Please! I Want To Have Fun!

BELLE's P.O.V

"Good morning my lady." May, my personal maid said as she pulled the curtain in my bedroom. A ray of sun hits my face, oh it's morning again.

I greeted her back then walked to my mini table where a glass of water is put every morning.

I sat down and observed her, she's now arranging the books that I've been reading since last night. She's the one beside me the moment I open my eyes in this strange place. She takes good care of me and acts as if she's my mother despite our two years age gap, she's really mature for her age.

May's also my personal tutor, I've learned a lot about this place with her help. At first it's hard for me who came from another world to just wake up in a strange place, new people, new place, new environment and even the way they dress freaks me out. If you're wondering what I'm saying, let's go back to the day I first opened my eyes in this place...

Ouch... My back hurts...

"The..."

"-and..."

I feel like there's someone talking but I can hear them clearly.

"I think..."

The noise is hurting my head more, what are they talking about? I tried to open my eyes a little, they're also aching...

"My...lady..." Someone's talking.

I force my eyes to open, I want to see what's happening around me. At first my vision's blurry, all I can see is a white and gray. The next thing I saw was a woman's face...

"My lady!" Her face changes as she calls for someone. Who is she calling? Why is she looking at me?

My vision became clearer and now I can see her face, she looks worried... Who is she?

"My lady! My lady is awake!" She shouted.

I tried to roam my eyes, I can't remember coming here. Where am I?

There's furniture that I only see in historical dramas, is it gold? How much is it worth? I tried to move my body but it hurts a lot!

The last thing I remember is I'm on my way to my house when suddenly a truck appeared out of nowhere, a beam of light appeared then people screaming in the background. Next thing I knew, I was lying on the ground and everything went black.

It's really confusing me, so I'm not dead right? But where the heck am I?

My eyes look at the woman, I want to ask her.

"My lady, I'm glad you're awake..." Is she referring to me?

She wipes her tears and sighs, she's weird.

A week has passed and I can now sit and talk. I've learned that the woman who calls me "My Lady" is May, she is my personal maid and I'm an illegitimate daughter of a Count. My name is Belle Stefano, a 16 year-old with a weak body and an uneducated child. I've been living here since I was born and my personal maid is the only one who's taking care of me, no other maids here in this mansion. Truck-kun really isekai me huh, and to a worse family too.

May thought that I've lost my memory because of the incident, that's why I'm behaving like that. Well, I fell into a coma for almost three months because someone put poison in my food. May found the same symptoms to what her mother had and immediately searched for herbal medicines. Thanks to that I recovered little by little.

Back to the present, I had to adjust to this strange place so I asked for books. The first time I read a book May looked shocked, girl I'm shocked too! I can read the book because it's written the way we wrote it in my past life but of course she cannot believe it 'cause I'm an uneducated child.

Thank God I'm an honor student in my past life.

"Self study." Is all I said to her and shrugged.

After reading some books, that's where I realized that I'm really in a different world. Does someone pick me up from Earth and throw me here? How about my body there, Am I dead?

There's a lot of questions but what I'm sure of is I'm now a different person.

I've been neglected even before I was born, my first maid was May's mother but she died a few years ago, thankfully her daughter was the one who replaced her. May worked here even though I'm an illegitimate daughter, she doesn't get the salary she deserves and she does all the work night and day, see what happens to illegitimate children here in this world? It sucks for real.

Another shocking revelation for me is that my so-called parents didn't even check me even once or ask their servants to check on me or this house, that's why this house looks more like a haunted mansion . Thankfully May takes good care of the furniture so it doesn't look that old.

One time when we're taking fresh air from the veranda I asked her.

"May, can you tell me more about my family?"

She paused for a minute, unsure if she would tell me.

"Your father is Count Bourbone Schwarts, he is a well known businessman, your mother, Leonna is her mistress who works at a hotel in the city. She died giving birth to you, you have three siblings from your father but they don't care about you." Ouch... Was she always this savage? My family from Earth's not like that, but I can't tell that they really love me. I'm an orphan after all.

