My Personal Diary-Collette

Jan 1

Happy fucking New Year and what a way to start the New Year, I settled back in the chair and looked over my, almost empty, apartment. Jake, my boyfriend for the past year had left while I was at work. All he left behind was a note: Sorry, babe, Sonja was a helluva lot better in bed than you ever were and she's having my baby.

Jake.

What the hell? Who the hell was Sonja? It doesn't matter, does it? I am trying so hard not to cry but it stings like a bitch. Am I really that bad in bed? I hardly think so but yet he was the third boyfriend who said the same thing in six years.

I ran a hand down my face and exhaled a deep breath that trembled. My heart broke because I thought Jake was different this time. I really though he was but I guess I was wrong. I stood up and walked over to the small radio that he didn't take and turned it on. Soft rock music filled the air around me and it fit the mood I was in.

"Sorry," he said. How could he have been sorry? He was the one who was fucking some other woman while living with me. No wonder why he was late coming home at times.

Strange thing was when I wanted a baby he said we couldn't afford one. He was a cashier at a big box electronic store. As for me, I was a clerk for a CPA firm. Hell, I made more money than he did.

"I hope he burns in hell for what he's done," I told myself as I walked around the apartment. "At least he left the couch and the recliner but took everything else including the bed and dresser. At least I still have my clothes."

I came home late last night because Mr. Johnson wanted me to work late and do some rescheduling with certain clients. I came home and was hoping to celebrate another pay raise with a bottle of wine. Jake wasn't home but his little note was. Even though it had been several hours and a whole night, it still stung like a bitch.

My head was pounding with a hang over even though it was almost noon when I woke up from a night of drinking. I am still wondering what possessed me to die my hair from a dark brown to auburn with one of those home coloring boxes that I found at the corner store when I went to get some more wine. But damn, it looked good and I do look great as a red-head.

Oh well, hopefully my heart won't ache so much tomorrow when I go back to work. There was a big client that was coming early in the morning. No more drinking for me today or tonight I need a clear head for this client.

And he's the gorgeous one too.

Lance Berkley.

With his mousy brown-hair that seems like he just got out of bed even though it was three in the afternoon. Those deep-blue eyes of his that melts my heart every time I see him. I let out a deep breath at the thought before I sat up straighter in the recliner. I know I shouldn't have been thinking about Lance Berkley like that while living with Jake but what woman wouldn't think about him. The man is drop dead gorgeous, shit.

Now, Jake, he was just an average looking guy that made my heart melt with his sweet words that are more like lies now. He knew what to say at any moment and that come hither smile of his that caused him to get any woman he wanted even me. "Fuck," I said out loud and closed my eyes. Pretty much, I fell for every lie he ever told. Was it like that with Sonja? I wondered. My Stomach is growling and I need some food. Fuck, Jake took what was in fridge too when he left.

I'm back, sorry it took so long at the market. I can't actually believe that a cashier was flirting with me. I had been going to that same market and had him cash me out and not once did he ever notice me before. I swear my heart was beating so hard and fast when he actually asked me out. As much as I wanted to say yes, but instead I said no. I don't think I am ready to start dating again because of Jake and what he said in the note. I told him "no," and grabbed the bags and left.

Oh well. It's going to be one lonely night with a bottle of soda and a frozen TV dinner with a pre-packaged salad. It was so quiet in the apartment except for the radio playing sad break-up songs. My thoughts had turned to Jake and the note. I do wonder how long he had been seeing Sonja. It must have several months if he had gotten her pregnant. "My lost is her gain and she will have a lot to think about." I pressed the buttons on the microwave and hit start. "Did she know that he was living with me while he was fucking her?" I drummed my fingers on the counter.

At the moment I don't even care. She's getting a liar and a cheater. "I hope he gets what's coming to him and her. They deserve each other." One thing that did matter to her was the bed he took from her apartment. She paid for that bed. "Shit, did he screw her on our bed?" I shivered at the thought. "Ew," I almost puked at the thought of sleeping in that bed that he fucked her in. "At least I don't have to toss it out the window." She turned to look at the window. Another thought entered her mind, "I hope he took a shower when he came home after being with her."

