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Dear diary

Today I broke up with Sasha Montego. You know her, don't you ?

I've filled you in on who she is right? His cousin! And I'm so happy I get to break up with her and end her session!

Maybe it was a great journey with her or maybe I'd spent a great time with her or maybe.... Just maybe it was just great for both of us and nothing else but I'd got my happiest moment when I saw her tears pouring down when she heard the word " it's over"

( Smile) oh dear diary! I've never been so fulfilled and elated seeing someone cried but today.... Just today, I felt on top of the word seeing her great tears falling at my feet

Such a great moment ( sighed) I'm sure it'll be edged in my memory and my mind for eternity! ( Chuckled )

But I'm not done. Oh no! Not so soon, his younger sister has now grown into a pretty lady. Oh dear diary, I do not need to tell you everything now

But once I get hold of her, I'll fill you in!!

****

" You bastard ! How dare you !"

A knuckle crashed with my right cheek sending me flying off my feet

Oh! It was a blinded blow

" How dare you do this to my cousin !" He screamed and before I could balanced myself on the tiled floor, I felt a grasp on my collar choking my neck with it

" You said you love her!" He screamed and another blinded blow landed on my cheek " you told me you love her"

Love?! I don't do love

" You fucking bastard !" He screamed " how dare you broke her heart ?"

I raised my head to look into his angry green eyes " I..."

" Shut up you motherfucker!" He yelled and landed another blow close to my mouth

I groaned trying to pull myself out of his grip, but damn! The bastard sure is not letting me go

" Cullen ...." I muffled

" Don't call my name " he shrieked, released my collar and stood straight. His hand went to his dark hair and he gave it a frustrated ruffle " I trusted you Martin "

I tried to sit myself up the door but a blinded pain sent me back " damn it " I groaned

" You fucking broke her heart Martin!" He yelled, his fist made contact with the solid wall

I managed to sit up on the floor " listen Cullen..." I began " it wasn't my fault"

He turned to me, his eyes laced with pure hatred " whose fault would that be ?"

" Listen..."

" You listen " he snapped, his index finger pointed toward me and his glare that was filled with dagger " I want you to listen Martin... From today on we are done !"

" Cullen we've been friends for ten years, you cannot just throw it away because of your cousin " I winced in pain when a hot pain pierced through my nose

" Shut the damn mouth!" He growled " you make my cousin cried and you expect me to still be your friend? Oh scratch that Martin !"

" Listen Cullen..."

" Shut up!" He yelled

I flinched for the first time hearing his angry growl. I must have pissed him enough for him to want to cut our friendship

But who won't be? I just broke his cousin's heart

Great! Just great !

Cullen stared at me for a moment, his expression unreadable. He walked closer to me and bent down to my level, his lips just an inches apart from mine " read my lips Martin, WE ARE DONE!"

****

" Aren't you thinking before you did it ?" James reprimanded me as he applied ointment on my broken lips

" What are you saying?"

" You know who Sasha is before you dated her, she is your best friend cousin"

" So... " I winced in pain and slapped his hand away " that hurt man "

" You should have know it would hurt before you broke someone's heart " he snapped

" Stop talking about breaking someone's heart " I snapped and stood on my feet

" Where is Cullen anyway ? "

" We broke up " I shrugged and walked closer to the standing mirror that stood besides my closet " he ends our friendship"

" Did you regret that ? "

" Scratch that James " I turned to him " you know how long we've been together "

" But Martin... " His brown eyes was laced with worries mixed with curiosity " you said you love Sasha "

Ugh! I snorted and turned back to the mirror. It wasn't so great thinking about Cullen or Sasha! And I don't wanna bring anything about them up

" Forget I said that"

I turned back to the mirror and stared at my reflection in the mirror. My face, a mess of plaster and my lips was swollen... All thanks to Cullen

My grey eyes moved from my lips up to my disheveled blonde hair and I let a sigh

Cullen has been my friend for ten year and he want to end our friendship just because of his cousin

I signed... Well, I really didn't blame him for wanting to cut our friendship off but you can't blame me too for breaking his cousin's heart

I stared at my face once again and I let out another sigh.