I'm an orphan until I reached eight years old. When I got adopted I did my best to look good and make them proud, I worked hard to be on top of my studies. They seem proud outside our house but cold when inside.

"Your father's wife also doesn't like you, that's why she asked your father to throw you away, but due to your father's love for his reputation, he decided to buy you an old mansion and make you live there."

"That house is this house?" I ask her.

She nodded and continued, "your father's wife is Fionna Heidy Schwarts-"

"Pft!"

She turns her head and looks at me as if asking what's wrong with me.

"HAHAHA!"

Fionna, that's a good name! Like Shrek's wife!

"What's wrong my lady?"

I can't contain my laughter, tears start to come out my eyes and my stomach starts hurting. Oh gosh...

"N-No nothing, please continue." I said between my laughs.

She sighs.

"As I was saying, she is your father's wife as well as..." She looks like she's thinking.

"As well as?" I asked, raising my eyebrows.

"-as well as... your father's wife." She stated.

Huh.

I waited for a couple of minutes to hear her say more but she just stared at me as if she's done.

"So she's just there..." I stated.

Her face remains the same.

"Yes my lady."

"She's just... existing..."

We nodded to the fact that she's just there, existing.

"Pft!"

"My lady please don't-"

"HAHAHA!" I burst out laughing, goodness.

What an evil person to ask her husband to throw away a baby but she's just there,no work and purpose- oh wait, right. Her purpose is to exist.

May once again sighs. She shows me some pictures of my family, they look like the one in a renaissance painting to be honest. Everything looks old fashioned, I'm not sure if it's just me but their clothes look terrible. I bet if they wear it on Earth, millennials will find it 'not aesthetically looking'. It makes me miss my life there.

We spent more than one hour looking at the photos. I saw their family photos and all I can say is...

"They're good looking huh."

Count Bourbon has red hair, he looks like an idol. No, to be exact all of them look like an idol, Fionna has long brown hair, I can't deny the fact that she's pretty. My siblings are all good looking and confident, do they even know they have a younger sibling?

The owner of this body is also pretty but because she's malnourished, her physical appearance changes. I should eat more, even though I'm not the owner of this body, I can't just let this body be malnourished, right? It's for my own good too.

Later on, I ask May to prepare my bath. It hasn't been long since I got here, there are some things that make me want to go home like when someone wants to take a bath here, they have to get water from somewhere and they'll pour it into the bathtub, it's really different to Earth where we can just open the shower. The difference makes me sick, I miss Earth so much. It makes me cry thinking that I have to lift a lot of water buckets especially with this malnourished body.

TODAY is our harvest day. According to May we have to do this if we still want to live since I'm an neglected child that no one comes to visit me, even my own family rarely sends my budget for my needs. It's like they're purposely neglecting me so that I will die soon.

May plant vegetables for us to eat and survive. Now is the time where we'll harvest those she planted a few months ago.

"My lady, you can just wait for me over there." She says.

I grab the gloves and look at her.

"Don't worry, I can do this better than you." I smirked.

She raised her left eyebrow.

"Wanna bet?"

We just had an intense eye to eye, I know she doesn't believe me because this body is weak but that is Carlota, not me Josefina Diaz. Ha!

After we finish what we need, she asks me to eat a little more because we're not sure whether I lose consciousness due to hunger. After that we go straight to the little farm she does beside our house.

When we get there, little farm is really an underrated word because it is as huge as the house and it's actually beautiful. Didn't expect this huh.

"You're great."

"I know, thanks."

We first harvest the potatoes then the carrots.

I was about to slip but she caught me.

"Please be careful my lady."

I thanked her and continued harvesting. We rest for a few minutes then start picking herbs. She gave me information that I can use. According to her there were poisonous plants nearby and she's afraid I might pick them.

We agreed to stop before the sun sets.

I continued what I'm doing when suddenly a man in a mask came running towards me.

He's like six meters away from me and because there's plants everywhere I can't see what he's holding. All I am sure of is he is a man, a tall man rather. I think he's wearing something old fashioned.

