Selling myself to the Alpha

It was late at night. A big black Lincoln SUV drove into a fancy castle in a very expensive neighborhood.

Inside the castle, Bella Reed couldn't see because her eyes were covered with a silky blindfold. She wasn't allowed to know who was with her.

"Don't be scared. Take deep breaths," Bella whispered to herself. She knew it was important to help her dad get a new liver, even if it meant sacrificing a little. She had to keep convincing and comforting herself.

Bella couldn't ignore the sound of the car entering the castle. She had no choice but to keep talking to herself, trying to stay calm.

When Alpha Lucian Craig walked in, Bella noticed him even though she couldn't see. He was tall and looked strong. She greeted him nervously while taking a step back.

Bella had tried to prepare herself mentally for this, but she was still scared when it actually happened. She felt weak and wanted to run away.

Alpha Lucian didn't know if what he was doing was right, but he had to find a woman and have a kid before his next birthday, as his father demanded. He saw Bella as a young girl standing in his room.

"Why are you afraid?" he asked Bella. His voice was deep, calm, and captivating.

Bella was surprised by his voice. She wondered how someone middle-aged could have such a beautiful voice.

"I don't have any diseases or weird desires," he reassured her. He wanted her to know that she didn't have to be shy but that she was scared of him.

Before Bella could recover from her surprise, he told her, "Let's begin." His voice sounded serious, like he was starting an important event.

Suddenly, he lifted Bella into his arms. It was the first time Bella had ever been carried like this, and it made her heart race.

"If it hurts, tell me to stop," Alpha Lucian reminded her. He thought he was being considerate.

But his words made Bella even more scared. He reached out to touch her, and she tried to move away.

"Don't move!" Alpha Lucian commanded sharply. He grabbed her wrist firmly and pulled her closer, warning her to stay still.

Bella didn't dare to pull away anymore because she felt embarrassed. She thought if he was young and handsome, he wouldn't need to pay for a child with someone like her.

Bella had a question in her mind. "Why did you want to do it naturally when it was supposed to be an IVF procedure?" she asked.

Alpha Lucian's warm breath touched her forehead. He gently pinched her, and it hurt.

Bella's forehead was sweaty, and she couldn't think properly. She struggled, but Alpha Lucian held her down firmly.

Alpha Lucian knew he had to be gentle with her to ease his guilty conscience. He tried not to lose control of his own desires.

That night, Bella felt like a leaf drifting on water. She experienced pain, tears, helplessness, and drowsiness.

When Bella woke up, she looked at the clock and saw that it was three in the morning. The butler, Lisa Thomas, was still awake. She offered to take Bella to the bathroom politely, but Bella wanted to take care of herself.

Bella felt exhausted and sore all over her body. She remembered a dream she had about a boy named Craig from her middle school days. He was her school's idol, and she had fantasized about having an older brother to protect her.

Bella locked herself in her room and tried to forget her feelings for Craig. But that night, she received a message that Alpha Lucian was coming back.

The castle became busy with preparations. Bella's body was already tired, but she couldn't refuse or complain about the frequency.

When Alpha Lucian entered the castle, he went straight to Bella's room. She stayed silent, afraid to even make a sound. The air was tense and quiet.

...

Every night, her job was to have sex with him until she became pregnant with his child. That was the agreement they made. Alpha Lucian held his coat in his right hand and lifted his left hand. He stared intensely at the blindfolded woman and gently placed his large hand on the back of her neck, pulling her towards him until she was pressed against his body.

Bella stumbled, froze, and held her breath. She didn't dare to move.

Alpha Lucian lowered his head to examine the girl who was practically in his embrace. His throat moved, and he pursed his thin lips, looking closely at her clean and fair face, which was about the size of his palm.

His eyes became more intense, his gaze slowly traveling downwards. Finally, he focused on her tender lips...

However, the contract clearly stated one thing: no kissing.

"Let's begin," the man said in a rough voice. He discarded his coat and turned off the lights as he carried her in his arms.