Jan 2

I hate working at this CPA firm. The boss, Mr. Krinner, is a total asshole and pervert. He hadn't stopped looking at me the moment I walked in and sat down at my desk. He even left his office door open which he never does and every time I looked up, he was staring at me. I have to admit that it was starting to make me feel uncomfortable. It got to the point that I actually had to shift my position so that I wouldn't have to see him.

Thank God one of his appointments had arrived. Robert Sher walked up to my desk and signed in. The older man didn't need to be told to take a seat and wait. "It's a pleasure to see you, Miss Collette."

"Likewise, Mr. Sher." I told him then looked down at the paperwork on my desk. "He will be with you in a moment." I glanced up and looked in my boss' office and saw that he wasn't sitting at his desk.

"You have done something different," Mr. Sher said while staring at me. "You look very nice today."

The fifty-year old man was a gentle old man. He was very nice man. "Thank you."

Mr. Krinner poked his head from the doorway. "Mr. Sher can come in now."

I was glad someone would be taking his attention away from me. Mr. Sher stepped over the threshold and closed the door behind him. I let out a deep breath to finally have some senses of privacy before the next appointment which is Lance.

My heart did a little flip flop at the thought of seeing him. I know I shouldn't feel this way so soon after Jake had left me for another woman. I just can't help it. A certain part of me had grown damp just thinking about seeing him that I had to shift in my chair.

I finished up the paperwork and tucked the papers in the filing cabinet then took my seat again when HE walked in. I smiled at him as he walked over and signed in.

He stood there looking down at me. "You look nice today," he told me.

For some reason it sounded different from him than when Mr. Sher said it. "Thank you," I told him. I looked down at the calendar on my desk and the list of appointments Mr. Krinner had for the day and the next day which was Friday. There weren't any appointments and they were going to be closed.

"How about getting some drinks tonight after work," Lance asked.

My heart began to pound and I looked up at him wondering if I had heard wrong but he was serious. I heard right.

"I'll pick you up here and we can go to The Club."

The Club was one of the most popular places in town. There is always a long line out the door and people would wait for hours just to get inside. I have never been inside the club. The club opens at six and I get off at five. I hope we wouldn't have to wait too long to get inside and hopefully there isn't a long line either. I really would love to go there.

Still not sure if he was serious or not so I said, "Sure. I get off at five."

The door to Mr. Krinner's office opened and Mr. Sher left and her boss waved Lance inside. Before Lanced walked away, he leaned in close and whispered, "I'll see you later."

Goosebumps cascaded down my entire body was the feel of his hot breath against my cheek. I wanted so to turn my head and kiss him right then and there in front of my boss but I held back. The office wasn't the place to play the kind of games I wanted to play with a certain client. I'm sure the boss would stand there and watch like the pervert that he is.

The rest of the day past so slowly even lunch was slow and I kept glancing at the clock as the seconds ticked by every so slowly. So many times I just wanted to groan out loud for being so damn frustrated as the time just kept going by so slowly. There wasn't even much work left for to do but sit there and wait for the last client to arrive.

Mr. Alfred Garcia. The man always seems to wait until the last minute to arrive for his appointment which he just walked in. "Afternoon, Mr. Garcia and Happy New Year," I greeted the older man and he just returned the greeting with a smile.

"Mr. Krinner will be with you shortly," I told him as he signed in. Most of the clients have been with the firm for several years and most clients just walk in and sign in then sit down. It was the same routine with them and I have to inform the newer clients about the process. I couldn't help but notice Alfred looks a little upset about something and before I could ask Mr. Krinner stepped out and waved for the older man to enter his office.

Alfred was the last client and reached into a drawer and pulled out my purse and began to make myself a little more presentable for Lance for our date. I paused in applying the soft pink lipstick. Was this a date? I wondered. He was the one who asked me out but never said it was a date. I don't want to make too much of something that isn't what I want it to be. But what was it anyway. When I checked Lance's initial application he was single. Even when I checked him out on my cell it was single and wasn't exclusively seeing anyone so he's fair game. He could have any woman on the planet but yet he asked me out to the club.

I finished getting ready and touching up my hair by the time Mr. Krinner was finished with the last appointment. "I'll see you on Monday." I told my boss then left my desk before he could say another word or ask me to stay late. I only took a few steps down the street toward my car when I heard someone calling out my name. I turned and my heart skipped a beat. It was Lance and he was waiting for me. He took me by the hand and guided me toward his car.