I focused my eyes on him to see him clearly, when he's just a few meters away I just felt my soul leaving my body.

He's holding a sword! A f*Cking sword!

For a moment I forgot that I'm in another world where there is magic and war. My feet felt numb and my hands started to feel cold. My heart started to beat fast. Why is he running towards me with that big sword!

May is not here, she's way too far for her to see me nor this man. What should I do?!

Am I going to die again!?

I want to run but I can't move my feet. My throat feels like it's blocked.

I'm not ready to die! Not again!

He's getting near me but I still can't move.

He started to raise his sword, running towards me faster. Tension fills my body. He point his sword towards me and when he's step away from me I feel like everything black out.

BELLE's P.O.V

"My lady!"

Someone's calling me, I tried to move my body but my back hurt instead.

This seems familiar. I tried to open my eyes and saw Jessa's worried face. Oh, this definitely happened before.

"My lady, you're awake!" She looks relieved to see me open my eyes, I'm relieved too Jessa. These days I always feel relieved when I open my eyes, maybe because I'm afraid that I'll never open it again. Okay enough with the drama! But why am I lying like the first time I came here? I feel weak.

I tried to sit but May stopped me.

"You should rest my lady." She said as she guided me to lie comfortably on the bed.

I look around, last time I remember we're harvesting crops and... oh my gosh!

"Jessa, someone tries to kill me!" I shouted.

"I know my lady, thankfully Mr. Hendrick's doing his patrol that he managed to save you."

I look at her confused, "who is Mr. Hendrick?"

She looks confused- now we're both confused.

"He's the one who saved you, my lady."

I can't recall meeting another person except the one who has a sword and aims it at me.

"What are you talking about?" I asked her.

She sat beside me and said, "Mr. Hendrick is a mercenary that lives outside your land, he comes here once every week to exchange herbs for meat."

"Oh, that's why we have meat." I'm always curious about where she's getting those meat. So that's why.

"Don't tell me you don't remember him?"

I tried to look into this body's memory but I can't remember this Mr.Hendrick. Who is that? Is he someone who's important to me?

"I can't remember him..."

She gasps.

"No way!" Wait, what's with her reaction?

"-but maybe, I'll remember if you tell me?"

I ask her to help me sit, my body's still hurting but I can now manage to sit. Of Course with her help. She got me a glass of water and made me drink the medicine she made.

After a while she looked at me and said, "I'll tell you my lady, we first met him when I planted the herbs for the first time... "

LATER that day, Jessa asks for a day off. She told me she needs to go to town to get us what we need for the upcoming winter.

I stay in bed the whole time because I feel like my body's still in shock. That was the first time that someone pointed a sword or whatever to me, in short, that is the first time someone tried to kill me. Like what did I do wrong?

Come to think of it, the owner of this body seems to be poisoned that causes her to die. Why does someone want to kill me? Goodness!

As far as I know, I've been living here all the time and I haven't even met my family. I don't even have any friends nor enemies. It's driving me crazy!

I spent a couple of hours thinking about that but nothing comes to my mind.

MONTH has passed and everything seems fine. The incident never happens again and the preparation for winter went well. Since it's hard to go out when snow starts to pour, we took a lot of food and preserved them to last longer.

I helped her but since this body is weak, I need to rest like three times a day.

I also helped her by replacing the curtains with the one that's much thicker.

"This is fluffy!" I told her as I hugged the curtain.

"Mr.Hendrick gave that to us last year." She said without looking at me.

She's now folding the dirty curtains as well as the dirty pillow cases.

"It seems like Mr.Hendrick is a good person."

"Well, he really is a good person."

"Do you like him?" I tease her.

She shrugged.

"What does that mean?"

"He's not my type." She said casually.

I laughed hard but she just shrugged again.

"Seems like you have your own standard!" I tease her again.

She looked at me and smiled.

"Of course my lady, you too, shouldn't lower your standards."

"Yes mother." These days I'm calling her mother.

This started when one night I had a nightmare, when I woke up she's the first one I saw then I called her mother.

She teased me at first but I called her that since then, she used to look disgusted every time I called her that before though.

