Start to falling in love with you

Winter Pov.

(Her Parents Past)

I was restless in the room while calix was telling me something about the photos he had with him today.

It was in a box as he showed me one by one.

"You told me earlier about these old photos right?" I nodded. I remained standing in front of him because I couldn't sit on the bed.

I'm thinking about Ashong there, if he's still comfortable since he's been bent over for so long.

"Just put it there, I'll look at it later.."

That's what I said to Calix who stopped rummaging through the box. He put his hand down before looking at me.

"I thought you wanted to see this?"

"Yes, but because I have something else to do, I'll look into that later.."

"Am I bothering you?" I shook my head before smiling.

"No, I'm just going to take a shower because I just got home from the farm." Calix nodded before finally closing the box on her side.

"Shall I just wait for you at the rest house?"

"Yes, just wait for me there."

He nodded again. He placed the box on the side of the bed before looking at me again. From what I could see, he wanted to say something but was obviously hesitant. He sighed.

"Can I invite you to the house?"

"Now?"

"No, maybe at Christmas. Because mommy just wants you to be at home.." I couldn't answer Calix. I also won't do anything on Christmas because I'll just stay here with my family.

But I still don't know the event that will happen next week.

Christmas is next week, I don't have a plan yet and I don't know if I will have a plan.

"I also want to be with you, it's night. I'll let you know uncle.."

"All right. If that's what you want." he smiled at me. He grabbed my hand and pulled me to sit next to him.

I don't know what to do in front of calix. This wasn't the first time we shared the same room. He was here often, when we were still in high school we used to finish our homework together here in this room.

Mama and erpats have confidence in calix. But since our status has changed now from my previous youth, I don't feel comfortable anymore.

Especially now that I know ashong is under the bed and might suddenly bump into him and make a noise.

"You gave me an early Christmas gift, wen. Im happy today.." Calix was serious while looking at me. I used to blush every time he looked at me like this.

But I don't know why I'm fine now. I am not affected by his soft voice.

What's happening to me?

"We supposed to celebrate our 3rd month this 25th of December. Do you still remember?"

I nodded.

It's been three months. It was so fast and I never thought we would reach this kind of relationship. This is what I wanted before, but I proved to myself that I feel nothing but admiration for calix.

Until then, because it's true. I'd rather we stay friends while I admire it.

No love, I don't feel that. I have different feelings for Calix.

"This is the first Christmas we are officially in a relationship. I thought we wouldn't be.."

I just smiled again. I can't say anything because I don't feel well because of Ashong.

I'm annoyed because he hides underneath and I know he hears everything calix says.

I don't know if he's laughing or maybe he's angry.

"I should have confessed to you before, I wish we had been together before.."

"It's better that you focus on your studies before we become, last year at Fatima. That's what we're going to focus on right now.."

He smiled. He squeezed my cheek before pulling me and suddenly hugging me.

I leaned on his chest. His hand was on my back while his chin was on my head.

"I can study even if I am your girlfriend. You have never been a hindrance to me.."

I didn't answer anymore. I let him hug me because I knew he was just happy.

But I didn't stay long in our embrace because suddenly someone caressed my foot. I managed to separate from calix while being swallowed by what ashong did.

Calix gave me a surprised look. "What?" He kept his gaze on me before standing up to approach me.

"M-my stomach hurts.."

"Why? What did you eat?" Calix was immediately concerned because of the reason I said. But I don't feel stomach ache.

But I'm nervous because I can see Ashong's hand on the side.

"I-I haven't eaten anything, can you just wait for me at the rest house?"

"Are you sure?" he made sure while examining me. I nodded before he opened the door.

"I'm just going to go to the resthouse. I'm just going to take a shower.." I led him out. He didn't do anything but follow but he also stopped before I closed the door.

"Take your medicine before you go down. I'll wait for you there, okay?" I nodded. I hurried to close the door but he came closer to me which shocked my system.

He gave me a peck of kiss. He placed a kiss on my lips before walking away from the door..

"Take your time, I'll go first.." he himself went to the door before it completely disappeared from my sight.

I just stayed standing while blinking. I feel that this is not right, I feel that I am lying to Calix and that there is something wrong with me.

I can't explain my feelings because I suddenly felt guilty.

"S*raulo `yon ah.." I was surprised by the sudden appearance of Ashong next to me. I easily hurt him because of the stupid things he was doing.

"Get out, ass. Can you!"

"Tsk.." he averted his gaze. His forehead was wrinkled as he frowned. Later he bit his lip before turning to me again. "Is that guy kissing too?" he frowned. He stroked his hair before caressing his chin.

"I'm jealous.."

I laughed at what he said.

"Stop it first, ashon. I don't want it anymore, fuck me first.."

"Why would I do that?"

"Because that's what it's supposed to be!"

