THE BADBOY STOLE MY HEART

Every new day was the beginning of each new nightmare.I had no escape but myself, My family would never understand what I go through.Imagine having a twin who looks nothing like you, on the other hand parents who didn't care about/ for you.

To feel alone, yet someone is always there to kick me, when I'm down.No one really knew me and what I could live with everyday.

After being tormented since I was eleven, which started off as petty, then grew into abuse, something in me and him changed.

And before I knew it, seven years later,I began to feel drawn to my bully. I was falling for the bad boy who broke me.

Wellups!! Here is my first chapter! This book is kinda serious, which is weird cause I'm the least serious person in the world! So you know this is going to be dramatic, hectic and comedy!! Because well it's me, so obviously you all are going to laugh while reading!! Argh!!! I'm getting really excited about writing this! Oh and did you see the cover for this story!? Props to me! Hope you enjoy my story!!!

Here we go....

When I finally escaped the hell hole freshman year,I never expected to go back. I mean, the bullying only got worse. Sure I was a bit chubby,I admit it. The thing was I didn't care how chubby I was,I didn't care that no boy liked me that way,I didn't care that all the clothes that were too cute to pass,wouldn't fit me. I just didn't care.None of that mattered to me. I am a nerd, but a better word would be antisocial so basically, lets just say I'm antisocial.

And that's only because after Adrian turned the whole world against me,I turned against the whole world. I started shoving my head in books,I started doing so much extra credit, that they literally couldn't teach me anymore.Sure I was able to go into college classes, but that would just make the bullying become worse with time. So I just declined, sitting in class, learning things I've gone over a million times in my head. It at least gave me time to think for my self. But now, sitting in this car, about to drive into my old drive way,I didn't want to go back to this life. The life where I took everything that was thrown at me without hesitation, because that wasn't the real me. I want to show people the me that I've hid all these years, the one that I've been trying to show since I was eleven.

So like I had said before, the bullying got worse, much, much worse. I don't know what it was that took a huge turn for me, it could have been the girl I met in a therapy meeting. She said that it helped her to feel better, so I tried it. I don't know if better was the right words I would use,I would tell you this, it hurt like hell. Although it still gave me results. Instead of feeling embarrassment and sadness,I felt control. Self inflicted pain. I hate taking orders from other people, they weren't allowed to hurt me unless I said it was okay. So instead of letting Adrian decide he gets to hurt me,I decided I would. I gave up on that now though. We left and I didn't talk to anyone, other than my sister Hannah. She was my twin, definitely not identical, seeing as how Hannah looked like a goddess. How she ended up with skinny body, perfectly tanned skin, exactly the right height for any guy, beach blonde hair, blue eyes and a smile that people can't say no to. I had to deal with my annoying drab plain hair, obese body fat that took a year and a half to loose, obvious blue eyes, pale skin, long legs that you'd be surprised a fat girl would have, and a laugh that could creep out Beetle juice.

My sister had found the cuts on my arm, and her being the caring sister she is,totally spilled it to mom and dad. I wouldn't tell them why or who was pushing myself to do it, because it's not Adrian's fault,it's mine. I could have avoided all of this but I just wanted to try it because it worked for other people. I told my parents that it was someone in this town and they immediately packed our bags and we moved. We moved about 8 hours away, far enough to get away from whatever it was that was bothering me, they had said. I didn't care were we where,I still didn't talk to anyone. I asked Hannah for help right away when we moved. She was my personal trainer and dietitian. I have her to thank for all the weight I have lost,exactly 120 pounds. Yeah,I said I was fat, now I weigh a healthy amount.

I could now fit in all those pretty clothes from fashion magazines. You know the ones that look a billion times better on the models than on you. If I couldn't wear it,I could dream about it, right? Well even though I could fit in cute clothes,I preferred cardigans, skinny jeans and my combat boots.Thats exactly what my closet consists of. I have like twenty different cardigans, fifteen pairs of skinny jeans and six pairs of combat boots. Yeah,I wasn't exactly making a glorious fashion statement. Sure I had shorts, and tank tops, heels and dresses even, but I wear that around the comfort of my own room. Like no one sees me in anything else ever.... Not even Hannah and she knows everything and sees everything about me. It's actually quite creepy when you think about it. Oh and when I say everything I mean I told her about Adrian, but I can't even show her what I would look like in a dress. Confidence, we will get there someday.

