Queen Berserker

My name is Lex, I'm a 25 year old werewolf with no mate, most werewolves find their mate within the first year of their full transformation or shift. Which would be fine except that usually happens at the age of sixteen. It may seem weird but I'm not really that worried about it, my wolf on the other hand is restless to find her fated mate.

My twin brother Alex found his mate on our seventeenth birthday. Alex is the complete opposite of me, he is over six feet tall, he is very toned, he has sandy hair and the most beautiful hazel eyes. His wolf is larger than the other wolves but not as large as an alphas, and he is brown. Whereas I am five seven in height somehow I'm stronger than the she wolves who have mates, all wolves are stronger than any human even the lower ranks.

I do however have a secret, one I keep even from my twin which I usually tell everything. I can sometimes make things happen, I can't really explain it, but when I was younger, I started a fire, well I actually started a bunch of fires. I'm not sure how I did it, I also healed one of the pups who were injured in the woods. I have black hair with a tint of royal blue, and my eyes are a deep blue. My wolf is black and also with a blue tint, only she's as big as an alphas. When I shift I'm as big as my dad's wolf Rex, no one knows why, though I'm not even the next alpha for our pack.

She-wolves can't be an alpha, if an alpha has no sons the daughter's mate will be the next alpha, which is typically a bata or another alphas younger son. Although rare, an Omega she-wolf can be mated to an alpha, an omega werewolf has never been mated into the higher positions. What I'm saying is a low rank she-wolf can become Luna, but a low rank male can not become alpha.

Alex is the next Alpha of our pack so he trains intensively, his wife is the best sister you could ask for, she's the daughter of an alpha of a neighboring pack. She was sent to other packs to find her mate, our pack was the first she visited and it happened to be on our birthday.

Alex was in my room asking me to help him decide between a nice shirt and tie, or jeans and a T, when he started acting weird he walked out my room sniffing the air, me tailing behind him excitedly. She was in the hallway, with the same weird lovesick expression on her face, I expected him to be like 'MINE' or 'MATE' but all he said was 'happy birthday to me'.

He walked right over to her and said, 'I Alexander Darkmoon accept you as my future luna and mate.' She started blushing and said "'Do you think I can reject you while you're shirtless and I'm drooling?' Then she looked over at me, and back to him and I only noticed then that I was only in my undergarments, because Alex rudely barged into my room to ask me a stupid question. Tears began to appear in her eyes and she stepped back and asked 'Did I interrupt something?' My brother, the confused idiot, just stared at her like she was speaking a different language.

I had to give him the extra push. 'I'm Lex, twin sister to your new mate, maybe you can help him decide shirt and tie or jeans and T to the party, that way I can get back to getting dressed in peace.' She started laughing, picked the jeans then accepted my brother back.

My dad always put the pack first, except after my mother died I heard that he locked himself away from everyone, and that his wolf would go on a rampage, but I really don't remember that time. I was very young and going through an emotional stage in life, things kept catching fire around me. Regardless of that dark period in our lives, I'd like to think my dad is an honorable man. Sometimes I'm relieved I don't have a mate, my brother and I know the aftermath of losing a mate. When our mom died it hurt everyone, but it almost killed our dad too. The only thing that kept him going was raising us, and running his pack.

I don't want to ever feel that kind of pain, I don't want to set myself up for failure just because my mate can't protect themselves. I also don't want to put my Mate in the same position because I couldn't protect myself, it scares me if I'm being honest. As wonderful as it would be to feel the pull, the sparks, the amazing connection that comes with having a mate, I'm not sure I'm really ever going to be ready for that kind of pain.

The Mate bond is stronger than nearly anything in the world, from what I hear it's intensifying before you mark your mate but afterwards it's this unbreakable bond. Well almost unbreakable, death is of course the only exception. We don't really have many rejections, there's never been a second chance mate, one soul to another is all you get, If you're ungrateful for what the moon Goddess blesses you with, then why would you be gifted another?