In the darkness, she furrowed her brow deeply and bit into the pillow. She didn't dare to make a single sound. She sold her body and her womb and soon her baby for her father's sake.

Once he was done, the man left.

Bella was completely exhausted, on the verge of passing out. She stayed curled up on the bed for a long, long time.

The doctors said it would be easier for her to conceive this way.

...

This continued for more nights than she could remember. Alpha Lucian Craig would show up at the Castle every night, regardless of how late he finished his work. He never missed a night.

Alpha Lucian's middle-aged driver, Carlos Finn, who followed him around, was Lisa's husband. Both of them were experienced and wanted to give their young master advice. They believed they should take it slow, rushing things wouldn't be healthy!

However, their young master was known to be harsh and cold-hearted. He was difficult to handle, so the couple kept their mouths shut.

They could only watch as the young girl became weak and drained day after day due to their young master's demanding desires. It seemed like all her energy was sucked out.

It was the last night of the month.

Bella couldn't predict this man's actions anymore. Sometimes he was gentle, but other times, he seemed determined to cause her pain.

Through it all, her body started betraying her too.

Once they were finished, the man tidied himself up and put on an expensive watch, looking like a proper gentleman. He coolly addressed the girl curled up under the covers, saying, "I await the good news."

With that, he left.

The bedroom fell silent once again.

To Bella, this stranger whose name and appearance she didn't know was nothing short of terrifying. He seemed to conceal a released monster within him, and that frightened her!

That night, he left the Castle later than usual.

She heard him leave the room and stand outside the Castle. There was then the distinct click of a lighter, echoing loudly in the empty Castle.

She felt the urge to get up, to sit up and look outside the window, hoping to catch a glimpse of him. But deep down, she feared that what she saw would be a nightmare...

...

A month later.

Bella held the early detection pregnancy test that finally displayed two deep red lines. She had anxiously waited for this positive result throughout the entire month. Apart from Lisa, she hadn't seen anyone else from the agreement, not even that man.

If she hadn't conceived in that month, she would have to repeat those activities with him at night, just like the previous month--

But now, she finally tested positive for pregnancy! What a relief!

All she wanted was to safely deliver this child and complete her mission, so she could gradually forget this traumatic experience.

Eventually, everything would become a faded memory, right?

Once the other party learned of her successful conception, they immediately arranged an intensive check-up schedule for her.

When Lisa approached her with the follow-up arrangements, Bella had two requests.

Firstly, she wanted to keep attending school as usual until she started showing. Only then would she take a break from school in preparation for the birth.

Secondly, she wanted to stay in her rented room in the meantime. She felt more comfortable there.

She couldn't adapt to the vastness of the Castle, not at all.

"I'll have to consult my boss about your requests. After all, the baby in your belly is his child!" Lisa turned around and made the call, standing next to the tall window in the hospital.

A minute later, Lisa ended the call.

"The boss agreed to your requests."

Bella nodded, feeling somewhat dazed as she thanked her.

...

Later that afternoon, back in her rented room, she called the hospital. "Hello, is this Dr. Joyce? Can you give me an update on my dad? How is he?"

"Don't worry," the doctor replied. "We received the funds, and we'll have a donor soon as well. We're already preparing for the surgery, it won't be long!"

"Thank you." Bella didn't know what else to say. She had earned the money and the donor by selling her body.

Should she feel happy?

Should she feel devastated?

Neither!

After she hung up, she lowered her head and collapsed on the table, staring into space by herself. After a while, tears soaked her lashes despite her efforts.

Taking a moment, she wiped away the tears with her palm.

Then she forced a smile. Her dad was saved. That was definitely something she could be grateful for.

...

Five months had passed.

Bella's belly was growing bigger.

Lisa was taking care of Bella's school leave.

When the staff member left, the school leader walked her out, shook her hand, and said goodbye nicely.

Bella stayed back, a little surprised by how the leader showed respect towards Lisa. Did this mean that Lisa's employer, who was the father of Bella's pup, was really important?