"Do you deserve to prove what you want?" I frowned at what he said. "I know how you feel about Calix. If you just love him, you won't hesitate to go with him this Christmas.."

I looked away.

"You shouldn't even enter that, assong. You will be satisfied with your girlfriend. That's my cousin, so don't beat me anymore because we will never lose."

He didn't budge on what I said. He kept staring at me hard before laughing.

"Right now, you can't change what I want winter. No matter what you say.." he walked towards my side. He grabbed the doorknob and was about to go out but he turned to me first.

Eventually he stepped closer causing me to step back.

"What is it again!"

"I just forgot something.." I leaned against my drawer door. It stopped in front of me and did not come close to me.

It bowed. He held my chin and quickly wiped my lips with his finger.

"Your not allowed to kiss anybody else. Just me, always just me.."

He turned his back on me after he did that. He walked out and left me in disbelief at what he said and did.

I even rubbed my hair before I realized what was happening. What does that guy really want?

Is it true that he no longer has feelings for Trixie? Impossible, How can he lose his feelings and turn to me so easily?

I washed my face before getting something to wear to take a short shower. No matter how hard I tried to get Ashong out of my mind, I couldn't.

I do not like this feeling. Especially since I have a boyfriend who really loves me. Calix should be the only one, no one else.

I left the room after taking a shower. There was no one at home because they were all at the rest house near the flower farm itself. The air is fresh there, it's also windy here but it's also very sunny so it's inevitable that you'll sweat.

I walked that from home to the rest house. I caught them there talking while mom was preparing food.

Calix was also there next to erpats. But I frowned at the presence of ashong there. They put Erpats in the middle while he was saying something. The men were there and on the other side were aunt Raquel and Trixie. I approached mom who was preparing food on the table.

He looked at me before lowering his hand. "Does your stomach hurt?"

I snorted. "Not anymore, maybe I just changed from the heat earlier.."

"Are you sure? Maybe you're just hungry?"

I shook my head. "No way. I don't feel like eating.." I looked at the table where there was a lot of food prepared. Most of that is my favorite but I'm not in the mood to eat right now.

"Do you have a problem?" I looked at mom. His gaze was sure to check me, so I forced a smile before adjusting my seat.

"Nothing, I just don't feel like it.."

"I know you wen, even if you are tired and lazy you will have an appetite when you see your favorite food.." I just closed my lips. Mom is right, but I don't want to share what's on my mind.

I don't want him to be mad at me if I tell him I'm not sure how I feel about Calix.

I just now thought about the decision I made that I wish I had thought about carefully.

I held my breath.

"Do you and Calix have a problem?"

"No, ma'am. Don't pay too much attention to me, maybe I'm just really tired because it's been a long time since I worked on the farm.." mom was still staring intently at me. I smiled at him before taking a plate to eat. "Calix ma and I have no problem. We are fine.."

"Just make sure, wen. I don't want you to play with love.." I snorted.

"It's not like.."

"This is the first time you have a boyfriend. Do you know that my first boyfriend was not your dad, I had several boyfriends before I met him here.."

"What are you going to, ma? That Calix is not the one I will marry?"

"You're just turning twenty-one, Calix is twenty-two. Do you think you are still there after five years? You're only twenty-six, right? At that age, you can only think about what you want to do, you're still young.."

I folded my arms at what mom said. I even glanced at calix who was now the only one talking to erpats. Ashong is no longer there and I don't know where he has gone.

"Your cooking is delicious, aunty.." I almost dropped the plate I was holding because of Ashong's speech beside me. I looked at it. He was holding a plate while taking food from the table.

"Really? Did you like it?"

"Yes. You can be an owner of restaurant, aunt. Your cooking is high class.." Ashong said, I gasped. I don't know if it sucks or what he is saying is true. But I know that mama's cooking is delicious, Ashong just overdoes the praise that mama is happy about.

"Oh, you. It doesn't matter, when you and my niece get married, I will cook.." Ashong was stunned by what mom said. He even glanced at me but I avoided his gaze. I don't want to look into his eyes, I don't want to look into his eyes because I suddenly feel different.

I can't explain that.

"I want you to be a mom, aunt Elena.."

My eyes widened when Ashong said that. It's not enough to say "I like your son" but he goes through it in a different way, abat!

"That's possible, son. I will be your third parent. It's only natural that we become a family because trixie is your girlfriend."

"So, do you want me to be your son?" I just grabbed the felt before leaning back in my seat. It's good to kick him to turn over and hit his head to realize.

What's going on with Ashong?

"Of course, you are handsome. If I were to ask people like you what I want for my winter. But since my son already has calix, I will just support him.."

I widened my eyes at mom.

"Mom!"

"I want calix for you. The only thing is, I don't like the course he's taking because it's possible that you'll sympathize when it gets into trouble."

"The bussiness course is not safe either ma.." that was my reply as I went to Ashong's course. I looked at this man who was just smiling at me.

