My Girlfriend Is A Nutcase!

Matt POV....

It is a lovely day today and Happy thirty third birthday to me. I cannot believe I am single in my thirties. It is normal for me because I did not find 'the one' for myself. I have slept with multiple women and that is how my life has been. This also gave me an opportunity to explore my kinks at large and in fact, I met a few with the same kinks as me. They are still my friends and I do meet them for some action once in a blue moon. However, I cannot stay around the same woman for a long time and may be sleep for the third time which would be my last time. I will eventually ghost her and move to next available woman to have some great sexual adventure with me.

If you ask me if I have been looking for the one? That is a question and a debate at the same time. I have met so many girls and girls are always after me. They like the way I perform on the bed and I am handsome of course.

The longest time I have ever dated was a girl from the neighboring city. I dated her for six long months and then came the COVID-19 pandemic which led to her shifting back to her parents' place. After she left, I stopped having conversation with her. She was gone, and then she was replaced. Above all, once she was back to her parents' house, she called me up after a few months.

She told me she missed me and asked me to marry her. I was startled. I did not date her to marry her. It was always so casual for me and she was not my type. I only needed her body and plus, I lost my job during the same time, she was a good financial support. She was a doctor by the way.

She even left me a love letter before she left for her city, and I found it later when she told me to check the drawer in her room. Well, I still have it even though it's been two years. It's good to have memories and one girl gifted me an expensive lip gloss. It has expired but I still preserved it in the drawer. It is good to keep some girly memories and I remember them. I won't forget any woman I have been for some reason.

I am sitting here in the therapy room and yes, I have been so inclined to a sex life, I have become an emotionless person. Nobody believes me but yes, I find it hard to connect.

There was this girl in school whom I loved but she was in love with my best friend. I could never tell her about my feelings and somewhere, the way I learnt to suppress my emotions ever since then, it became permanent.

I am not ready to be in a relationship but at the same time, I feel a relationship will help me solve my lack of emotion issue. If someday, I find 'the one', I am afraid I may not be able to express and I would lose her. Could that happen?

Something in me is happy with a sex life is what I told my therapist but something in me still needs someone permanent. Maybe my heart or the emotions are waiting to be expressed only in front of 'the one'. I don't understand this double-minded thoughts and it leaves my therapist confused. Today, is the last day that I would be coming to the therapist.

Therapy is of no use to me. I have been telling her the same issue about me since past few months. She listens but could not change my mind at all. I could never be expressive but I could only talk using my brain. I really need to get into a relationship with someone but it is so hard to find the right woman.

The girls whom I have slept with had very different issues. None of them were my type. I don't know any woman who is of my type and the ones I spend nights with, lack immense quality. I am looking for someone beautiful, cute, and smart. Someone who would match my vibes.

I am not sure if any day I will meet someone like her. I have been meeting women over dates for quiet some time now. I would just go meet my friends, play a few matches of badminton with them, and then halt at some woman's house for the night for some action. This is how my days go and yes, I have a job too which I freelance. With this I can manage my finance, have many women to have fun with and I have parents whom I hate.

My mother is greedy, and she would always demand several things. I have a limited salary but if possible, she won't mind asking me for a BMW which I don't think I can ever afford in this life. However, I aspire to move overseas and become rich one day. I am from a middle-class family, and this is about my life in this story.

I don't like my family as they are super traditional, and I wanted to grow personally as well as professionally. Hence, I left my family years ago and I am at peace in a city away from my parents. My sex life is super active, and I crave for it almost every day. This may not be healthy, and my future wife may find it difficult to cope with the demands of my body. I am not sure how things go around in life.

I expressed my gratefulness for one last time to the therapist for hearing me out and it was not much of a use to me. I have slept with this therapist as well but only once as I did not find her so hygienic. Learning from her friends, I heard that she would bathe only a few times in a single month. This is gross and I would not like to stay around her anymore.

