Return Of The Lost Lycan Princess

"I don't like her."

I was in my room when Adam was engrossed in conversation with his friends, I caught bits of words that sent a chill down my spine.

My hand, poised to knock gently, froze in mid-air as I overheard those disheartening remarks from my supposed future mate. Clutched in my trembling fingers was a carefully prepared meal, a dish his parents had assured me was one of his favorites. I had hoped to surprise him, but little did I know that I would be the one taken aback.

My heart sank as Adam's unkind words echoed in my mind. This wasn't the first time I had heard him speak disparagingly about me. He had never been keen on the idea of us being together, always questioning why he should be forced to marry me out of all the women in our pack. His disdain was not a secret, and he made it known to my face.

"She's like a weak child, constantly in need of protection. I refuse to have someone so feeble as my partner. I despise her very existence," he uttered callously.

With a forced smile now replaced by profound sadness, I bit my lower lip, willing my emotions to stay in check. Deep down, I had always known that he would never truly accept me as his future mate. I had strived to meet his standards, but I was never enough, and I never would be.

Soon, he would ascend to become an Alpha, and for me to be a worthy Luna, he expected me to match the strength of his mother. Those were the words he frequently hurled at me whenever the topic of marriage arose. But as a mere human, how could I ever become like his mother? I lacked any trace of werewolf blood in my veins.

From my earliest memories, I had felt like a burden to my adoptive parents, though they loved me wholeheartedly despite not being their biological child. Sadly, my presence brought them shame and disappointment. They suffered because of me, and I couldn't escape the sense that I was unwanted in our pack.

Time and again, they pushed me away, regarding me as a stain on their lineage. Though each hurtful word wounded me deeply, I bore it all, yearning to prove myself worthy. But this time, I couldn't hold back the tears welling in my eyes.

Adam's degrading remarks struck at the core of my soul, leaving an indelible mark. How could I ignore his hurtful words when they came from the person I loved the most? He meant everything to me, but all he desired was to cast me aside.

Was I not worthy?

"I will be the happiest person when that pathetic weak girl disappears. I don't want to see her anymore. I hope she goes somewhere and never comes back." I felt his words. He was not joking. He wanted me to disappear.

I put down the food and ran while my tears flowed like a river. I loved him, but I knew in myself he would never feel the same as long as he saw me as someone who couldn't match his mother's power.

I was just a human, a loser, and a disgrace to the pack. I had been fantasizing about being the strong and beautiful Alpha's Luna, until one day, he pinched my chin with a look of disdain and said to me cruelly, "I reject you as my Luna. A lowly human like you only deserves to die."

And my heart was shattered instantly. While my tears flowed, I saw Adam's lips curve and show me his cruel smile. He hated me that much and wanted me to die.

Without any hesitation, he said those words in front of me. Without a second thought, he didn't even consider my feelings.

My heart skipped for a moment. I wanted to tell him about what I felt for him, but he just rejected me and even wished me to die.

"You are not that important. A weak human like you was like garbage that was easy to be thrown." He brought his face closer to me. "I didn't want you to be my Luna. I rejected your whole being. Just die. I wanted you gone, weak human."

Adam had everything that every woman wanted. Strong, independent, powerful, handsome. He was good at everything. Maybe I needed to accept that there was some other girl out there who would match his expectations and become a better Luna. And that girl was not me.

"Just gone. I didn't want to see your face again." His voice was deep. Those words coming from someone I loved were carved into my heart.

"A Loser and a disgraceful human would never have the right to be the respected Luna. Stop fantasizing about being the strong and beautiful Luna. I would never accept you," he continued to tell me more words that would cut me into pieces. But even though he did that over and over, every broken piece of my heart still chose him.

"You heard that, Alice? I rejected you as my Luna."

I stepped back and ran away. I couldn't stop my tears. I was a useless human. How could I continue my life, if Adam rejected me to be his Luna?

He wanted me to die...

He rejected me...

He didn't want me to be his mate...

There was no reason to be alive....

I ran... and ran... until I reached the top of the mountain. My eyes were blurry from tears, I was familiar with this place.

I didn't know if what I was thinking was right, but I wanted to end this misery. I wanted to end my life by jumping off a cliff.

This was what Adam wanted. I loved him, to the point that I could fulfill his wish. He wanted me to die, and now, I would make it true. He would be the happiest person when he got the news that his pathetic, weak, unwanted, and unloved Luna was dead.

