Poisonous Addiction

Querencia's POV

"Mommy, look at this!" A smile immediately curved on my lips when I saw the basket made of knot leaves.

"I made this with Auntie Crystal," he pointed out my younger sister.

"Wow, my son is really good, huh?" I said to him before kissing his forehead softly.

"Should we sell this too, Mommy? I think it will be good to promote this to take care of our nature," he said, making me smile before ruffling his hair. It's nice that he likes taking care of nature. Even though he's still young, this little one is already business minded.

"Let's see, Baby. Let's improve it first before we sell it," I said to him so he nodded one after another. I just followed him with my eyes when he went back to his Auntie Crystal. He looks so hyper while helping.

I'm glad that I made that decision 6 years ago. Gun, my son, was the best decision I took a risk with. 6 years ago, I dreamed of leaving Manila and giving my siblings the life that they deserve but what I receive is more than that. I'm more than thankful to have this peaceful life.

I just smiled while staring at the view outside. I didn't know that the girl who was lifeless years ago would be so happy like this.

I already have a little shop here in Siargao. Clothes and souvenirs for tourists who visit our place.

"Sister, Gun is messing with the seashell necklace again," Crystal complained but still let Gun do whatever he wants. Gun was seriously messing while doing some necklaces, bracelets, and anklets.

He looks so much like his father. The only difference is my son's skin color is tan and he always has that cute smile on his lips. The rest, it's all his father's features. His blue eyes, pink lips, and his pointed nose. Add to that, his long eyelashes.

"Sister Ren! I'll take another set of seashell accessories, huh? There are so many tourists here in Siargao! There are really a lot of people in summer! There are also many handsome men around. My eyes are already full." I just laughed at Kyra when she was panting when she entered the shop just to tell me that. I just took some of the accessories before I gave the basket to her.

"Maybe that's where you'll find your future boyfriend," I said to her with a smile. It's her day off today but she's helping me sell some of our products. She's already a nurse here in Siargao. Like me, she also wants a peaceful life.

"But, Sister, this is really why I came here. I have a gossip! I saw someone who looks like your ex," she said to me so I was slightly stunned but I continued to fix the shop. My heart raced a little but later on, it immediately calmed down. In the few years we have been here in Siargao, Kyra has told me that several times but I have never seen the man.

I'm sure that we won't see each other again. I was slightly relieved that Bullet and I will not meet here or so I thought.

"Mommy, aren't we going to swim too? I want to try my new surfing board, please," Gun said to me even though it was already noon.

"Oh, I pass, Sister. I already want pale skin," Crystal said when I turned to her to accompany Gun. Queenie immediately raised the project that she was doing here in our shop.

"Fine, call me if you need something," I said to them so they nodded at me.

Gun is already good at surfing but still, needs to be guided. The sea is sometimes friendly but most of the time, it's dangerous too.

"Boss G is here," some local surfers even up-here to Gun. They greeted me too so I just smiled and nodded.

"I'll stay here, Son. I'll sell while you surf," I said so he nodded at me. Gun excitedly headed to the beach.

There are people greeting me too. Some are locals here in Siargao.

"Well, how can anyone buy from you if you look like you are asking for a fight?" one local acquaintance asked. I pouted because that's how they often think of me. I can't help it, my face always looks like that but I'm not.

Some people were already buying to me when I saw a boy running straight into the sea to get a ball. My eyes widened before running towards him. The kid was already under the water when I got him.

"Fuck!" I cursed when I saw that he was already closing his eyes. I put him down on the beach before starting CPR. Water immediately came out from him. He coughed as he sat up. A woman who looked like the child's mother also went towards us. She has tears in her eyes when she hugs the kid.

Even I sigh a sigh of relief for both of them. I also left there because my goods and my son needed to be looked after too. The girl was already busy trying to ask her son if he was fine so I didn't talk to them anymore either.

After a while, I stayed where I was sitting, busy selling. Kyra also arrives and says that she will take care of Gun who will surely get bored soon and go back to the store later on. I also have to help in the shop because the number of customers is also increasing.

Some even bought from me while I was walking towards the shop.

"How much is your number, Miss?" a man asked while smiling and even had the guts to wink as if his eyes were impaired.