This is the first we are fighting that Cullen will hit me and I'm really sure this won't be the last time

I'm Martin Louis by the way, I think the only thing you need to know about me for now except, if you want to know I am 21 years old

I woke up to the loud ringing of my alarm and I jumped up, trashing the alarm clock in the process

" Monday morning" I mumbled sliding off the bed

Out of the days, I hate mornings in my life

I slid my feet into my flip flop. Walking away from the bed, my leg hit the reading table and I let out a hiss

" Fuck you "

" Is it morning already ?"

I turned and my gaze landed on James who was turning on his bed, his eyes half closed and his black hair disheveled on his head

" Get your fat bum outta the bed " I said walking into the bathroom

That's an irony, James isn't fat, infact, he is far from being fat

My toothbrush in my hand, I walked before the mirror and the first thing that reflected was my face decorated in plaster

" That motherfucker" I cussed

It would have been better if only he hit me on my face and never try to break our friendship, but the damn guy...!

" You wanna stare all day?"

James broke into my thought and I flinched, whirling around, he was there, staring at me with his big brown eyes

" Go away from here "

" No " he shook his head and walked past me " go mend your face first, you look like a giant centipede "

I chuckled " thank you "

I stepped beside him, not taking another glance at my ruin face, I began brushing my teeth.

The sound of the running water and the sound we made brushing our teeth was the only sound coming from the bathroom

I can feel James gaze boring at the back of my eyes, I know he wanna ask me questions concerning yesterday, but me being me.... I'm not ready to say anything

" Cullen didn't come to the hostel yesterday " James said beside me, his gaze not leaving my face

I shrugged " I guess he didn't want to see my face "

I move away from the mirror and walked under the shower, getting rid of my clothe

" You should apologize to him "

I lifted my gaze up to James who was still staring at me with his brown eyes laced with curiosity and pity

Oh yeah! I wouldn't forget how much James adores my friendship with Cullen, and so, seeing us appart won't have appeal him

" I did nothing to him " I mouthed

" But...."

I turned on the faucet, burying James voice under the running water

The water was cool, cool enough to cool my nerves and cool the throbbing pain on my cheek and cool the thought that won't stop disturbing my mind

*

" Are you done already ?" I yelled for the second time, drumming my finger on the table

James has been taken longer than necessary in getting dressed. If not for the fact that I've known him for quite a long time, I would have said he was deliberately keeping me waiting

" I'm done " he burst out of the room clad in a black jeans pant and a white crop top, his feet was clothed in a black leather shoes

Trust me, James can spend a day dressing up but end up dressing like an old beggar

I hissed, stood on my feet and swung my backpack to my shoulders. My gaze lingered on James face for a second and I opened my mouth to talk but...

" I know " James cut in, raising his hand up in the air " you don't need to tell me "

I chuckled lightly and shook my head. He'd know what I was going to say. Yeah! Because me and Cullen do say it everyday

" I'll say it anyway " I choked on my laughter " you look like...."

" Like a giant squid " James cut in with a roll of his eyes " you don't need to remind me everyday "

I let out a smile, a smile which didn't reach my lips because of the pain " glad you know that "

" Yeah I do " he smirked. James walked past me, hitting me with his long thin shoulder " meet me outside "

" Sure, giant squid " I walked away from the chair and was about moving out when my eyes caught something

No! It was Cullen bed... Neatly spread as though it hasn't been slept on, but then, it truly hasn't been slept on

I let out a weak Chuckle, tore my gaze away from his bed before I moved outside

" Took you long before you come out " James hissed glaring at me

" Since when are you so conscious of time ? " I lifted up my gaze to him who was equally glaring at me

" I don't know " he shrugged, tore his gaze away from me and fixate it on the sky " the sky seems so dull today "

I gazed up the bright sky, the morning sun beating me with its hotness. If not for the fact that, morning sun is equal to 'vitamin D ', I would have let out a strong cuss

" The sky is bright " I mouthed blinking up to James who wore on his face, a sorrowful expression

" Today is going to be dull " he mumbled

" Because Cullen is not here with us ?" I raised a brow at him and he slowly nodded, biting his lower lip... something he did whenever he's sad

I edged closer to him and grabbed his shoulder, his legs sagging under the weight of my hand and I let out a soft sigh

" You look so small James " I smiled down at him

Yeah! James looks so small, more like an eighteen years old kid

" I'm not small " he snapped, jerking my hand away from his shoulder, he shot me one playful glare before he match away from him

His feet almost slipping out of the leather shoe, I let out a soft laugh before I tore my gaze away from James