Bella tried not to think too much about it.

Lisa came to her at the bus stop and said, "Don't worry. I told them that you are unwell, and we will all keep your pregnancy a secret."

This made Bella feel relieved.

That day, Bella went to the hospital to visit her father.

She was only eighteen years old but was carrying a pup from an unknown man. Her father, Tomas Reed, would not accept this!

Luckily, it was autumn, so she could wear more clothes to cover her bump.

She wore a thin sweater, but her belly was showing, so she put on a loose hoodie to hide her body.

This was the best hospital in the Pack with the most advanced medical technology.

Bella reached the floor where her father was. She approached his room, but before she could go in, she heard her stepmother, Jessica's voice...

"Listen to me, Tomas. We have two daughters, right? I know Marisa isn't your biological daughter, but she considers you her father..."

Before Jessica could finish her sentence, Tomas interrupted her. He had been resting in bed for several months now and was starting to feel better. "Tell me straight. What are you trying to say? After all, we're a loving couple."

"I know you love me and our Marisa," Jessica said softly, holding Tomas's frail hand. "You mentioned before that you wanted to send Bella abroad for her studies after she finishes high school, right? Our Marisa is only two years older than Bella, and she's been skipping classes and spending time at bars. I'm really worried. She's my only biological child. Tomas, I want Marisa to study overseas with Bella."

Bella stood outside the door, looking concerned.

Marisa was twenty years old now and had started skipping classes since middle school. She smoked, drank, and stayed out all night. People called her "special" because of her behavior.

Bella didn't have a good relationship with her non-biological older sister.

Tomas Reed wasn't a rich man. He had saved a total of six hundred thousand, working hard every day to support his second family. Unfortunately, his health declined, and his liver was failing.

Even though the doctor said he was close to dying, Tomas refused to use any of his savings for his own treatment.

Two months ago, Tomas explicitly stated that he was giving up on getting treated.

Once the patient had given up on life, there was nothing anyone else could do, be it the doctors or his own biological daughter.

Tomas even tearfully forced his daughter to hear out his will, saying, "Bella , I didn't accomplish much in my life. All I did was save you this six hundred thousand. Don't be too upset after I die. After the funeral, take this money and go study overseas! Live your best life! Don't be as greedy as your mother, and don't be as useless as your father! As long as you take that to heart, I don't mind dropping dead right now!"

Even now, Bella 's eyes reddened whenever she recalled that moment.

She knew very well that her father was going to save that six hundred thousand for her studies even if it meant sacrificing his life. That was why she had no choice but to make that deal in secret, in exchange for some funds and a suitable donor for her father.

She stood outside the door, looking at how her father and stepmother professed their love for each other. Instead of feeling glad, she just felt an unprecedented sense of frustration.

Finally, Bella did not go in.

When she went downstairs, she happened to bump into Marisa.

"Oh, if it isn't our good little Bella ." Marisa shoved Bella lightly with one hand, a cigarette for women held between her fingers. She then blew a mouthful of smoke into Bella 's face and then assessed Bella 's body up and down, clicking her tongue. "You're eighteen now, and your father's dying without the money for his medical fees. Whadaya say? Wanna try selling out a few more times? You could keep your dad alive for a while longer."

Bella looked at her revolting older sister evenly, her expression blank. It felt as though her frustration was building up so much that she would explode if she did not vent, so she spat in Marisa's face, "I love your suggestion. It must feel so relieving, like letting a huge one rip!"

Marisa glared at her with her beautiful eyes. Bella 's attitude had instantly ticked her off!

"Damned brat, so you have the guts to talk back to me now?!"

Bella walked away, dejected.

Marisa was so angry that her hand shook. She turned around and yelled at the top of her voice, "There you go, acting all holy again! Well, I can't wait to see when you show your true colors! Even your dad said that your mom's shameless! I think you should get yourself checked out at a decent hospital, just in case you turn out to be the b*stard child of some one-night stand!"

...

When Bella was seven months pregnant.

