Your life never flashed before your eyes. Your heart has never been squeezed so hard that you can hear the sound of its shatter. Freya felt this and many more at that moment. Today was her long-awaited wedding, the wedding of the century; all the historians of the Vermillion pack will scribble down that her wedding was the most splendid, most beautiful, most breathtaking, and most loving union ever, but that wishful thinking was slowly shattering before her red-rimmed eyes.
How did she get here?
Only thirty minutes ago, she sat in the bridal room, and her best friend had stood behind her with a smile;
"The moon goddess indeed blesses you, Frey," Ophelia had whispered, her eyes trained at the mirror.
"You bet, Philly, you bet." Freya smiled sweetly into the mirror. She was donned in her white dress, dolled up before a mirror. The maidens had just added finishing touches to her bridal beautification, and as if they got the hint, they got the hint and left the two best friends alone in their hearty conversation.
"I'm going to miss you so much, Frey," Ophelia drew a deep breath as she carefully adjusted the hand of the home.
"You silly! I'm not leaving the pack; I'm just getting married to Silas.." Freya put her hand over her friend's, which was on her shoulder, in a comforting way.
"But you shall become Luna, and you will live in the tall pack palace halls, with more of pack members to care for, and to become the mother of the pack, you shall not be free to entertain the frivolities of girly gossip and picking of flowers any more." Ophelia smiled and leaned her jaw on the crook of Freya's neck.
Freya's eyes softened even more; she looked at both their reflection in the mirror before them, "You know I will never forget you; we will still share our little gossips and definitely pick flowers, I'll show you this garden I discovered after this wedding,"
"Whatever you say, let's get you married, shall we?"
Freya laughed heartily.
There was a knock immediately at the door, followed by a creek. A raven-haired girl shot her head through the door, " Sister, you have to make haste!"
"Yes, Ciri," Freya smiled at the other girl at the door.
"Come on, Cirila. Now that you are here help me get our bride to her groom." Ophelia winked at Cirila, who had already walked into the room and toward her sister.
You wouldn't know they were sisters if you didn't look so closely. Freya had silver and straight hair, and her facial features were ethereal yet kind, upright, and intriguing. Cirila, her younger sister by just a season, had raven black hair she got from their father. She had a coquettish and shy prettiness that contrasted Freya's proud and confident demeanor.
"Of course," Cirila excitedly took Freya's hand and helped her get to her feet.
"Sister, you look stunning, you really do," Cirila gushed.
"Oh stop it, Ciri, you flatter me."
Fast-forward to the ceremony, the big wedding held under the full moon, at the peak of the season, before every single Man-wolf of the pack. Freya stood at the elevated altar with Silas facing her directly, their hands in each other's.
Now, she was standing in front of the mate of her dreams, not the boy she played with because his mother and her mother were best friends, and they had been together since nappies. She didn't see the boy who helped her pack her head into a bun for the first time or the boy who helped her cover up her nakedness when she had turned into her soul form of a wolf for the first time under the full moon; she saw the man that she could spend her entire life with, the Alpha to her Luna, the father to her children, and most trusted man in her world- well except her father.
She looked at his handsome and breathtaking face, the one she had trailed her fingers through at night, lost in wonder about his perfection, but he seemed tense.
Was he tense because he was nervous?
Nervousness is good, and nervousness is romantic; it wasn't just her who was anxious then.
His jaw seemed to be ticking; he always did that when he was deep in his thoughts.
He must be thinking of their future together. She didn't know whether to feel proud, since Silas was never nervous, but he was anxious for her.
The priestess held their hands under the full moon before the entire Vermillion pack, their parents, and their friends; she could see her best friend smiling wistfully at her. Her sister... well, she could not glimpse Cirila; where did she wander to? Anyway, her heart was filled with butterflies, so she held his hands tighter and flashed him a shy smile, but his smile was very forced, tight, and strained.
Then it hit.
Something was wrong. She was lovestruck, not shocked, and she knew Silas like the back of her palm. He had a charming smile and the most confident demeanor she had ever seen, yet he wasn't showing any signs of his usual self.
"Silas," she leaned closer to him, eyes shut, while the priestess said incantations. "Silas, are you good?"
