Rejected By The Pack, Reborn An Alpha Queen

Gillian POV:

The icy slush of the street filled my mouth. It tasted of mud and rotting cabbage, a foul, acidic burn with every breath I tried to take. Each gasp was like swallowing shards of glass.

"Liar with a mouth full of lies!"

"Get out of Avalon!"

The shouts were a chaotic storm around me. Stones and garbage rained down, each impact a dull thud of pain that spread through my limbs. My body was a map of agony.

I wanted to scream. I wanted to tell them they were wrong.

But my throat, burned raw by the poison my own mother, Annis, had forced down it, could only produce a wet, rasping sound.

A memory flashed, sharp and bright against the gray sky. I was fourteen, enlisting under a false name"Griffin Joseph". Ten years fighting in the brutal Spine of the World mountains. I wasn't liars who lie all the time. I was the one who held the line.

Another memory flashed in my mind. I was twenty-three, the High Sovereign himself fastening the medal to my chest, naming me the "Warlord of the Shimmering Reach."

Now, I was a dog dying in the gutter.

A pair of immaculate leather boots stopped in front of my face. I forced my head up, mud and blood blurring my vision. My half-brother, Johnathan Joseph, looked down at me. His face was a mask of disgust twisted with a sick kind of excitement.

He crouched down and gently tapped my cheek with the smooth wood of his bow. "Don't blame us, sister. Women cannot inherit titles or honor. If word gets out about you disguising yourself as a man to join the army, our family will be ruined. Compared to you as a security risk, Amara, as the daughter of our family, is much more suitable."

Amara. My adoptive sister.

"All your honor and status now belong to her,"he whispered, his voice laced with a conspiratorial hiss. "Let me tell you the truth, long before your fake death and return a year ago, your parents had already informed the royal court that Amara, the 'Wraith of the Spine' who fell in battle, the younger sister of Griffin Joseph, would inherit his legacy. She would serve as a link between the royalty and the meritorious, bringing more benefits to our family. See? It's perfect. And you? You're just a dead man who shouldn't have existed."

A hot, metallic taste flooded my throat. Blood. Not from a wound, but from the sheer force of rage and betrayal that seized my heart. It felt like an invisible hand was squeezing it, trying to crush it into stillness.

Johnathan stood up. He pulled a blunt, headless arrow from his quiver. A practice shaft. He meant to toy with me, to break me slowly, like a hunter enjoying the last moments of his prey.

I watched him draw the bow. His face, so much like my own, twisted into a monstrous grin against the falling snow. The crowd around us cheered, their voices a hungry roar.

This was the empire I had bled for. This was the family I had defended. They stole my honor, my life, and now they would kill me in the most humiliating way possible.

The blunt arrow struck my shoulder with a sickening crack. Bone shattered. Pain exploded through me, but I couldn't even scream. My body just convulsed in the filth.

A second arrow. A third. He avoided my vital organs, prolonging it. My consciousness began to fray at the edges, worn thin by the relentless pain.

In the last moment, as darkness consumed my vision, I burned their faces into my soul. Johnathan's sneer. My mother Annis's cold indifference. My father Carroll's cowardice as he looked away. And Amara's triumphant smile, half-hidden in the crowd.

If there is another life, I, Gillian Joseph, swear I will make you pay in blood.

The absolute cold was suddenly replaced by a gentle warmth. The stench of rot vanished, replaced by the faint, clean scent of incense.

I gasped, my eyes flying open.

I was sitting up, breathing hard, in a moving carriage.

The walls were lined with velvet. A silver hand-warmer rested near my fingers. Through the window, the familiar streets of Avalon drifted by, blanketed in snow.

I looked down at my hands. They were clean. Unbroken. But the calluses from a decade of holding a sword were still there, thick and hard across my knuckles.

This wasn't a dream.

The memories slammed into me. This was the day my "death" was announced in the capital. In my past life, to save my family from the charge of treason for my years of deception-a woman masquerading as a man-I had agreed to fake my death. I had promised to disappear forever.

And today was the day Amara Joseph, as the "war hero's sister," was scheduled to meet with Lady Kensington, to receive the praises of the city's elite matrons.

My loyal maid, Bryn, was watching me with wide, worried eyes. "Miss? Did you have a nightmare? We're almost at the North Gate Bridge."

I was reborn.

Reborn on the very day I had chosen to sacrifice myself, to walk into exile.

