranged for you to be betrothed to the eldest Mancini son."
Tatiana whipped around, eyes wide. "What? No! Father cannot just marry me off without so much as asking my opinion."
Ariana sighed. "You know very well he can. It is your duty as a daughter of the Beaumont family. This match will bring greater prestige and fortune to our house. You would do well to accept your fate gracefully, as I have accepted mine as future mistress of the manor."
Tatiana fumed, her breath coming in short, sharp bursts. How dare they barter her away like chattel! She would not be chained to some man she barely knew, no matter her father's wishes.
Just then, the bedchamber door opened, and three maidservants entered. The eldest, Mrs. Bertram, stepped forward.
"Pardon the intrusion, Miss Tatiana. But your father has instructed us to help you prepare for the Orthavian bathing rite."
Tatiana scowled. The ceremonial cleansing was meant to purify a bride-to-be's body before marriage. She wanted no part of such traditions - not when her father was forcing her into this betrothal.
But she knew the maids were only following orders. With a resigned sigh, she waved them over to the adjoining washroom.
Mrs. Bertram directed the two younger maids to ready the ornate tub and begin heating the water. Tatiana stood rigidly, watching their preparations. She cared little for their fussing and primping. This whole ritual felt like another way to strip her of what little freedom she had.
At last, the bath was prepared with aromatic oils and flower petals strewn across the surface. The maids stood waiting to aid Tatiana in disrobing.
"I can manage myself, thank you," she said tersely, turning her back to them so she could unbutton her gown.
"But Miss, we are supposed to help bathe you thoroughly as part of the ritual," one of the younger maids protested.
Tatiana whirled around, eyes flashing. "I am fully capable of bathing alone! I neither need nor want your assistance."
The maid shrank back at her mistress's tone. Tatiana felt a twinge of guilt but refused to back down. This was her last stand before she was married off and truly lost control of her fate.
Once fully undressed, Tatiana stepped into the fragrant bath, letting out an involuntary sigh as the warmth enveloped her. She took her time, savoring this rare moment of peace and solitude.
A gentle cough interrupted her reverie. Mrs. Bertram stood solemnly by the tub's edge.
"Begging your pardon, miss. But it is tradition for the maids to wash the body of the bride-to-be while reciting blessings for her future union."
Tatiana's jaw tensed. Even now, they would not grant her a few minutes of autonomy.
"Please, Miss Tatiana," the older woman implored. "Allow us to complete the ritual so we do not face punishment. And so, you may enter your marriage with a purified body."
Tatiana met the woman's earnest gaze. She had no desire to bring trouble to the servants for her own defiance. With a resigned nod, she relinquished, leaning back so the maids could lather soap over her hair. As their fingers massaged her scalp, the women sang old wedding hymns passed down for generations.
Mrs. Bertram squeezed her shoulder reassuringly as she sent the younger women to fetch towels. "It is a grave wrong for one as lowly as me to doubt the innocence of a Beaumont, Mrs. Tatiana. But alas, the holy scriptures demand it."
"I have yet to know a man in the most intimate of ways," Tatiana recited in a dull voice.
"Excellent!" she exclaimed with a clap. "Miss Tatiana, you will make a truly splendid bride.
The maids worked with practiced efficiency. One dipped a long-handled loofah in a bowl of fragrant water, gently scrubbing Tatiana's arms and torso. The other, hands nimble and reverent, cleaned her feet, whispering blessings of fertility with each stroke. The scent of rosewater and jasmine hung heavy in the air, masking the nervous sweat prickling on Tatiana's skin.
Mrs. Bertram, her face etched with a solemn expression, stood guard by the tub. Her eyes, however, held a flicker of sympathy that Tatiana dared not acknowledge. The rhythmic chanting of the hymns grew louder, punctuated by the splash of water and the soft squeak of the loofah.
As the maids moved on to Tatiana's back, the older woman spoke again, her voice barely a murmur. "The moonflower petals, Miss Tatiana, a symbol of new beginnings and purity." She reached into the water, gingerly picking up a large white bloom and placing it over Tatiana's heart. It felt cool and surprisingly heavy against her skin.
