Not The Only One

Alexa looked at the man beside her right now, who was her husband and also the man she had been in love with for almost eight years. Alexa had known Darwin even before they chose to get married. Darwin is a man who is always there whenever Alexa needs him, but in the past two years, Alexa has felt Darwin is hiding something. What she feared happened: Darwin lied to her. The fact was revealed when Alexa found out that Darwin often sends a large amount of money to someone every month.

And the second fact that Alexa found was that Darwin married his friend from college, but not until he also had a child with that woman.

Alexa can't hide it since the accident that happened to her eight years ago. The accident was fatal, causing her to have difficulty having children. Alexa has tried various ways with Darwin; even without Darwin's knowledge, Alexa saw a gynecologist who was quite famous, but what she found was all nil.

''Darling.'' Darwin opened his eyes to look at Alexa, who was also looking at him with a look that was hard to interpret. Darwin pulled the body of the wife he loved so much, breathing in the fragrance of the body that always made Darwin calm. Meanwhile, what Alexa felt when she got that treatment was just stiff silence. I don't know; Alexa seemed to hate the romantic treatment Darwin gave her. Although, in the past, she always adored Darwin's embrace and affection but Darwin's treatment now seemed to slap Alexa's heart. That she was not the only woman in her husband's heart.

"Hmmmm. Alexa gently stroked Darwin's hair, which was now in his arms. "I love you, Alexa, and I will always love you." Darwin's words seemed like a lie to Alexa. What kind of marriage was it? Darwin played the role of the lie very well. Darwin raised his head when he didn't hear any reaction from his wife.

''Are you okay? Are you sick?" Darwin placed his hand on Alexa's head. However, Alexa quickly moved away from his body, making Darwin raise an eyebrow as he was confused by the change in his wife.

''I'm okay, honey; I love you too.'' Alexa briefly kissed Darwin's lips, which felt bland and foreign to his heart now.

''Alright, I'll prepare the meal before you go to the office.'' Alexa released Darwin's embrace and picked up her clothes that were scattered on the floor. Even though Darwin betrayed her-I don't know when it happened but Alexa still treated Darwin like a husband to be respected and served. Until he got fed up and divorced her. Then all the charades will end, and Alexa will not forget the sacred promises they made before God. Alexa would not leave Darwin, even though she had now been betrayed.

Darwin stares blankly at Alexa's back, who is now walking away from him. Every time Alexa leaves him with a smile, the fear of losing her gets higher. Darwin feels scared that the things he hides will one day be revealed. Darwin will not let Alexa go at any time. Until he dies, Alexa will be a woman who means a lot to him. Even though Darwin himself has hurt Alexa just because, one stupid night, he impregnated his friend Monica, who also became his mistress, Monica gave birth to a son who would become his successor. Darwin hopes that one day Alexa can accept his son and consider him her biological son. Darwin came out of his room in a full office suite. Darwin could smell Alexa's cooking, which was neatly arranged on the dining table. Alexa placed a cup of espresso and a cup of black coffee, which became Alexa's drink. Darwin looked puzzled at Alexa. Alexa never liked Americano; the woman only drank hot chocolate most of the time. But what he saw was very odd. Alexa casually sipped coffee that was still slightly steaming.

''Since when do you drink black coffee?'' Darwin finally opened the conversation when there was no conversation between them other than the clinking sound of clashing cutlery.

''Ahhh it's only been a few years since I changed my taste... It's not as bad as I thought; black coffee is much better.'' Alexa smiled before refocusing her gaze on the coffee cup in front of her, as bitter as her life was now.

''I don't know... I apologize for not being with you very often because of work.'' Darwin grabbed Alexa's fingers from the table and held them tightly.

"Where are our wedding rings? Darwin looked at Alexa's fingers, which were not wearing their wedding rings. Before, Alexa had never taken it off at all. Darwin knew Alexa was not a forgetful woman. Alexa pulled at her fingers frantically.

''I took it off because, yesterday, there was a university inspection, and we lecturers are not allowed to wear any jewelry.'' Alexa lied and said that her and Darwin's wedding ring was in a drawer. She took the ring off after seeing the affair Darwin had with her.