"Yes," His voice came off rough. Too rough and gruff, making her scrunch her nose invisibly.
"Mhh." She nodded and leaned away. She'd ask him when the ceremony was over.
The priestess seized her incantations and sharply opened her eyes, flicking them in Silas' direction. "You may take the oath under the heavens and before the people."
Butterflies erupted in Freya's stomach. This was the moment of her dreams, the moment she had waited for so long. They would take their vows beneath the moon, under the watchful eyes of Goddess Selena.
Silence.
Utter silence.
Silas stood stoic, his jaw ticking away. Ticking jaws. Silas did that when he was deep in his thoughts and conflicted.
She rubbed his hands softly against hers; maybe this was too overwhelming for him. Silas was never overwhelmed. She knew him like the back of her palm; he was Decisive, bold, calm, and kind. He was a walking box of overflowing confidence.
They had figured that they were mates three years ago when she had just turned eighteen, and Silas had been so happy. Their bond had been so strong, and this was only to cement their relationship and make it easy for him to ascend the throne as Alpha instead of leading as an Alpha Prince.
Still silence.
The silence was so threatening that even the pack members began to whisper. Freya could see their unsettled frenzy element. They had started to whisper among themselves. A great trepidation crawled up her back as she looked expectantly at Silas.
She was very sure now that there had to be something wrong. She had noticed that Silas had been 'not himself for six nights.' He had been lost in thought and a little bit cranky. He usually told her what went wrong, but he did not open up to her this time, so she felt he would come around.
But today? What was worrying him must have been so serious that he couldn't concentrate on their wedding. Was he spacing out? Why?
Was the pack facing strong opposition?
Where are the members of the council on his neck?
"I, Silas Creek, Alpha Prince of the Vermillion pack, do reject you, Freya Lancaster, as my mate, I swear this by the breath of the goddess of the moon, our eternal mother and protector, Selena."
Finally, he did speak-
What?
How? Impossible!
Freya finally registered his words; at the drop of his oath, there was a loud clap of thunder across the sky and a wild eruption of noise among the crowd. It was utter chaos.
"You..." Her voice trailed as pain punched heavily on her gut. Her hands slipped away from his, and she staggered back, clutching her chest. Her ears were bleeding, her nose and her eyes poured painful streaks of blood down her face. Her chest felt like a thousand daggers had stabbed it. She immediately clutched her chest.
"I'm sorry, Freya, I love you,but I have an heir already. Cirila is pregnant with our child."
Freya fell that instant. Dumbstruck! Cirila? This must have been a joke, but finally, she knew her mate was losing it.
"What's this joke, Silas?" Her voice came out like a whisper, too shaky and scared. "And Don't you dare bring in my sister!"
The audacity. He could play a prank on her, but bringing her sister into it was a sick joke she wouldn't tolerate. She was protective of her sister, whom he knew so well.
"Silas, stop!" A meek and shy voice that Freya could identify, even if she was deaf, spoke loudly at the arena.
Freya turned slowly to the girl running up to the altar of matrimony.
Cirila.
Cirila
Freya had never felt so relieved to hear her sister's voice. She didn't entertain the thought of what Silas said being the truth, but it didn't mean she was not scared of the possibility.
Her loving and shy sister would never betray her like that; why would she even think that?
"No, Ciri, I can't hide it anymore, we can't!" Silas' eyes softened. In a vulnerable way. The way she had seen before, the most intimate way.
Freya stood still.
Silas was only vulnerable before her and always saw Ciri as a younger sister... Right?
"Please," Cirila cried now as she held his hands in a way that seemed out of habit.
Her mate's hands.
"Cirila-" Freya's voice hitched.
"Sister," Cirila's eyes widened with innocence. She hurried towards Freya with her eyes red like a wounded rabbit's.
"Sister, it was a mistake..."
Her head exploded.
Freya refused to think. She refused.
"... Sister, who knew I would get pregnant, but I don't plan on keeping the pregnancy, sister, I will do that for you!"
Freya pushed Cirila's hand away from hers and staggered back in disbelief.
"Ahhh." Cirila fell to the ground at the prying of her hand.
"Freya, why are you malicious?!" Silas hurried towards Cirila and helped her up carefully.