Humans can only assume that they are 'in love', however shifters know and nearly instantly love their mate, our wolves make sure of it. There are rare occasions when your wolf conceals the bond from the human side until they feel you are ready to accept your mate. That normally only happens when you've been through too much trauma. You will need to learn to open your heart and trust before they put you in a situation where you might reject their mate.

Even though that's only a myth, we have no proof it ever happened, it was just told to us in history by the elders. When we lose our mate it's unbearable, and even some die from what humans would consider a 'broken heart' when they lose their mate. Like I said sometimes I'm glad not to have found mine, other times I question if I even have a mate out there, the only reason it took Alex so long to find his is because Amilia hadn't had her first full transformation she found Alex a week after she shifted.

As happy as I was for them, and still am, I feel like the mating call just skipped me, like I'm never going to find my mate. I did travel to other packs a few years ago, but my father summoned me home, I was on my way to King Kaden's Kingdom, he was a newly crowned king at the time. My father said that my mother was from the same pack as the former queen. I was hoping at that time to see if she knew my mother, maybe they were friends.

Some packs sell their unmated off for resources or alliances, that usually happens because their mate died, and always with both sides in complete agreement. We've never done that here though, at the rate our land is going I'm surprised we haven't resorted to that. My dad had an offer a few years ago to gain a wife that also lost her mate, but before he could give an answer the other pack was slaughtered by another pack.

King Kaden is the Alpha of the largest and strongest pack ever known. His name puts fear in the hearts of almost everyone, one thing I know to be true is I never want to meet him. My father was relieved when I made it home and didn't go into the King's territory at that time. I really hope my mate isn't in his territory or I'll never find him.

Although I hear Kaden is very good looking, I also hear he only sleeps with the human women of his kingdom. Maybe he doesn't want children, because humans can't bear a child to a shifter. The few that have gotten pregnant died, not only the women but the unborn children too, even with the help from the mages they still die. Some even come out deformed, a cross between a wolf and a human, but none of record came out to the womb with a heartbeat.

Most kingdoms forbid mix breeding, it keeps both parties safe and it also helps protect our secret. About a hundred years ago there was a group called hunters, they were humans that found out about us and learned all kinds of skills to kill us, they had brands on them, but a powerful She-wolf destroyed them all, with the help of a powerful mage. It's rumored that one day the hunters brand will be reawakened, and they will try to finish what their ancestors failed to do years ago, wipe out all of the shifter kind. My pack are not fighters, so I'm not sure many packs will want to align with us if that time ever really comes.

Lex:

I could hear Alex's footsteps from three hallways away, his pace told me he was in a hurry. I stepped out to see what he was doing on this side so early, he turned the corner and stopped dead in his tracks when his gaze met mine. He looked at me but not in his usual playful way, he didn't have his bright smile either. Instead he looked at me like standing there was breaking his heart.

I tried to give him a smile, but he just looked down and said to me in a soft voice and teary eyes that dad needs to see me. That can't be good, for him to look like that, dad must have bad news for me. I walked with him to the Alpha's chambers where I would hear what I assumed was devastating news, because everything about my brother right now told me to prepare for the worst. Inside the office, my father's eyes were somber instead of their usual stern, he refused to look at me. My wolf started to grow restless as she could sense something was incredibly wrong.

I sighed, "Is anyone gonna tell me what's going on?" I asked confused. My dad then spoke up, his voice booming with heartache, "Lex my dear, you are being sent to King Kaden's kingdom for negotiation on an alliance between our packs." He finally looked me in the eye after saying this. He said for negotiation, what he meant was he was sending me there as part of his deal, he sold me. He was going to make me the bride of the most terrifying and feared werewolf known to our kind.

I looked directly towards Alex, who was still looking at the ground, then back to my father. "Am I being punished for something father? Have I wronged you in some way?" I ask this with tears swelling in my eyes. "No my child, this is for the good of the pack." I scoffed, I know we're doing pretty bad at the moment, but this was too much.