"Your future is safe and secured if you love a business man." I laughed at what he said. I shook my head and let what he wanted to create in his mind. Why is he inclined to act?

Mama didn't speak anymore because Aunt Raquel and Trixie came to the table. Following them were erpats and calix who immediately sat down in the empty seats.

Uncle Frank announced that he would go out first because he was talking to someone on the cell phone about his business.

They only buy and sell abroad. He is retired Army and has a lot of funds in the bank. But they still need to earn money to secure their future.

Mom sat next to me. Calix also took his place by my side and let Erpats and Ashong sit aside. Calix smiled at me before whispering to me.

"Are you feeling well now?" I nodded. I feel fine. I only made excuses earlier because I knew ashong would show up if he didn't come out of my room.

"I said goodbye to Uncle Henry, he agreed.."

"Really?" I tried to smile. I can't name my feeling because I'm having second thoughts about going with him next week. This Christmas.

But I couldn't break Calix's mood so I smiled at him again.

"Mommy will surely be happy. They will go home tonight."

"Let's just surprise them, let's not tell.." Calix smiled at what I said.

"You really like surprises, huh?"

I didn't answer. I let him smile as he stared at me. Our companions at the table also had their own conversation, but that was what piqued my interest because of what I heard from aunt Raquel.

"You are a falcon right?" he was looking at ashong. She nodded before smiling at her aunt.

"Yes, aunt.."

"Are you related in the falcon group in Manila?"

Ashong nodded again. "My father is the head of falcon business group.."

"Oh my god.." Aunt Raquel covered her mouth. "Then, your wealth.."

"Not totally, aunt. Were just having a good bussiness and museum.."

"Who is your father again?"

"Richard Falcon.."

Auntie was still amazed before she looked at Erpats who was quiet while eating, not seeming interested in what was being discussed even though mom was already getting interested.

"So, you are the daughter of Angelina Bernardo Falcon?" erpats looked at aunt Raquel, she was stunned by the food as well as mama.

It seems like they suddenly heard a big revelation because they waited for Ashong to answer.

"Yes, I am the only son of falcon group, My mother is angelina falcon, the painter.."

It would be great if aunt Raquel gave me an answer. I just got erpats reaction because of what they were talking about. I also suddenly remembered the photo I had that contained pictures of Erpats and Angelina.

I don't know if they had a relationship before or maybe they were just friends.

I haven't asked that yet but I won't interfere with their past either.

"The world is really very small, imagine that. A falcon will return here.."

"Stop it Raquel.." aunt was stunned when erpats spoke. Ashong and Trixie were surprised by his actions. Even calix was speechless especially mom.

"Why henry? The children will also find out in due time.."

"I know, but don't give too much meaning to the young falcon's visit here.."

Aunt Raquel laughed. "What is the problem? We also just now found out that she is the daughter of Angelina, your former girlfriend.."

"Told you to stop!"

Erpats stood up with his palm on the table. It rattled before it looked at aunt Raquel.

"You should respect your sister Elena. Don't mention that.."

Aunt Raquel didn't speak anymore. I knew erpats was angry before he turned and left the table completely.

Mama also stood up and immediately followed Erpats. While the five of us were silent because of what Aunt Raquel suddenly revealed.

Ashong didn't react either because the shock in his expression was obvious. Even Trixie didn't know what to do.

"Why is your father so angry wen? That was a long time ago, I'm sure he forgot.."

I looked up at aunt Raquel. I was looking without emotion because I didn't like the shape of his tongue. Grandma Perla probably wouldn't like it if she was here, but I know she'll know by the time they get home from the outing.

"Father must have a reason for his reaction. It's also not good to open the past.."

"It has already happened, it has happened. What else is he angry about?" I didn't answer aunt anymore. I don't want to prolong the conversation because I don't know anything about her past with erpats. "Oh maybe because it is still affected by Elena's sudden pregnancy while she and Angelina are still engaged?"

"Mommy.." Trixie joined the conversation. Ashong is obviously ashamed of what aunt is saying.

Even I didn't like the last thing he said. But I didn't comment because it was too private.

I'm suddenly thinking. Dad got mom pregnant while they were having a relationship with Angelina?

I turned my gaze to the side. I'm not sure if it's true but I suddenly felt ashamed in front of ashong.

"That's enough, mom. Shame on philip.."

Aunt sighed. I didn't even pay attention to their conversation because I stood up and left the table where they were.

Suddenly I thought of the warmth of Angelina's blood in me. That was the rush of blood he felt because I was the son of a villapania.

Son of the man who cheated on her and left her.

Ashton Philip Pov

I was thinking at the whole day when I heard the past about my mom and uncle henry. I can't believe that they had a relationship before. I can't even imagine that mommy had been here when she was a teenager.