Freya's eyes widened in disbelief. She had just watched her sister push herself to the ground after she pried her hand from hers.
"I didn't..." Freya started,
"I know you are angry, but I was the one who made her do it, I was the one who seduced her, it is me you should be angry at! She even begged me to go on with the marriage for your sake even after finding out about our baby, yet you treat her this way?" Silas scolded.
Freya had never been so flabbergasted in her entire existence. She hadn't even processed what was happening; things were moving too fast.
"No, it's not Sister's fault, it's mine, I shouldn't have..." Cirila cried out.
"No, you shouldn't apologize for our love, Cirila; I'll sort this out for you and our baby."Silas held Cirila in his embrace like she would break any moment, and he then turned to Freya, who had stood still since the chaos,
"Please, let us go. I love you so much, but as a friend, Cirila made me discover this. I have deeper feelings for her, and by the goddess, I tried to kill it, but here we are. Maybe the moon was wrong about this match.
I am now a father, and you always told me to take responsibility for my actions. This is me taking responsibility."
Disgust slid through Freya's veins, along with disbelief. The scandal was already causing a big uproar in the pack. The murmurs and exclamations were loud enough.
"What is happening here, son?" She heard Alpha King Gérald's voice thunder as he walked towards the altar of matrimony, and she heard footsteps approaching her. She also saw her mother and father approaching the altar, as did Ophelia and ...
Chaotic.
Everything sounded very chaotic.
"Father..." She couldn't hear the rest of Silas's words to his father because the voices became distant. She could feel the thick, warm wetness of blood trickle down her ears instead.
The rejection curse was taking place.
She could hear the Priestess' voice rise in high tempo in the distance.
She heard voices hovering over her head-her mother, her father, her best friend, and her other friends. Were they calling out to her? She didn't know. All she could think of was her mate's voice when he rejected her a moment ago, her sister's teary face, and the uproar of the pack members below.
Why was Cirila behaving weirdly? Why was she biting her lip so pitiful?
This was a nightmare, a prank she hoped was going to end. She could swear on her life that it wasn't real. He loved her; he told her so. They had spent most of their lives together; she could not believe he would betray her. A child? An heir? Cirila! Cirila confused her; what was Cirila saying? Was she having an affair with Silas?
Were they in love?
Love?
Now, it made sense; it all made sense. The floral scent a few times, the over-friendliness he exhibited towards Cirila when he visited her parents' cabin with her, he had always regarded Cirila from a distance before; she only thought he was already assuming the role of a brother to Cirila. Even when she had always been in pain on most nights in the few seasons, she had told him about the scorching pain that woke her at night due to their bond; he had lied that it was normal. But it wasn't.
She was in pain on the nights Cirila was curled up daintily in his arms because he was trashing their bond.
Cirila was pregnant.
A scornful laugh erupted in the air. It was hers. She flipped her blurry eyes open and mustered strength from her rage to get up.
And she shakily did.
Rejection always ruined the rejected; It could cripple them or, worse of all, kill them, and Silas knew so well. The curse was always very dangerous.
"I, Freya Lancaster, of the Vermillion pack accept your rejection, under the oath of the goddess of the moon." She spat out.
Under the bright moon, Freya lost her balance. Under the bright moon, she saw Silas' stoic and indifferent face. She saw Cirila rush into his arms, the field meant for their wedding in a frenzy. It all made sense to her at that very moment. She thought she was planning a wedding with her loved one beneath the full moon, but he was planning a rejection party under the full moon because a rejection could only be done under the full moon.
She refused to think of Cirila; it would break her to think of the possibilities. Had they laughed at her behind her back? Cirila must have thought about her stupidity when she saw her in her wedding dress, which was already dyed red with her blood.
She refused to think of Cirila.
Her eyes rolled back, and her body gave way; a single bloody tear rolled down her eyes.
She heard screams of her name, but they felt distant until it was pitch black.
A loud, painful howl resounded around the Vermillion pack that faithful night, and it was the cry of a wounded werewolf.
~~~
Freya flipped her eyes open but shut them immediately due to the sharp light that hit her eyes.
She hissed in pain when she tried to get up.