Suddenly, a sharp rapping echoed from the bathroom door, startling everyone. The younger maid jumped, her hand accidentally sending a spray of water across the room.
"Apologies for the intrusion," came a gruff voice from outside. "Lord Beaumont requests Miss Tatiana's presence downstairs. Urgent business."
A cold dread coiled in Tatiana's stomach. Urgent business? What could possibly be so urgent it couldn't wait until after the ritual? She stole a glance at Mrs. Bertram, whose face was a mask of worry.
"Tell Lord Beaumont we cannot be disturbed," Mrs. Bertram instructed, her voice surprisingly firm. "The purification ritual for the bride is a sacred tradition that cannot be interrupted."
Another hesitant beat of silence followed before the voice replied, "With all due respect, Mrs. Bertram, the matter pertains to Miss Tatiana's dowry. It seems there may be a slight...discrepancy."
Tatiana's breath hitched. Her dowry? This couldn't be happening.
"Please, inform Lord Beaumont that Miss Tatiana will attend to him as soon as the ritual is complete," Mrs. Bertram pressed, her voice tight with controlled anger.
A final, "Very well," came through the door, followed by retreating footsteps. Silence descended once more, heavy with tension. The chanting of the maids had faltered, replaced by nervous glances exchanged between them.
Tatiana closed her eyes, the moonflower petal feeling like a weight upon her chest. What kind of discrepancy could there be? Had something gone wrong with the land her father had promised?
Looking at Mrs. Bertram's grim face, Tatiana knew postponing the inevitable was pointless. "Tell Lord Beaumont I'll be down shortly," she said, her voice hoarse.
The older woman nodded, a flicker of sadness passing through her eyes. The fragrant water, once a source of solace, now felt like a prison. As the maids helped her out of the tub, wrapping her in a soft linen sheet, Tatiana couldn't help but feel a dark premonition settle over her.
CHAPTER TWO
Tatiana lay curled on the small bed in the dark upper room where she had been confined for over a week since the cleansing ritual. Heavy velvet drapes blocked any sunlight from filtering in, leaving her in perpetual gloom. The only interruptions were the silent maids who brought meager meals and emptied her chamber pot before disappearing like ghosts.
She hadn't seen another living soul in days, left alone with nothing but her increasingly desperate thoughts. Her mind turned again to her failed escape on the second day of her imprisonment. When one of the timid maids had arrived to bring lunch, Tatiana had shoved past her with surprising force and sprinted for the stairwell.
But the maid, possessing unexpected strength, had grabbed Tatiana's arm in an ironclad grip and held her back until the door was locked once more. Tatiana had shouted and pleaded to no avail - it was as if she were invisible and inaudible to them all.
She curled tighter into a ball beneath the brocade blankets, feeling herself disappearing too into the shadows. She had never felt so powerless, so broken.
A key turning in the lock jolted her from her thoughts. Before she could react, the heavy oak door swung open, torchlight flooding the dim room. Tatiana squinted against the sudden brightness as her eyes struggled to adjust.
Two figures entered, their faces finally coming into focus. Her breath caught in her throat. "Father?"
Lord Henri Beaumont gazed sternly down at his daughter. "Come, sit up straight girl. I've brought Lady Antonia Mancini to finalize arrangements for your betrothal."
Heart pounding, Tatiana slowly rose on the bed as a well-dressed woman stepped further into the room. Everything about Lady Antonia's appearance and bearing spoke of wealth and nobility. Her eyes, sharp as a hawk's, quickly assessed the disheveled young woman before her.
"A pleasure to make your acquaintance, Miss Tatiana," she said smoothly. "I am Lady Antonia Mancini, soon to be your mother-in-law."
Tatiana stood frozen, dizzy with confusion and fear. She turned pleading eyes to her father. "Please...I cannot marry your son; I beg of you! Surely, we can-"
Lord Beaumont silenced her with a glare. "You will mind your manners in front of Lady Mancini." Turning to his guest he added, "Forgive my daughter's outburst, she is overwrought from excitement for her impending nuptials."