''Next time you can't take it off, it's a sign of our love, Alexa. Don't lose it.'' Darwin looked angry from the corner of Alexa's field, but Alexa's woman just nodded her head. She was too lazy to argue about a small matter that was not important to her. Alexa escorted her husband, arriving in front of their spacious mansion.

''Honey, I'm leaving; see you... I'll be back in a week. I love you, my wife." Darwin kissed the top of Alexa's head. Alexa just closed her eyes, enjoying the one moment she had always received for five years. Alexa waved her hand as she watched Darwin's car drive away. Alexa's smile immediately faded when she knew Darwin was not leaving because of work, but was back with his mistress Monica. Alexa changed her clothes to be more formal, taking her bag. Alexa had a schedule to teach afternoon classes, but she chose to go to the university to just breathe the air, which might be better than having to linger at home. Along the way, Alexa just gripped the steering wheel of her car; her mind was still raging about why she had to feel pain continuously, even though her parents had an affair. Alexa was dumped at a daycare center by her biological mother.

Alexa also can't have children, and now that her husband is having an affair, Alexa is thinking about how much more suffering she has to accept. Alexa is an accounting lecturer who is famous for being a killer but also sexy. It is not unusual for many students to stare at her with disrespectful eyes. Even the old lecturers looked at her like that. It was just that they didn't dare touch the wife of a famous businessman like Darwin Maxluce who could kill them with the snap of a finger. Alexa stepped into the classroom with her hair tied up. Now Alexa let it loose to touch her shoulders, with an all-black outfit making Alexa look many times more beautiful with dark red lipstick. Her hazel eyes can anesthetize every man who is fascinated by her. Alexa took the attendance of every student who attended her class, but there was one table that was still empty, making Alexa angry.

''Who's the one who hasn't come?" Alexa asked the class president.

"Sorry..." A man entered a bad boy suit and sat down at the empty table.

"Who told you to sit so casually?" Alexa stared coldly at the man, who stared back at her coldly as well. The man just raised one eyebrow, arrogantly, making Alexa want to be angry even more. If she wasn't thinking about today's exam, then Alexa would have left the class.

"Ahhhh... Well, I don't want to waste time." Alexa immediately distributed the exam papers to each table. And Alexa placed a similar paper on the desk of a cold man that she knew was named Oliver. The man who had caught her eye. Throughout the exam, Alexa just stared at Oliver, who was working on the questions seriously. Alexa could guess. Oliver may be a playboy by the looks of it; his face and the look in Oliver's eyes make the women, probably including Alexa, feel trembling.

"I want it!" Alexa was finally sure of what she was thinking. "Well, if you're done, you can collect it with Oliver, and you bring all the questions to my desk." Alexa smiled and walked out of the classroom, trying to normalize her heartbeat. Because Alexa's heart didn't usually beat fast unless she was with Darwin, her husband, first.

Bug....bug pile of tasks was rudely put down by Oliver.

Alexa, who had been aware of Oliver's arrival-even more precisely, she was waiting for Oliver's arrival-looked at Oliver's very cold eyes staring at her. It was clear that that face was angry with him, but Alexa liked that face.

"Did we have a problem before?" Alexa looked at Oliver, scrutinizing him to see. Whether Oliver deserved to be her bed warmer.

"Yeah, you gave me a different assignment than the others." Oliver was annoyed that the exam questions seemed harder even, though he was different from the others.

"That's your punishment... For being late to my class, go away." Alexa put on an equally cold face. For now, she was going to play with Oliver before taking him into her possession.

Oliver closed the door to his room loudly. Only Alexa had a special room, and she did not join the other lecturers. Alexa just smiled at Oliver's attitude. For some reason, she had been imagining Oliver having sex with her. Even just thinking about it, Alexa felt hot and cold in her body and crotch. Alexa corrected all the exam results. There were many piles of questions that she had not checked this time; she would spend her time finishing them before she went home.

Alexa had been in her room for almost five hours. Not even a single meal was eaten. Alexa could be such a workaholic at work that she didn't care about her surroundings. Alexa looked at her wrist. The clock was already showing 6 p.m.; the university would be closing soon. She grabbed her bag.