Time has passed since I have been looking for a good woman. All the girls I have been around were gold diggers and I am not a rich lad. The only reason they would stick around is because of the sex experience that I give them which their men could not satisfy.

Yes, there are some married women too who contact me for the same and they are friends with me for such benefits. In return, I get some great dine out experience in most of the expensive restaurants that I feel I cannot afford as of now.

Well, if you ask me, I do not really know what I want to do next in life. I don't have a goal in life, and I really need to work on myself. However, I do not know how to start and what to start. Maybe eventually, I will figure out but I feel I really need to have someone in life to tell me what to do. I earn and spend, I don't have anyone to spend on except for the dates and demanding parents.

They would call me only for money and when I complain that I am broke, they would abuse me and blackmail me about motherhood. This is not fair. They did not take care of me much and in fact, I feel they only need me for money.

This is so toxic!

Anyways, to introduce myself to the readers here, I am Matt Joseph. A graduate and a professional photographer. This story is about my life and my quest to find the right woman with whom I can settle down. I am doubtful I will find one, let's hope!

Matt POV....

"Hi Steve, I needed my salary for the past three months. I am almost running out of my savings because of you. Could you please make the payments more regular? I have several bills lined up." I said to my boss.

"I am trying my best to make the payments for my employees. You do know that we are just starting with the business, and we have also lost several clients in the past. I am working on stabilizing the company now, rest assured, your salary will be in your account by next month." Steve Replied.

"This would get difficult, and I may have to start looking for other options. Anyways, please let me know once you process the payments. Thank you very much." I spoke.

"Sure Matt. Thank you for your understanding as always." He hung up the call and this was the end of the conversation with my boss.

I had a date lined up and I am broke. I would have to cancel the date or call her woman to chill. Maybe I will prepare a meal for her if that makes her feel romantic enough to begin a connection. Generally, girls are not homie and that always turned me off. She seemed great and funny while I was talking to her on the phone. Let's see if we can end up doing something for a long time and eventually, turn out to be my type.

I want to be with someone .... She called me already.

"Hey girl, how are you?" I asked sweetly.

"I am fine. What is the plan for today?" She asked me. I liked her voice.

"You wanna come home tonight? I will make you dinner. I cook awesome." I complimented myself. Whoever had eaten my food, they could not resist but compliment. My friends say that I should turn into a chef or start a restaurant of my own.

"I think I would like that. Hope there will be no visitors as such." She asked in a very sweet voice. I knew what she meant already.

"It will be us, alone." I replied. They hung up the call after saying each other goodbye.

I got to start preparing the meals, but I need to order some groceries. I saw her through a video call, and we have done it over the phone. I am excited to do it for real on my bed. I am sure it would be awesome. I can't wait already, and I am horny just by the thought of having her by my side.

I have decided to cook some Indian cuisine as she mentioned me earlier. I think she would feel good having all the spices being added to the food. While the grocery gets delivered, I will set the stage for the dinner. I have a few lights at home that the girl who stayed with me for six months bought. I still have the lights preserved. Just like a memory you know.

I have rearranged the furniture in the living room making it look cozier. I need to get the dishes done too in the next thirty minutes.

I rushed to the kitchen and it was a whole mess. I need to clean the entire house.

Oh God!

I should had called her tomorrow.

Come on Matt..Rush....Take this as a challenge

I tried to finish the errands soon which I did. The grocery was here already by the time I finished doing the dishes. I quickly took a shower and already had the dinner ready on the dining table. I dressed up casually and gelled up my hair that makes me look ten times hotter.

As I was staring at my preparation, the doorbell rang and I jumped out of excitement. Without wasting a second, I rushed to open the door.

I like what I see. She is pretty and she has come wearing my favorite color. No doubt I had the vibes so strong that she could be the one. She wore a short purple dress that is hugging her body. She is in good shape, and I think I can date her for long. I may not know she may turn out to be my future wife.