"How could you do this to me?" Tears starting to stream down my face. He didn't answer, he wouldn't even look at me. I was getting impatient, angry. "YOU'RE SELLING ME TO A MONSTER FOR AN ALLIANCE THAT WE DON'T EVEN NEED?" I yelled I couldn't contain it, I didn't remember ever yelling at my father before now, but this wasn't right, do we need help? Yes, but there has to be another way, right? "YOU WILL GO, AND YOU WILL MARRY THE KING!" He yelled back in his alpha tone, but not demanding. If it was demanding I don't think I'd know, the alpha command never worked on me, it was as if my wolf didn't follow the hierarchy that all shifters followed. Lunaria never bowed to anyone, regardless of status.

His expression changed. I could sense how this made him feel, the alpha in him swelled with pride but I couldn't accept that this was my fate. Almost five years ago King Kaden took his pack and wiped out six packs in the night. Slaughtering nearly everyone, the ones that survived said that they had no reason to come in and kill so ruthlessly. Kaden was truly a monster, he did this for power and nothing else, and I was terrified of him.

"Lexie, please, Kaden will be a great ally for us, I have spoken with his father, the former king. Mostly we need his resources, you know what we face without any help." My father said gruffly trying to calm his inner beast. He was right about that, our land, our pack, our family wouldn't survive much longer.

I wanted to refute that the Kingdom Kaden wiped out was also his ally, and that didn't stop him. "When do I leave?" I asked instead, no longer wanting to argue about my future. It was perfectly clear, I was the one with no mate, I wasn't the one next in line to run the pack, I was the one who was expendable. "Tomorrow" was all he said, and I knew this conversation was over.

I walked out and waited for my brother to come out, maybe he could help me change fathers mind, although I know the possibility is slim to none. "Alex, why do I have to go, I could still find my mate, he could still be out there, it's not right to send me away like this. Couldn't you talk to dad, tell him this is wrong, that he can send someone else."

I tried to stay calm, Alex looked down at me, I could feel the sadness in his eyes, I knew this was also killing him. That he didn't want me going there either, I can feel what he feels so deeply. "Lex, look I've done all I can in this matter, do you think I didn't already think of that? We can't send someone else because they wouldn't be the daughter of an Alpha, so they would be too low for the king and he would find that disrespectful. Honestly we're lucky he settled for you, and even then I think that was more of his father than anything else. Father thinks your mate might have died in the slaughter, and I have to agree, why else would you still not have a mate. I mean you went to other packs looking, and came back empty handed. If he is still alive I hope he isn't in Kaden's pack, because that would most likely be a death sentence." I have to admit that I've had the same thought that my mate might already be dead, but I was still holding out a little hope.

I went back to my chambers, to pack my belongings, I honestly didn't even know where to start or how much to pack. Packing made me feel like I was being exiled from my home. This felt like betrayal. I didn't want to go, it was my duty so I had no other choice, but this, this wasn't going to be easily forgiven. I decided to just pack a couple of bags, I can have the lower pack wolves pack up the rest and send it all to me.

When I was done packing I decided to go for a run, let my wolf blow off some steam, I put on my shoes and went to the garden, usually that did the trick, but not this time, that wasn't enough. We call this place a garden but in reality it's just dirt now, it was once a real garden, with vegetables, and fruit trees, we also had a corner for medicinal herbs. I decided to go into the woods, there I could really let go in my wolf form. Feel free, I know I needed to run off this anger because with the way I'm feeling I'd likely burn this whole place down, and I really don't want that.

I was almost to the tree line right before I shifted into my wolf, Amilia caught my attention, "Hey you mind if I join you?" She had the sweetest smile on her face as she approached. I question myself if she knew I was being sent away to a monster, a man I wasn't sure even had an ounce of humanity in him.

"Hey Ami, what's up? Come to see me before my departure?" I joked, but it was far from funny to me. "Departure?" She looked at me confused, I guess that answers that question, she did not know I was being banished, exiled, thrown out? That's not what it really was but it was how it felt.

Father always says to be a great leader you must take your emotion out of it, but how can I do that? My father made a decision about me, without my consent. I knew he was friends with Kadens dad, they went way back, but that wouldn't stop Kaden from killing me.