As far as I know, Aunt Elena is a native in Nueja Ecija. Winter's mommy. And also Lola Perla is the owner of their entire land the whole farm.

And uncle henry was just their old worker. Uncle Henry used to serve here while my late grandmother used to go here because she and Lola Perla were friends.

That's the story aunt Elena told me because she was suddenly embarrassed by the behavior of aunt Raquel, Trixie's mommy.

It told me that grandma often visited here with mommy. They met uncle henry until he courted her.

But aunt Elena admits that she made a mistake. Because he liked uncle henry, they both sinned against mommy.

That was the day mommy and uncle henry's love broke because aunt elena got pregnant and the result was winter.

I understand their situation. I didn't hold a grudge because I had no rights to get mad at them.

The only problem is that I don't know if the situation will be better if my mom finds out that I headed here again to the villapanias land.

I sighed heavily.

I was here under the tree and felt the strong wind while sitting. It's December twenty-fifth but I can't even think to celebrate Christmas.

Something seems to be missing with me. I don't know that but I try to be fine. I'm sure mommy is mad at me because I'm not home anymore. I also don't want to stay there when it comes to their business.

I'm getting tired about business talk. I can no longer feel how to have a happy family. I can already say that I have a complete family but there is something missing in our union.

Complete but not happy, There is money but something is missing. Not enough, because their priority is the growth of the business they built.

I leaned my whole body against the tree. People inside are busy because they can celebrate Christmas even if they are alone. They are happy, even if their lives are simple and they can make their marriage colorful. They will never experience what I have.

"You're complaining there.." I looked up at the woman who spoke. She wasn't looking at me. She looked straight ahead while carrying a plastic bag containing seedlings.

"I couldn't do anything inside, I was getting bored.." Winter scoffed before laughing a bit. It seems to be insulting me through mediation.

"You have a day to go home from Manila. But you would rather stay here than be with your family.."

"I didn't have any family at home either. After Christmas they will leave to spend time with the employees"

"Then why don't you join them. You're distancing yourself, man. What will Angelina say if she finds out you're here?"

I laughed when he called mommy. No aunt, maam, madam or Mrs?

A different class.

"I just want to stay here. I can still see you, I'm satisfied because I'm with you."

She just rolled her eyes. She didn't give any answer for what I said.

She turned her back on me and went down under the huge land.

I stood up, followed him as he patted the sun's rays in his palm.

"Where are you going?"

"Don't find out, go up there and don't follow me.."

"You took something from me, I will follow you because you have it.." she stopped for walking. She faced me with furrowed eyebrows.

"I didn't take anything from you, son. Go back.." I smirked when i got closer to her. His height was only about my shoulders, exactly my height. He's so cute, I just now fully appreciate what he has.

Her hair was blowing the fresh air. The smell of her hair never leaves my system. Her natural scent always makes me lose my sanity.

I keep falling even if I stop it. I can't control it, there is a life of its own that even if I don't act, it happens spontaneously.

This girl in front of me has completely stolen my heart.

"I didn't tell you to smile, dude. I don't have money to send you mentally. Go up.."

"You make me this crazy, winter. How could you do that?"

"That's just you, you're just thinking that.."

"Yes, exactly. That's what I'm thinking. You always appeared on my mind even im trying to be busy. How can you make me fall harder?"

Her lips formed with amusement. Later shook his head before laughing.

"I can't give you anything in return, ashong. If you fall, it's not my business. It's better to just forget about it.."

I am not affected by what he said. I know she still pushed me away. But I don't give up that easily. I want to pursue her because I know she is worth it. I know that what I am doing will not be wasted. I won't stop her until she becomes mine.

"Whenever you push me away winter. That's how strong I am towards you, It's a shame to you to pushed me away. Because no matter what you say, I'm fully yours. Because you already took my heart.." she pursed her lips as she stared at me. I stared back for causing her to look away first.

She swallowed and stroked her hair before leaving me where I was standing. Shaking my head, I followed him where he entered the plants.

I walked and didn't hit him. He was silent when I saw him put down the plastic bag he was carrying. It contains seedlings and even planting equipment.

He dug up the ground and immediately planted what he had brought there. After that he walked away from me without saying a word.

I followed until we reached the center. There is a pot there where you can get water. He came there, washed his hands and feet. The road leading here was so muddy that it was inevitable that my shoes would get dirty.

I still regret why I wore shoes today. I stepped forward to approach her. But I misplaced my foot on the ground so I slipped and sat in the mud.

She looked at me with a blank stare. But he bit his lip before looking away, holding back a smile because of what I had gained.

"Why don't you just help me instead of laughing secretly?" I mocked, still lying in the wet ground with a mud.

She glanced at me. Still biting her lips to resist her smile. But he also came to extend his hand to me, he would also help me but he would laugh first. It's really different.

"Who told you to lie there?" I feel bad about this because he is already laughing. She is still in a condition to tease me even though I have already sat in the mud. I'm really grateful to him and my heart goes out to him.