It's funny how I adjusted well in this world. Imagine waking up without going to school? It's making me excited to wake up!

They don't have electricity here but it's called so you really didn't need to use an electric fan or what. The scenery is also top notch so that you can stare at it all day without getting bored.

There are a lot of things you can do here, especially relaxing. I didn't get the chance to relax before because of the pressure I had on my shoulders but now I can feel my soul being relaxed.

After we finished replacing the curtains, I helped her prepare our dinner. She cooks so well that you will forget who you are when you taste it.

I'm preparing the table when I heard something drop.

"What's that?"

Don't tell me it's another murderer!

"That's Mr.Hendrick." May said casually.

What?

"He can come in anytime he wants?"

She looked at me with one eyebrow raised.

"I mean, yes?" She said in a sarcastic way.

"Why?" I don't get it. Isn't he a mercenary?

Instead of answering my question, she pointed at the door and went out the kitchen.

I followed her and we went straight to the main door.

"Is this really okay?" I asked her again.

"Yes my lady."

I sigh. For someone like May to trust him, I hope he's really a good person.

We reached the main door and May opened it widely.

A man with a huge figure welcomes my eyes. I can't see him Clearly because of the darkness.

We're standing a few inches apart but I can feel that he is dangerous but hot!

Gosh! What am I thinking even though I can't clearly see his face!

"Welcome, how can we help you?" May's the first one to talk.

The man didn't answer, instead a few people started appearing from his back.

He's with someone! Who are they?

The man seems to see my reaction.

"Good evening my lady, good evening May." A baritone voice echoed the whole hallway.

Goosebumps started to fill my body. What's with that voice, does he come from the underworld or something? It feels like he can even summon a monster that has been asleep for billions of years.

"May I ask you a favor, my lady?" He asks.

MAY let the man called Mr.Hendrick in, she didn't even get my permission! Who's the boss here really?

Mr.Hendrick has three accompaniments, they were introduced one by one a while ago at the front gate.

Now we're heading to the kitchen, May invited them to eat before we talk about the favor he needs. Maybe I'm mistaken, maybe May is the real owner of this house, she just decides alone!

We reached the kitchen and May let the guest sit. The bag they're carrying looks heavy and old. They also have a lot of pockets, I bet it's full of sharp objects.

One of them who introduced himself as Josh seems playful.

"We're really thankful that you let us eat with you my lady." He said.

"It's nothing, please feel at home in this humble home." I replied smiling.

He looks kind.

"Please bear with the food." I added.

"No, this is more than enough my lady!" He said happily as he started eating the curry stew May made. Of course I tell her how it should be made.

Josh seems to like the food. He keeps on talking about how he's able to eat such delicious food he's never eaten for almost a year. Well...

While Josh seems kind, the other two seem intimidating. The other guy named Bora never talked to us other than the man named Hendrick.

When you look at them, they're all handsome. It's just that they look dirty but if you clean them they'll pass as the king's guard. Especially Mr.Hendrick, he looks like one of those idol rookies!

I was admiring his beauty when suddenly he raised his gaze and our eyes met. I automatically look in another direction. Gosh, it's embarrassing!

DINNER went well, Josh and Bora helped clean the dishes while we went to the meeting room to talk about Mr.Hendrick's request.

"What would you ask for a favor Mr.Hendrick?" May asks as soon as we sit down.

Mr.Hendrick looked at her.

"Our party is on their way to the capital but bandits appear near this village so we had to take care of them first." He then looked straight into my eyes. Oh man... look at those beautiful eyes.

"I wonder if you'll let us stay here-"

"Of course." May said she didn't even let Mr.Hendrick finish.

She decides herself again! Seriously? It makes me smile though. She's really different, but why do I feel relieved that she agreed?

"Thank you lady May, but may I know my lady's say about this?" He said, still looking intently at me.

How will I reject this beauty?

"S-Sure, why not." I said then looked away.

Mr.Hendrick said thanks and gave us some meat they hunt in return.