Hannah was the popular,gorgeous girl that everybody knew and loved. I was Hailey ,her clumsy twin sister who wouldn't so much as look at you when you talked to her. Plus I was a mess. I'm gonna have to face it,I'm a mess!! I talked to my sister at school, and the teachers and occasionally the partners I was assigned to be with for school, but anyone else was completely of no use for me to waste my voice on. Is that mean? Well then you can add mean to the list of reasons why I avoid people all the time. Well what more is there to say?!

My life isn't special.

" Hailey!! For the like hundredth time, get your butt up and grab your bag!". Hannah screamed."I'm so happy we are back home! I was not sure why we had to move back to our old house. It's nice that everything was left exactly how it was before, since we never did sell it. The reason we returned was because I promised that we could move back as soon as possible. I hated having the feeling that I took everyone away from their lives before, when they were happy.

Hey if you keep yelling I'm gonna shoot you. I said with my usual violent humour. What! My dad said loudly. I'm not gonna shoot actually shoot her... Where she will die! Hannah gasped and turned away swaying her hips like she normally does. I let out a small chuckle. She knows I'm kidding yet she acts like I'm serious all the time.

I finally had all my stuff put back where they belonged in my old room. I walked into my walk in closet to pull out some pyjamas. I threw on some basketball shorts and a sleeveless t-shirt, so my baby pink sports bra was visible. I went to the bathroom that was connected to my room and brushed my teeth. Well I also did something else in there that starts with a sh- and ends with a - it. Sorry was that too descriptive? Oh no, sue me. I walked past my bed and turned off the light, as well as shut the door. You see my family can be considered as that of a wealthy household. Yet, even though we have money, we don't surround ourselves with it.

Except for the few guilty pleasures, every now and again. You know what I'm saying.

I went downstairs to see Hannah sitting on the couch watching TV. I casually walked over to where she was and flopped down on her like a fish out on water," what the fuck are you doing Hailey! Hannah screeched making me laugh. Floopping like a fish, I said like it was nothing crazy at all.

" Your so weird! I faked a smile and used one of my amazing, and only skill acting, and pretended like it was the sweetest thing anyone could possibly have said to me. Hannah, you don't even understand how much happiness you give me! Do you? I am so grateful for your presence! I love you my twin sis, bring it in! I said gesturing her to gig me.

"Ewwww. Get away from me you creep! She screamed running away from me and outside the door. I laughed and was grateful for the fact that I have a problem with my feet, so I had my canvas on right away. This way I could run outside too and not dirty myself. Uh no thank you.

Hannah!! Just love me! I screamed chasing after her. She stopped when she reached the huge mass of grass that was in our front yard. She gave up and walked towards me. Okayyy, whatever! I love you too. She said hugging me. I took advantage and tickled her to the ground.

Hailey! You are a deranged child!"she screamed. I laughed again, yesss I am this time it was my ugly " oh my God what animal is dying right now laugh".

Gross Hailey! We really need to work on that laugh." I frowned and pinned her down to the ground, yes I'm stronger than she is obviously. I was sort of straddling her but it's okay,seeing as how we are related and siblings tickle each other and beat the shit out of each other, tell our parents on each other for everything,kill innocent families just for laughs.... Oh that's just my family? Hmm strange. Well anyways I had pinned her to the ground and she was fighting back, trying really hard to get away.

Okay sissy, time to kiss and make up! I said, smiling like the devil. That's when it clicked for her. Oh no, don't you dare! Fighting even harder than before.

I said kiss and make up, you agreed! Now kiss me baby. I puckered up my lips in an unattractive way and went ahead to close my eyes shut. Closing my eyes ended up not being the smartest thing to do, as I didn't see when she head bonked me.

Ouchhh! I screamed immediately jumping off of her. She got up and smiled while holding her head saying you think you are the only cunning one here! I guess you were wrong," suck it. She yelped, sticking her tongue out at me. I immediately forgot the pain in my head and started running after her again. This time she took off running though. I'm pretty sure she didn't know where she was going. I could just tell. Neither did I, we just kept running.

