Obsessed With Cheating

ALEXA MARTINEZ

'' I need a little money Alexa , don't go with out giving it to me '', Just as l was making my way downstairs to the kitchen , a deep morning raspy voice stopped me short in mid motion . Hearing the voice , l instantly knew it that it was no one else but my mother Sarah Martinez.

'' Again money ? Mother this isn't.....'',. '' Your husband got paid last night, didn't he ? , Then the 10usd will be enough for me '', She didn't allow me to finish up the sentence. "You right he was paid last night but that doesn't mean that money has to be wasted " ,l retorted while turning to look at her .

'' I don't care with whatever you saying , l just need money to get my hair tinted so that l go look for a job but before that I have to look young and beautiful '', She replied while running her fingers through her short red brown hair. Hearing her say that , l just shook my head in disbelief. My mother was seriously unbelievable .

'' Are you going to give me the 50usd or ?'', When l didn't respond sooner, She sneered out again with anger in her eyes. '' Alright mother am going to give it to you '', l responded quickly with a sad smile on my face . I knew my mom well , she was a liar . She wanted the 10usd to go and buy marijuana or wine instead of tinting her hair. Despite knowing that , l still had nothing to do about it , she was not only my mother but she had barely had a job in the five months , she was jobless but still she always needed money to buy marijuana and expensive bottles of wine.

'' Honestly mother am gonna give you 45 usd only , go to the nearby Maggie beauty College , it the most cheapest in the all town '', l humbly tried to explain everything to her. '' What the actual hell are you talking about ? and how many times do I need to tell you to stop calling me''mother'' , my name is Sarah Martinez'', She spoke out in a raised up voice.

'' Every one in the town , bar and hotel keep telling me how am too young to have an old twenty five years woman all because of you , Ignoring the fact that you have three children , why do you keep calling me mother and yet you know that Sarah Martinez is my name '', Before l could respond to her , She continued. '' But Sarah.....'', Feeling a bit awkward, l began but then stopped in mid sentence . '' I know you find it difficult to call me by my name but l gave birth to you when l was still 15 years old, so give me all the 50usd because l would have aborted you , you owe me , don't you hun? '', She spoke out with a fake smile before she reached out and rubbed my cheek just like a loving mother.

'' You really tired me out when you were still young so hurry up and give Sarah Martinez the 50usd '', She continued while slowly pinching my cheeks. '' Am gonna give it you don't worry Ms Sarah Martinez '', l finally nodded my head in agreement. I knew my mother very well , every time she is in need of buying marijuana and expensive bottles of wine, she brings the issues of abortion and l end up helpless.

'' Alright Sarah Martinez, here is the money '', Helpless l reached out and got a fifty - dollar tip from my purse. '' Okay but l want you to show me how pretty tommorow you look after having your hair tinted '', l continued as l handed the money to her. '' Do you also Alexa think that am so young and pretty '', At that She beamed while staring at her reflection in the huge mirror.

'' Even if you don't reply to me Alexa , l know it that am more beautiful than you and you lucky , in fact thank God that you got my hair , every one says that it's unsual that's why l have to keep it looking good '', When l refused to respond , She murmured more to herself. Hearing her say that I still shook my head in disbelief. Right we both had different colored hair , some thing like brown, red , gray , it was seriously undescribable and that's why people always told us that they liked our hair the thing that made Sarah Martinez to feel like she was the most beautiful woman on the earth .

" Sarah it's ..... " , It's morning grandma and mummy " ,l stopped in mid sentence when I heard the excited voice of my little son Ivan . " Dammit ! Grandmother again " , Sarah instantly cursed out as she stared at Ivan . Ignoring her , I smiled sweetly at my little boy before lifting him up in my arms .

" Don't risk calling me grandmother , l hope you all know that am Sarah Martinez " ,Just as Jessica and Chrissy were making their way downstairs , she again blurted out . " Good morning Sarah and mummy " , Jessica my old girl greeted while making her way to me . They were my lovely daughters with a difference of three years .