Now that it's settled that they'll stay here, May gave them the guest room. It's a little small and old but they'll fit in it right? We don't have another room to offer though, so they don;t have a choice if they don't want to sleep on the sofa or outside.

The guest room is on the first floor while our room is on the second floor.

While on our way to our room, I ask May.

"Why did you accept them so easily? What if they do bad things to us when we're sleeping?"

"My lady, I have known Mr.Hendrick ever since I took care of you." That's all that she said.

Is that enough to let a man stay here? It's just the two of us here and we don't really know them. Well, I hope Mr.Hendrick is really a good person.

I'VE BEEN awake ever since I entered my room.

I don't know why but I can't sleep tonight. There's nothing to do so I decided to open the veranda and sightsee for a couple of minutes.

May advises that I should never open any doors or windows during night time because it's really cold these nights and I might catch a cold, but I'll just open it for a short time, it should be okay.

I wore my nightgown before coming to the veranda.

I look at the sky, this scene never disappoints me. It is calming, I remember that even before I was transmigrated here the night sky always makes me at ease, together with the stars.

My family from Earth suddenly enters my mind. How are they? Do they miss me? No, the question should be, do they still remember me?

After a few minutes, I decided to close the veranda door because it's getting colder. I was about to close the door when I saw a figure of a man in the garden.

"Who's that?"

I closed the door and grabbed my personal knife. Who is it this time?

I walked fast to catch that person. When I got to the garden, I saw the figure walking in a certain direction.

I followed him, and he went straight to the fountain. I knew a shortcut so I went there to catch that person in the easiest way.

I tried my best to make my movements silent, the figure I was following turned right, I had to walk faster to catch him so I did. I ready my knife but when I get to where he turns, he's no longer there. I can't see him anymore.

"Where did he go?!"

D*mnit. I've got a bad feeling about this, my instincts are telling me to turn around right now. I turned around to go back to my room but suddenly a hand covered my mouth. A second before, I was unable to move.

BELLE's P.O.V

"What are you doing here?" I was panicking until I heard his voice.

"Are you calmed down now?" He asks again.

I nodded.

He slowly loosen his grip around me as well as his hand covering my mouth.

"Why are you out here at this hour?"

Woah, he's talking a lot huh? What happens to the man with a few words?

But should I tell him that I thought he was an assassin that my parents sent to kill me?

It'll be more awkward to say that, so I decided not to tell him.

When I didn't answer, he looked at me with his intense eyes.

I looked away. "I-I thought you're a bad guy..." I said, half telling the truth and half telling a lie, embarrassed by my actions.

I didn't know it was him! If I knew from the start I wouldn't come this far and why the hell would I come here and approach him first?

I glanced at him again, he's wearing a different clothes he used, different from when they first got here. He's also holding a glass with a red liquor inside. Is that a wine? Where did he get that?

"You can't drink this." He said.

What?

"Oh..." Hit by embarrassment, he saw me looking at his wine. He must have thought that I wanted to drink it. I'm tempted though, I didn't reach adulthood in my past life so I didn't get the chance to drink alcohol, even a sip.

"Why are you here?" I ask him, trying to ignore his presence' impact on me as well as the embarrassment.

He just shrugged and looked at the fountain. What's with his attitude now?

He reminded me of May! They'll surely pass as sister and brother!

A couple of minutes have passed, he doesn't talk to me, he just stares at the fountain the whole time.

It's a little awkward for me because we're not really close and he doesn't say anything either.

I don't know what to say or what to do. Should I go now? But wouldn't it be rude for me to leave so sudden?

I looked at him again, he's still looking at the fountain while his hand's slowly move into a circle to mix his wine.

He didn't even look at me! Let's just leave, he seems to not care anyway.

"I'll go now..." I didn't look at him after I said that. I just walked without looking back at him.

While walking through the hallway, I can still feel his gaze. This hallway kind of looks like something you see in horror movies, it's giving me an eerie feeling.

Is it really about the hallway or about his stare?

"What am I thinking?" I shake my head.

I started to walk faster.

When I got to my room, I let out a heavy sigh.

