Loved you once

Chapter 1-The subway boy

Back when I was 12 years old, i use to take the subway train to go to school. One day, i met a lonely boy sitting on a chair with the same school uniform as mine.

Then, I sat next to him as he looks at me. I smiled at him and said "hey!" But he didn't responded. He just looked at me and looked away after a few seconds. That was the first time that we saw each other.

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The next day, I saw him on the same spot again. I never saw him at school but he wears the same uniform as mine.

I tried to talk to him again and said "why aren't you talking to me?" He didn't answered me and didn't even looked at me. So I tapped his brown blonde hair. He looked at me while he was showing that he hates it.

Days after days, he used to do the same thing. He used to avoid me and never talked to me.

Once, I saw him at school sitting on a bench with someone else sitting beside him that wears the same uniform as mine and looks like my age . They we're talking to each other. That was the first time that I saw him smile. He was really cute with a smile on his face.

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We we're both in the subway train. I smiled at him and he just half smiled at me. I sat next to him and said "hello!" He half smiled again. It made me blushed that time and gave me a lot of electric feels that I can't explain. He finally talked to me for the first time.

I can't exactly think all about the things we talked about that time but all i remember is about how he looked like and how he used to smile at me.

Everyday, we used to talk and we've been friends since then. We used to sit together during break time and during play time, talk to each other at the subway train, and more. He was always nice to me.

Days and days passes so fast like a tornado. We've been together for 2 years. When I was 14, we used to see each other only once a week because we took different schools for high school. But we used to talk on the phone more often.

Until one day, when we we're about to see each other on the subway train, he didn't showed up. I didn't minded about it because I thought that he was just too busy.

The next day, I called him but he didn't answered. What the operator said made me realize that he changed his number. Everyday, I will wait for him to show up on the subway train but he never showed up in 6 years. I don't even know his full name and all I know is his nickname because he never told me his real name. He is Andrew.

Since then, he never showed up. He never even called me on my phone. Six years passed and he never ever showed up. While here's me, looking for him and wondering if he is ok.

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In silence, I was sketching Andrew's face as far as I could remember him until my sister Lorie came from nowhere. She tried to tickle me but I felt her earlier so I managed to stay away. She laughed as I felt my heart beating so fast. She placed 12 shopping bags on top of her bed and sat on top of her it. "Why are you here so early?" I asked her while looking at the shopping bags "well, all of my friends just need to have a little time with their family so I was left and I decided to go home." She replied.

She grabbed two pink shopping bags and gave those to me. Without confusion, I asked her "what's that?" And she rolled her eyes as she looks at the mirror beside me and she finally said something after a minute "obviously these are shopping bags from the mall" is she insulting me? Or she's just messing with me? I tried to sit down but right before I did, I said something to her that probably made her laugh "I know girl, but what will I do with that?" she placed the handles of the shopping bags on top of my palm so I opened it and I saw a red dress that has glitters that I hate the most. "Girl! You know I had a trauma with these stupid glitters!"

Once when I was a kid, I got into a little childish girl fight with the girl I hate the most, Carlene. She spat out a bottle of glitter on my face back when we we're in 2nd grade She is the girl that i hate the most since then and until now. I just don't show her that I hate her but deep inside my heart, I want to tear her apart.

Lorie grabbed my sketch pad and I felt nervous as she stares at my drawing. It's like her lips are going to pop when she smiled at my drawing and looked at it for the second time and looked back at me.

When I smiled at her, she said something that made me laugh so hard. With doubt, she said "umm....... can you make a drawing of his brother? If ever you remember his looks, please just go ok?" I laughed, and laughed, and laughed, and laughed until I saw her eye brows meeting, and her nose that seems to give out so much smoke. I fixed my hair and placed the dress that i was holding back into the shopping bag.

She looked at me again and I said "ok, I don't remember him anymore. Look, Lorie, do you remember his looks? Because I really don't" she just handed out her hand to me and said "no, never mind!"

From a gap, we both heard our mom calling us "girls, come down here now, we will have dinner in 5 minutes.

Get down here now girls" our dad came from nowhere to call us. He knocked to our door and it made me jump off my bed "hey girls, let's go down now." Our dad looked at us with his face that tries to say that he is busy right now. He gently opened the door to force us to go downstairs for dinner. "Yes dad" we both said as we leave the whole room.

I sat on a chair beside Lorie. She looked at me and gave me a plate filled with vegetables. I grabbed it with my hands and started eating.

My dad started talking. So, here we go again! He will ask us questions that we really don't want to answer. Do we have a choice? No we don't. He is our dad and all that we should do is to answer and obey him.