Her body felt like she had been thrown repeatedly at a tree; she felt highly sore all over her head... She felt it throb painfully.
"Easy there, Frey. "She heard a soft voice-her best friend.
She moaned painfully but opened her eyes slowly and carefully this time. "Ophelia"
Her voice came out as a crooked and scratchy whisper. Her throat felt patched up and swollen.
"Easy there." Ophelia held Freya's arm, helping her sit up. "You are still weak."
"What happened?" Freya touched her head and asked. She looked around her, which was strange, albeit. "And where is this? Am I dreaming?"
Ophelia smiled calmly, "one question at a time."
"My body feels so sore all over, it hurts so bad, and... How did I get here? I can't recall- " Freya hissed painfully.
"Don't stress it Frey" Ophelia rushed to her side and supported her against the bed frame.
Ophelia searched her friend's face for any trace of pain, anger, or realization, but there was nothing but a blank and lost look, coupled with the body pain she felt.
"Don't worry about what happened yesterday; Elena and Garvin are taking care of it," Ophelia carefully said, testing the waters.
"What happened?" Freya scrunched her brows
Ophelia's eyes widened for a millisecond, but she covered it up immediately; Elena was right after all.
"Not to worry. I will tell you, but for now, I shall get you some water. You must be really thirsty," Ophelia pecked the crown of Freya's head softly. "Oh," Freya nodded.
Ophelia gave Freya one last careful look before leaving the room. She shut the door tightly behind her and turned to face the anxious group of people outside.
If Freya had been here to see the stunning middle-aged woman with green eyes and silver hair and the tall raven-haired man standing beside her, she would have known they were her parents.
"She is awake, but she remembers nothing," Ophelia sighed. She remembers us but has no recollection of him, like she had wiped him out of her memory.
"Oh my dear cub, poor child." The silver-haired woman sniffed into the man's chest.
"I'm going to make that good for nothing pay for what he did to our daughters!" The man's voice was resolute.
"Garvin, you have to calm down," Elena cooed.
"You were right, Elena; we shall go with the idea. She would appreciate the change of environment as soon as possible; she will remember on her terms, but if she never remembers, then all the better.
After she had passed out in unconsciousness, she had assumed her wolf form and had howled so painfully that it resounded, but she was too wounded and paralyzed. The Priestess said she was in shock.
She had whimpered painfully as her loved ones rushed her to see a physician, but they only had to go outside the pack to find the right elixir for her. She may never be able to summon her soul form (which is the wolf form).
The Priestess they had met had only nodded and said she was an injured one. Her mind was in shock; she couldn't process what had happened. It was a miracle that she was awake even.
Ophelia wished to hide her best friend away from any more harm there could be.
"Thank you, child," Elena said, holding Ophelia's hand softly.
"It's nothing; she is my friend." Ophelia sniffed back the tears that had been threatening to fall since she had left the room.
"I'll get her some water and call the priestess," Ophelia said.
Elena nodded, "Very well."
~~~
"Mother, Father." Freya saw the two middle-aged people walk into the room and immediately recognized them.
"My sweetest Cub," Elena rushed towards her daughter. While Garvin stood silently by the side, his bloodshot eyes indicated care.
"Mother, why am I here in this strange place? What happened? Ophelia won't tell me," Freya inquired. She wondered why she couldn't remember anything. Her memory was very hazy and cloudy, but she surprisingly felt empty and sad inside. She didn't like the feeling at all. Besides, she had a few injuries around her body. How come?
"Freya, your soul went berserk during the full moon. Your wolf was injured so we had to take you to a priestess outside Vermillion pack. You shall be fine soon."
What?
Berserk? Freya wondered. She remembered cultivating the strengths of her soul, which formed somewhere in her memory. She must have pushed past her limit when she was practicing.
Makes sense.
Ophelia reappeared into the room with a jug of water, which she poured into a cup. Elena had fed Freya.
After a few hours, her parents left the cabin, saying that the Priestess had told her to seclude her for recuperation, which was why she couldn't come home immediately.
It was just that she and Ophelia finally left the cabin.
"Philly," Freya called out to Ophelia, who was busy painting away on a makeshift table.
"Mmh?" Ophelia turned to face her best friend, concern, and guilt etched in her voice.
