My Alpha Secret

Ariana Eadon, that's my name. I am the daughter of Beta and my dad is an expert in fighting. But the fact is, I've always been claimed to be a flawed Lycan. The Lycan will grow up and 'linked' when they are 16 years old, but I'm not. I am now 18 years old. I still haven't 'linked' with my wolf, even yet my wolf is then active. I have not felt the taste become a wolf.

I don't care about all that. Why? Because I have Arley beside me. He-man handsome and surely not my mate, but I've been to in point adored Arley to plan to get married to Arley and give all for Arley.

Most men in the Pack say that I am lovely, I have white skin, porcelain, hair blond, iris eye ruby, and lips are always flushed red even still I do not wear lipstick, which makes me different from women in Pack. Still, members of the woman in my Pack are mocking and talking about me behind, spreading rumors I'm a disabled beta princess.

Mom was constantly arguing with me, like a quarrel that was never after. For me, living is already perfect with the Pack from the parents of my father. I spent time here and not in the place of my birth. I have a boyfriend who loves me and a perfect friend.

But all that changed after Dad's death. Mom became more aggressive and pushed me to move back to the Clay Pack. I'm against it, I mean, all my happiness is here, but mom doesn't care. Sometimes I guess why Mom hates me, what I'm not the daughter of her birth?

I gave up, and of course, I was devastated, especially when I met with him. The flat-faced guy who messed things up, but why only now?

Oh well, I welcome the morning in debate with my Mom. The toast I ate was tasteless, even though I had spread the toast with my favorite pineapple jelly. "Great, I lost my appetite. Mom, have you lost your heart too? "I protested irritably. The words that I always say. In a lifetime, if there were someone who never grew tired of arguing with me, it would be Mom. I sometimes even forget that she is my Mom.

I turned to glance at the medium-sized box, which is on the dining table chair. My Mom took toast, spread butter. As usual, she eats it. Her face looked innocent after she started all this debate "ARIANA EADON, just eat your breakfast," said my Mom firmly.

"Not. I'm full. Now tell me, why are you putting all of Dad's stuff in this box? Are you going to throw it away? "I asked, couldn't stand it. I stood up to take the box and put the box on my lap. I brought my eyebrows together, staring at my Mom closely so that she realized I was protesting hard against her.

"Ariana, I'm not asking you, and I'm not asking for your advice," My Mom returned a sharp glare at me. I shook my head "Oh, I don't care. You want to throw away all my Dad's stuff, did you forget? It's only been three weeks since Dad's death. You forget your husband quickly? Are you numb as a woman? "I said in a bitter voice.

Yeah, I lost my dad when I was 18 years old. There are a lot of things Dad and I have planned for my maturity. I am Lycan, who has not been 'united' until now. My wolf is active, but we are not united yet. I'm late from the usual Lycan teenager.

I don't know what happened. When I came home after playing at Astrid's house, the Pack members in my area found my Dad behind the hill with all his bones broken from the inside. He seemed to have gone through a pretty tough battle.

I don't know who my dad is fighting with. As a Beta in the Clay Pack, my Dad is very skilled at fighting; even when he was young, he always won in the struggle for territory. My Wolf Dad was dead already. It prevented his body from surviving in human form, and in the end, my dad died.

And now, with courage, my Mom will throw away all the abandonment of my Dad, "Don't you love dad anymore?" I asked urgently. My Mom lost her temper, and she threw the bread onto the plate.

Her fangs and nails appeared without coercion, the fuzz around her cheeks showed a defiant attitude, her almond iris grew darker and gave me a more detailed look. "We've talked about this. Do you think I'm not tortured every day having to look at your Dad's stuff? I'm the one who's struggling more than you. Okay, I won't throw that thing away, but we will still move and return to your aunt's place," said Mom, without negotiating with me.

I was shocked and made the box I was holding down, "Oh Goddess shake. Mom?" I shouted in protest. My Mom smiled slightly "What? that's a fair choice, isn't it? I don't want to be in torment here without your dad. The Pack here is foreign to me until now. We go back to the Clay Pack and forget all the memories here, "said my Mom. I shook my head wistfully. "No. You're definitely not in torment. There, you already have Jeff by your side. Then what about me, huh? What about my lover and my life here? "I shouted, not to accept.

"Watch your mouth. Jeff and I are just friends," my Mom dodged. I don't want to lose in this debate. "You know, I really want to study here. I've even been accepted into the medical faculty. Why do you want to destroy your daughter's dream so badly ?. You also know my love and my best friend is here. I'm comfortable here. Do not destroy me more than this, "I said, complaining.

"We just need to start a new life. There is nothing different from the Pack. You still can't control your wolf at 18. I'm tired of hearing Pack here judging you as a crippled Lycan. After all, I already have a steady job at Green Village. Stop complaining. And you know Arley is not your mate," said my mother.