While walking to the parking lot, Alexa saw Oliver with a woman. Oliver kissed the woman passionately on the lips, making Alexa angry, and she instantly felt jealous.

"Come on, Alexa! Since when do you care?" Alexa said to herself as she rudely opened her car door.

She needed some entertainment this time; maybe she would go to a club, but first she had to go home to clean her body. When she got to the mansion, only an empty feeling greeted her. Alexa walked over to turn on the light switch that only illuminated her kitchen; everything was left in a dark, lifeless state. This had all been going on for a long time-almost for the last 2 years. Darwin often left her; it could be for quite a long time, sometimes almost a week to a month, before her husband returned to her.

Alexa threw her bag on the sofa. There were no servants; the servants only worked in the morning, cleaning the house while she and Darwin went to work.

Alexa closed her eyes and lay down on the leather sofa. If Alexa could ask God, she would love to live a simple life. Her phone had been ringing, and Alexa knew Darwin was calling her. Even though Darwin was currently with his mistress, he never, once, spent the night without contacting Alexa.

Very strange, isn't it?"

"Honey, where have you been? Did you just get home? Are you okay?" Darwin prodded Alexa with some questions that, to Alexa, were just rubbish.

"I just got home." Alexa massaged her temples; her head was spinning.

"Honey, are you sick?" Darwin asked her again. Darwin was the most sensitive person when she was sick. But why wasn't he sensitive if her heart had been aching for a long time?

"I'm fine; I'm going to bed in a bit. Good night, honey." Alexa switched off her phone unilaterally as she stepped her feet towards the stairs that would lead her to her room. Right now, the moon was so bright that, the light came in only through the window slits that illuminated the stairs.

Alexa opened their room. No, it was more like her private room than a shared one. Her small hand flipped the switch, and the light instantly illuminated their wedding photo, which was displayed in a large frame in their room. At that moment, Alexa was so happy to be married to Darwin that she still remembered Darwin crying as he walked alone down the aisle. Darwin had broken their sacred vows, and Alexa hated that.

After taking a shower, Alexa immediately put on light makeup, not forgetting the red lipstick. Her straight hair was slightly curly.

Alexa took the keys to her sports car and drove it to a place that had always been her escape. Yeah, club, almost every week or every 2 days she would stop by there. Because there she found her serenity.

Alexa entered the club, and the sound of the music was so loud that it greeted her hearing, Many couples were making out, or those who lost control because the influence of alcohol made them dance without any burden at all.

"Alexa! "You are so sexy, drinker; what do you want tonight?" The bartender smiled at Alexa, the woman he adored. Because Alexa's beauty was stunning tonight.

"Whiskey please..." Alexa looked around lazily this time, and she needed someone to vent her thoughts about Oliver.

The bartender placed the brownish-colored drink in a small glass. Alexa's eyes looked at the glass in front of her as she swirled it around her mood instantly as Oliver's kiss scene replayed in her brain. Shit! Alexa drank the whiskey in one gulp, a burning sensation touching her throat.

Alexa poured the whiskey back into her glass and took another slow sip, this time.

"Can I keep you company?" A man sat down beside her. Alexa still didn't answer. Alexa was too lazy to care who was next to her.

The man also ordered the same drink as Alexa, who was currently almost half drunk, looking at the man next to her who looked like Oliver. It immediately made Alexa mindlessly pull the man beside her, and kiss the man's lips greedily. At first, the man beside him was surprised at the treatment of the woman who suddenly kissed him; however, the longer Alexa's kiss made him even more drunk.

Alexa changed her position to sit on the lap of the man, who was still happy but was not satisfied kissing Alexa's lips. Alexa, who was still in a semi-conscious state, didn't know what the man was doing.

"You want to come with me upstairs?" The man rubbed Alexa's lips, which were starting to swell as a result.

Alexa just gave a small nod. What was the harm in trying? The man carried Alexa's body bride-style upstairs; there were many rooms for couples who wanted to have further relations.