Tatiana opened her mouth to protest but caught herself, trembling with frustration and helplessness.
Lady Antonia waved a bejeweled hand. "Think nothing of it. The young bride's anxieties are to be expected." She stepped closer, keen eyes assessing Tatiana's face and form.
"Yes, she's quite a lovely creature, pure and untouched," the older woman murmured. "Young and strong, fine childbearing hips...she will make an excellent mother to continue the Mancini line."
Revulsion crawled through Tatiana at being scrutinized like livestock at market. Lady Antonia continued circling her slowly, nodding and making approving sounds.
"Yes, I am most satisfied with this match. You have chosen well Lord Beaumont. Our houses will both benefit richly, as will my son. He will be pleased with his fresh young bride."
"Excellent. Then it is agreed she will return with you today to Mancini Manor?" Lord Henri affirmed.
Lady Antonia inclined her head gracefully. "Yes, I believe it best we transfer the girl to her new home straight away to begin preparations for her union to my son."
Tatiana's head spun as she struggled to process this rapid turn of events. Leave Beaumont Manor today? But...surely, she would be permitted a proper farewell to her childhood home?
Lord Henri was already summoning her maids to pack her belongings. Before Tatiana could utter a protest, she was bustled off for one last bath and dressing. Within the hour, she found herself seated across from Lady Antonia in the plush interior of the Beaumont carriage as it rolled away from the only home she had ever known. Tatiana stared numbly out the window, watching the familiar gardens and fountains disappear from view.
The journey passed in a daze. When the coach finally rolled to a stop, Tatiana peered out to behold the imposing edifice of Mancini Manor looming before her. Any other time, she might have marveled at the sprawling grounds and ornate architecture. But now it signified her prison transferring from one set of bars to another.
Lady Antonia's personal maid, a tall severe woman, escorted Tatiana inside the cavernous entrance hall. Tatiana moved as if in a dream, her sensibilities dulled by anguish. She barely took note of the imposing suits of armor and lavishly painted ceilings.
At the far end of the hall, an elderly butler awaited them. Lady Antonia turned to her maid.
"Thank you, Colette. I shall leave her in Dubois's capable hands now while I attend to preparations."
The butler stepped forward. "Right this way, Miss Tatiana. I will escort you to the chamber where you shall await your betrothed."
Tatiana numbly followed Dubois up a grand staircase and down a series of corridors, past countless other rooms likely grander than the one housing her. At last, he opened a nondescript door to reveal a small, dimly lit room containing only a solitary chair.
"Please make yourself comfortable, miss. Lord Roman will arrive shortly to introduce himself once he has completed his ride. I shall return for you then."
The heavy oak doors groaned open again, shattering the tense silence. This time, it wasn't the stoic butler but a man, his gait unsteadies and laughter spilling from his lips. Two women, their dresses clinging to their curves, stumbled playfully in front of him, squealing and barely dodging his clumsy attempts to grab them.
Tatiana recoiled, her heart pounding against her ribs. The man's eyes, bloodshot and glazed, finally landed on her. A lecherous grin stretched across his face.
"Well, well, well," he slurred, weaving towards her chair. "What do we have here? A little pre-wedding surprise for dear old Roman?"
His words were laced with a vulgarity that made Tatiana's skin crawl. Disgust battled with a rising tide of fear.
"I-I am Tatiana," she stammered, pushing herself further back in the chair.
He stopped a foot away, swaying precariously. "Tatiana, eh? A pretty name for a pretty face." He reached out a hand that trembled slightly, his fingers brushing against her cheek.
Just then, another figure filled the doorway. Tall and broad-shouldered, this man exuded an air of icy control that was the complete opposite of his brother's drunken revelry. His gaze fell on Tatiana, then flicked to the hand hovering near her face.
"Dante," he growled, the word laced with disdain. "Get your hands off her."