"Just help me first, winter.."

"How many frogs did you catch?" she kept laughing as she extended her hand to me to help me stand.

I grabbed her hand while I was sitting. Because of his laugh, I felt better. I pulled her so she could also sit where I fell.

He managed to sit down in the mud too. His eyes twinkled as he looked at me.

See. It's nice to be with someone.." he pursed his lips. No longer smiling as I brought my hand closer to him to smear the soil on his cheek.

He hit me very hard.

"What!"

"Your still cute, winter.."

He hit me the second time, he couldn't stand it either and covered me with mud too.

She hit my forehead with the mud. I was able to hold it before she stood up to run away.

I stand. I chased it to get revenge.

She totally had fun while walking away to escape me. But she was too fast that she tripped which caused me to catch up with her.

I smeared it on my cheek. He complained before he corrected me. Very sadistic and heavy handed, not satisfied and put it all over my face.

I stood up to stay away because she already ruined my face. But there he is and running away from me. I walked to hold her hand, she was laughing at my appearance before she took her hand back. But he slipped as he pulled the hand I was holding.

We both fell asleep because of the force he exerted. I did nothing but

support the palm on the side so that he does not completely run over.

She lay under me. She felt her fall before I looked at her face. Our faces were so close, even she didn't move as I stared at.

His face is dirty because of what I did. I know that we both have a cold because of the wetness in our bodies.

But I don't feel that way. Winter has a different effect on me. Not like the other women who can't satisfy me.

Winter is strange, she's not like the girls I've been with. I respect her but her lips attracted me.

I can't control myself. I keep losing myself just because I like her. I don't think that someone owns us anymore. All I could think of was that I wanted to kiss her.

I want to feel again how to kiss her. how soft her lips are. How is the true love that I only experienced with her.

He didn't protest when I tried to kiss him. He let our lips touch a few times. I can't name what I feel. I felt like I was floating in the air as our lips touched. It responded to my kiss, only softly as if it wasn't used to it. But he got me all excited. What he did was so simple but it felt triple to me.

I kissed her deeply. That's the only reason why she pushed my chest to break our kisses. She was panting with her lips half open. She couldn't look at me before she stood up to run away from me.

**************

I did NOT catch up with winter when I got home. Aunt Elena was surprised to see me dirty. I explain to her about what happened, she nodded before I asked where winter was. He said that his son has not come home yet. I frowned before saying goodbye to take a short shower.

The people are gone after I take a shower. There was a party here last night and I can tell they were fun to be with. They had an argument a week ago but they forgot about that too.

I headed to the resthouse because I expected winter to be there. But it was Trixie who greeted me while already sniffling.

"Where have you been, Philip?" she immediately put her hand on my arm. I didn't complain as my eyes searched for the missing girl. where is he "I'm looking for you. They are leaving mommy tomorrow.."

"What?"

"They have a client to assist. They won't be able to stay here mommy either.."

"So fast?"

"Yes. Are you going to stay here until new years come?" I don't know what to answer especially when I focus my attention on it. I don't know if I can last until the new year.

"I'm not sure. Trixie. Where's grandma Perla?" that's all I asked even though I wanted to go straight to find winter. She sighed before looking away.

Calix picked them up. Winter is with it, they're going to visit aunt Leonore.."

My forehead was deeply wrinkled. But I couldn't be more curious while trying to calm myself down.

Trixie also offered me to go inside. They were all there except grandma perla and winter. But I couldn't turn my attention to them. My mind is flying as to why winter still needs to agree to be with calix.

I'm dying to think. We don't have a relationship but I'll beat her boyfriend if I feel jealous.

Seven thirty in the evening when they decided to go back home. The flowerfarm was closed but I let them go first. Meanwhile, Trixie went with me but was obviously tired from taking care of some tourists earlier.

"I'm sleepy, philip. I can't go with you here.." I nodded to Trixie.

"I'll take you home."

Trixie nodded. It was obvious from his eyes that he was sleepy. I walked home with him, The way its too dark. But it's not even in my mind to be clingy to Trixie. I'm annoyed, it's not like before when I wanted her to answer me so she could be my girlfriend. But now that we're here I seem to be the first to give up.

"Aren't you going to sleep yet?"

I shook my head while looking at Trixie. We are in front of the house. The air here is getting colder. He hugged himself while breathing deeply.

"You alright?" she seems to notice my mood. I just nodded. "I don't know what's on your mind. Its been months seen you've changed.." I couldn't say what trixie said.

He bowed. There was a few seconds of silence before he looked up at me again.

"Are you sure you want us to be together?"

"Why are you asking me about that?"

"I just want to know. You know I choose you over Apollo." I couldn't comment right away. She chooses me over him? I thought apollo stopped flirting because he wanted me. "He decides to stop even he helped me about my studies. You know, apollo is nice guy too. But i like you more than i like him.."