She is very romantic is what I could guess by the way she is talking but I am not. I am not a fan of romantic fools but yes, opposites attract. I am a strong believer of that.

We enjoyed the whole time together and I liked her presence in my house. It was nice to catch up with her at home and I feel better than the other girls who dropped by in my place.

Our evening dinner passed quickly, and we already started getting more and more comfortable with each other.

"I like the way you touch me." She spoke. The compliment made me want her more. I got closer to her and she got closer to me. The next thing that happened blew my mind. She took the lead but wait, I am an alpha male and I am the one supposed to lead the whole scene. This is a red flag to me for sure.

I am dominant but she is riding me. I like the way she is doing it but I am alpha. There we were immersed with each other's body until we got tired and stopped. She was tired too but equally horny as me. We were heat and we were enjoying the fact that we are so comfortable with each other. It seemed like we were meant to be together.

We did it whole night and slept only by morning. She was still naked at breakfast, and she was enjoying teasing me. I did not realize that she got her office clothes. She went for a shower after breakfast and some more cozy moments. She came back all dressed in a formal attire. She looks even more sexier but she is already dressed.

Oh God!

I cannot believe that I am still horny at this moment after doing it the whole night and post breakfast. I want her so bad but what happened the next moment caught me off guard. I saw her dialer ID and it said, 'husband'.

"Husband is calling you. Are you married?" I interrogated.

"Yes I am. He would probably come to pick me up from the target store nearby." She said confidently.

"Wait, you have a husband and you spend the night with me. Won't he mind?" I was shocked.

Here I am looking for a wife and here she goes cheating her husband. She would cheat me too like she did last night. We did have phone sex and she never told me she was married.

What is going on here?

"Let me explain you. My husband is not that great on the bed. I never get satisfied. Hence, I hook up with other men that I meet on dating site for some pleasure. He does not know anything about it. I tell him that I am going for a sleepover in my friend's place. Besides, he is a businessman who is always busy with his meetings. He hardly has time for me and I have my needs." She clarified.

"Isn't this cheating?" I asked with a state of shock and confusion.

"I don't care if my needs are satisfied. He never took the lead and I was tired of being dominant while I used to have sex with him. I really wanted him to take lead at times and I love to become submissive too."

"This is still cheating. I don't sleep with married women." I said, although I was really feeling bad for myself, and she hid the truth.

"I don't tell anybody as nobody will sleep with me then. I have my needs to satisfy. No toys or my husband is enough for me. I liked how we balanced our dominance when we did it. We both are alpha." She giggled.

"You are a cheating wife. Get out of my house."

"I am satisfied. I don't need you anyway. I just came for fun and I had fun with your body. Goodbye." She winked at me and left me startled.

"I have my principles. Please leave cheater." I was angry and thank God she was out the next moment.

I would have blurted out at her the next moment if she stood in front of me for another minute.

I slept with a cheating wife. I feel bad for her husband. I wish I don't get a wife like this one who would cheat on me. I am traumatized. I better just go and play off badminton today.

A month later...

Matt POV ..

I decided to stop dating and stopped looking for 'the one'. I don't think I can settle down with any woman. Women are complicated and it is hard to find someone with quality. I received my salary today well in advance and I can go on for the entire year now. Steve is an awesome when he is paying me well but I see him as a villain when he delays the same.

However, I do not have anyone to save for or spend on. I think this is what my life is all about and I am ready to just be with me all by myself for the rest of my life. I don't think I will ever be married. I am sure there are many men out there who are single and never got married.

If I get cravings for a woman's body, I would just date. Otherwise, I better keep control on my body. My stamina during the games have improved so much. I played three hours continuously and do not feel tired. There I am walking up to one tiny woman who has joined my player group today.

The leader is a female, and she is a great friend of mine. Her girlfriend often visits her in the stadium, and they are both my good friends. The new girl's name is something I forgot. She is cute and pretty but also looks very innocent. She is the good girl category and I should really respect her.