"Goodness..." I'm not sure as to why my heart is pounding so fast.

Is it because I thought he's a bad guy or because we had an encounter and converse?

I don't know if I am just hallucinating but I think I saw Mr. Hendrick somewhere. I just can't shrugged off that familiar feeling.

Well, whatever the reason is, I should just move on. I should sleep!

I end my day by sleeping with a fast pounding heartbeat.

"WHAT happened to your face my lady?"

I wasn't able to sleep last night . I keep thinking about Mr.Hendrick, even though I didn't want to admit it, I sure thought of him last night.

"Argh!" I shouted.

May look at me with disbelief.

"Are you in love my lady?"

I gasped.

I look at her with wide eyes, how does she...!

"I think I know who-" I didn't let her finish. I cover her mouth with my two hands. Her eyes remain the same.

"Shut up May!"

"mmhp."

"You're not going to tell anyone right!?" I need to make sure that she won't open her mouth.

We had an eye to eye battle before I slowly uncovered her mouth.

"Don't tell anyone...!"

She just stayed silently while waiting for my hands.

I hope she doesn't open her mouth! When I removed my hands from her mouth, I stared at her. This girl stared back!

We stayed like that until she said something.

"Oh, it's Mr.Hendrick!"

Oh Gosh!

MAY prepare our lunch, we'll eat it here at the garden. It's just the both of us because the tree man already departed, telling us that they have to arrive at the capital before night.

We are thankful to them because they helped us hunt cockroaches and rats before they go. They also help us to move the other furniture.

I am still embarrassed because of what May did a while ago, Mr Hendrick looked at us. Every time me and Mr Hendrick pass by each other I always see me looking at us with a straight face, I know she's just showing a straight face but I can see in her eyes that she is teasing me and she wants to say something.

Should I just punch her one time? Or let her sleep outside since I am the lady of this house. I'm thinking of punishing her but I can't do that, she's the only one I have and she helps me every time I need her. She's also like my sister and my mother sometimes. She doesn't nag at me but I can see it in her eyes! She can't fool me!

This is my first time eating outside after I came here and even before I came here. I never experienced eating outside because I didn't have any friends back then.

I also tried to avoid anything that will anger my parents because they don't want to see me with someone else even though they are just my friends, they want me to just focus on my studies and to be on top of my class.

I don't even experience going on a vacation with my classmates or going on a field trip with them, how ironic that I do my best for my parents to be proud of me but they still didn't see me as a person, they just see me as someone who will give them accomplishments and medals. Someone who will make their family name well known for having achievements.

Right now that I am experiencing this kind of thing, I'm really happy.

I just hope that these feelings will last forever but I know that it's impossible. First of all, this is not my body and I am just someone who trespassed into this world. I Still don't know where this body's owner is.

Looking back I was just someone who would just sit at the corner of the room, scribble on my notes and read the comics that I bought. Back then I could spend my weekends just by reading a comic in my room because my adopted family we'll go outside and eat outside but they'd never let me join them. I also have a sibling but we didn't get along well.

I remembered that the day before I died on the earth I was reading a comic that has a tragic ending for the antagonist and a happy ending for the protagonist.

Suddenly, I had this feeling that I should remember something.

What is it?

I tilt my head to remember clearly what my mind wants me to remember, the first who comes to my mind is Mr Hendrick. What's with him? How is he related to that memory of mine?

I definitely saw him somewhere, I have a good memory but because of this world it always makes me confused. I also forgot some things that I do or know before on Earth.

I looked at the flowers that May planted, they look beautiful and the sun helps them to shine more.

I tap my fingers through the table because I know that I am getting closer to that memory, somehow I remember something...

I remembered the last comic that I have read that was entitled the villain should rest forever, I was shocked by the fact that there was Mr.Hendrick in that comic.

As if I was struck by lightning, my body wasn't able to move.

I now remember where I saw Mr.Hendrick! He is in that comic!

"Oh my gosh..."

He is that male lead! The one that I love the most in the comic! Oh my gosh!

He's the one that has many fangirls and is even famous on social media!