Jan 3

"Shit," I said harshly. I don't even remember most of the night from the time we arrived at The Club and were ushered in when Lance flashed an ID at the bouncer. There were a lot of moans from the people who were lined up to be let inside The Club that didn't have VIP access cards like the one Lance had.

The night inside The Club passed with a blur of loud music and a whole lot of drinking. Then we were in my apartment. All I can think is the bed I got the day before after Jake took mine. It's a good thing too because Lance was with me.

My hand shook as I accepted Lance accepted what he was offering. He held her hips still with a tight yet gentle grip as he entered me with one swift lunge of his hips. I could feel him filling me in ways that I've never felt before. It was as if I was being completed and made whole when I hadn't realized any part of me was missing. I welcomed him inside of her and urged him to slide deeper inside of her.

"Yes." I closed her eyes to enjoy the feeling of him moving inside of her. I head lifted off the pillow to nip at his shoulder that was followed with a deep groan and his body shivered against mine. I met his thrusts with my own. Slowly at first until they became harder and faster.

Lance stared down into my face. One thing I did know, I didn't want to be alone tonight. No man had made me feel this way before and I wanted to please him in every way I could. Lance reached out to cup my waist then pulled me to him. Hard. Then his lips claimed mine. I moaned softly and I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck; my body was pressed against his so tightly. Lance's hand cupped my breast and warmth spread throughout my body. A soft sigh escaped my lips as my back arched. The heat of her core rubbed against his hard groin. It felt so good to be this close to him but it wasn't close enough.

My hands drifted down his back, which caused him to shiver. I wanted the mindless pleasure that I knew he would give me. No man had ever made me feel like this. Like I was floating on air. Lance tore his lips from mine and watched. His gaze held mine as he moved his hands along my waist.

"Collette." He murmured my name when I lifted my head and began to lick his hot skin. A fever was burning through him and felt, as he was about to burst. He lifted his gaze to hers. "Let me."

"Please," I whispered hoarsely. It was enough of an answer for Lance. He sat up and pulled and the look in his heated eyes made my heart beat faster that I was afraid it would burst. In his eyes was also a promise of pleasure that was sure to come. "Let me," his thick voice carried over to her. I gave him a puzzled look.

"Let you do what?"

Lance lowered his lips to mine but didn't touch them. "Anything I want."

I sucked in a deep breath. Flames of anticipation teased me from her nipples down to my heated core.

"Anything you want." I told him with a thick, breathless voice. This time, I would let him have control, for now. Lance smiled down at me before he gave me a slow, mind-drugging kiss. His hand slid down my chest to cup my breast. My nipple was hard and he teased it with a flick of his thumb. He caught my moan and swallowed it deeply. He shivered inwardly and outwardly when I raked my nails down his chest and around to his back.

My legs shifted when I wrapped them around his waist. The moist heat of my core brushed against his hard shaft that caused him to moan deeply. Lance was afraid that he was loosing the last grip of control. He teased me, tasted me with his mouth and tongue. He was enjoying the feel of my naked skin sliding along his as they drove each other to the brink of passion. They lay together, chest to breast, hip to hip and breath to breath. I shifted my legs again to make room for him. Inviting him to take what I was offering. Lance accepted what I was offering. He held my hips still with a tight yet gentle grip as he entered her with one swift lunge of his hips. I felt him fill me. It was as if I was being completed, made whole when I hadn't realized any part of me was missing. I welcomed him inside of me and urged him to slide deeper inside of pussy.

"Yes." I closed my eyes to enjoy the feeling of him moving inside of pussy. My head lifted off the pillow to nip at his shoulder that was followed with a deep groan and his body shivered against mine. I met his thrusts with my own. Slowly at first until they became harder and faster. Soon, we would reach the end of the universe together. Lance couldn't stop his body from trembling when he collapsed on top of me. He closed his eyes at the feel of his body being well spent. His shaft was throbbing after he spilled his hot seed deep into my womb.

That was the first time. I don't remember how many times we fucked during the night. Three...four times. I don't remember. But sometime during the night he grabbed my phone and entered his phone number and kissed me before saying he had to leave and left.