Rejected Wolf

I was dropped off at the edge of the pack land when I was just turning one. I don't really remember the day, but I do recall the fear. Fear and agony rippled through my small form, making me feel as though something terrible had happened. A sense of helplessness that had wounded my heart.

I am aware of what they said. I was informed that I was not wanted. They remarked that I was fortunate to have found such a kind group when I did. They informed me that I had become one of them.

In the first few weeks, I was moved into a pack family that included two kids, a daughter named Lyall and a son named Remus, as well as their parents. Lyall was noticeably seven years older than her brother and unmistakably resembled her mother. When I got there, the boy was just fourteen months old.

I was informed of the fundamental details they had discovered about me. One of those days happened to be my birthday, and I felt relieved to have retained some of myself.

I developed a close relationship with my adoptive brother throughout the years. Due to our ages being so similar, we would pretend to be twins in front of our classmates, who would fall for it. Saying that we were twins seemed far more natural than discussing my predicament in detail, which I was already forbidden from doing. My adoptive sister Lyall, however, was a different story; I don't believe she ever found it in her heart to accept me, which affected my sense of self-worth, particularly given that I am a werewolf.

I was discouraged because werewolves are known to strive for approval and to belong to the pack. This is why rogues were typically emotionless. Although some of them were, as I was told, just pure evil, they sealed out their wolves' feelings to prevent the sense of rejection.

However, a few years later, when I was about five years old, my adoptive parents died in a fire, increasing the distance between Lyall and I, whilst Remus experienced the exact reverse. Remus and I rapidly became close, whilst Lyall quickly became distant.

Lyall left to work as a pack doctor for the Peak Pack some three years later. Although she was only fifteen, she had diligently studied throughout the years she spent keeping us at a distance in order to one-day leave and lead a better life far from her actual problems. I was aware that she believed my actions contributed to the passing of "our" parents, but she would never admit it.

I resisted letting her leave. I had read two accounts of the Peak Pack and knew how vicious they actually were. She didn't like me much, but even so, I still had concern for her welfare. I had heard that the previous pack doctor had been killed because he was unable to save a warrior-a life for a life. The pack apparently has never been this way, but the kingdom has darkened with the death of the King and Queen, and I wasn't sure what to make of it all.

Remus, "my" brother, found his partner after he turned eighteen. a beautiful young lady who was a Beta's daughter. The Beta was happy to see his daughter mate with Remus because, of course, he also had a son. I was just ecstatic that Remus was content. It caused me to think about my partner.

He would be who?

What would be his title?

What if he is a criminal?

But despite everything, I was still certain that I would adore him. Whether he was an omega or a rogue doesn't matter to me. If I had Jacob Gonzalez, who is still just four years old, I wouldn't even mine. Considering if this was my mate, I wouldn't mind. I wouldn't ever refuse the one who the Moon Goddess had determined I should be with.

I frequently considered my wolf as well. Contrary to popular belief, males do not experience their wolf any earlier than women do. It serves only to boost men's sense of superiority. Women underwent a transition at the age of eighteen, just like men. I'd be concerned about my wolf, just like my mate.

What name would she go by?

What is her age?

Does she like me?

The final query caused my body to become a nervous wreck as I pondered it for hours. Remus had always made an effort to talk to me about the problem and explain that the wolves could never hate their human, but my anxiety remained unreasonably high.

"It'll be alright." He made a point by squeezing his hands together. He was sitting with me on the bench outside our house, his dark hair slightly streaming. "My wolf has informed me that they never turn against their human until the person has made them reject their love. May, you're doing just fine. I responded with a long sigh.

"What if I unknowingly reject my mate by accident?" I was tense. The possibilities in my mind are endless. "My wolf would never speak to me thinking that I was stupid." Remus chuckled, no, he was in convulsions.

What, How, What? May, you are hilarious. How will you unintentionally reject your partner? Simply put, it's impossible. To get rid of the artificial tears, he wipes his eyes.

"I'm for real," I squint my eyes. What if he intends to reject me because he already knows that I am his mate? Will my wolf then loathe me? I don't intend to be a rejectable wolf, so please don't hate me.