"I don't sell numbers," I said before shrugging.

"Oh, what a pity. You're sexy, Miss," they said, looking at me from head to toe. There is no denying that I have a slim and sexy body but it's not for their fantasy.

"I know," I said coldly. The man even held me when I turned away from him so in less than a second his face was already in the sand.

I'm not someone who they can touch now just to put food in my stomach.

Some locals also came and reprimanded those tourists. I just shook my head before turning them away. My time is too precious to think about them.

My mood changed when some children bought seashells accessories.

I was still walking on the shore towards our shop when I saw someone smoking on the side of a tree. I frowned slightly because the sign beside him clearly said no smoking there. I approached while carrying the basket I was holding.

"Excuse me, Sir, but you can't just smoke here. There is a smoking area here," I said to a man who was casually smoking. My lips slowly parted when he looked back at me.

I couldn't hide the shock from my face while looking at the man I ran away from 6 years ago. My body seemed to tremble when I met his blue eyes. Just like before, his eyes still scream power and danger. His lips also parted briefly or should I say he parted his lips to blow smoke at me. I coughed a little because he actually did it on my face.

In shock, I didn't react immediately. I don't know if he still remembers me or what because his eyes look like he doesn't know me. Very different from his blue eyes when he stares at me gently.

Querencia's POV

"I just said that smoking is not allowed here. The smoking area is over there, Sir," I said pointing to the place where people can smoke. He didn't say anything. I hid the nervousness of my voice in irritation.

It seemed like my knees couldn't take it anymore if I kept staring at him so I immediately turned away but he immediately said something.

"Acting like a good girl now, huh?" he said, making me stop. I bit my lip hard before continuing to walk. He remembers me. I want to say that I change but what for? Why does he still look so angry with me based on his eyes?

Who wouldn't be angry at my lie? But damn, it's already years now. Maybe he already has forgotten everything.

I could feel my heart roaring, like a tiger in the forest trying to get away from the hunter's arrow. I walk hurriedly without even looking at him.

When I got to the shop, there were so many people that my sisters didn't notice me. I also just busied myself taking care of the customers and even when they finally subsided, I just continued to fix things in the shop which some are already fine.

"What's wrong, Sister? Why does your face look so worried?" Crystal asked me so I bit my lip firmly before shaking my head. I don't want them to think too much just because of what's bothering my mind right now.

I just tried to stay busy to distract myself even more. I want to hurt myself because the man still has this effect on me. Until this day, I still feel like a worm sprinkled with salt every time I hear his name. Every single time I see his blue eyes.

"Sister, someone is calling you," Crystal called me. I couldn't help but get up from my seat when I heard Crystal saying that someone was looking for me.

"You are so distracted. What happened? Don't tell me you believe Sister Kyra when she said that Brother Bullet is here?" Crystal teasingly said. I stopped there and remembered Bullet once again. I bite my lips hard while thinking about him. Damn that guy, he still has the same effect on me.

"Is this really about Brother Bullet, Sister?" Crystal looks like she's worried about me now.

"I thought you had already moved on?" she asked me in confusion.

"I already did. It's not about him," I said before trying to get away from her.

"Good afternoon?" I greeted the woman who entered in confusion.

"Hi, Miss, I didn't thank you properly earlier. I'm sorry I'm still a little surprised because of what happened earlier. Some locals said that your shop is here," she said. I wondered for a while who it was, but I immediately realized that it was the woman whose child almost drowned earlier.

"I was just wondering how can I thank you. Are you free to have dinner? I'm really thankful to you," she said while smiling at me. I just shook my head and smiled a little too.

"There's no need for that, Miss. Anyone would do that," I said. I just stopped when the familiar bulk entered while a boy was on his back, he was giving him a piggyback ride. It was the kid earlier and the guy I ran away from.

"Mommy! Are we going to eat ice cream now?" the kid asked the woman. I met the eyes of the one carrying him. Bullet. He's here again. It felt like several daggers pierced my chest as I watched the two of them. It hurts that my son has never been carried by his father like that.

Is that his son too? I bit my lip hard and looked away. I turned my eyes back to the woman because I was afraid that he would see me getting hurt from just seeing him carrying a child that is not our son.