The old me had been a fool, believing my sacrifice would buy my family's safety and my parents' forgiveness. Now I knew. It only bought their betrayal and my own brutal murder.

I would not leave this time.

I would not hand over a life that was mine.

"Bryn," I said. My voice was hoarse from disuse, but it was steady. Unbreakable. "Stop the carriage."

Bryn stared at me, confused. "Miss? But we agreed. We're to pass through the capital without seeing anyone..."

"I said, stop the carriage."

The sharp edge in my voice made her flinch. She didn't question me again. She knocked on the carriage wall, signaling the driver.

The carriage slowed to a halt. I pushed the door open, letting the biting wind and a flurry of snowflakes rush inside.

I didn't look back. I stepped out into the swirling snows of Avalon.

This time, I wasn't just passing through.

I was here to take everything back.

Gillian POV:

The wind carried the rich scent of red wine from a corner tavern. That smell, mixed with the frigid air, slammed another memory into me, one even more visceral than the first.

The "birthday banquet" they threw for me in my past life, after I refused to be exiled. And the poisoned wine.

The memory was vivid. The dining room flickered with candlelight. My father, Carroll, raised his glass, his face beaming. "Welcome home to our hero!"

My mother, Annis, poured me a glass of deep red wine herself. Her perfectly manicured fingers brushed the rim of the cup as she smiled at me, her voice soft and warm. "Drink this, Gillian. It's to celebrate your victory."

I remembered the surge of emotion, the foolish gratitude. I thought they had finally accepted me, forgiven me for the "sin" of being a daughter.

I drank it without hesitation.

A strange numbness started in my stomach the moment the wine went down, spreading quickly to my limbs. My fork and knife clattered onto the floor.

Annis's smile vanished. It was replaced by an icy disgust. "Take her to the basement," she ordered the servants.

I tried to stand, but my muscles were like water. Two large servants hauled me from my chair and dragged me toward the cold, dark cellar. I looked back at my father. He wouldn't meet my eyes.

In the basement, my brother Johnathan was already waiting. He was toying with a heavy iron hammer.

"Why couldn't you just be obedient, sister?" he asked, walking over and gripping my chin. "A woman, playing with swords and making the Joseph name a joke among the nobility. And now you want to steal the glory that should be mine?"

Annis followed him down the stairs, looking down at me where I lay on the damp stone floor. "This is for your own good, Gillian. You can't wield a sword anymore. It will ruin your marriage prospects, ruin this family."

Johnathan grinned, a predator's smile. He forced my right hand onto a stone block, pinning it there. He raised the hammer.

And brought it down.

Crack.

The pain was a white-hot nova that exploded from my hand up my arm. My vision went black for a second. Cold sweat drenched my back. The hand that had wielded the fastest sword in the empire was now a ruined mess of flesh and bone.

I convulsed, but the poison in the wine kept my muscles from coiling. I was pinned flat, like a fish on a cutting board.

He didn't stop. He did the same to my left hand.

My skill, my pride, my entire life's work-it was all destroyed in those dull, sickening impacts.

I stared at my mangled, bloody hands, at the shattered bones poking through the skin. I looked up at my cold-eyed mother and my ecstatic brother. And I finally understood.

They weren't afraid I would bring shame to the family. They were jealous. They hated me.

After that, they locked me up and only gave me enough water to sustain life. Only after Amara fully took over the identity of the "sister of the deceased hero" did they force me to take a poison that was enough to be fatal, and then torture me to death.

"Miss? Miss!"

Bryn's voice pulled me from the memory.

I looked down. My fists were clenched so tightly my nails had broken the skin of my palms, leaving four bloody crescents.

I forced my hands open, taking a deep, cold breath to steady myself. That pain was in the past. Now was the time for revenge.

I turned to Bryn. She was an orphan I'd saved from a battlefield raid, the only person in the world I trusted. "Bryn, get the package we prepared."

Though confused, she obeyed, retrieving a heavy, cloth-wrapped bundle from a corner of the carriage.

I unwrapped it. Inside was a man's military jacket, stained with dark, dried blood, and a tattered, deep-red triangular banner-the standard of a field commander.

These were the props for my "faked death." I was supposed to have burned them. Now, they had a new purpose.

"From this moment on," I told Bryn, my voice low and firm, "I am no longer Griffin Joseph. I am her grieving twin sister Gillian Joseph, who has traveled a thousand miles from the border to 'call home the soul' of her brother."