Remus's expression straightened after a few more giggles. "First of all, the word rejectable is incorrect. Two, it's quite improbable that you will get rejected, therefore I know you'll be alright. I relaxed some tension by nodding. Furthermore, if he rejects you, he will weaken. No wolf would choose to be feeble.

"I suppose so, but make sure Remus does this." He raised an eyebrow at me as I rose. "Promise me not to go rogue if rejection did happen and I was left with a broken heart. Okay?"

His expression was one of wonder. Why would you want to go rogue in the first place?

"Because I'm unsure of how I'd react if I were rejected. Just make a promise.

His hair was being combed by his hand. "Yes, I promise." I gave him a wide grin.

"At this point, bring your friend over. When will you two re-move in together? I made fun. His flush was as red as a tomato.

After school, you are aware of this. He complained.

I gave him a cheek squeeze. "Just double-checking." He shook my hands off as I joked. I chuckled at what he did. In any case, how is the application progressing? I quizzed him.

He had applied to join a program that would allow him to investigate the legendary strength that some wolves possess. A silver wolf was believed to be exceedingly powerful, and a white, black, or silver wolf was thought to be extremely powerful. He had always been interested in learning more about this side of the werewolf community.

His expression quickly became happier. "Everything has been completed. Just need to get approval from the Alpha. He informed me. I gave him a pleased smile before laughing.

Surely, you ought to have consulted the Alpha before drafting the application. He gave an eye-roll.

"I mentioned that a while back. He appeared to be completely on board. I blinked. Additionally, they promised to provide housing for my future partner and family. I laughed at his red face. In any case, I get paid to conduct study, so it's excellent. It's a fantasy.

I'm happy for you as long as you see your little sister. I grinned.

"You are aware that the word 'ole' means 'old,' right? You simply referred to yourself as young and old. Woman, make up your mind. He laughed.

"I despise you." I replied by rolling my eyes.

As I walked near Remus's car, my hands were tingling with anticipation. Not only was today graduation day, but it was also my birthday. My anxiety was so intense that I barely slept last night, but my enthusiasm won out over my anxiety. I would gaze up on stage, stare into his brown, no blue, no green, whatever color eyes he had, and faint if my friend was in this pack because it was sure that we would run into each other today.

"You all are OK. Your partner won't turn you down. Remus gave comfort. He'd been doing that rather frequently lately. Oddly, it helped when he would remark it on the spur of the moment. I had conquered my fear of being rejected.

Who has the audacity to reject their partner? ...

Hopefully not my own.

"We're picking Louve up on the way over, okay?" I grinned broadly and nodded. His girlfriend Louve was also in our year, which facilitated their relationship and I also adored Louve. She never frowns and is constantly very vivacious.

"All right." I replied by hopping into his black vehicle. Despite the fact that I don't know much about cars, I admired his automobile. I only know that a black mini would be quite appealing to me.

He jumped in after me and swiftly got the car going. I swiveled my head to see out the window. Oddly, it was fairly cloudy today, but I didn't let that get me down. No one has the right to take away my happiness.

We arrived in front of Louve's home quickly. From a mile away, you could hear her chirpy squeal as she sprinted for her partner. Remus had already gotten out of the car and was reaching out to his partner. She unfortunately rushed right by him and toward my window, which was bad news for him. She threw him a smirk as her face turned frowning.

I let my window down. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY," She cried out. If I hadn't grown accustomed to the volume's breadth, I might have winced. As she pushed my gift through the window, I laughed at her. It's not only from me; it's from Remus and, if we decide to have a kid, our future child as well.

"Him." Louve glared at Remus as he clarified.

"Look Remus, since she emerges from my vagina, I get to determine the gender. I don't see you having a kid taken away from you. Remus gave her a forehead kiss as he rolled his eyes.

"Whatever you say, sweetheart." Remus said softly. Louve muttered something about choosing a girl over a son and her mother's foresight.

"Anyway..." Louve began. It's your birthday and I'm not pregnant yet. She goes on. "So, please open the gift." As Remus encircles her waist, she offers words of encouragement. I groaned and made a 'tch' sound as I rolled my eyes.

I unwrapped the package in the same way a monkey would after going ten days without food. It contained a laptop. This brought a smile to my face right away, and I stretched out the window to hug them. Remus and Louve may have thought it was rather strange because it appears as though they are hugging the automobile.