Jessica was the oldest but still she was thinner than Chrissy . I wasn't like my mother Sarah , who regretted giving birth to me . I loved my three children and I didn't want to think about a life without them . " Ready to go my lovely daughters " , l smiled at them . I had brought them to Sarah their grandma for a weekend and since it was Monday , l had to take them back at school .

" Is dad coming for us ? " , Chrissy asked . " Yeah he is coming " , l replied to her . " Sarah , we will come back ..... " , . " Hurry up , don't waste my time " , Just as I was talking to my mother , Mark my husband ruthlessly out of the blue arrived . " Good morning " , With a smile , l murmured but it instantly dropped from my face when I turned to look at him .

He was angry and glared at me as if l had just done something wrong . I didn't do anything wrong , l only had a night at my mother's place but then here he was looking at me with anger blazing in his eyes . He shamelessly didn't even greet my mom but still I had nothing to do . " What is wrong , has something bad happened ? " , I asked with worry all over my face . " Don't be stupid , l have already told you that don't waste my time ". He roared out angrily and at that my mouth fall open in disbelief .

" Am sorry we ..... " , . " We ain't going to come , is that the way you have to talk to mom " , Just as I began Jessica shockingly intervened in our conversation while glaring angrily at her dad and at that my heart instantly beat more faster . She had put me in hell , l knew it that once we be alone in the room , things won't be good for me . " Jessica stop it , your dad is always busy and stressed out looking for your school fees , so l think things didn't go well at work this time " , l uttered out with a thought that she will get me .

With my words , Mark glared at me and knowing the results , l mouthed a sorry but then he just turned and began walking towards the car . " Am serious mom , he has to respect you, you also used to work but still you didn't talk like that " , Just as Mark was making his way to the car , shockingly Jessica blurted out loudly and at that made Mark to stop in mid motion .

At that l felt like asking for the ground to open up and swallow me . I swear this girl was going to get me killed . As my daughter , l knew it that she was right . This wasn't his first time to disrespect me , he treated me like trash but Jessica's intervention in our conversation didn't help . She was only worsening things for me .

" Wasted night " , Mark cursed out and after throwing up a deadly serious glare in my way , he opened up the car and entered Inside . " Jessica it's fine sweetie , calm down " , l mumbled in a low voice and after giving me a sad smile , we made our way to the car . Saying goodbye to their grandmother Sarah wasn't needed because she was already in the mirror , combing her hair .

With us seated in the backseat , the car was filled up with total silence . Chrissy , Ivan and l were fine but Jessica and her dad had gloomy faces . I honestly didn't know what the hell had happened to Mark but with my daughter , she was right to get pissed off . Everything was understandable to her , l only gave up my job because we couldn't afford child care for both Chrissy and Ivan . I would have left them to stay at my mother's place but then she wasn't someone who wanted kids . She was old but to her , it seemed like l was her mother .

At first l used to work with them but it was tiring . I used to work the whole day and come back home , organize Chrissy and Ivan , prepare Mark's stuff and then do the home chores . It was truthfully tiresome and l slept like a slave . " Stop the car , we have reached " , Jessica's voice soon enough brought me out of my trance .

Sadly she was again talking to her dad like that . Mark with his jaw clenched in anger , stopped the car and as soon as he did , Jessica jumped out of the car . " Mum have a nice day " , She reached out and gave me a quick kiss on my cheek . " Have a nice .... " ,. " I have a meeting don't wait for me " , Just as l talking to Jessica , Mark interrupted .

" Sure you do ? " , I asked but ignoring me , he walked out of the car then he kissed Ivan and Chrissy . He wanted to kiss Jessica but she glared at him angrily and stopped in mid motion . As a mother , l kissed all my children and after handing them their bags , they all walked inside the school gate .

" Get another cab , the meeting is about to start " , As soon the kids disappeared from our view , he said with no love in his voice and without kissing me , he walked inside his car and drove off . With him gone ,I only shook my head in disbelief . Yes he wasn't the same guy l met at first , l wasn't surprised even when he didn't kiss me . He used to do it at first but now he didn't care .