"Brother Bullet?" Crystal look at Bullet with wide eyes. Her lips parted too when she stared at him while Queenie's forehead immediately furrowed while looking at Bullet.

"Oh, you know each other?" the woman asked before looking at Bullet and my Sister.

"If that's the case I would really insist on having dinner together. All of us should come," the girl said. I awkwardly smile and don't even know what to say right now especially since I can feel my sister's eyes staring at me as if they can see my soul.

"Oh, it's the lady who helped me earlier. Thank you, Auntie. I didn't really know that I'm already far," the kid said while pouting when he saw me. That's my cue to divert my attention.

"No problem. You know now that water can be dangerous too," I said, smiling at him too.

"And It's really fine, Miss. Don't worry about it," I said as I smiled at the woman once again as if there was no Bullet who seemed like he would melt me using his eyes. I didn't look back at him and tried to distract myself from looking at the kid he was with. Is that his kid? He looks like him. So he finally found his own happiness just like what he said to me, huh? Is he married now as he wanted years ago? Did he finally make a basketball team with his own kid like what he wanted?

I don't know why I feel like there's a hand that keeps on twitching my heart.

And what is it to you if he is, Querencia? You are the one who leaves him so don't act like he can't find someone else after you leave him.

And it looks like the world is really playing tricks on me. My lips slowly parted when the door opened and a boy appeared with a surfing board.

"Mommy, did you watch me earlier? I'm super good at surfing now, don't you think so?"

Damn. This is really fucked up. Good luck to you, Querencia.

Querencia's POV

"Get a room, you two!" One of Bullet's friends said. I grinned while inhaling the sweet fragrance from Bullet. I suck his neck one more time before I look at his friend and talk.

"Don't worry, that's what we are planning to do," I said with my seductive voice. Bullet's breathing is also heavy so I know he is also affected by my presence.

"Should we get going now or do you still want to have a talk with your friend?" I asked, purposely touching his pants.

"Do you think my friend can ease my cock?" he asked with a serious tone. I can't help but laugh because he always has the same face. His expression only changes in bed.

He didn't even say goodbye to his friends and immediately took me to his car. When we got inside, I didn't waste time and devoured his lips.

"Stop, Querencia. I won't be able to concentrate again if you keep on doing that," he said but that makes me want to tease him more.

"Hmm, I can lead you the way though. You can drive while enjoying the ride, don't you think so?" I asked with a smile.

He glared at me when I grabbed his pants and let his cock be free.

"Fuck. You'll be the death of me, Querencia," he whispered as my hand didn't even cover his cock. That's how big he is. As my hands move faster, so does his speed while driving.

"Are you planning to get us killed?" I asked. He can't speak anymore. Not knowing where else to concentrate. He didn't know where he should focus, driving or the pleasure he was feeling.

"Damn. I fucking want to rope you to bed so your hands can behave, Querencia." Just by the way he mentions my name, I can already feel my clit clenching. Even more than the idea that he'll play with me while I'm aching for his touch. When he gave me a glance, I immediately felt my nipples reacting. I just closed my eyes and focused on what I'm doing. As we reach his house, he also reaches his climax.

We both hurried to enter his house. The guards are used to seeing me here. As soon as we got to his room, Bullet immediately took a rope from his toys before tying me to the bed. I can't help but moan when his lips touch mine. He started to suck it. At first, he planted soft kisses but his kiss gradually became aggressive.

"Ah, please, Bullet," I said when I felt him caressing my chest. The only thing separating us is the thin fabric of my dress.

"Please, what?" he huskily asked, making me groan even more.

"I want you, skin by skin," I said, losing control over myself.

"Hmm, you need to gain it first," he whispered as he ran his hand all over my body. Every touch of his hand seemed to electrify me. I can feel my clit quenching and wanting his touch even more. In less than a few minutes, he completely removed all my clothes.

I bit my lip hard when I saw him take a vibrator from his toys. He smirked when he saw me aching my back wanting him to do whatever he was planning just to ease the desire I'm feeling right now.

"Relax, Baby, we're not even starting yet," he said with a smirk on his face. See? This lawyer who can't even smile when it's daytime looks like a devil disguises in a suit and damn, I'm not even complaining. It makes him hotter.