"What happened?" I can tell that you are lying to me. You haven't looked me in the eyes since I woke up. Mother is lying, too. Her eyes were guilty, and she was rambling. Dad didn't speak. He is too frank to even lie," Freya asked.
Ophelia sighed. "How can I forget that you are too observant for your own good?"
Freya sighed. "I can't recall why I'm here, but then I couldn't have gone berserk, I know it in my core, something bad happened. I feel sad, I feel empty, like my heart is ripped out. Did any one die? Tell me."
She really didn't feel good emotionally.
"I can't, you have to remember it yourself and frankly I don't want you to." Ophelia sighed.
She had been sighing a lot of late.
Freya looked at her friend's weary but stubborn face. She won't get anything out of the woman.
"Where is Ciri? I haven't seen her; she usually hangs onto her mother like a Koala. Is she okay?
"Mhh, she is okay, so do not worry, remember what the priestess said. Your health is really important. You need to rest, hmm?" Ophelia said.
"Yeah, right! Rest when I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere outside the pack. Why can't I go home again?" Freya was not feeling good at all. "Stop treating me like a cub or some crippled wolf, because I'm not."
Okay, maybe she was angry.
"I'm putting you to bed now." Ophelia's voice was shaky.
"No, Philly, do not use it on me, you know I hate it when you..."
Ophelia muttered incoherently under her breath and held Freya's hand till Freya's eyes rolled back, and she fell into a deep sleep.
Letting Freya lie asleep carefully, Ophelia burst into tears and ran out of the room. She hated that she couldn't run a rampage on Silas and Ciri. She wanted to tear them limp for doing such an unbelievable thing to her best friend.
The priestess had told the Alpha that they had to do a deep cleansing to atone for the rejection. Rejecting one's mate was a huge deal for werewolves. It was like tearing off your skin. The cutting of the bond was the most painful part; the rejected one could be crippled or die off. The bond was so strong because the Moon goddess was the one who chose Mate for the werewolves, and they were as loyal to their mates as themselves as they were bonded in the soul.
There are only very few instances in the history of the Vermillion pack that one had rejected their mates, and all the rejected ones never ended well over the century. In the three cases, she recalled, one had gone insane, the other went into a vegetative state, and the other had his soul ripped apart, causing him to die on the spot.
She hated that Ciri had betrayed her sister in the worst possible way. But she was going to protect her friend at all costs.
♣♠♦
Freya flipped her eyes open, and she was met with a pitch-black room. She had been awake for a while now; if Ophelia were in the room, she would notice that Freya no longer had a clueless expression; her eyes were void and cold.
She could hear hushed voices in the distance, very familiar voices.
Mother. Father.
She carefully stepped down from the bed and tiptoed to the window; the voices became more precise.
"We have to decide what to do with her!" That was her father's voice.
With who?
"Garvin, she is our daughter too!" That was Elena, her mother.
"But Ciri is our blood, we can't forsake her for Freya, especially now that she carries the heir of the soon-to-be 'Alpha' . This could be my chance to gain an upper hand in the pack's council, and you know that!" Freya had never heard her father sound so harsh.
"Garvin, we promised to take care of Freya." Elena sounded stressed out and tired.
"Not when she will cost us the unity of our family," Garvin's voice retorted sharply.
"You want us to throw her out to the rogues?" Elena sounded shattered.
"Or risk losing your current daughter," Garvin said finally.
Freya heard disappearing footsteps and another approaching the door. She immediately lay on the bed and shut her eyes. She regulated her breathing and assumed a sleeping position.
The door creaked open, and soft footsteps approached her bed. A smooth, flowery scent filled Freya's nostrils.
Mother.
"My sweet Cub." A soft hand cupped her face.
"Mother will have to let you go. I'm sorry, we have to end on this note. You are a good Cub, too bad destiny has something else in store." Elena sniffed sadly as she held the hand of the 'sleeping' Freya.
Freya could hear Elena's sniffs as she sobbed quietly, but she gritted her teeth and remained still.
"Here," Elena whispered.
Freya felt a cold sensation on her wrist as something slipped into it.
