Nancy Jones walked and walked without having any destination in mind. She was fed up with Life.
How could Rodney do this to her? She must have been a fool to believe him.
Her mother had always called her a slow wit. So, maybe that was what she was. If she weren't how could she have fallen for his tricks and lies?
It doesn't matter now, there was nothing she could do. She just had to think of a way forward or take the easy way out.
She was out of job and didn't really have a roof over her head.
The slum where she had got a cheap accommodation was rat infested and the walls got soaked up easily.
She had no bed of her own. She had had to sell a lot of her things just to get enough money to move out of the town.
It reminded her of a lot of things that she would rather forget.
She didn't know what she would do, how to get the next meal but with her education at College, she had tried to get a job as someone's secretary or receptionist or any type of job for that matter that would help her fend for herself rather than depend on anyone because she was tired of being dependant but her efforts had been fruitless.
Now she just didn't know if she could go on with life or not.
With the heavy and big cardigan she had on her blue jean, she looked like someone who didn't have a care in the world but that was because she had grown used to hiding her feelings behind a mask of indifference.
The world had been cruel to her and she knew that exposing her feelings would only make her more vulnerable than she already was and she would not want any one to laugh at her or look at her with pity or scorn.
So she hid her feelings deep inside of her.Rather than beg or receive charity, she was ready to give up and take her own life.
Afterall, everyone seem to have abandoned her.
Her mother never thought that she could amount to anything. Her father who had always supported her and been by her side was not strong willed enough to go against his wife for long for his beloved daughter.
It had been a wonder that they had agreed to send her to college and to prove a point, she had excelled in her studies but what was the use of that in her present condition?
Maybe her mother was right afterall and she was not worthy of anyone and could never do anything right.
Rodney who she had loved and felt she had someone to call her own also turned out not to want her. He had been deceiving her all along and she had been too much of a fool, too much in love to had realised it.
There had been signs of course which she had chosen to ignore.
She had overlooked all the things that had pointed to the fact that Rodney was not the right man for her because she had fancied himself in love with him.
'Love covereth a multitude of sins', was how the bible had put it, had it not. But Nancy did not think that it was in that context.
She had merely been foolish. She had not got her facts right. If there had been a friend or anyone who had advised her about Rodney, she would have had a falling out with them.
How dare they speak against her love that way.
But that love had betrayed her in the worst possible way and she had been left alone to bear the brunt of her stupidity.
She had allowed herself to be blinded by her love with someone who was never worthy of it. Now she was regretting every second of the time she had once cherished and thought of as the most priceless moments of her life.
The tears flowed and she wiped them off vigorously. She was not going to cry for that villain. He was not worth her tears. But she knew that even though she was hurt beyond imagination, she still loved Rodney but it just could not be. He was a beast. He was the lowest of human life. He was even lower than an animal and she could not still love him.
He had seen her naivety and had taken advantage of it.
Thinking about Rodney was not going to help at all. It was causing her to be emotional and dwell in self pity but she just could not help herself. He was responsible for her present predicament and as much as she wanted to forget about everything, she just could not because the evidence of their alliance was always with her.
She had thought of getting rid of it but she had not been able to do it.
Maybe she was indeed a fool because what she was passing through was much worse due to her condition that it would have been but she had been determined to succeed but now, she was too fed up to care what happened to them anymore.
She was so lost in thought and lost the will to live that she did not know when she started walking on the road listless.
She had lost everything, and could not make any meaning out of her life anymore. What use was there to keep loving?
She was oblivious to the blare of the headlights of cars passing her and the honking of their horns.
Cats kept driving pass her barely hitting her until a particular car coming out from a be d nearly ran her down.
The screeching of the tires was deafening but he had not been fast enough to stop the car as it hit Nancy and she fell on the bonnet of the car unconscious.
The driver immediately got out of the car and rushed to her.
She was not conscious. And a crowd had gathered.
'Make way, make way!' he kept saying to get the crowd out of his way.
A path was formed for him to pass through as he was able to get to her through the path and seeing her unconscious, quickly carried her into his car and drove to the hospital.
'O God, save this girl. Don't let her die'.