He touches me with his two fingers the reason why I impatiently tried to rub it on my clit, the reason why he just chuckled before touching my chin using his other hand.

"Looks like you're ready, huh? Let me enjoy seeing you being pleasured by toys and I'll let you have my cock," he said before putting the vibrator inside me. He was the one holding it while staring at me. As if trying to memorize every expression I have.

"Fuck!" I can't help but imagine that it was his cock that was fucking me right now. His breathing is getting heavier and I can see his pants budging even more. And thinking that it was because of me makes me excited more. It wasn't long before I completely got my release.

He turned off his vibrator before he went back to me.

"Tired already?"

"Who said so? I can still swallow you whole. Why don't you ride my mouth now, Sir?" I can see his cock wanting to be free. He slowly removed the clothes he was wearing while I was still watching him. Damn, it looks like a Greek God is in front of me now.

He put his cock in my mouth. I took it little by little. As if eating a popsicle. At first, he was just letting me suck, lick and kiss his dick until he fully wants to ride me now. I can feel his cock until my throat.

"What a view," he said with a heavy breath. He knows that I can take him fully so there is no doubt when he thrust his whole cock back and forth toward my mouth and throat. I can't breathe at all but I enjoy seeing different versions of him. I accompanied each return of his cock in my mouth.

"I'm coming," he said and was about to withdraw but I didn't let him. I swallow his release.

"I told you, I will swallow you whole," I said before smirking at him.

That's just how we started. It took us until dawn to finish.

"I want a smoke too," Bullet said after that hot and sexy sex we had. I just smiled before leaning toward him just to light his cigarette.

"I thought you don't smoke?" I asked, raising an eyebrow at him. He always smells so good. And he doesn't really like smelling me whenever I'm smoking.

"I just need one right now."

Both of us are still naked and both are tired after that long sex we had. I just look at him for a little while. He always has this sexy look after sex. Well, he's Bullet, to begin with. He's always extremely hot.

After finishing my cigarette, I stood up. I didn't even bother to cover my body.

"I'm going now," I said. I immediately saw the money from the table on the side of his bed while he was still smoking. He was just staring at me.

"Yeah. Thanks for the hot sex," he coldly said to me. I let out a wide grin before I went up to him again and kissed him on the cheek.

"Hmm, I'll see you again next Friday." He just blew a cloud of smoke so I just stood up in a smirk.

I also took my bag and just put on one of his t-shirts. He doesn't mind it at all.

"My driver will drop you home."

"My friend will come here," I said. He didn't say anything anymore. Right. Why would he? He just likes having sex with me but we don't really have any relationship at all. I shrug before going out.

I immediately answered my friend's call while walking downstairs here at Bullet's house.

It still mesmerizes me every single time I'm here. The golden place that he has. It's like a fire that always attracts fireflies. It always amuses me that I keep on wanting to take it. I want this place to be mine. I want Bullet to be mine. But that's just really a big dream for me. I know how impossible it is.

"Where are you? It's three o'clock! Your family is fighting here. You don't have food on the table again!" I just grinned there. That's always the case so what's new?

Later on, Kyro, Kyra's brother, came to take me home.

"Looks like your Dad is drunk again," Kyro said so I just laughed too.

"What's new with that, Kyro? They are always like that. And my father's mistress? She just finished gambling too?" I just shook my head because they are always fighting whenever they are already done with their daily hobby.

When I got there, you'll think there was a baseball fight going on inside the house on how they shout and throw things. We don't even have a lot of things at home, yet they are still trying to ruin everything.

"Aren't you all sleepy yet?" I asked while holding a cigarette. This is just really my comfort whenever there are a lot of things on my mind.

"Oh! The prostitute is here!" my father's mistress shouted loudly while looking at me.

"At least I'm making money. What about you who just keep on opening your legs but you're only getting tired and just enjoy fucking? It's a loss, right?" I smiled and said to her.

"What?! You and your mother really look alike! Both of you are devils in disguise!" She shouted loudly and was about to slap me but I immediately grabbed her hand. I was no longer the kid she can easily hurt.

"Hit me and let's see if your mouth can still swallow something," I said with a smile so she didn't do anything but argue with my father who can't scold me either because he knows that at any time he does so, they won't have a living bank that they keep on asking money to.