Bryn's face went pale, but she saw the iron resolve in my eyes and nodded sharply. "Yes, miss. Bryn understands."

I looked up, toward the faint silhouette of the North Gate Bridge in the distance. I knew that at this time of day, the carriage of Princess Genevieve Roth would be passing through there.

In my past life, the princess had been one of the "Wraith's" staunchest supporters, arguing in court for more supplies for the border armies. She admired my "brother."

I would use that admiration. For myself, and for the identity that had been stolen from me. I would find my first patron.

I clutched the blood-stained uniform to my chest as if I were holding my dead "brother."

"Bryn," I instructed, "you will follow behind me, holding that banner. No matter what happens, we do not stop."

I took a deep breath, letting all the sharpness and strength drain from my face. In its place, I summoned an endless, weary grief. I became a broken orphan, having just lost her only family, on the verge of collapse after a long journey.

I hugged my "brother's" last effects, and facing into the wind, I took a step.

Then I sank to my knees on the cold, snowy ground.

The first move had been made.

Gillian POV:

Kneeling in the snow, another memory from my past life surfaced. After they had broken my hands, I had managed to escape the basement. I'd burst into a banquet my mother was hosting, and I had begged Princess Genevieve for help.

I remembered how I must have looked-disheveled, my hands wrapped in bloody rags, screaming like a madwoman that my family was trying to kill me.

The princess had frowned, her eyes filled with wary distaste. She saw a crazed woman trying to cling to royalty for attention.

Annis had immediately rushed to my side, wrapping me in a tearful embrace. "Your Highness, please forgive us," she had cried. "My daughter is not well. She has delusions that she is her brother."

The princess had given a cold, dismissive wave of her hand. Johnathan had dragged me away, back to that hell. That was the closest I had ever come to hope, and the fall had been brutal.

But now, I was reborn. I was back in this snowstorm, back at the exact moment Amara was charming Lady Kensington.

I chose to get out of the carriage for a reason. This was my only chance. I could not appear as a "madwoman" again.

I swear, I will take back my life. What they owe me, I will have them repay a thousand times over.

I pushed the humiliation and pain of my past life deep down, transforming it into the raw grief that now filled my eyes.

The snow fell harder, frosting my hair and eyelashes. The cold was a physical thing, a predator gnawing at my bones. But I clutched the bloody uniform as if it were my only source of warmth.

Bryn followed behind me, her small hands holding the tattered red banner high. It snapped in the wind, a mournful cry of defiance.

People on the street began to notice us. They stopped, pointing, their whispers growing into a murmur.

"Look, isn't that the banner of the 'Wraith of the Spine'?"

"Gods, who is that girl? Is she holding a blood-stained uniform?"

This was what I wanted. I needed the story to begin before the princess even arrived.

My knees were numb from crawling on the frozen flagstones. The cold seeped through my thin dress, a creeping parasite. But I couldn't stop.

This was a battle of will. The me of the past died in despair. The me of this life would be reborn from it.

I thought of Amara. Right now, she would be in a warm room, dressed in fine silks, soaking up the praise that was mine. She would be gracefully recounting her "brother's" heroic deeds.

She was playing the part of the perfect, grieving sister, while I, the real family, was here in the snow, performing a ritual to call home the soul of my "brother"-myself.

My lips were blue with cold, but a small, humorless smile touched them. Amara, your good days are over.

The outline of the North Gate Bridge grew clearer. It was the main artery in and out of the capital. The princess's carriage had to pass this way.

I had to time this perfectly. The moment her carriage appeared, I had to "happen" to collapse in front of it, in the most shocking and pitiable way possible.

"Remember," I whispered to Bryn, my voice barely audible over the wind, "when you see a black carriage with the royal crest, cry out 'General' as loud as you can."

Bryn was trembling, whether from cold or fear I couldn't tell, but her voice was firm. "Yes, miss."

I closed my eyes, picturing my family's ugly, greedy faces. Hatred was the best fuel. It burned away the cold.

The murmuring from the street grew louder. Some people were even following us now, curious to see what would happen.

Then I heard it. The sound of wheels crunching on snow, the sharp calls of guards clearing the way.

A carriage, understated but undeniably luxurious, appeared at the end of the street. On its side, the golden crest of the Roth family gleamed in the snow-swept gloom.

It was time.

I gathered all my strength, clutched the bloody uniform, and prepared for the climax of my performance.

My life, my revenge, my honor-it all began now. I would not fail again.