Five times I died.
Five times I tried to build a life, a bond, with Ethan Cole, and five times I failed.
The last time was a masterpiece of cruelty.
He knew.
All along, through every new face, every persona, he knew.
"I'd rather jump off this skyscraper, Amelia, than be with your desperate act."
His icy words cut deeper than any simulated death the ReLife Program put me through.
My current identity, Maya, drowned three days later.
Always an accident.
I was trapped in an endless loop of new lives, new hopes, and the same crushing, inevitable end.
Just survive.
Stop dying.
Exhausted, I was offered an unprecedented choice: Ethan, or Liam Walker, his best friend.
As consciousness faded, a desperate whisper echoed: "Next time... choose me..."
A dying hallucination?
Or was it Liam?
I chose him.
I became Sarah Miller, armed with five lifetimes of observation, determined to finally break the cycle.
But Liam wasn't the salvation I hoped for.
He was aloof, his actions bafflingly calculated.
My carefully planned "accidental" encounter with CEO Liam ended with a cold dismissal, leaving me shattered.
Was I destined to another death, or could I finally escape this cursed program, and the frustrating game he seems to play?
Five times.
Five times I'd tried to build a life, a bond, with Ethan Cole.
Five times I'd failed.
Five times I'd "died."
The last one was a masterpiece of cruelty.
Ethan, standing on the balcony of his penthouse, the city lights a cold glitter behind him.
His voice, smooth as ice, cut through me.
"I'd rather jump off this skyscraper, Amelia, than be with your desperate act."
Amelia.
He'd said my original name.
He knew.
All along, through every face, every meticulously crafted persona, he knew.
The humiliation burned, hotter than any of the simulated deaths the ReLife Program had put me through.
My current identity, Maya, the young analyst, had drowned three days later.
A sailing trip. An accident.
Always an accident.
Now, darkness.
Then, the familiar, sterile hum.
The reset.
My body ached with a phantom pain, the echo of cold water filling my lungs.
Despair was a heavy blanket, smothering what little hope I had left.
Just survive. That was the new goal. Forget a new life. Just stop dying.
A calm, synthesized voice broke the silence. Coordinator 7.
"Participant Amelia Hayes. Current identity: Sarah Miller. Reset cycle five complete."
No emotion. Just facts.
"A program recalibration is now in effect," Coordinator 7 continued, its tone unchanging.
"You have demonstrated... resilience."
A pause. Was that a flicker of something in its AI voice? Probably my imagination.
"For your sixth Integration Task, an alternative has been authorized."
My breath caught. An alternative?
"You may select your Integration Target."
A beat.
"Option one: Ethan Cole."
My stomach twisted. No. Never again.
"Option two: Liam Walker."
Liam. Ethan's best friend.
A choice.
For the first time in this endless loop, a real choice.
A tiny, fragile seed of something – not hope, not yet – but something other than pure dread, took root.
I opened my eyes.
New room. New sheets. New body.
I sat up, the standard ReLife Program disorientation fading.
This time, I was Sarah Miller. Twenty-three. Recent graduate. Entry-level marketing. Boston.
I went to the mirror.
The Agency always gave me a beautiful face.
This one was no exception. Dark hair, blue eyes, a face that was pretty but wouldn't stand out in a crowd.
Standard template. Unremarkable.
It was meant to be an advantage, they said.
Blend in. Make connections.
It hadn't worked with Ethan Cole five times.
He saw past the pretty faces. He saw Amelia.
And he despised her.
"I'd rather jump off this skyscraper, Amelia, than be with your desperate act."
His words echoed, sharp and clear.
That was as Maya, the fifth try.
The sailing trip, the cold water, the panic.
Then, nothing.
Until now. Sarah Miller.
I touched the face in the mirror.
It wasn't mine. None of them were.
But the weariness in the eyes, that was all Amelia.
All mine.
Sarah Miller. Living in a small apartment in the North End, according to the file uploaded to my neural interface.
Working a dead-end job.
My mission: integrate. Form a deep, stable emotional bond.
With Ethan Cole, or now, possibly, Liam Walker.
The bond was supposed to be my anchor, my protection.
Failure meant another reset. Another death.
I was so tired of dying.