"I'm sorry.." that's all I said. "I'm sorry if I'm not in the mood today. But im fine, were cool."

He just snorted before letting out a deep breath.

"I'm going to sleep inside." that's all he said. He didn't wait for my answer before he went inside.

I was left dumbstruck by his position earlier. I thought about the situation that happened to me while enjoying the cool air. I don't want Trixie to feel my coldness, I don't want to hurt her either. But how do I feel about winter?

I can't replace my feelings.

I can't stop it because I feel you on my own.

I close my eyes before brushing my hair. Just then a car stopped in front of the house so I turned around.

Lola Perla went down there with an unfamiliar man. I was waiting for winter to follow but the car left and I didn't see the girl I was waiting for.

"Why are you still here?" that was Lola Perla's question that I did not immediately answer.

"Where is winter?"

"Calix is with it, they just went somewhere.."

"Where did they go?" I couldn't believe what I heard. Where will that man take winter?

"I didn't ask anymore. But I guess that was a surprise to calix because it's now their third month with winter.."

"Why didn't you come?"

"That's just for the two of them, son. Besides, calix won't do anything to my grandson. I've known that boy for a long time.."

"How can you be sure?" grandma laughed at my reaction. He grabbed my shoulder before tapping it.

"Calix is a good boy. That will be respected and I have a lot of confidence in it.."

I didn't answer Lola Perla anymore. If they have confidence, I don't have anything!

That man's appearance! Maybe what will he do with winter while they're just the two of them?

Sh*t. How can I calm myself down?

"Come in son, winter will come home too.."

I nodded. "I'm just here for now, rest now.."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes grandma. Get some rest.." grandma smiled at me.

"All right. I'll leave you there.." grandma walked in. Again I was left almost restless. Jealousy is rising in me because I think winter is with another man. I want to mess up, but I don't know how! I'm disgusted, I'm disgusted with myself because why do I feel this way!

I want these feelings. But i don't want this d*mn jealousy! Its going to kill me hardyl!

Fvck!

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It was past ten o'clock when I heard an engine outside the house. I was in the living room with Uncle Henry. Even he has not slept because he is also waiting for his son.

While the others were sleeping soundly because they were also preparing for tomorrow when they left with Aunt Raquel.

Uncle Henry sat beside me before he placed the cup of coffee in the center table.

"Have a coffee first.." i grab the coffee he made for me. It feels different to me. I never experienced this with daddy, but I don't need to compare them. Since daddy is big in a rich family, I don't need to expect uncle henry to do this.

"Why isn't that boy there yet? I let him go but it was late.."

I immediately responded to uncle's anger. "You should get mad at her uncle, she is a human being and it shouldn't go past this hour of the night with her boyfriend..."

"I really don't know why he is not there. He didn't do it before.."

"It's good that we call calix.."

"You thought that was good.." I held out the cellphone to him so he could call Calix. He took Calix's number from his cell phone before typing it into my phone for him to call.

"Hello calix, it's me.." I listen to their conversation. But it is not clear because the cellphone is not on loud speaker. "Is that so? Be careful.." he ended the call. I looked in wonder before uncle handed the cellphone back to me.

"Where are they now?"

"They say they are on their way home.."

"Really? is it close?"

"Yes, they just went to the other town to go on a date.." I was speechless at what uncle said. My head is getting hot even though it shouldn't be.

I took a deep breath. I sipped my coffee and waited for calix and winter to arrive.

Half an hour before I heard the car engine in front of the house. My uncle and I stood up to take a look to see if it was them, at the door opening I saw winter getting out of the car.

calix opened her. It holds gifts even flowers that are sure to come from calix.

I frowned as I stood near the door. Uncle came out and met his son. Calix asked for a dispensation which was favored by the uncle.

I was shaking. Calix got into the car and left immediately. Uncle is holding his son while winter is wearing a long jacket.

"Calix will be home tomorrow, I just let him go for a walk.." my eyes rolled at winter's words. I didn't even wait for him to enter.

I walked up to my room to rest. I don't want to feel this, but I can't stop being angry just because she dated that guy.

I collapsed on the bed. My forehead was wrinkled as I looked at the ceiling. I'm not sleepy yet, I want to enter winter's room to ask what they did, where exactly did calix go. But I washed my face, why did I have to do that!

"Sh*t. I'm ruined!" I messed up my hair. I also got up because I really couldn't sleep. I left the room and passed by winter's room. It's closed and quiet, is he sleeping? Is it tired?

I shook my head. Am I still feeling this normal? Isn't it and I think I'm too much.

This is not normal.

I went down the stairs while massaging my forehead. I went straight to the kitchen and immediately opened the fridge. I saw some juice there which I immediately took. I gulped its contents down before closing the fridge, but I was startled to see who the person was on the edge of the fridge standing and looking at me.