Green Village is my hometown. It is one town near the hills, with a giant Lycanthrope Pack werewolf forming the area. Because we have mingled with humans, it makes some Lycans go wandering to continue their life. Not for leaving the Pack. But here I grew up with Pack, my father's parents, even though my grandparents are also dead.

And about Mate, Argh all Lycan will meet their Mate at their early 16 years of maturity. Lycan, who has difficulty meeting Mate, is considered a failed Lycan and has a lousy love future. Mom lets me go out with Arley so that the other Pack members don't look down on me, who is the Beta's daughter.

I realized the harsh reality that "Now not, but I'm sure one day Arley is my mate. It's only a minor problem. Arley and I have even loved each other for five years, and we grew up together, you know that," I defended myself.

This debate will not end quickly. Why?. Because mom and I both have a stubborn attitude. I was used to arguing with my mom even from the age of nine. During these fights, sometimes we didn't talk to each other for up to a month, and the one who was always the best person to solve the problems between us was my dad.

"Oh, come on, Little girl, I am your mother in this house, and you have to follow my rules. So far, I have forbidden nothing you do, friends, money, even your lover. But this one thing. You have to obey me. We go back to where you were born. You can enter university there with the same major, and you will be rewarded there because your uncle is an Alpha. You understand it?" said mom firmly.

I arrogantly shook my head. Mom's face got even redder holding her emotions "Okay. Then I will burn all the contents of the box, even all the photos, including the orange peach sweater, "my mom threatened. I took a deep breath feeling hurt by my mom's words, "you're the bad mom in this world," I said, irritated, and left the house.

I slammed the door violently as a sign I was really emotional. I walked to the garden near my house. I chose to sit under a shady tree and let out painful sobs. After a few minutes, Arley came over to me. The message I sent with the words I need you was enough to get Arley to meet me right away.

"Hey, girl. What is wrong? You fought again with your mom?" asked Arley, immediately resting my head on his shoulder. The masculine scent of Arley's body hypnotized my nose. Even though for some Lycan, the human scent is like a smelly, damp towel. But to me, Arley is a different human. He's the cutest guy in my school, has a stern face, eyes with blue irises and brown hair with a specific cut, and manages to have him as my boyfriend.

"Arley, do you love me?" I asked in my sobs. Arley's handsome face was like the prince that every woman craved. What makes me so crazy about the fine hair on his chin, he lifted my chin with his hand and kissed my lips spoiled. That is enough to be an answer to my question.

"Is everything all right?" asked Arley after kissing my lips warmly. his lips are soft even so, feels moist. I let out a heavy sigh as my tears lingered. Why my mouth can't say anything, I doubt if Arley will understand my problem on this one.

"Tell me, what's wrong? Did you see your mom kissing the guy named Jeff again?" Arley had been trying to guess what problem I was having. Suddenly I immediately shook my head "No. That's not it," I replied quickly before a protracted misunderstanding occurred. Even though I saw Jeff kiss my mom. I don't know what kind of relationship Jeff and Mom have behind me.

"Then? just say it," Arley urged. I took a deep breath. It took great courage for me to say this "Arley, I... Looks like I'm going to move to my aunt's place," I said in a thin and barely audible voice. "What?" Arley frowned in confusion. I sighed irritably "I'll move to my aunt's place," I said this time with a loud voice. Suddenly Arley clenched his fists. This is what I was afraid of.

Whenever Arley held back his emotions, his eyes were always sharp, as if there were embers in them. The sweet smile he used to give me suddenly moved away from his face. He even leaned back a little to see more clearly myself "Did I not hear wrong?. You're going to fucking move out ? What do you mean? And why?" asked Arley.

As I thought, Arley cannot accept this calmly. "My mom feels tormented after the death of my dad. I don't know the exact reason I have to move, but I have no choice. My core family pack is also there," I explained.

Arley stood up and crossed his arms over his chest, "So you wanna go back to your goddamn werewolf family?" quipped Arley. I stood up too to speak parallel to Arley "Hey, your words sound harsh we are trained Lycan, you know," I smiled thinly. I was trying to break the atmosphere.

"Yeah, I just realized that my lover is a creature a werewolf. And you will of course choose your Pack over me. What we've been through all this time won't mean anything to you right ?. I don't even know if your Pack is savage or not." Arley clarified his emotions, putting pressure on every sentence he said.

"Arley, you know we Lycans are very developed. We are the most famous for controlling our wolf of any werewolf. We never hurt humans. Times have changed, everything has blended well. There is no such thing as savage, we are not animals that have no sense," I defend myself and my people from this misunderstanding.

"Oh, but your rules are still the same, right? I'm talking about rules like damn mate. What if you meet something like that out there? What are you going to do to me? I'm just an ordinary human who loves creatures like you," said Arley harshly.

"Godamn it. Arley, you call me a creature?. I have genuine feelings for you. What's the fuck is you? You're always like this. You can't keep your words when you're emotional," I complained. Arley with his flaws. He couldn't control his anger. Even though he never physically roughed me. But always rough with his sharp words. It's tiring.