"So Lorie, how was your day with your friends?"

Lorie had nothing else to say so she said "it was good" but it was the dumbest answer I ever heard.

Dad broke the silence as he looks into my eye and asked me too "how was your tutor today Andrea?"

I answered "it was actually good dad!" But I didn't attended to it because I feel so lazy today.

He smiled at me as my mom looks at him to hold his hand. They smiled to each other and it melted my heart like a butter under the sun.



🌌Author's note🌌

Hello everyone! Thank you for reading this chapter

Chapter 2 will be published next week. Thank you for reading!!!

Chapter 2-the search

From silence and from dreaming of a lot of things including Andrew, I was awaken up by the sound of the stupid alarm clock that was a gift from a Christmas party last week. I had no choice but to use it. Doesn't the gift giver knows that I already have an alarm clock?

DUUUHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I stretched my feet up to my knees and get off of my bed while scratching my eye. At a distance, i saw Lorrie laying down, with a blanket all over her body, and an oil like saliva coming out from her mouth. I took 3 steps forward to go to her and placed my alarm clock beside her right ear to make her stop doing the annoying stupid dreaming thing. "Cring cring!!!!!!!!"

She jumped off of her knees and just tapped me but she didn't even looked at me. She just lied down again and the disgusting slime thing from her mouth kept on dropping down like a water fall.

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I pissed off my self with water and soap and brushed my teeth with toothpaste. I heard my sister roaming and flexing herself. After taking a bath, I sat on my bed to listen to a little bit of Billie Eilish music. My hair get off their selves together while I screamed my lungs out to shout after seeing a cockroach on my back pack. My sister jumped off of her knees after being so startled and awaken from my shouts.

She just laughed out loud after seeing a black piece of paper inside my bag. She just threw it to me to frighten me "grow up girl! You are 20 now! Why the hell are you still scared of cockroaches?" She laughed and laughed until our dad came into our room.

"Girls, breakfast is already served." Lorie and i's eyes met each other as we took the same path to leave the room.

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I was playing mine craft on my desktop while my sister Lorie was just on her phone. In between silence and noise outside our house, I started a conversation. "Yow! Girl what's up????"

She replied to me in a 'nothing else voice vibe' "nothing else how about you?"

I replied to her while avoiding the the fire and the other players in the game. "Oh, same!" She chuckled a bit and i thought that she was laughing because of what I said but when I looked at her, she was just staring at her phone, vibing with the 'adult vibes' that they usually call. I don't really get their adult jokes. I mean it just really sounds so cringe. Maybe because I can't relate to their feels.

My sister opened her mouth again and started talking even though I wasn't listening. But two words caught my attention. "Have you ever heard about this app? It's called THE SEARCH" did she just said the search? I asked my self, is that an app or something? What does that mean? I replied to her as I stare straight to my desktop. "What kind of app is that?" She placed her phone right down her face and said "it's like google but the thing is that it helps people search for other people to look for the other people that they are searching for. I heard that this app is very amazing!"

I bit my tongue, looked at her eyes, and lifted my hair up to see her clearly as she kept on scrolling on her phone. "Why are you telling that thing to me?" she stopped scrolling for a while to look at me at a distance. "Girl!!! Don't you get it? I mean don't you know what i mean? Girl! Wake up!!!!!"

When she said those words, I realized what she meant. I answered her "you want me to search for Andrew?" She half smiled while her hair was throwing itself away. She replied to me just a second after I talked "no not Andrew, his brother, carl!" Here's my sister again missing Andrew's brother again. Aside from his looks, she probably thinks that carl is sweet. He was.

"Why don't you do it by yourself?"

She rolled her eyes like she was dying. She replied to me "ok" and she left my room.

When she was finally gone, I seriously looked at my desktop and installed the app that she was talking about.

In a second, I was full of excitement as I open the app. I searched for Andrew's name but the problem is that there was an uncountable amount of results that just popped out from literally nowhere.

Because I don't know how he looks like, I stopped for a while and leaned at the back of my chair. I was staring at my desktop even though I don't know what to do. Again, I realized that I should use key stuff blah blah blah blah blah to look for him. I used my clues; dark blonde hair, green eyes, my age, and almost pink cheeks.

I eliminated the ones who we're cute but did not meet my expectations. But before I moved my finger a step forward to the space bar, my sister chuckled for a bit. She tapped my back gently 4 times. She even did scrubbed my hair for a second. But when I looked at her, she said something that made me felt so embarrassed.

"See, you still searched for Andrew... but never mind I found carl now..."

"How did you?"

"Well, it was just a couple of things!" She winked at me and I rolled my eyes as I felt so embarrassed that she saw me searching for Andrew.