I wiped the tears from my eyes and walked straight to the edge. When I looked down, I saw how high this cliff was. There was nothing I could hear but the sound of water calling me to jump.

I closed my eyes and recalled every memory with my parents. I was sorry, Mother, for my decision, but this was for all of us. Adam would find another Luna, and I would soon be forgotten. No one would remember the weak, unloved, unwanted, and rejected Luna. I was not that important.

I opened my arms widely, and finally, the wind hugged me for the last time. I let out a heavy breath and opened my eyes.

I saw how beautiful heaven was. I let my lips curve into a smile for one last time.

I might not say goodbye to them, but I let the wind tell them my decision. I let nature tell the not-so-interesting story of a girl who loved Adam Perry, the strong and powerful future Alpha.

"This may be the goodbye that no one hears."

I closed my eyes and jumped.

It was a tiring day. When I got home, I immediately went to my room and let my body rest in my soft bed. Blank ceiling appeared in my eyes.

"I reject you as my Luna."

I heard again those words I said to that pathetic human. Maybe from what I said, she would understand that I didn't like her. Even if she tried everything, I would never let a weak human be my Luna.

Alice was weak. She didn't even surpassed my expectations in girls. I didn't know why my parents wanted her to be my Luna. I did everything to be as powerful as my father, and then the one that was supposed be my Luna was a far cry from my mother's strength? That was unfair on my part. There were some other girls who had the power that would make all men turn. But how the hell, among those girls, did my parents choose that pathetic weak human? From the very start, she shouldn't be in our pack. She was not that important, not even beautiful to be recognized. I hated it when my mind kept reminding me of her.

One knock on my door brought me back to life. I felt down. I knew it was my weak pathetic Luna again. I didn't want to see her, but I needed to open the door for her. I got up and walked to my door. When I opened it, the cold wind blew in my face. I was surprised to see someone else.

"Adam, was Alice here?" It was Alice's mother.

I opened the door widely to show her that Alice was not here.

"She didn't even come here."

"She told me before that she would be here. She said she wanted to talk to you about the wedding plan."

"I didn't see her before. She was not here," I lied. I had been with her just now and rejected her.

When I said those words, she cried out loud, and before she fell, Henry carried her mother. I arranged myself just to give them sympathy for the things that I didn't have any idea about.

"What happened?" I asked calmly.

I had been with the human and told her I didn't want her to be my Luna. I had rejected her and looked down on the things she was capable of. I told her I wanted her gone. But now, I didn't know why I felt this. There was something in me that wanted to know what happened to her.

"We didn't know where Alice was. She disappeared."

I fell silent when I heard those words. I remembered what I had said earlier. Did Alice do that?

"Anywhere she could go? What about her friend's house?"

"She didn't go to anyone. She always wanted to be with you. Besides, she only had one friend, and Alice was not here," Henry said. Before I could give my words, he carried his mother who never stopped crying for what happened to her child.

I felt guilty. I didn't know why. I wanted her gone, but now... I didn't know.

I went outside and talked to Henry.

I just let Henry tell me everything he knew.

"I was not sure about this, but what if Alice jumped off the cliff?"

"What? No, she would never do such a thing."

"Did you tell her something that would trigger her?"

"No..., of course not."

I had. I had told her everything. But I knew she would never do such things. But what if she did?

I remembered all the hurtful words I had said to her earlier.

I said to her face that I wanted her to die.

Was this all my fault? Did she feel hurt of what I said to her? I rejected her as my Luna. But I only said what I felt.

"I would take the responsibility to search for her."

"Please, Adam."

Henry told me more about her sister's disappearance. He told me, someone saw Alice cry and go somewhere. When the moon came, they looked for her, and my place was the last place they searched for her.

Alice knew she was a weak human, so why should she feel hurt? It was her identity. And now, it made me feel guilty for what I had said. I hated her, but now, I hated myself even more.

"Please... Please, bring my sister back. My mom would be sad if Alice never came back." Henry suddenly cried over his younger sister. Alice was not his real sister, but he loved her that much.

"I would find her soon. I hope I would," I said it in a low voice.

After that conversation, I went back to my house. I wanted to have a good night and sleep peacefully, but how could I, if I was worried about that weak human?

I rejected her and wished her to be gone. But now... I felt guilty for what I did.

"Maybe she jumped off the cliff."