The drunken man, Dante, turned towards him, a frown creasing his forehead. "Who...?" Recognition dawned, and a sly smile twisted his lips. "Ah, Roman. Come to meet your little bride, have you?"
Dante's words hung heavy in the air. Tatiana felt a cold dread pool in her stomach. This, this was the man she was to marry?
Roman fixed his brother with a steely gaze. "Leave us," he commanded, his voice leaving no room for argument.
Dante shrugged, a flicker of defiance in his eyes before turning back to Tatiana. "Well met, future sister-in-law," he said with a wink, his voice thick with innuendo. Then, with a mocking bow, he stumbled out of the room, the two women trailing after him with nervous giggles.
Silence descended once more, heavier and more suffocating than before. Roman's eyes remained fixed on Tatiana, his expression an unreadable mask. Tatiana's breath hitched. This was not the start of her married life she had envisioned.
CHAPTER THREE
Tatiana took a deep, shaky breath as she stood by the big oak doors of the old cathedral, holding onto her father's arm. The ancient building towered above, its gray stones showing signs of age and stories of many weddings and goodbyes. Soon, those doors would open, and she'd start walking down the aisle to marry someone she didn't even know.
Looking down at her ivory silk and lace dress, it seemed so different from the serious colors inside the cathedral. The patterns on her dress hugged her waist before flowing dramatically to the floor, following a traditional style. With the veil covering her face, it felt like she was heading blindly towards an uncertain future.
Her grip on her father's arm tightened as the organist began the traditional wedding march, filling the space with its tune. Lord Henri, sensing her nervousness, nudged her forward just as the big doors swung open. "Stand tall," he whispered sharply. "Don't shame our family."
Trying to stay composed, Tatiana started the slow walk between the strong benches, each filled with people in ceremonial robes. The cold, stone walls echoed with whispers and the sound of robes brushing against each other. None of the faces under their blue caps looked familiar or comforting, making the grand hall feel even lonelier.
Her eyes stayed fixed ahead on the altar where her soon-to-be partner waited. Sunlight came through stained glass windows, creating colorful patterns on the ancient stone floor. Moving through the sacred space, the old gray cathedral stood witness to this big moment, its seriousness made even more noticeable by the weight of tradition and the unknown future waiting for Tatiana beyond the big oak doors.
Lord Roman's angular face was stoic beneath his white cloak, displaying no more emotion than if he were standing vigil over a coffin. The frigid indifference in his grey eyes did nothing to settle Tatiana's nerves.
Her gaze traveled past Roman to the priest, dazzling in flowing black vestments. His smile seemed more predatory than warm. Tatiana suppressed a shudder, clutching her bouquet of lilies tighter like a shield.
Finally, her eyes alighted on Ariana seated prominently in the front pew, beaming with pride for her sister and approval of this esteemed match. Tatiana thought back to their youth, remembering Ariana's fiery spirit and flair for adventure. Where had that boldness gone?
Swallowing down her bitterness, Tatiana continued her measured steps in time with the music's rhythm. She passed Dante, her groom's younger brother, barely restraining his snickering. His breath reeked of spirits though it was not yet midday.
At long last, Tatiana arrived at the altar on Lord Henri's arm. He lifted her veil with all the tenderness one might show a cow at market before placing her hand upon Lord Roman's. Then he took his seat beside Ariana.
Tatiana stood rigidly beside her betrothed, staring fixedly at the ornate altar to avoid meeting anyone's gaze. She flinched when Roman took her other hand in his cold, dry grasp.
The priest opened his prayer book and began the marriage rites in sonorous tones. "Dearly beloved children of our Lord, we are gathered here on this blessed day to witness the union of this man and woman in the sacrament of holy matrimony..."
Tatiana tuned out his droning oration, which was in the ancient tongue of the holy scriptures of Orthavius. None of this ring exchange and hand fasting ritual held any real meaning for her. These traditions felt hollow and rehearsed, like two strangers playing dress up.
At last, the priest switched to the common language. "Lord Roman and Lady Tatiana, you may now exchange your vows before Orthavius."