"I leave tomorrow to go to King Kaden's kingdom, father has decided to make me his new bride" I tried not to let her hear the break in my voice, it was hard to say goodbye to her, she was my best friend. She looked like she wanted to cry, but instead she turned around and ran in the other direction.

After seeing her I was no longer in the mood to run, I needed to sleep, I needed to prepare for this long trip tomorrow. Walking back in the manor I heard them arguing, I don't believe I've ever heard them have more than small disagreements. I felt bad that they were arguing about me.

"You can't let her go there, you know who he is, you've heard the rumors like everyone else" "This is out of my hands, I can't go against father any more than anyone else" That was true, as the future Alpha he had to do what was right regardless of his personal feelings. "And if she dies there the-" I stopped listening, I didn't want to hear the rest of that.

I didn't want to consider that thought. I went to my room, not in the mood for food, I got in bed and decided to sleep. I could hardly sleep though, I kept thinking of all the ways the King could kill me. My wolf was oddly at peace with this, I thought she would put up a real fight, but she didn't, she was anxious and I was confused by her behavior.

Alex:

Fucking great, my sister is mad at me, my mate is pissed at me, and my father says that if I'm going to be a good Alpha I need to take my personal feelings out the equation. Lex is my twin, I can't take the thought of her going to that place, she's too good hearted for that scum, she needs to stay here where I can protect her. Going against my father isn't really an option, my mate doesn't understand that, I need to think of something before the official wedding between them.

Maybe Kaden wouldn't want to marry her, and he'll send her back, but that's not likely, she doesn't notice her beauty, but I notice the way the unmated males look at her. There were so many men that were upset when we turned sixteen and she wasn't their mate. I was relieved, I don't want my sister with anyone not worthy, there is something special about her. I'm not saying that because she is my twin, her aura is different from anyone I've ever met, there's a power in her voice that demands respect and attention.

I'm also sure she has magic, when she gets mad or her emotions were unstable, and her eye's turn crimson. When we were younger our room caught fire once and I'm almost positive it was her. I'm not sure if dad noticed it and never mentioned it, or if he was too busy after mom died that he never really noticed at all.

I lost my mom when I was five, and dad shut down for a while, Kyle, our dads second, or beta if you will, took over the pack for a few months until dad pulled himself together. I crawl in bed and pull my mate to my chest, and I sniff her hair, and kiss her shoulder, she lets out a soft moan, "I don't want her to go, I can't picture her being there, but I can't come up with a real alternative overnight." I kiss her again and she snuggles deeper against me.

"I think our pup should know and be close with its aunt." Wait, what? Did I hear that right? "Did you just say our pup?" She turns around and faces me with a smile. "Yes, baby, we're going to have a pup." I hug her tightly, and start falling asleep, I'll think of how to help Lex tomorrow. How is it that while I'm getting what I've been working at for years and should be the most ecstatic person on the planet, I can't because I'm losing one of the most important people in my life.

Kaden:

I'm woken up by a soft knock on the door, I look over at the clock, fuck it's too early for this shit. "Come in" I reply to Henry outside my door. I can't tell him to go away, I doubt he'd be knocking this early if it wasn't important. "Pardon me my King, I need to know which room will miss Alexis be in." So not as important as I thought, this girl isn't even here yet and she's already causing my problems. None of my men were to call me Alpha in the presence of a human. I've never found my mate, which was fine with me, she'd weaken me, like all the other men. I couldn't be weakened by some woman. I slept with women, plenty of human women, the feeling of the woman resting on me now was soft, humans were weak. "Put her in the room next to mine, I need to keep an eye on her." I have to keep her close, better to not trust an outsider. She's only coming as a favor for a friend of my fathers, they need help and can only offer a woman, how pathetic.