I didn't minded about it and just continued searching. But in the end, there was exactly no one that matched the life experience that I know Andrew has.

Once, him and carl took Lorie and I into the gym that he said they own. And he also said that he wants to study at Harvard and maybe he is there now,

Darn it Andrea! Why the hell are you crying again? I felt bad that I didn't saw him for 6 years. It's just that I want to know why he didn't showed up. Did I made him mad at me? Did someone pushed him to stop meeting me? Did he die? Or maybe he just really didn't want to see me anymore? Well, as far as what know, no one can answer that except for him. The one who didn't showed up in a such a long time and the one that I always waited for.

When my sister lied down to her bed, I looked at her to check if she was sleeping. Am I dumb or something? She won't sleep! It's 10 in the morning.

But when I looked at her, I was really shocked of what I saw. She was literally sleeping!!!!!! I checked if she was really sleeping by opening her eyes like testing a dead person. But she opened it and shouted out loud that made me jump off my knees. I almost had a heart attack because of that. "wwhhhhhhaaaaa!!!!!" She shouted all the best she could and continued talking to tease me "who will sleep after an hour of waking up? Wake up Andrea!"

Well I guess it was a good thing that I checked her first before searching for Andrew again. She did embarrassed me but it was only the two of us who we're in there so I didn't felt embarrassed at all.



🌌Author's note🌌

Hello there Jyerries! welcome back! I lied about what I said from the chapter I published yesterday. I can't help it so here's the second chapter. Enjoy reading it!

By the way, don't know how many times I said the words "embarrassing/embarrassed" and "literally" I think I used them so often.

Some of my readers asked me why I placed the cover of this story at the end of the chapter, the reason is because I decided to add a picture at the end of each chapter featuring the title of the story and my name. I made the pictures/covers and I own them.

😊see you in the next update😊

Chapter 3-The search continues

While I got my whole body covered up with a blanket, Lorie turned the lights off. In silence, she started a conversation in between us. "Have you seen Andrew?" I didn't want to answer her because it felt so weird for me to talk about him. To be honest, in 6 years since Andrew never showed up, this is the first time we talked about him and his brother carl.

"No!" I finally said after a minute of silence in between us. I turned my back at her and closed my eyes to try to sleep. "I see" she said while yawning and turned her back at me. I wasn't sleepy at all. Oh yes! Now I know why. I took a sip of coffee instead of milk right before going to bed. Now I regret it!!!!!!

She was so sleepy so I tried to play dumb to try to make her answer my question. "How can you be so sure that it was carl?" She yawned again. She roamed for a bit and said "I don't know" I knew that she wasn't really sleepy when she got up and sat on her bed. I did the same thing so I could talk to her in a pleasant way.

"You don't know?!?!?!?" I demanded.

She grabbed her desktop and opened it. She showed me a picture of an unfamiliar guy with hundreds of words beside his profile. "Here" she said.

"I don't think that's carl" I tried to complain.

"How can you say that?" She asked

I came up with an answer that turned to a question. " how can you say that this is Carl?" Yet, she stopped and didn't said anything until I continued.

"Look, he is black haired while carl is blonde like Andrew. He has green eyes while carl has blue eyes same as Andrew and when Andrew introduced carl to us, he was 16 so he's 2 years older than you so if you're 24 then he is probably 26 now. The guy in here is black haired, green eyed, and he is 24." I complained at her and she just stared at me and nodded her head.

She got back lying to her bed and I did the same thing.

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The next morning, I just sat on my bed while waiting for Lorie to come out from the bathroom in our bedroom. While I was sitting, I heard Lorie scream "aaaaagggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!" And it led me to confusion. I didn't minded it all for a while just because I thought she just saw something weird in the bathroom. But it took her 3 hours! And that never happened before.

I knocked at the door but all that I hear is the sound of the water coming out from the shower. "Hey girl what is taking you so long?!?!?!?" I screamed out loud so she will hear it even though the sound of the water was extremely loud.

She didn't answered so I tried to open the door with the thought of her, trying to prank me. The door was locked but I secretly kept a duplicate key of it on the second layer of my desk.

I tried to open it until I was able to open it. When it was finally open, I saw my sister laying on the floor with a soap at the bottom of his feet. But this is definitely not the first time that this stupid thing happened to her. This always happens.

I called mom and dad for rescue like what I always do and they called the doctor to give her head a relief. Maybe soon she will explode because this happens to her every year. I think this happens 2-4 times a year. So maybe next year, her head will explode.

I realized that it was a perfect time to continue on searching for Andrew because Lorie will not be able to look at it because she will just sleep for the rest of the day like what the doctor said.