I approached her after the game, "Welcome to our group. Hope you had fun playing the games today. Do you play regularly?"

"Oh..yes I do. I train professionally. I was exploring different badminton groups to play with but I am a singles category player." She said sweetly. She is so cute when she talks.

Aww....

I can't stop admiring her. I didn't know that such girls still exist in this world. I always knew the horny and hot category women.

I love the way she is speaking with all. Such a jolly person and I hope her innocence remains like this forever. I was shocked to hear that she is thirty years old. A few years younger than me but she looks like a twenty-year-old woman.

This is the first time I feel like respecting a woman. A cute and tiny woman.

I feel like as if I am talking to a small child. I didn't know such species of woman exists.

I asked her for tea. It is not a date, but my entire group goes for tea including me after the game. It is a regular routine.

She said no upfront and I am disappointed.

"My cab is already here. I need to get back home soon. I got work to complete. I have all the office work piled up. Sorry. I would join you guys' next time." She said politely.

Wow!

She has amazing manners, and I am so impressed.

Everyone bid her goodbye and I stared at her back. I do not wish to fall in love, and I know it is an infatuation. I only adore her, like everyone else in the group.

"She is a nice girl. She looks so cute." My friend Sara said.

"Yes, she is." I replied and I felt shy saying that.

"Hello boy, don't flirt with her. She is a good girl. Not your type." Sara explained.

"I am not going to do anything. I respect her. She is a good girl I know and could see that."

We all had tea together while she went away. I don't even know her name and these guys will tease me if I ask them.

Arghh!

I need to wait for a day more to know her name. I would hate this feeling. I will wait, probably I will just befriend her at times.

I don't want to be the man who is attracted to every other woman except for Sara and her girlfriend. They are not into men. I sipped tea and I remembered her face.

She seemed familiar. I think I have seen her. I will ask her tomorrow. I don't think a girl like her would be in dating apps but there is no harm searching for her in social media. Only if I know her name, I could do background research. She looked new to the city at the same time and probably a star performer in badminton for sure. She looked so athletic. She seems to be serious about badminton unlike a person like me who is playing for fun sake and pass my time.

She also mentioned about a job. If she knows that I am a freelancer, she will hate me or may not think of me as her standard. She mentioned about work. She must be a corporate employee if she is time bound. As a freelancer, I was never time-bound. I could complete work whenever I wished and get paid much more than a corporate employee would earn in a single month.

However, you are sometimes too free or the growth is less when you are a freelancer. You do not meet people and I do not even have a professional social life among the other freelancers working in the same company as mine. I think there are both positives and negatives of the same.

Nevertheless, I got to come tomorrow and play. I will ask for her name and even find out where have I seen her. Her face is familiar and it felt like I have met her in the past. Is she my lover in the last birth? I would remember every girl I have slept with and I am sure that I have not even touched her ever in my life. I somehow feel some connection with her.

Once I know her name, I would know why am I feeling the way I am feeling now. I am not trying to be an asshole now. I don't have sex in my mind as I am thinking about her right now.

"Excuse me! Why did you zone out? Did you even hear us?" Joe, one of my college mates and a badminton player in the group asked.

I completely zoned out and I really need to find out more about her.

"Sorry, what are you all talking about?" I asked, feeling confused at the same time.

"See, you were not even listening to us. We are planning for a doubles tournament next weekend. Are you coming or you will be busy with some woman?" Sara asked and everyone giggled.

Fine!

I know I have a bad reputation. It does not mean I have no sense of respect for good girls.

I respected one more woman who flew even with a rich man who helped her settle down in Europe. Fancy people with fancy relationship goals. I am a simple person, I may not be super rich, I have good number of agricultural lands in place and my family is slightly traditional.

Coming back to the cute girl who joined our group, I will ask her name tomorrow. Somewhere, my heart hopes her to be single. If she marries me, I can spend my entire life without sex, only if I get the love of this girl.