"Why are you surprising me?"

Winter didn't move me. He approached the refrigerator without saying a word. He opened it while looking at the juice cans lined up.

"Where did you and Calix go?" he did not turn to me. He grabbed a drink and immediately closed the refrigerator door. "Why do you spend so much time together?"

He looked at me. "We are lovers, no matter how long we spend together there is no problem."

"Is it normal for your intercourse to last this late at night?"

"That's normal for lovers."

"But you are a very feminine person. That is not normal."

"You don't have to worry about that. Ash. I know you've been with a lot of girls, calix told me you can handle three at the same time in a month. so don't include me in your collection anymore.." he managed to pass me after saying that. But it hadn't even gone completely away when I pulled his hand back to me.

"Yes. Im collecting girls before, you know that. I admitted that to you before I met trixie. But that changed, especially when I met you. I don't want to collect another woman, because I intend to claim you.."

I saw her expression change. Even if he tries to harden himself, I manage to soften him. I get all his weaknesses, I know he is affected by me. I know that because I feel it.

"I can have you even your calix property, winter.."

I grinned before bowing to the girl I liked.

"Because I don't want to be a collector of girls now. Because the villapania girl is what I want.."

Winter Pov.

(Traitor)

I didn't ask for my life to be luxurious like others. It is enough for me that I have a happy family and loving parents. I am satisfied with the life I have.

I can study in a good university that most people want to go to. I eat enough for a day, someone takes care of me and looks after me.

I just want a simple life. Just like I grew up in the province that my mother has made me aware of.

But as simple and peaceful as my life is, the trend of my love is the opposite.

It was normal for me to have an admirer, a crush as young people call it. I didn't aspire to have a handsome boyfriend either. All I want is someone as loving as Erpats.

But the past few days have been very chaotic. I can say everything if Calix makes me feel his feelings. But for me that has no impact on my heart. I'm annoyed, I want to revenge myself because why should I bother?

Ashong himself is messing with my mind. I know it's wrong, It's not right because we both have boyfriends. We can't hurt these two because trixie and calix are important to me.

I sighed as I walked downstairs to the cafeteria. I went in early because I didn't want to be late for the first class. It was only half past six when I was here with Calix.

He went home early earlier. I'm already cooking so I can leave grandma.

Everything is back to normal. Both aunt Raquel and uncle Frank are in another country. Grandma came with me again because we discussed that I will finish here at Fatima. Mama and Erpats also agreed that this house will be sold by the time I pass the bar exam.

"What time is your first class?" calix placed a drink in front of me after he asked. There are not many students here because most of them are already in their rooms.

"Seven o'clock. I'll just finish it before I go up.."

Calix nodded. "I'm sure we'll both be busy with lessons this month. Especially since Fatima and Holycross will have finals.."

I'm drinking while listening to it. I'm also not interested in their varsity finals. I'm just annoyed because I'm still involved in cheering, I don't want to anymore.

"I won't join anymore.."

"Why?" I looked up at it. Maybe that's possible, I just don't want to waste time just to go to that university's anniversary. I don't even want to wear that uniform anymore.

"I just do not like. I will not cooperate anymore. You're not part of the team anymore, are you?"

"Coach talked to me, maybe I'll join.." he sighed. "I just didn't want Philip and I to argue anymore so I quit the group then. But you seem to be fine.."

I looked away because of what he said. For me, what I'm doing is a lie. Ashong and I are fine, because he likes me.

I can't say that to calix.

He didn't want to know more about that.

"Join too, wen. Do not go.."

I didn't answer it. I just finished my drink before looking at the woman sitting just in front of Calix and me.

Her hair is neat and often tied up. It fell and became even more shiny in its black hair. She applied a slight blush on. She has pink lipstick and her eyelashes are curly.

"Hi, winter. How was your vacation?" I can't smile at Deborah. It seems that he treated me suddenly differently. The last time we met, he didn't talk to me properly because of how I treated Calix.

"Oh, what? Is it not your fashion to answer?" he laughed at our reaction. Calix didn't move either but just stared blankly at Deborah.

"I saw calix post last Christmas. It looks like you guys really enjoy it. Are you with Philip?"

I nodded. "Tita Raquel, Trixie's mommy, invited him.."

"Ow. Really? I thought you were the reason why he was there.." I frowned at what Deborah said. "Because you and Philip are closer than your cousin's girlfriend.."

"What are you saying, Deborah?" Calix.

I looked at Calix as she said Deborah's name hard. He frowned at the woman who raised her eyebrows.

"I just want to say that she and Philip are closer. Isn't it winter?"

I just stared at Deborah. I didn't plan to answer this because he seemed to know something I couldn't.