Jason could not remember the last time he had prayed. It must have been during their growing up years but he had since forgotten how to pray. But he was actually praying as he drove like the devil was after him to the hospital.
That was the problem with Lake District. all the sceneries and paths. It was almost as though getting to the hospital was going to take the whole day but he eventually got to the hospital.
He carried her in and with strict orders, Nancy was taken to the intensive care unit.
He made the necessary monetary depositions for the treatment to commence at once and the doctor on duty, Doc Manuel took charge.
Her fore head had hit the bonet of his car and there was a big lump there.
They tried reviving her.
Jason did not want to be charged with manslaughter but apart from that a young life was on the line and he did not want to be responsible for the lose of such a life.
Jason did not know what had troubled the girl so much that she felt the need to be careless with her life.
He had been a careful driver all his life and had respect for human life. He hoped it would not be another irony of life that he who valued human life the way that he did should be the one to be charged for taking it just because a girl was careless with her life or felt that her troubles were too much for her to endure them any longer or find a solution to them but to take the easiest way out, which was taking her own life or rather getting someone to do it for her.
Nancy had a bump in the head and was suffering from concussion.
' We should be careful that it was not more than concussion. A lot of people have lost their lives, some had had amnesia. memory loss and some such thing but she will soon be okay
We have revived her and are doing something about her concussion. We shall give her some drugs
You must make sure that she takes them'
'Okay, doctor. Thanks so much. It is a relief to hear you say those words'.
'I can understand that but you both should be careful next time' he said and Jason nodded.
That was truely a relief. The girl had been so still that he had thought that he had ended her life for sure.
On the way home, he would make sure to give her a piece of her mind.
'And, oh, one more thing. she should be careful with the kind of activities she engages in. So that the baby is not endangered'. The doctor added.
Jason was dumbfounded. 'The baby?' He must have thought it out loud because the doctor said, 'Yes, the baby. Did you not know that she was pregnant? She was extremely lucky that no harm came to her baby. but she had to be careful from henceforth'.
Jason did not even know when the doctor left. He was dazed. So if he had killed the girl, he would not have killed just one person but two? Thank God that was not the case. But now, a lot of things had become clearer.
The girl must have been fed up with her life because of her pregnancy. It must be an unwanted pregnancy. And she had just wanted to kill herself because she did not know what else to do.
Women with their fish brains. She must have fancied herself in love with some man who was just after her body and had run at the first sign of trouble.
He wondered why always seemed to have a poor sense of judgement. They were always poor judges of character.
Because of her stupidity, she had nearly got him into trouble.
He was there when she came out.
'Please she need to have adequate rest. She needs it. She is much stressed and with this accident and the concussion, she needs it even more now'.
Jason nodded. He looked at the girl and she was still looking dazed as though she could not believe that she was still alive or as though she could not believe what she was still doing there.
'Let's go home!' he said.
'Go home? Where is home?' she asked.
'Well, I was hoping you would tell me', he said.
'Oh, okay but what happened?'
'We shall talk all about it in the car on our way home'.
That word again. She did not consider where she lived home. It was just her hide out. She would rather stay there than allow her parents know that she had brought disgrace to them or ruined their reputation.
She entered the car, making up her mind not to allow this man know exactly where she was living. She was going to make him stop a little distance away from the hell hole which was her place of residence. She still had her pride and did not want charity from anyone but she had to find out what had happened and why she had ended up in the hospital and this headache.
It was starting and it was severe. She could barely think straight. But she had to find out some things.
'Well, you did say you were going to tell me all that happened because I can't seem to remember anything except going out this morning in search of a job.
'What about your husband?' he asked. He had looked at her finger and did not find any wedding band or any other indication for that matter that she was married except her pregnancy which he would not have known about had the doctor not mentioned it.
And being pregnancy alone was not proof of being legally married. So his suspicions were confirmed. It was an unwanted pregnancy and she had gone out in search of a job to be able to fend for herself and the baby. But for how long did she think that she would be able to keep it up? Even if she did find a job now, as soon as it is noticed that she was pregnant and without a husband, it was more than likely that she would be relieved of her job and other more capable hands employed
Well it depended on the type of job she wanted and if she had any training or education in any profession but he doubted it.