Ignoring the love kisses , we also now had sex whenever he wanted which was hardly ever and when we did have it , it was always over with in few minutes . This was the situation l passed through but l sadly had nothing to do . We have been together since l was 16 . I fall pregnant relatively fast with Jessica . Just like my mother , l also gave birth to her at 17 .

I was honestly young but my mom didn't care after all , she also gave birth to me at that age . As sad as it was Mark was 22 years but still l had nothing to do . At that time he was rich and since my mom only wants money , she forced me to love him .

With him gone , I wordlessly took a cab just like he had instructed me . Though the kids were now at school , l was still stressed out to hell . I had to do the home chores in time then pick them up from school . " Is it early for a gin ? " , Already exhausted , as soon as I entered in my house , l inwardly asked myself while looking at the gin cabinet .

" I need a coffee" , My subconscious murmured and after making it extra strong , l drank it asap then began to do the home chores . I spent a lot of time washing the kid's clothes and as soon as they were done , l sorted out most of the things , tided up the toys then finally l sat down. " Oh ! My goodness " , Sighing heavily , I pulled out my phone from the purse .

As soon as I switched it on , a message i'mmediately popped up on my phone .

BELLA :

" Why do you hate me so much Alexa , you still young to act like that , come over and visit me " , l shook my head when I read the message . It was my friend Bella . Per now she was more than a friend because she knew most of my secrets . She knew how complicated my life was . At a very young age , I had three kids , a husband who no longer loved me and a mother who didn't want me to show the world that she was the one who gave birth to me . I sadly didn't even know my father .

" I will come only if Mark accepts me " , I typed back then threw the phone down on the bed . Since I fell in love with Mark , getting time to have fun was cancelled in my real life budget . Kids weren't my problem but ever since l met Mark , my life worsened . Even when I was still eighteen years old , he was possessive , aggressive and toxic . There was no real love but since he was more older than me , l fearfully respected him and obeyed him .

" Dammit " , After glancing down at my watch , l groaned out . it was time to pick up the kids and l didn't want to worry them . Though already tired , l stood up then made my way to my car . Though l worked like a house maid , they were my children and l loved them so much . After picking them up , l prepared their tea and snacks on the table then sat down next to Ivan my little boy .

As usual lvan and Chrissy ended up on the steps throwing their food and toys everywhere . Jessica ate a little , gave me a quick peck then made her way upstairs to her room . She spent most of her time in her bedroom doing makeup videos . " Mummy l do want sweets " , Ivan cried .

" Am gonna get you two , okay ? " , I uttered out and all smiled while nodding their heads . " Even today , you going to take wine or alot of chocolate " , Just as I had just settled down , Jessica blurted out while sitting next to me . Hearing her say that , I turned and sadly smiled at her .

She knew it , she knew how complicated my life was . Mark refused me to take chocolate , he told me that l will lose the nice figure but then l already lost it . Ever since l gave birth to Chrissy , l lost my potable sized up figure . Though l lost it , it wasn't that l was big and ugly . I was still lucky because with the hair of my mum , l was still beautiful , have hips and ass but my belly wasn't flat as before .

" Am ain't going to take it , this time " , l murmured while rubbing soothing circles on her shoulder . " Then have a good night mum " , She spoke, gave me a peck then walked away . With her gone , l quickly got Chrissy and Ivan in their beds . With that done , l finally sat down again on the sofa then looked around ,. The room was again all filled up with toys .

With Ivan and. Chrissy , I know it that toys will be non stop but still Mark gets pissed off whenever he finds them in the room . After collecting them , l stepped in the shower , washed myself quickly then lastly fall down on the bed . As usual l didn't i'mmediately fall asleep . Right l was exhausted but l kept my eyes on the clock . It was already 12:00am but still Mark was no where to be seen . He told me not to wait for him but l wanted to see the time he was going to come back . I glanced at the clock for a pretty good time until when the sleep unfortunately claimed me .

It was so late in the night , when l lastly felt the bed sink beside me . He was back but he smelled beer and perfume . With the strong perfume , I felt tears prick in my eyes but l didn't let them fall down . This was my life now , l was used to this humiliation .