"Bitch!" Oliver, who was also enjoying his drink from earlier, saw Alexa's actions, which were disgusting to him.

****

Alexa's body was gently placed on the bed. The man, whose name she didn't recognize, returned to making out Alexa's lips greedily, his hands squeezing Alexa's chest from under the dress she was still wearing.

"Ahhh... Oliver." Alexa tried to enjoy the romance this time, even though, she had to imagine Oliver's face while he was having sex with her. The man who was making out with Alexa instantly shut up when he heard the woman, in front of him, mention another man's name.

"Dion baby... Say my name baby." Dion took off Alexa's dress and threw it on, not forgetting to take off his clothes too. He didn't want to linger too long, tasting the beautiful woman in front of him.

"Ahhh..." Alexa squeezed the hair of the man whose name was now exploring her pleasure. Alexa pressed the man's head even deeper to suck hers.

Alexa always fantasized about Oliver doing that. The man's lips kissed her again before sucking on her breast. Alexa only held back her sigh as Dion entered, feeling full and suffocating. It felt like Alexa wanted it to end immediately.

But she valued each of her partners. Even if, she had to pretend to be satisfied.

After Dion got his release, the man hugged Alexa's body tightly. But not Alexa; she couldn't stand being around a man she didn't recognize. Alexa let go of Dion's embrace and put her clothes back on. She looked at the clock, which showed 3 a.m. Alexa still had morning classes. In a hurry, she put some red bills on the nightstand and left Dion like a whore. That was Alexa, and the pain would be a little forgotten after the crazy night she had.

***

Some people ask, "Why do you still stay in a household that is cracked and even almost destroyed? The answer is not because of love. But I hope there is only one chance to forgive. And end well, like the first time they chose together.

****

Alexa came to campus a little late because she overslept when she got home from the club at 4 am.

Wearing a daisy flower print dress and a black blazer. Today, Alexa didn't use makeup, only pink lipstick to cover her dull lips.

Alexa saw Oliver from afar. Alexa felt excited when Oliver was walking towards her, but when Oliver just passed her it made Alexa remember the kiss the man had last night. Do I have to be someone else's grabber? Alexa asked herself.

Alexa just looked at Oliver's back, closing her eyes, forgetting the image of Oliver in her mind.

Alexa stepped onto the rooftop; she needed some fresh air this morning. She took a cigarette and lighter from her bag, smoked slowly, and exhaled. The weather was sunny today. Today was her and Darwin's wedding anniversary, whether Darwin remembered it or not, but Alexa wished she had time like the old days when Darwin surprised her every anniversary of their wedding.

Alexa's cell phone rang, and she saw Darwin name-calling her.

"Happy wedding anniversary, 6 years, dear." Darwin's words stopped the footsteps.

"...."

"Honey, are you listening to me? I've set up a time tonight; how about we have dinner where we first met?" Darwin said excitedly. The man smiled in his room, hoping Alexa would like his surprise.

"What time? "Alexa pulled a little smile; at least Darwin remembered her.

"8 p.m., I'm sorry I can't pick you up. You can come first and wait for me, baby. I love you, Alexa," Darwin said, indicating that people thought Darwin loved her so much when it was the other way around.

"I love you, Darwin." Alexa kept her phone in her bag, looking at the clock on her wrist. Today, she had to mention the exam results in Oliver's class. Sincerely, the guy almost got the highest score but Alexa played cunningly by making Oliver have to repeat the subject.

"Good afternoon, everyone." Alexa smiled at the students in the class. Alexa's smile was sunny.

"Oh my gosh, Alexa's smile seems to make me want to sleep hugging her," said one of the students who was right behind Oliver.

"You know, Alexa, I often meet at the club with a handsome man; maybe she is cheating on me. What is it like to make love to an Alexa?" The man next to Oliver spoke again, making Oliver sick of hearing it. Alexa is indeed a whore for Oliver.

"You can see your exam results; for those who get low grades, it will repeat in my room tomorrow." Alexa saw Oliver holding back his anger. Alexa deliberately made Olive's grade

Alexa delivered the material a few minutes before leaving the class with the problems they had to solve.