'Please, do you know what happened and how I ended up in the hospital?'
'And I just asked you if you were married?'
'No, why do you ask?' she asked him before remembering that she had been at the hospital and the doctor most probably had checked her and found out the truth about her and told this man about her pregnancy. But she was not going to reveal anything until she was sure what he knows and what he does. She was not going to reveal anything to him at all. Afterall, she owed him no explanation except thanks for helping her though how exactly he had come to help her was still what she could not fathom.
'You have my answer. I am not married at least, not yet. So would you kindly tell me what happened to me that I had to be hospitalized?' She said and flinched as she felt a wave of pain shoot through her head.
He was at once sorry that he had made her talk too much when she should have been sleeping or relaxing.
'Its okay. I shall tell you all about it later, just rest your head on the chair and see if you can just relax. Don't speak and don't think. Well, until you tell me where your house is. She gave him directions to a roll of tall buildings before her real place of residence..
As they neared the place, She became fidgety. She hoped he would allow her alight there and not insist on going in with her, now that she had foolishly told him that she was unmarried.
Not that she thought him capable of something as perverse as rape but because she did not want him knowing the condition of where she lived.
'You were walking listlessly as though you were fed up with Life and in the middle of the road as well. A lot of cars had been honking their horns at you but you were just not there, and I coming from a curve hit you before I could apply the brakes. You hit your head on my bumper and passed out.
Everybody thought that you were dead. We checked your pulse and found a faint beat and I rushed you to the hospital. Luckily, the doctor was able to treat you and here we are'.
'I guess that I should be grateful then that you had not abandoned me to die on the road but had the courtesy to take me to the hospital'.
'But there is something I don't understand. Why did you feel the need to end your life? What problem is it that cannot be solve except if you take the way you may consider the easiest way out? Which I'd death?'
Nancy was shocked. She hoped that he had not been able to read her and her situation correctly. She decided to be harsh with him so that he would quit disturbing her and mind his own business.
'Oh ho. Look who's talking. You just told me that you came round a bend a d before you could hold the brakes, you hit me and you are accusing me of wanting to take my own life?' she asked in an incredulous tone.
'What do you suppose would make me want to do that?'
'Your pregnancy?'
Nancy was shocked. She had forgotten that she had just surmised that the doctor must have discovered her pregnancy and told him about it drawing the wrong conclusion that they were together since he brought her to the hospital.
'My pregnancy?'
'Yes, your pregnancy. Oh, don't pretend you were not aware that you were pregnant!' he said and she kept silent. The fight had gone out of her before she even began.
'You could take care of yourself at least for the sake of the baby in your womb'. he advised.
Nancy just kept looking straight ahead.
'I do not want you to speak much so that you don't come down with a headache. But please do not try this again. It is not just your life that is involved here, your baby's is as well'.
He gave her some wades of currency. It was really very tempting and Nancy nearly took it but she remembered that she did not want charity from anybody and her pride reared its head.
'What's all these?'she asked.
'What does it look like? I am giving some money to help you take care of yourself while you go around for a job. It will help sustain you'
'I do not take charity!'
'What do you mean Charity?'
'Exactly that. I do not take what I have not earned. If you really want to help me, then find me a good job so that I can fend for myself and not depend on you or on anyone for that matter'.
He had thought about that. She was in no condition going round looking for a job. She looked malnourished, which was why he had offered her the money she was rejecting. He admired her courage but he felt that she was foolish to reject it.
'Of course. I had that in mind but for you to start there, you have to transport yourself to the place and I doubt that you have the wherewithal for that and you have to take more nourishing food and fruits so that your baby can be healthy. I am not offering you charity but just being realistic and I suggest that you swallow your pride and be as well at least for the sake of your baby'. he said looking at her with pity.
Nancy could not dare to hope that he was serious about his promise about getting her a job. Something good seem to be coming out of the accident afterall.
She looked at him and seeing an expression she interpreted to be sincerity, she stretched forth her hands and collected the money
What he had said was the truth. She needed the money more than he needed it and she was not going to allow her pride to stand in the way.