I had asked my father if this could be a trick, or even a political plot, I know my kingdom is feared, and everyone wants more power. He told me that the Darkmoons are not like that, that Alpha Nicholas is a great man, who helped my father win the throne when his half brother Matthew challenged him for it. My father already owed Alpha Nicholas a favor, so that got me thinking why would he offer her hand to me. They were up to something I was sure of it. "Yes sir." Henry was a loyal pack member, he also took care of everything around the castle. He walked out of the room, I lifted the woman off me moving behind her, lifting her ass in the air spreading her knees apart, I put two of my fingers in her cunt moving them back and forth, getting her ready for my size. Listening to her moaning for me, once she was soaked I slid my throbbing cock in, thrusting back and forth faster and harder until I felt myself getting close I then pulled out and turned her around and shoved my length down her throat, I gripped her hair and released myself in her mouth. I then walked to the bathroom, right before I shut the door I turned to look at the woman who I had already forgotten the name of, "Please don't be here when I get out."

I saw her face fall, they always wanted more, I turned the shower on, letting my body take it all in, I could hear her in the room getting her things, I then heard the door slam. She was gone, I tried not to have the same woman more than once. I always relieved myself on their body or down their throat, and I won't look a woman in the eyes as I fuck her, women catch feeling too fast. I throw on a pair of pants and a T-shirt, and go for a run. I'm expecting that girl here any day now, I believe her name is Alexis, her father said she's no trouble. I do however wonder what happened to her mate, her father didn't mention why she was alone just that she was, and she needed a new scenery, which furthered my suspicion on what they were up to. I need to take a wife, someone to give me heirs, I don't need love and I can't marry a human. If Alexis wasn't the daughter of an alpha I wouldn't even consider marrying her, but having an heir with a female with alpha blood is very ideal. We ran through the woods beyond the garden, to a stream, I found this stream out here when I was a teen, me and James used to race in these woods, Jamie would usually be the one to time us. She used to pray to the Moon Goddess that I would be her mate, I didn't mind, I would have accepted her, she was strong and fearless. I had to have already been out here for hours, I need to get back so I can prepare for our new guest.

I get back just in time to see the car pull up, I'm not there to meet her, I wonder if that came off disrespectful to her. I stood back to gauge her reaction, I watched as she stepped out and that was it, I could feel my heart pounding, my mind was racing, I've never seen a more beautiful creature in my life, and I haven't even seen her face. She has on tight jeans, that allow me to see her curves and her perfectly round bottom. She has long midnight blue hair, and her smell even from here is amazing, coconut and vanilla, and something else sweet, I can't put my tongue on that other scent. Oh how I would love to run my tongue over this woman's body, feel her soft skin in my hands. My wolf agrees as he is going mad from being too far away. This is surprising he doesn't like when I fuck or even desire anyone who isn't our mate. I walk closer, she must sense me because she turns around and immediately her pale face turns red, it's even more beautiful, her eyes the color of the deep ocean, I just want to pull her in and kiss every part of her, taste her, claim her. She smiles "Hi, do you know if um uh King Kaden is home at this time?" Her voice is that of an angel, but she sounds like she is scared to death.

She must have heard the stories of five years ago, everyone knows only one side. That is that I ruthlessly slaughtered six packs. I have to let her get to know me, so she wouldn't fear me. What am I even saying, I can't allow my lust for her to cloud my mind, I know her and her father are up to something that would most likely ruin my entire pack. "No, he went on a business trip." The lie slipped before I could even stop myself. Her face softened; she was no longer afraid. That however made me feel sad and a little angry if I'm being honest. I mind leaked Henry to make sure he knows not to call me king or Kaden in her presence for the time being. Maybe this really was luck, I can't believe that Alpha Nicholas Darkmoon was hiding such a jewel in his small pack. Xavier, my wolf, was jumping up and down excited. 'What's up with you?' I ask him and I feel him turn his back on me. 'Nothing that you need to know about right now.' 'Oh, come on, why are you mad now?' He doesn't like when I sleep with women, he says we are only supposed to be with our mate, and to compromise I don't sleep with she-wolves. But I have long given up on finding my mate. 'Are you okay with us marrying her?' I ask and I feel his excitement, but I also feel like he's hiding something from me. 'If you have something to say, now is the time.' Nothing, silence, He's being more of an asshole lately.