"Okay, then swear at me. You won't meet other men. Promise me you will immediately leave your mate for me. Swear on my life. Because if you leave me for your mate, I will definitely kill myself." Arley put my palms on top of his head. I ran out of words with a confused look. However, we Lycans develop according to the times. Still, Mate is an absolute rule that we still consider sacred. That's a pack of perfection and pride.

I just stared at Arley in silence. My heart is pounding; I don't want to promise something that I can't keep. What if I break my oath, I thought? "Will you just shut up ?. You don't want to swear, do you? "Arley insisted.

Arley let out a heavy sigh, followed by him removing his hand from my head. "I will not insist. Forgive me. I'm just afraid of losing you" Arley smiled so sincerely. I feel guilty like a brick threw my heart. "Arley, please. It's not what you think. You know I love you too, "I said convincingly.

"Alright . It doesn't matter to me if you have to move. It's not what you want, after all. I'll visit you often after college is over. It only took an hour to get there, right ?.". Arley gripped my cheeks gently with his hands "and. Guard your heart to me. Everything you have is mine," Arley kissed my forehead. Treat me as a special woman.

To be honest, some people closest to me have asked me to part with Arley, especially my best friend, Astrid. Arley has a personality that is hard to guess. He is manly with his skills in martial arts. Arley is also good at every sport, especially basketball, which is why many women love Arley.

Arley's attitude is very romantic, he spoils me like a queen, but Arley quickly says harshly to me when he gets angry. Not infrequently, he scolded me severely in front of my friends. Arley was also very jealous. There was almost no contact with male friends on my cellphone. Sometimes I'm not allowed to hang out with anyone except Astrid. And all I had in mind was Arley loved me so much to where he could go crazy without me.

I spent time with Arley late into the night. I'm lazy to go home, but I'm forced to because I feel alert to my Mom. I'm afraid Mom will burn my favorite orange sweater. The only favorite thing that Dad gave me.

I opened the door slowly, hoping Mom was asleep. But I was pretty surprised when I heard a voice from the living room. I glanced at the clock on the wall, and it was already twelve o'clock in the evening. I slowly stepped into the living room, past the viewing room and reading room. My eyes widened when the scene in front of me stirred my feelings.

"Mom? What are you doing now? It's the middle of the night," I asked. My Mom smoothed her hair ties. Her forehead was full of sweat. Several small to medium-sized boxes were scattered everywhere. "I already packed all your clothes in the suitcase. I've also put my stuff in the box. Go to bed early, so that tomorrow morning we will have left," said my Mom

I immediately ran up the stairs to my room. I gaped to see my space was empty and several items had entered the box "Mom? Where did you put my sweater? "I shouted so hard. I repeated the question until Mom answered it "in your suitcase. "Replied my Mom. I rushed to open my suitcase and felt a soothing relief when my eyes found my favorite sweater.

For a moment, I returned to my senses for what was happening and ran again quickly down to meet my mom "Mom. Why are we leaving so fast? Can't it be delayed? I haven't even met Astrid yet," I protested. My Mom was silent for a moment because she was busy putting duct tape on the box.

"You can call Astrid tomorrow. I heard from his mother that she also enrolled in the same university as you in the green village." My Mom sat and leaned against the wall. Her gasping breath showed that he had worked hard enough to tidy up everything.

"What? but Astrid already enrolled in university here with me. How can she change her mind? Mom, I beg you, let's just go the day after tomorrow. I still want to spend time here," I begged. Mom shook her head "no debate. We're leaving tomorrow. Jeff will help lift things into the car." My Mom's final decision

"Fuck it, "I grumbled and returned to my room. I can't stand this frustration. I locked my bedroom door, looking for a pink box under my bed. There was a small padlock on the box. I opened it and pulled a cigarette out of the box. I opened my bedroom window wide, let the night breeze brush my skin.

I sat by the window and started smoking. Suction after suction that I feel, I let the cigarette smoke swept away by the wind. My feelings are chaotic. I was sad to be forced to move when I spent almost half of my life in this small town. "Fuck this shiit, I'm out," I shouted, occasionally grabbing my hair, annoyed.

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"Can't wait for the new home, little girl?" jeered Jeff past me as he lifted the box into the car. I stood crossed my chest while chewing gum. The clothes I wore were very casual. I'm wearing hot pants and a plain black t-shirt that I tuck into the waistline of my pants. "Shut the fuck up," I grumbled softly. Jeff probably won't hear it.

I was not too fond of Jeff. He was a slender man with blonde hair that glistened when exposed to the sun. His face was oval with round eyes, and he was one year younger than my dad, I think. His eyes were sliced ​​gold, and he always looked at me with a troubling gaze. It was as if he was stripping my body with those eyes.

"Are you still waiting?" My Mom asked now after putting the suitcase onto the porch. I nodded and stayed away from them a little. I stood near the end of the porch. Looking to the right at the end of the road hoping Arley and Astrid would come quickly. At least they should see me move right away.