"It's so you can Skype us while we're away at the Golden Moon pack." Louve jumped up. Oh my God, I'm so happy.

Remus's application had been approved by the Alpha, and everything appeared to be in order. They invited me to accompany them, but I declined because I detested moving and didn't want to leave my best buddy behind.

"All right, that's great. Nerd, take the backseat. Despite sticking my tongue out at him, I complied and cautiously moved the laptop along with me.

When we were all set to go, we began the little walk to the school's premises. We were humming along to some songs and cracking up at jokes. I wouldn't have this. I would never forget this.

When I got to the school, I observed that there weren't any automobiles in the regular parking lot. Because there will be a lot of cars in an hour or so, they have made the yard available for parking. Remus clarified. To prevent someone from breaking the window to grab my laptop, I nodded and put it in the boot of the car.

Standing there with my brother and a buddy in my graduation attire made me feel a little uncomfortable. It was a little humiliating, but I should probably laugh about how stupid I appeared in my previous life. For now, live in the now and accept my stupid, awkward self.

We have a meeting in 20 minutes. I'm going to go to the field with Louve to see what the scene is like. You want to go? I gave a headshake.

I'll track down Daciana. He nodded as I continued.

Daciana had been my closest buddy ever. She and I were closer than Louve was. She has always supported me. Our parents dropped us off to the pack daycare, where we first met. Since we were both being as sociopathic as hell, we had kind of been forced to meet.

As I moved down the hallway, I caught sight of some last-minute jokes. Although some of them were a little funny, they all seemed noticeably worse than in years past.

I was suddenly engulfed in a smell that was so alluring. My body began to move without my control as my mind flew into a frenzy. Unbearable was the scent. It smelled, to me. Try it out. I was unwilling to let it go. I hoped it would endure.

I ought to purchase a candle with this scent.

I appeared in front of a classroom door suddenly. I slammed it open right away, eager to get to that smell. I turned to face him and saw his back, which was as rigid as could be. He appeared to be squaring off with his wolf.

It worked. "Mate?" I quietly muttered. He was aware. He acknowledged it with perked ears.

His brown eyes gently turned to mine as he slowly turned toward me. His rough locks appeared to flow flawlessly, and his attractive jawline completed the look. Along with expressions of joy and grief, his face conveyed both determination and uncertainty. His facial expressions baffled me.

I just froze there. I wasn't sure what to make of the man in front of me. On his way to me, he appeared to hold onto every table as if he were trying to keep his wolf under control.

"Ashina." His tone was simultaneously gentle and frigid. His eyes were hazy and appeared to be continuously changing between black and brown.

I was thinking more clearly as I fixed my gaze forward. Dolph was in this. Dolph, the youngest member of the Alpha family, had been in a serious relationship for three years with a partner who wasn't their match.

I regret it. The temperature. The conflict that exists within humans and wolves.

He would have rejected me.

"No." I yelled loudly. "No, thanks. Dolph, please. Avoid doing this. Clearly, tears were streaming down. He maintained a fixed expression, but I could see the emotions repressed in his eyes, and I could feel a small amount of water rising.

"I'm sorry, Ashina." I heard him say. "I cannot simply end my relationship with Rieka due to you. She is my love; you are my partner. Broken to the core. The tangible fragments are falling. I was dizzy. I was unable to relax. I clung to my body in an attempt to stop the anguish. You'll find someone better, you're a good girl. I'm sorry if I let you down. As a torrent spilled down my cheek, a year ran down his. We locked gaze. A mental conflict is starting.

"No. This is impossible for you to accomplish. You cannot simply challenge the Moon Goddess. She paired us together for a reason. I objected. At this point, I was lying on the ground. My legs were in so much pain that they were unable to take it.

Saying "I'm sorry." He spoke quietly.

I was your partner, and you knew that. You've known for eight months!" I shrieked. You just made an effort to hang onto your wolf as long as you could.

"My wolf won't leave me," he said. He refuted. You're a gorgeous girl with a lot of potential, Ashina, but I'm sorry to say that I don't want to be your partner.