" Can't get me loser" she screamed from ahead of me. I instantly went warp speed and was hot on her tracks now. She let out scream then ran fast again. We were starting to get somewhere vaguely familiar but I didn't take that big of a notice. I just kept running.

" I'm right behind you sister" I yelled causing her to scream then she increased her pace and ran faster and then let out a laugh. All of a sudden she stopped running. Me being the klutz that I am,didn't stop in time and fell into her, causing her to fall to the ground and break my landing.

Ouchhh, she groaned". I rolled off of her and looked at her. She was laying down next to me on my right. Well,I'm sorry maybe you shouldn't have stopped,I grunted.

" Look", She cheered happily. I looked up and saw a park. It was a simple park with two swings, one slide, some monkey bars and a tire swing. It was our park,I haven't realised how much I've missed it over these last two years. I know it's lame for two teenagers to have a park that meant the world to them, but this park truly has a lot of memories from our childhood.

Hannah and I would come over here whenever we wanted to play, just to talk and laugh and also cheer one another up.We came here whenever we needed to get away from our boring and empty house. Seeing as how our parents worked all the time( which makes me wonder why they even care so much to come back, if all they are going to do is to be out on business trips) We would come to this park a lot anytime we felt lonely and were missing our parents. I finally snapped out of my daze to realize Hannah has been visualizing, and was also surprised.

"...... And we were just running, to no where in particular even, and we ended up here! That is just so crazy. I swear I'm pretty sure it must have been a calling or something.oh my God, how I've missed this park! Like sure there are a whole bunch of other parks all over the world and yada yada and all that jazz, but Hailey this is our park! Plus look at what great condition the park is in, nothing changed it still looks like old days, Look at the-

" Beat you to the swing!", I shouted jumping to my feet to race her there. She jumped up too and raced with me. She beat me on our way here so before I jumped on next to her,I pushed it once. Then I jumped on one of the swing by the left while Hannah was on the swing by the right, we swung around laughing for a little while.

" Let's go swing!"Hannah asked giving me her puppy dog eyes. I rolled my eyes and jumped off the tire swing, I could really start swinging though,I felt her pick up my hand and hold it. She intertwined fingers with me giving me a worried look.

" Are you okay with being back? Like honestly lee? She asked, using my nickname she gave me when we were kids, even though I didn't like it,I mean it sounds like a male Chinese name,don't you guys think so too. Anyways, I sat there for a second thinking. Well of course I knew I wasn't going to enjoy being back but so far it was just fine. Even though it was probably because I hadn't seen Adrian or one of his followers yet.

"Well I'm not jumping for joy,I'll be fine though. I'm kind of scared..... I said trailing off." of what" she asked,I took a deep breath. Of the fact that Adrian could do or say something and I go back to cutting myself. I don't want that to happen,I can't let that happen. Pls tell me you will help me so that it doesn't happen!? I asked holding back the waterworks. Ever since Hannah about it,one been more confident to tell her about my feelings and doubts. She's made me stronger just by listening and I couldn't ask for a better sister.

"Hell, why do people in books always talk about how strong they are and that they never cry ever. I cry constantly, sometimes for no reason even, just because it feels good to let it all out. I'm not even strong,I'm a wimp and I'm proud of it."

Oh,don't worry your pretty little head about it! Everything will be okay. Plus I'm gonna there, and the counselor said we have almost every class together so I can always be there for you. Just don't worry about it, everything will be alright. Plus how fun is it going to be to crash back into our old school almost halfway through the year and be in every class together! We are going to have so much fun, trust me. Oh and you can use your smart skills to help me pass in class " yes I'm smarter than Hannah". I rolled my eyes and giggled a little bit. Next thing I knew Hannah was sitting on me and we were doing the spider.

"I love you Hailey, and everything will be pain free and easy! Someone is being emotional and loving. I love you too Hannah, but your weight is killing me here and it really isn't making me pain free. "I said struggling ". She just laughed and stayed put, not that I expected her to stand up from my body.

" just suck it up hun",I'm not standing up anytime soon, you can as well swing allow while I'm on your legs, she leaned into me giving me a tight hug. I hugged her back and we stayed like that for a while.