Alexa went shopping for clothes for her dinner with Darwin. Alexa was very happy to see a variety of beautiful dresses in the boutique. She went to Alexa and saw a peace-colored dress that looked simple but elegant. When Alexa's hand wanted to take it, there was someone else who also pulled the dress.

"Alexa." Monica was very surprised to see Alexa, her husband's first wife, making her feel bad.

"Hi, Monica, ah, long time no see you." Alexa let go of the dress, which she thought was no longer beautiful because it was held by Monica.

"I'm fine. How are you?" Monica returned Alexa's smile while trying to normalize her heartbeat.

"Mommy..." A boy ran to her and hugged Monica's legs.

Alexa just stared sadly at the boy, who was more than 2 years old; her face couldn't even lie that there was the blood of her husband, Darwin, there.

"This is your son." Alexa pretended to be surprised to see Monica's face stiffen slightly.

"Yes, he is my son; his name is Dino, and Dino is Alexa's auntie." Monica took the little body in her arms and introduced her son to Alexa.

"Hi son," Alexa said as she stroked Dino's curly brown hair.

"Hello... Auntie." Dino kissed Alexa on the cheek.

"Since when did you get married, Monica, why did you never tell me and Darwin?" Alexa tried to get Monica to talk.

"Sorry... Alexa, my wedding was sudden and in London." Monica averted her eyes from Alexa because she didn't want Alexa to know her lie.

"Well, I'll excuse myself, Alexa. I suddenly forgot I had an event to go to." Monica said goodbye to a little boy named Dino, who also waved his hand at Alexa.

Sick. Alexa had long forgotten those words; the pain she felt over time petrified her and made her heart freeze.

Alexa picked up a knee-length purple dress with low sleeves. She stepped up to the counter and paid.

*****

This is where Alexa waited for Darwin. Alexa looked at the clock on her wrist; it was almost 10 p.m. This was almost two hours late compared to the time the man had promised. This time, Alexa could no longer bear the pain of wondering why she was stupid to wait for a man who only played her.

Alexa grabbed her bag and stepped out of her car. She was going to see where Darwin was.

Alexa drove at high speed through the streets. This time, she sped her car toward Monica's residence; she knew Darwin must be there.

When she arrived at the yard of Monica's small apartment, Alexa saw Darwin's car parked in the yard. There was no need for Alexa to prove everything; it was proven that Darwin was at his girlfriend's house. Alexa cried; her tears fell uninvited, and immediately she rubbed her tears roughly.

Clutching the steering wheel of the car, her heart was tight, her chest felt stabbed, and everything was finished, even though she was no longer Darwin's priority; she was only Darwin's barren display wife.

Alexa drove her car to the club. She didn't care about Darwin or anything else at the moment she just wanted to calm down and be free.

After arriving at the club, Alexa ordered a bottle of whiskey and immediately took a sip without using a glass. She had to get rid of the tightness in her chest.

"Alexa, are you okay?" The bartender looked pityingly at Alexa, who looked dazed and disheveled. Alexa now bent her arms and laid her head on the bar table. She was crying her eyes out.

"Alexa stop; you're already drunk." The bartender took the bottle from Alexa's hand. The woman didn't throw a tantrum; it was just that she immediately stood up and walked out.

Oliver, who came with his friend, saw Alexa being touched by a man she didn't want. The proof is that several times the woman tried to brush off the naughty man's hand that touched her.

Oliver immediately got up and grabbed Alexa's body in his arms, saying, "Don't you dare touch my girlfriend." Oliver stared intently at the older man in front of him. Oliver took Alexa out of the club. The woman even hugged her tightly. Oliver heard Alexa crying in his arms.

"Please don't add any more wounds." Alexa was still talking incoherently as Oliver carried her body into his car.

Oliver saw Alexa's tears still falling, even though the woman was asleep now. Her makeup was a mess, and Alexa, whom Oliver was used to seeing, was very different from tonight. There was only the fragile and whiny Alexa in Oliver's eyes.

"What exactly is your problem?" Oliver approached Alexa's body, pulled out the seat belt, and put it on the woman's body.