Roman peered down his hooked nose at his bride. "With this ring and these vows, I take you as my wife. I promise to honor, protect, and provide for you all of our days, according to the laws of Orthavius." His flat tone betrayed no sincerity.
Tatiana's voice trembled as she repeated the prescribed words. "With this ring and these vows, I take you as my husband. I promise to serve, obey, and... bear you children, according to the laws of Orthavius." She practically choked out the final phrase.
The priest raised his hands solemnly. "Then by the power vested in my by Almighty Orthavius, I now pronounce you man and wife. Go forth and be fruitful, upholding sacred tradition."
He grasped their joined hands and held them aloft before gently pushing them together in symbolic union. Roman swooped forward to lift Tatiana's veil and planted a kiss on her lips. He pulled her tight against his chest. As their kiss deepened, she felt her knees grow weak.
A gasp rippled through the crowd, quickly smothered by enthusiastic applause. Tatiana, however, remained frozen in Roman's grasp. The searing kiss, devoid of any tenderness, had left her breathless and more apprehensive than ever. Yet, under the watchful eyes of the congregation, she forced a smile, her cheeks burning.
Lord Henri, booming with pride, clasped Roman's shoulder. "Congratulations, my boy! Welcome Tatiana to the family." Ariana, her face flushed with joy, leaned over and squeezed Tatiana's hand. "You look radiant, sister!" she whispered, her voice filled with genuine affection.
A wave of nausea washed over Tatiana as she saw Dante lounging in his seat, eyeing her with a predatory gleam. His earlier mockery echoed in her mind, contrasting sharply with Ariana's innocent well wishes.
The organist launched into a celebratory tune, and the attending guests began to rise from their pews. The priest, his smile now genuine, announced, "Let the festivities commence!"
A wave of relief washed over Tatiana. At least the formal ceremony was over. The following hours blurred into a whirlwind of well-wishes, clinking glasses of wine, and forced smiles. Roman, however, remained aloof, his stoicism a stark contrast to the joyous ambiance.
He spoke little, mostly terse answers to queries from guests. He barely acknowledged his parents, who beamed at him with a pride that seemed to pierce Tatiana's heart. It was a pride reserved for a son who had secured a valuable asset, not a son who had found love.
Tatiana excused herself from a conversation with a group of noblewomen, their chatter grating on her already frayed nerves. She found a secluded corner by a stained-glass window, its vibrant colors casting an almost dreamlike glow on the ancient stone floor.
As she traced the intricate patterns with her finger, a cold presence materialized beside her. It was Roman.
"Enjoying the festivities, my wife?" he inquired, his voice devoid of warmth.
Tatiana flinched at the cold formality. "Yes," she lied, averting her gaze. "It's all...very lovely."
He let out a humorless chuckle. "Lovely? This elaborate charade? I wouldn't call it lovely."
Tatiana's heart pounded in her chest. "Surely you don't-"
"Dislike it?" he finished; his voice icy. "Let's just say it wasn't exactly how I envisioned my wedding day."
His words confirmed her worst fears. This wasn't a union of love or even mutual respect; it was a calculated move on both their families' parts. A wave of anger, quickly followed by despair, threatened to engulf her.
Taking a deep breath, she forced her voice to remain steady. "Perhaps not," she conceded. "But it is done, is it not?"
He crossed his arms, his gaze unwavering. "Indeed."
An awkward silence descended between them, broken only by the distant murmur of the festivities. Tatiana desperately wished she could disappear, flee this suffocating marriage before it even began.
Suddenly, a boisterous voice called out, "There you are, lovebirds!"
It was Dante, a fresh goblet of wine sloshing in his hand. He sauntered towards them, his inebriated swagger a stark contrast to his brother's rigid posture.
"Enjoying the party, eh, Tatiana?" he slurred, winking at her with a sickening leer. "You'll be sure to enjoy the night even more, just you wait."
Roman's jaw clenched, and his eyes narrowed. "Dante," he growled, a dangerous edge to his voice. "Enough. Leave us."