"Winter and Philip are already friends now. Philip asked for forgiveness for what he did to my girlfriend.." calix said with emphasis on the last word. Deborah didn't say a word anymore, instead she just stared back at Calix.

calix faced me and ignored deborah's presence. I don't even know how to act because I feel that Deborah is looking at my boyfriend.

"I'll take you?"

"Deborah and I are just together.." I noticed Calix was stunned by what I said. I can also feel Deborah turning to me, obviously shocked. "Be first, you might be late for your first class.."

"Are you sure?"

"Of course. Deborah is often with me, isn't she?"

"Yes but.." he turned to Deborah. I don't know what really happened to the two of them because of the sudden change in their behavior.

"What?" Deborah laughed because she thought she was facing me. "I won't do anything bad to winter. We were friends right?" deborah looked at me. I don't feel like we're friends anymore. But was he really my friend?

"Text me after your class, I might be able to join you for lunch.."

I just nodded to what Calix said. We also stood up, Deborah went along before she finally approached us.

I was still a little stunned because of the uniform he was wearing. It was brand new, he had it tailored to fit our normal skirt. Her cycling is almost showing up, you can see that. Especially its longsleeve that comes closer to his body.

Her upper button is half open. Its middle chest peeks out slightly.

"Let's go?" he held me by the hand. I couldn't say no more before he asked me to leave. I saw her smirked at Calix. I didn't give that any more meaning because of his hand on my arm.

"How was your first boyfriend winter?" we walk to the room. I looked at him, he was waiting for my answer as our walk became gentler.

"It's fine, nothing has changed.."

"What do you mean nothing has changed?"

he laughs.

"Calix and I have a normal relationship. Nothing has changed in its treatment of me.."

He nodded. "So, you haven't kissed yet?" I didn't answer, causing him to laugh even more. "You've been together for more than three months, that'll be four, but you still haven't had a kissing scene?"

I looked away. Calix never tries to kiss me, He respects me like her mom. He does not exceed its limits. But I don't know what to do when he asks for it.

"My god, winter. By the way, it turns out that Philip was your first kiss.." My eyes rolled at Deborah. I felt like a bomb exploded in my chest because of what I heard.

I was stunned while looking at Ashong. Some students were also looking at us because of the sudden scene he made.

"Why are you not using mg card?" I looked away. Because I didn't use the ATM card he gave me in exchange for my help then. I will not use that even though I know the budget contained in it is thousands.

"I'll give it back to you, go away.." I bowed again as I was writing. I could smell the chicken fillet, which is my favorite, so I ate it for now.

"Eat first.." I looked up at this. He remains standing in front of me and seems to have no intention of leaving.

"Get out of here.."

"I wont leave if you dont touch that foods I prepared for you.." I bit my lip before caressing the feeling. I simply turned to the students who didn't pay attention to Ashong's presence.

"Because that's Trixie's cousin.."

"I know, they look alike.."

"But, villapania is smart. That's a top one.."

That's what I hear in the whispers behind me. Closing my eyes, I let ashong stand before I moved the page of paper to write my name.

He sat in front of me. He watches what I write before he speaks.

"You seem to be having a hard time writing right now.." I looked up, except that only my eyes moved as I bowed my head. "Your last name is too long, you want me to shorten it?"

I hesitated.

"It's easy to write falcon to replace your last name.."

I moved away from the table before glaring at him. But it just smiled at me.

"Winter Villapania Falcon, its suits on you.."

"Get out of here before my eyes go dark.."

He laughed. He bit his lip before going downstairs. I widened my eyes at him before slapping my hand.

"Don't look at me like that here!"

"It's okay for your eyes to get dark. I will also give light to your dark world.."

My lips opened at what he said. I was horrified before laughing a little.

"You don't often eat corn, do you?" I laughed while asking that.

"Depends, not often but I like.."

"That's why you're corny.."

"I would rather be corny, than bitter. You make me like this, I wasn't like this before.."

"Then it's my fault why are you mad now?"

"Yes. Who else?" he grinned, he took my paper that only contained my name. He wrote something there. After that he put it back on the table before smiling at me.

"I'm leaving. Eat well.." he stood up. Smiling like a timang before sitting in his seat with giovanni. giovanni makes fun of him but he's fine with it.

They are friends.

Trampled, but handsome.

I held my forehead. What handsome? Thank you He is handsome!

"Hey.." I turned to the woman sitting next to me. Its trixie. "What are you doing?" looking at this paper now.

He brought food that he had placed in front of him. It looks like it will go well with me.

"Wow. Who did this?" My eyes widened as he read the paper on my desk. I don't know what's there and I have no idea what ashong wrote earlier.

"I love you three times a day.." Trixie laughed even more because of what was read. While I was just blinking because of what that guy wrote.

I love you?

"Why did calix write a letter like this? It's just childish.."

I faked a smile at Trixie when she looked back at me. I want to say that it was literally a child's mind that did that.

None other than her boyfriend.

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