I didn't want to think I wasn't fair enough to James who saw Cullen and I as his role model....The kind of best friend he want. I was fair enough! To James, Cullen and even Sasha

But Cullen has never been fair, not to me, to James, to Sasha and I know he will never be fair, even to his sister

" And that's a good example Mr Riley " professor Greg commended Cullen who's given the right answer to the question asked

" I hope I'm as brilliant as him " mumbled James beside me, he was chewing on his pen and his gaze was far away far from professor and even far from Cullen " I'll be glad even if it is half "

Ignoring him, I fixated my gaze on professor Greg who was saying something about emergency treatment

" You didn't need to call an ambulance for a minor convulsing" he said, his dark pupils scanning round the whole class " save the life before the ambulance arrive "

" We've taught this before " I mouthed under my breath, not intending to be heard, but I think James fo heard me

" For my sake Martin..." James groaned " don't let him hear that "

I choked on a laugh and gave him a playful glare

It's what he always want, to be as brilliant as Cullen or as me

" And that'll be the end of our class " professor Greg said and before anybody could talk, he packed his book and walk out of the class

" Should have at least let us ask questions " James squeaked beside me

I turned to him " I bet you won't even dare ask any question if you're chance " I whispered to his ear and he flinched, sending his glasses down his nose. He swiftly picked his pen and ran his hand through his book " will you stare all years ?"

He dropped his pen and let out a devastated sigh. James lifted up his head, look before his before he turned to me " you know I don't know what to do " he said, blotch of red shaded crept on his cheek as he bit on his lower lips

" Maria won't kill you "

As though I've said something forbidden or quite delicious, James ducked his head and dipped his fingers into his ears

" I don't wanna hear her name " he cried out, shaking his head " please don't mention her name "

I chuckled, look from James to a red haired girl, her hair was braided in two and her eyes was covered in a white transparent glasses

I just didn't see why James will be afraid of approaching Maria. No! I didn't want to be rude, but Maria is sure more nerdy than my friend, more sulky and ....

Maybe I really have to be reminded that our heart do work separately... Yeah! Separately

" Take your time darling " I patted his shoulder

I packed my books and shoved it into my backpack, stood on my feet before I swung it on my back

" Let go have some food " and yeah!, My stomach made some silly noise as soon as it heard the word ' food '. We don't always eat breakfast and yeah! This morning wasn't an exception

" Let me pack my books " James said lowly and he lifted up his head, blotch of pink shade still on his face

I chuckled. Stretching my arms, I looked round the class trying to get myself busy with the view till James is done, but as faith will have it, my eyes locked with Cullen

He glared at me, no! Maybe shooting dagger at me would have been better, his lips permed in the most tiniest line I could ever seen. I looked down at his fisted hands and I let out a soft sigh

Of course we'd been together for so long to not know what his picture really portrayed... He was trying so hard to not fist his anger on me, shout out numerous cuss word at me and destroy my face with his balled hands

Oh Cullen ! Great Cullen! Muscled Cullen!

I tore my gaze away from his and once again, it landed on her... On Sasha Montego. Her brown hair covered half of her face but her swollen face and the big bag under her eyes was still glaring

Her blue eyes was laced with tear as she stared at me with that pathetic look.. maybe I have no idea or was she begging me with those pathetic face?

I tore my gaze away from her, but not without smirking. I really was good to her, so good to her! She has only got a swollen face, a big bag under her eyes and a free tears in her eyes

Others are worse from that... Worse from those pathetic swollen face. Their heart was also broken just like Sasha's, but they suffered the most terrible case far worse that her!

" I'm done " James broke into my though and I heaved a long sigh before I turned to him

" I thought you're gonna sleep here" I mouthed and James slapped my head softly before he ran out of the class

*

" Trust me I'm gonna catch you !" I yelled walking after James who was running but still slipping his pace

" In your dream!" He stuck out his tongue at me, looking like a giant squid... Yeah! Giant squid

I suddenly stopped on my track, not because I wanted to, but because I was forced to.

I whirled around and a deadly glare locked with my eyes, the familiar cologne swirling round my nose

" Cullen really did a good job to your face " his cold voice resonated in my ear

" Yeah, he did " I mumbled

" I'm gonna decorate it more "

Not like I don't know, I know what will happen if I ever break up with Sasha and I'm more than ready to face the damn consequences!