I took the money from my wallet before slapping them both in the face.

"Here's a fucking money so you can let my siblings fucking sleep," I said coldly before I continued entering the house. I could see the anger from them but I didn't bother looking back. I went to the room where I immediately saw my younger siblings trying to calm their self down. Our second to the youngest is covering her ears while our second from the oldest was trying to calm our youngest sibling.

"They'll stop now. You can sleep..." I promised them coldly. I'm the oldest among us four and I wasn't that affectionate especially since I didn't get protection from anyone before.

They all calm down when they see me. I just shrug before going to the bathroom. I immediately saw the second from the oldest waiting there. Cynthia. She's already the third year of high school.

"Why did you go home so late again, Sister?" she asked me. I didn't answer her. She's used to it but she still keeps asking.

"Here's your money. You need tuition fees, right? Don't let Ellen take that again." I just handed it to her even though it looks like she doesn't want to take it but she doesn't have a choice at all. She needed it.

"Where did you go, Sister? From another man? Did you sell your body to get this?" She almost crumpled the money I gave her on how tight her grip is. I didn't answer her at all. I always don't have an answer, but I know that she also has an idea of what I do for a living. I just can't really say it.

"Sister! I don't need money if that's the case," she said calmly but angrily.

"If you hate that kind of job so much then study. Study your ass out, Cynthia. I won't take it if you fail," I said before passing by her. That's not really the case at all. I would always be on their back. No matter how many times they fail, it's fine, I'm very used to failure.

I just don't know how to be soft to them. I don't know... I just don't really want them to be soft for the world too. I know how fuck people are. Even if they don't know you at all or even if they know that know you too well, they are still fuck up.

And I know how soft my Cynthia is. She is the opposite of us, the older people, who live in this house. She is always the sweetest among us all. I don't want the world to easily hurt her. All of them.

I bit my lip firmly before I left our house.

Ellen and my father have become quiet, of course, they already have money. It's just that, Ellen was glaring at me when I passed her way. I just rolled my eyes at her too. As if I'll let her step on me.

My friend, Kyra, immediately greeted me. She was so used to my family scene that she just laughed softly when she looked at me.

"Here's what you keep on asking me to do," she said, handing me an envelope. A smile immediately curved on my lips when I saw its contents.

"Fuck you all! Go to sleep!" Kyra shouted loudly to some of our neighbors who are still gambling. I just laughed softly because they were really like that all night. I just shrugged my shoulders before reading the paper I ask her to fake.

"Where's the pregnancy test?" I asked so she just scratched her head before handing it to me in disgust.

"Girl, it's a good thing my classmate got pregnant otherwise I don't know where I would find you one," she said with a laugh so I just shook my head at her.

"Here." I handed her three thousand so her eyes immediately widened.

"Omg, it's too much, Ren," she said, still scratching her head.

"No. It's fine. Thank you, Kyra. You should study and in a little, while you will be able to graduate," I said to her seriously so she slowly nodded.

"You'll really continue your plan?" Kyra furrowed her forehead at me so I just puffed a cigarette on her before staring.

"Do I look like someone who will just back out, Kyra?" I shrugged so Kyra just sighed. She just knows that once I've made up my mind, I really won't back out.

"What if you get caught? He still looks like a serious person and he looks smart," she said, referring to Bullet. He was really one. I don't even know how I ended up fucking with a guy like him. He was just different from everyone. Every time I'm sleeping with him, he is just really gentle. He was different from his cold image. But of course, different if we want hard sex.

"If he ever catches me, maybe I'll have already got money from him," I said, making Kyra's eyes narrow at me. I plan to ask Bullet for money. I'll act pregnant with his child. I don't really know how I'll execute this plan but no matter what happens, I'll surely take my siblings out of here.

"Are you sure you're really only after money? I thought he was your type?" she asked before folding her arms while looking at me.

"I will not be consumed by love, Kyra."

"Let's see if you won't eat what you just said," Kyra said, the reason why I smirked.

I just don't really know if things will end up as I want it to, especially since Bullet is a lawyer. I just smirked to myself. If this fuck up, then fuck it.