I heard again what Henry said to me. Did Alice jump? But what the hell did she think to do that? I needed to find her. I couldn't have a peaceful night, when this guilty feeling haunted me every time I thought about that weak girl.

"That weak human!"

I didn't control myself. I changed my form and went somewhere that Henry told me. The wind blew slowly, while the moon brightened even more. My silver fur showed its power.

There was nothing on my mind right now except for the urge I needed to find the Luna I rejected.

It has been three hours since I came here to the bottom of the cliff. I heard the water waves and felt the wind even colder now. I didn't stop just to find where Alice was. I looked for her body smell. But I failed to find her. She was not here. I didn't find anybody of a weak human. Even her orchid scents disappeared.

As the cloud hid the moon, I changed my form. I tried even harder to find Alice and went somewhere that might be her hideout. But I never found anyone here.

I let my heavy breath out.

"Where are you, Alice?"

As I told those words to me, I remembered her mom. She cried a lot and thought that her child might be dead now. How could I tell the news to my pack? They might have blamed me for what happened to my future Luna. Soon, I would become an Alpha, and what happened to her was not good for my reputation. My parents would have hated me if they found out the reason why Alice committed that shit.

If she did jump off the cliff, she was so stupid to decide that. I wanted her gone in my life, but not like this. She gave me more headaches and started to give us more problems. What was on her mind to do that?

That was one of the stupid things that humans like her did.

She was the weakest and stupid person I have ever known.

Disappointed in myself, I went back. The sun was about to say hello to every creature. I have no courage to tell anyone that I didn't see Alice. Before I went home, I decided to go to Alice's home, where I heard her mother cry again. She hasn't stopped since yesterday night. As I heard it, I even felt more guilty about what I had done to their human child.

I knocked on the door, and later on, Henry opened it for me. He even looked at my back, he hoped his sister was with me.

"Did you find her?"

I shook my head. "No."

He didn't talk back, he let me in. As time went by, the house was filled with sorrow. Should I comfort them with kind words? But how?

I saw Henry go to his sister's room while he cried. Alice's family loved her so much, they felt hurt by her disappearance.

When everything fell apart, I tried to go to my father's house. I needed his help, to comfort Alice's family. I didn't know what I should do anymore. I never tried to comfort anyone when their hearts got broken. This was my first time.

"What you did?"

"I did nothing. I searched at the bottom of the cliff, and didn't find her."

"Did you tell her something?"

"Of course not. I did not do anything," I lied over and over. I didn't want them to know the truth about my last conversation with Alice.

I told every lie to my father, but still, he blamed me for what happened to that human. I also felt hurt by the news. Those feelings scared me a lot. What if everyone blamed me? I did not do anything that might harm Alice's heart. What she heard was the truth. She was weak, and now, for killing herself, she was so stupid.

After we talked about things, we went back to Alice's home. I saw them cry over and over. Alice was an adopted child, I didn't know the real story behind them and decided to adopt a weak human. Since then, I didn't give Alice any attention, not until they decided that she would become my Luna when I became an Alpha. If they didn't do that, everything would be fine.

"I promised that Adam would look for her every day. He would never stop until we found Alice. Don't lose hope."

I was shocked when I looked at my father.

"Was it true, Adam?" The old woman's voice still has sorrows.

I let out a deep breath. "Yes."

I didn't know why my father was determined to find her. I know every life is important. But searching for her every day would make me feel exhausted. I wanted to find her, just to make everything good. But still, it didn't mean that I wanted her back in my life.

"Thank you, Adam. Please find her," Henry said in a low voice.

I smiled at them. I couldn't fulfill those promises. But I would try everything I could, just to find where that weak human was.

My father and I comforted them with kind words. Gave them false hopes, just to make them feel okay. I hoped they didn't hate me for what I had said to them, which I knew I couldn't fulfill.

We talked more and more, so they could forget what happened at least for this time. When the time came, my father and I said goodbye to them and told them that I would find Alice now.

We walked until we went home.

"Should I need to find her? She could be forgotten, right?"

As I said those words, my father looked at me straight.

"Just did what I said. You need to bring her home. No more questions, just did what I'd said, Adam." It was deep and heavy.

I let my breath tell him that I didn't want to do it. "Okay."

I didn't get it. Why did even my father wanted her back? Humans like Alice were easy to forget, did they have something that made her special to everyone?