One minute, I was burning alive, choking on thick smoke, watching my little girl Lily whimper beside me as Ethan's hate-filled face glowed against the inferno.
The next, my eyes snapped open, and I was back at the lake house party, the very nexus where my tragic first life began, with my brother Mike approaching, red cups in hand, ready to unknowingly poison my future.
Every horrifying detail of my past life flashed before me: the spiked drink, the forced marriage, the birth of my sweet Lily, and then Ethan's chilling accusation – "This is for Olivia. You and her, you're why she's gone." – moments before he condemned us to the flames on Lily's third birthday.
My entire existence was a brutal, fiery brand seared into my very soul, all ignited by this one night, this simple, seemingly innocent red cup.
He blamed *me* and my innocent three-year-old daughter for his perfect Olivia's car crash, orchestrated my destruction, and now I was back, staring into the face of my impending doom.
An unbearable terror twisted my guts, pleading for a way to break this agonizing loop.
"No," I whispered, panic clawing at my throat as I backed away from the offered drink, my hands shaking as I fumbled for my phone.
I devised a desperate, selfish lie to send Olivia – anything to disrupt this timeline and carve out a new, free future for myself.
I had to save myself.
The smell of smoke, that's what always came back first.
Thick, choking smoke that burned my lungs and stung my eyes.
Then the heat, an unbearable wave pressing down on me.
I remembered Lily, my little girl, coughing beside me.
Her small hand clutched mine, tight.
"Mommy," she whimpered, her voice small against the roar of the fire.
I tried to shield her, tried to find a way out, but the flames were everywhere.
Ethan stood in the doorway, a silhouette against the inferno.
His face was a mask of cold fury.
"This is for Olivia," he'd said, his voice flat, dead. "You and her, you're why she's gone."
Olivia. His perfect, sophisticated Olivia.
She had run from him, distraught, after Lily called him "Daddy" at the airport. A stupid, tragic accident.
A car crash.
And he blamed us. Me and my innocent three-year-old daughter.
Lily's third birthday. That's when he chose to end it.
Our lives.
He watched as the fire consumed everything.
Us.
The memory was a brand, seared into my soul.
My brother, Mike, he'd meant well, I guess.
He thought Ethan secretly liked me, his best friend's little sister.
So, at that lake house party, years ago, he spiked our drinks.
Ethan and I woke up together.
He was furious, trapped. He loved Olivia, always Olivia.
But I was pregnant.
He married me, a cold, resentful husband.
He was always gone, traveling, seeing Olivia who was supposedly "studying abroad."
Then he brought Olivia back.
And then Lily died. And then I died.
Because of him.
My eyes snapped open.
The loud music from the lake house party pulsed around me.
Mike was walking towards me, two red cups in his hands.
A grin stretched across his face.
"Here, Sarah," he said, offering one. "Liquid courage. And one for Ethan, he's looking a bit stressed."
No.
Not again.
This was it. The night it all started.
The spiked drinks.
My throat closed up. Panic, cold and sharp, clawed at me.
"Mike, I... I don't feel so good," I stammered, backing away. "Suddenly, really sick."
His smile faltered. "Oh. You okay? Want me to get you some water?"
"No, just... need some air. Maybe I ate something bad."
I turned and practically ran towards the back door, leaving him looking confused.
I had to stop Ethan from drinking that. I had to stop myself.
But Ethan was already by the bonfire, laughing with some guys, a red cup already in his hand. Had Mike already given it to him? Or was this a fresh one?
My own head felt a little fuzzy. Mike had given me a drink earlier, "to loosen up," he'd said. Just one. Had that one been it? Or was he planning a double dose?
I fumbled for my phone, hands shaking.
I found Olivia's number. We weren't friends, barely acquaintances. She always looked down on me.
My fingers flew across the screen.
*Ethan's at the lake house. He seems really down, asking for you. You should come. He needs you.*
Send.
It was a lie. A desperate, selfish lie to save myself.
If Olivia came, maybe Ethan would be too busy with her.
Maybe he wouldn't even notice me.
Maybe this whole nightmare wouldn't repeat.
I had to get out of here.
The music, the laughter, it all felt like a countdown to my doom.