My body started to hurt. An invisible force was breaking the bones. I had heard of suffering like this, but they never described how bad it was. My legs went numb, my mouth went dry, and I felt a searing feeling in my neck as I lay there shaking.

You must do so right now. Dolph spoke, unaffected by my discomfort. "It's the only method to make the pain go away."

Don't consent. A voice in my head spoke. "My wolf"

But I don't want to put up with being rejected. I will not consent to your rejection.

I had to run to the forest to cry because I had missed the graduation ceremony. The anguish exceeded my worst expectations, and it got worse as each second passed.

My body soon began to crack, causing flames to burn all over me. The sound of my bones breaking could be heard as I shouted out for no one to hear. The change started slowly and with screams and tears.

Later, I found myself gazing at the lake as I was. I turned my head side to side while looking into my wolf's deep-brown eyes. I allowed my wolf to crack a little smile. She had lovely brown fur that glistened in many tones. The left ear was distinctively white, while the right one was still dark.

After almost three months, the pain had become really severe. I never anticipated how hurtful rejection would feel. Initially, my wolf had shunned me; Remus and Louve had joined the Golden Moon pack without being aware of my predicament; and I had held back telling Daciana because she had only recently found her mate.

Unfortunately, loneliness and unrelenting pain were constantly present. My heart felt as though someone had just snatched a knife and slashed straight through it, severing it.

Words cannot express the agony I felt at seeing him.

So I can't help but think of what to do as I wither in my sorrow and sleep in the night. I did not currently have a job, a partner, any local family, or any pals. This kit contained everything and nothing for me.

The home, a sizable house, was inactive and overlooking the meadows and forest behind the pack house on a little hill. This house held memories of the first time I threw a fit and covered my walls with a black biro pen. We put off removing it since we had never been able to get it out. Even my sister's bedroom was unharmed. She still had the dark purple and grey colors on her walls from when she was younger, and there were band posters all over the place. The color of my brother's room was a sleek grey. His bedroom was spare.

I continued to curl up under my covers when I heard my phone ring. I raised it up to my face while squinting at the bright light. I examined the caller ID. There was just Remus. I answered.

"Hey." My voice was plain and less cheery than it ought to have been. Remus had seen it during these few weeks and occasionally questioned it. The question "What's up?" I made an effort to cheer up, but I was failing.

"Hey. Just wondering if you'd like to drop by our apartment this weekend. Here, it's family week, so I just wanted to see. His tone was almost beseeching. I sighed and let my fingers run through my hair.

"Maybe." I informed him. "Recently, I haven't been feeling well." It was a partial truth. When my partner rejected me, a pit formed in my stomach, which forced me to inevitably hurl.

"If you can't, that's fine." He had a calm voice. "I invited Lyall to join us, too." He created by him. My brows furrowed.

"Seriously?" I enquired with skepticism. I'd always make an effort to stay in touch even in the absence of replies. "I sent her an email a couple of weeks ago and no response."

"Oh? We've been communicating via email a lot lately. She is quite content, friend and all. Remus eagerly told me.

It caused me to cry. Lyall was content with her partner, while I was stranded here moaning about mine. I had to act, and I had to act now.

For the longest period, I had a question in my head:

Should I abide by his refusal?

I was unwilling to let it go. I had been expecting him to apologize for months, but it never happened. His bond with Rieka had grown considerably. She is pregnant, and they were engaged. I have no idea what to do.

Accepting it might ease the suffering, but I'd give up all hope of living a flawless life in the process.

Are you still present? Remus questioned, and even though he couldn't see me, I nodded.

Oh, I'm sorry, I was just thinking. I confessed.

Do you think? I laughed as he gasped.

"Hilarious."

"I know."

Anyway, I'll tell you what. I'll travel. I told Remus, and in the distance, Louve's girlish scream could be heard.

If not, Louve would have come and picked you up. I grinned wryly. as though Remus would consent.

"Whatever. I will pick you up this weekend; see you then. He complained when I told him.

"You have a car, use it." He exploded.

"I don't, no. Our car was taken away by you. I grinned wryly.

"Right..." He spoke inaudibly. He inquired, "So Saturday eleven?"

I responded, "Sounds good."

I hung up the phone with him after letting a hand pass past my face and sighing. It should be enjoyable.