She could clearly feel that the life inside her belly was growing much more energetic now. It would kick her and that gave her an unprecedented happiness.

After a while, she started to imagine what the baby would look like once it was born.

Would it be a boy? Or a girl?

Her stomach was so huge. Was it getting too much nutrition?

Since Bella overheard her father agreeing to send Marisa overseas as well at the hospital that day, she stopped going to the hospital quite so often.

It was not that she stopped loving her father. It was just that her stomach was getting larger, and she was worried that her father would be able to tell that something was wrong if she visited him too often. The heavy down clothes could help her hide it, but it was not infallible.

Besides, Jessica was constantly by Tomas 's side. Bella did not know if she was really that concerned about her husband's health or if she was more worried about saving that six hundred thousand for Marisa.

Bella could only hold her head and hope it was the former.

...

A little while later, Bella found out that her father had gotten out of bed and back to work, doing overtime and going out on business trips without a moment's rest.

Bella was angry and exasperated, and she tried to persuade her father several times over the phone, but it was all to no avail.

After the new year.

Her expected due date had arrived.

She stayed in the best maternity room the private hospital had to offer, and there were a few female doctors caring for her all day, every day. They ran tests and watched over her every need, making sure not to miss a single thing.

Bella never tried to find out who the baby's father was, but these people would sometimes discuss him openly in front of her. They never said his name, but Bella could be certain that the baby's father was definitely no ordinary businessman.

Bella did not know the slightest thing about her own condition, but she later heard the results of the doctors' discussion.

They wanted her to go for a c-section.

After that, she was wheeled into the operation theater.

She did not feel any pain during the process. Maybe it was hurt a lot after the anesthesia wore off.

The child had lived inside her for about nine months, but now it had suddenly been taken out of her!

They had to go their separate ways now!

The feeling of parting with her own flesh and blood pained her terribly.

It was a sharp ache that pierced her in the heart.

Before she knew it, her tears flowed past the bridge of her nose and dripped onto her cheek.

From the very beginning, all of this was just a fair and formal deal, right? So why did her heart still hurt like this?!

Lisa had been keeping an eye on Bella 's emotions the entire time, watching as she wept helplessly.

Finally, when Bella was wheeled out, Lisa executed her orders and told Bella , "You're only nineteen. This matter will only ever be a secret you must hide for life. Child, I hope you will shake this off soon, and I hope you have a good life from now on."

Lisa was consoling her, but the words were cruel.

"Can you tell me if.... It's a boy... or a girl...?" Bella asked weakly.

"It's a girl, and she's perfectly healthy," Lisa replied just as Old Master Craig told her to. They wanted to avoid any unnecessary trouble in the future, so they had no choice but to lie to Bella .

In truth, she had given birth to a pair of twins, a healthy baby boy and a healthy baby girl.

Bella closed her eyes, her face pale. She was exhausted and sleepy.

A girl.

There was a new life in the world now. It was her daughter.

...

Bella only stayed in the hospital for ten days.

She could not stand doing nothing in the hospital all day. She could not stand the pain of having her thoughts centered around her daughter and nothing else.

Once she left the hospital, Bella returned to her rented room.

The first thing she did was call her father.

It was Tomas 's phone, but Jessica was the one who picked up. "Bella ? Your father's busy. What's the matter?"

Bella paused. Since when had it become so difficult for her to reach her father?

"When will he be free?" she asked.

"I can't say for sure. Your dad's working really hard to make sure you can go overseas. Should I tell him to call you once he's free?" Jessica said.

"I'll wait for his call." Bella lowered her head and hung up the call.

In truth, she knew that Jessica would not pass the message.

Right now, she could count her living relatives on one hand.

Her father had gone to another Pack and was working desperately for this strange family of theirs.

Her newborn baby daughter might be in this Pack , or she could be somewhere else. From the moment she was born, that baby only belonged to the man behind that deal.

As for her mother, it was as though that person had never existed at all.

Bella did not know what the woman looked like, where she was, what kind of a life she led, or if she ever once missed her daughter.