I kept and kept and kept and kept on looking for Andrew on the search app but nothing really matched my expectations and no one was not in the way as how I wanted them to be. I turned off my desktop due to frustration and disappointment. I lied down on my bed and kept thinking of a way on how I could look for him. But no idea showed up on my mind. There was no answer to my question.

When Lorie finally woke up after sleeping for 3 hours, she looked at me and said "hey!" I don't know why she can still afford to smile and be okay after what happened to her. I said "I think next time your head will explode. For the last time, girl! Don't step on the soap!!!!!" I rolled my eyes as she made a "peace" hand sign that made me felt okay.

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When I woke up in the other day, I saw Lorie standing beside my bed with a bandage on her head like a sleeping scientist that watches me sleep until I wake up. "What are you doing there?" I asked her.

"No, it's actually nothing. I just want to ask you about my pen, where is it?" Here's my sister again looking for the stupid pen that always seemed to be more important than me. She always worried for it but haven't used it even once in her life! I don't know why but since she was like 14, she already had that. She is 2 years older than me so I was probably 12 when she had that pen.

"No I haven't seen it for years" I said and got back to my bed to sleep again due to tiredness.

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I tried out so many outfits for today but why does nothing fits me? I tried a hoodie, an over sized shirt, a dress, a crop top, I even tried out a gown!

But now I have the perfect outfit to go to the market. I started the car to go to the Kawai store as early as I can. When I arrived in there, there was just a limited amount of people. Something like 3-6 people. Maybe because it is Wednesday morning and everyone is busy with their works and blah blah blah.

I don't know why but today, I was really in the mood for shopping for some stationary.

I grabbed some pencils, notebooks, sketchpads, and more cute Kawai stationary that are so cute!!!! I think I was 8 years old when I fell in love with stationary,

When I was in the cashier to pay for my orders, I looked for my wallet in my pocket. But there was definitely nothing inside my pocket. I tried to look for it at my left pocket but it was also empty. It took me a minute to finally realize that I left my wallet in my room after trying out some outfits.

"Umm.... ma'am, I left my wallet in our house." The cashier girl with a red hair kept on doing the annoying bubble gum blowing thing and she said "hey girl! You're too young to be a thief! Hands over the money now!" As I took a step back, I felt that I stepped on top of the cart until I fell down.

I stood up on my own and tried my best to avoid being embarrassed. "Umm... ma'am I really left my wallet at our house please believe me I am a regular costumer here! I am not a thief!!!" While I was complaining she just stared into my eyes like she was saying that I must shut up. But I can't.

"Girl! Will you pay or I will take you to the police station or will you put those things back in where you grabbed them?" I had no choice but to go to the police station just to prove myself! I don't want to put these things back to the shelves!

But a guy that is a little taller than me came and took a dollar bill from his wallet and said "here" he gave the dollar bill to the cashier girl and I felt so shameless and lovely at the same time.

He gave his hands to me and introduced his self "Markus" I looked into his deep green eyes and I introduced my self too. "Andrea" his hands was colder than an ice cube. Maybe it is because of the air conditioner inside the store and the cold weather outside. I wasn't really sure if his eyes are green or blue, the color of it reflects from the sunlight like refraction.

While I was 4 steps away from my car, I looked back at him and saw him standing in front of the store. He waved his right hand to me and I did the same thing.

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When I got home, I tried to avoid any noises inside our house so my dad won't see. He will just say "Andrea! What's that?" And blah blah blah blah blah blah bahl. His mind is as crazy as the spelling of the last blah.

I lied down on my bed and just closed my eyes to imagine how lucky I am today! Can you imagine such a coincidence like this? It's just really so amazing. No not that guy. I mean how we met at the perfect time. But maybe soon I need to check my wallet first so I won't be blamed as a thief.

It took me 4 minutes to realize that Lorie wasn't in our room. "Dad, where's Lorie?" I screamed so dad would here it to his office, and he replied, "I don't know Andrea, she just told me that she will be with her friends, I don't know where did she go" he said he don't but he does.

When Lorie arrived just a few minutes after I did, she lied down beside me. That made me realize that I wasn't laying on my own bed.

"So girl! How was your day?" She asked me with a tired voice.

"My day made me so hungry right now!" She laughed at me and replied

"You should have brought foods rather than stationary"

Oh boy! They don't understand.....



🌌Author's note🌌

Welcome back Jyerries! I hope you loved this chapter.

As the new character starts to rise, I know you are thinking about him. If you don't remember him, well that's ok because Andrea will have a doubt about him.....

But Andrea says....

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