I remembered seeing his poster on one of the train stations near our school and I always heard my classmates talking about him. I even wanted to butt in and join them but since we're not close, I can't do that.

I gasped at the thought. I can't believe it! Why am I transmigrated in that comic despite Earth having billions of comics around the world!? I close my eyes intently.

May appear holding the tray that contains our lunch.

"My lady?" She asks.

I shook my head in disbelief while May prepared our table and sat down on the chair across from mine.

What should I do? I didn't expect to be transmigrated to a world inside a comic!

I'm the antagonist! My gosh! Does this mean I'm going to die in this world as well?

I can't accept that! Why would I be transmigrated to another world just to die? Where's the justice in that?

I can't remove the thought that I was about to die the second time, although my life is already in danger ever since I got here, but that's because of my parents' scheme and I can avoid that, but the death by the hands of the male lead is something different!

My mind is somewhere else while we're having lunch, I feel like may want to ask me something but kept her mouth shut. That's the one thing I like about her, everywhere she can clearly read the mood all the time.

After we had our lunch I went straight to my room and found a pen and paper that listed the things that I still remembered in that comic.

"Alright let's get started."

I first listed the names of the protagonist and antagonist. Unfortunately, I am one of the antagonists and Mr Hendrick is the male lead. The female lead will be Jamaica Flowers.

Jamaica is someone who sells flowers, that's also the reason why people call her Jamaica Flowers. Her mother was a slave who died because of being beaten to death by it's master. But thankfully someone helped Jamaica. That's why she didn't meet the end like her mother. That man was a soldier of the empire who's doing a raid to that slave house and he pity Jamaica that's why he helped her.

She wasn't orphaned at the age of six, then she was kept by her uncle but her uncle treated her badly and wanted to sell her off so she decided to run away from home, that's where she met a lady who sells flowers.

Thankfully that lady is so kind that she took care of Jamaica, she taught Jamaica how to read and how to write as well as how to count. She treated Jamaica as her own child but she fell ill and died due to a serious illness.

She sold flowers for almost two years until she met Mr.Hendrick. They fall in love with each other at first sight but then this antagonist can't accept that fact because she is deeply in love with Mr Hendrick.

She did all to make the two separate and hate each other. She even poisoned Jamaica and did violent things to her, everything and every one that Jamaica has suffered because of the antagonist. She tried everything but she didn't succeed, Mr. Hendrick found out her plans in the past, and the things that she did to Jamaica, he punished the antagonist until she couldn't bear it anymore. He made her live in the prison, no one wants to talk to her. They didn't even feed her. Her family didn't even visit her or help her during that time. She was always alone, that's why she didn't last long. She took her own life.

That is how the antagonist meets her end. I don't want that! I will do everything just to stay alive! Even living as invisible!

I spent the night listing everything from the time where they will meet and the time that things will start to happen. Right now I don't have anyone on my back, I haven't even met my family but for sure they will never help me with anything. I am not also close with the male lead so I'm not sure if he will not punish me in the future.

May entered my room before midnight.

"Why are you still up, My Lady?"

"I was just reading some books, I can't fall asleep at the moment." I made an excuse.

"Do you want milk or something?"

"No, it's okay." I refused.

Later on, she left while I went back to planning.

I have to plan wisely. Maybe I wouldn't meet my end if I didn't meet the female lead or the male lead, right? Maybe I would not be killed if I didn't get in their way. Of course I wouldn't try everything to make the male lead suffer because I don't care about her!

I have to list all the places that I can build a house. I have to find a place that is quiet to make sure that I will never meet the female lead. I don't care about them though! They can live happily ever after or whatever. I just want to live a happy life and a quiet one to relax and have a piece of mind. I can just sell my assets and find a place to live.

Oh my gosh!

What am I saying? I feel like I've been saying the same thing all this time! Okay I need to calm down but this is making me nervous! I can't even remember the whole story so I'm not sure if I can avoid all the things that'll make me meet the female lead!

I want to shout, why should I experience this kind of thing and why am I destined to die?! I just want to live!