"This will protect you from any harm, my Cub. You have to forgive Mother. Ah, I can't believe I'm talking to a sleeping child. Elena, you are losing it." Elena snorted and wiped her tear-filled eyes.
Her shaky hand caressed Freya's pale face. "Good luck, Cub."
Freya flipped her eyes open when she knew Elena was leaving. The woman's frame seemed more aged in just a few hours. She could see the woman's hands trembling as she left; the barely lit room felt empty as the lady walked away.
Freya's eye held unfathomable thoughts.
She glanced at her wrist to see a bracelet around her wrist.
A protection spell.
A lone tear slipped down her eyes.
At least her supposed Mother protected her to the end, right?
She had forgotten what had happened when she first woke up, but the memory of her bloody wedding had rushed back so vividly.
Silas.
Cirila.
She remembered it all. His dead eyes, Cirila's pitiful tears, the pack members' uproar, her heartbreak, her soul, the words of the priestess, she remembered.
It's funny how her life was on track two nights ago. It's a comfortable lie.
Now, she just figured that she was not her Parents' child. Everything about her life was a lie.
A depreciating smile flitted her lips. She had no strength left to cry, scream, or trash around. She had to leave, and she knew it. Her wounds had healed, and that was only because she was special. She had always known, and only Ophelia knew of her peculiarity. She had even kept the secret to the last.
Ophelia.
After the discussion she had just heard, she knew she had to escape from wherever this was. She had to because she didn't know what her 'father' had in store as a method of getting rid of her.
Freya sat upright with all the strength she could muster. She propped her legs forward and folded them beneath her. She shut out her senses and tried to connect with Ophelia.
'Philly!'
There was silence.
She opened her eyes and shut them again, taking a deep breath. Telepathy requires concentration, deep concentration.
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
Breathe in.
'Ophelia, can you hear me?'
'Frey, you are awake!' Ophelia's voice rang in her head.
Finally!
'Yes, I am.' Freya answered.
There was silence among the friends as they were comfortably in their heads.
'I left later. Your mother came by, so I had to leave. I stank, ' Ophelia said.
'Ohh, I know,' Freya hummed.
'You remember now, don't you?' Ophelia asked rhetorically.
'Mhh,' Freya hummed.
'I'm sorry we lied, the priestess said to let you remember on your pace, and truthfully I didn't want you to remember the ghastly incident, if you'd let me,I can wipe the memory out of your mind completely. You are free to stay at my family cabin if you do not feel comfortable at yours-'
'Philly, it's fine. I am fine, and I understandably do not want to recall,' Freya's voice cracked as she interrupted her friend.
'I need your help; I'm in danger, big one. My father wants to get rid of me,' Freya started.
'What? No! That's not possible. They had been worried sick of you.' Ophelia's surprise was evident.
'What if I told you that I am not my parents' daughter? And that they have to protect Ciri and their family peace because my presence at this point is a threat? Will you believe me then?'
'This is too much info; hown, How did you come up with such assumption? Your hair is enough proof that you are your mother's daughter! It's Silver! Think about it.'
'I overheard them arguing, and Mother came into the room and confirmed it when she thought I was asleep, father wants to silently wipe me out.'
'Holy goddess Selena!' Ophelia hissed. She was shocked. The entire information was too sudden. But then, what if Freya was hallucinating?
'I'm not hallucinating philly! Please, I need you to help me, can you get me out of here? I don't know where this is, I'm literally in the middle of nowhere, I owe you one, I promise.' Freya pleaded.
'you invaded my thoughts!' Ophelia snorted.
'you casted a spell on me earlier, remember? We are even' Freya cooed.
'I'll make my way to you now, but you have to promise to be careful, survey your environment, if what you say is true, then Garvin might place watch wolfs around!'
'Aye, Captain!' Freya replied.
She flipped her eyes open, disconnected from Ophelia.
She was glad Ophelia had agreed to help her. Now, all she had to do was wait. She snuck out of the cabin, and for the first time, she realized that the cabin was in the woods.
Great.
She concentrated her senses to survey the perimeters.
No sign of life. Well, except for the greenery and the crickets.
She snuck back into the cabin and sat patiently waiting for her friend.
After a long time, there was a quick rap on the window.
'Frey!' A whisper came.