Love allergy; Impossible love

She doesn't talk much, yes, she doesn't talk much, but thousands of words are running through her mind but silence always succeeds in keeping her quiet. She is introverted and hates change in her environment although she doesn't have friends. Her closest friend after her father is her subconscious, she communicates a lot with her subconscious like a psycho. She is a nerd, she is studious, she enjoys the company of her books. No one wants to be her friend in school because she is always wear heels oversized uniform and big spectacle. She has no social life but she never considers it boring.

Teachers love her because she is brilliant; her father loves her because she is intelligent but her Mother always refer her as "boring". Now what she hates is about to repeat itself, it happened five years ago when they relocated from their rented apartment to the new house her father bought. But this time, her parents are having issues, and her mother filled for an annulment after she discovered that her father had an affair and his mistress is pregnant. Her mother felt betrayed and the least she could think of was to annul their marriage. She hates changes in her environment, but if the annulment pushes through she will choose her mother in court. Her name is Anabella, mostly called Bella.

BELLA P. O. V.

"To hell with you and your mistress". I heard mum shouts downstairs.

I'm in my room doing nothing in particular, i intend to read a novel but their argument distracted me. Today is the last hearing in court , and I am expected to go with them to choose with whom I want to go with. Daddy always understands me, unlike mum, he is the only one with whom I'm free to share anything with without fear of being insulted. I can proudly call him my best friend. But mum and I never get along, she wants me to be social, as her only child she wants me to be referred to as the most beautiful teenager on earth. Despite that, I am choosing Mum in court because dad disappoints me.

After the hearing in court, Dad and Mum marriage was legally annulled and i chose to go with mum in court.

Mum stayed with Dad through the divorce process from fear that I might not leave with her because she knows I get along more with Dad and I hate changes in my environment but now, we have to leave the house I and am not affected by it.

I'm in my room packing my belongings with hopes that mum won't make us go too far because I don't like the idea of going to a new school.

The security helped me carry some luggage downstairs and I was zipping the last bag when I heard a knock on the door

"Come in" I muttered

Dad came in and sat next to me on my bed. "Bella". He called

"Yes daddy".

"I know how much you hate change of environment and wish your mum could stay while I move out but she refuse".

"Dad we should respect her decision, staying here alone with me didn't sound like a good idea when we all move in here together ".

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I remembered Mum's friend complaining to her about her refusal to accept anything from Dad, but she gave a heartwarming reply that made my heart flutter. 'I need nothing from him, even though he proposed giving the house to me, I don't want it. He worked so hard for everything he has, and I refuse to accept a dime of his sweat, all in the name of divorce. During our happy moments, he gave me everything I wanted and things I never asked for. The best thing I am happy to leave with is our happy memories, and most importantly, my daughter.

She is all I could ask for; that was my only fear during the annulment process! She said, unknown to her that I had eavesdropped on their conversation.

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"I'm sorry my child". Dad said, sniffing in, trying to hide back tears,

"You have said that countless times dad but I didn't give you a respond because I was hurt, but now I want you to have my word, I was hurt but I already forgive you, and mummy needs me more now". I said sniffing in.

"Bella despite everything happening between your mum and i, i want you to know that i love you very much". He said trying to hide his tears.

"I know and i love you too daddy". I sincerely replied and embraced him tight.

I was courageous a while ago that I will be fine even when we leave the house but now I felt heartbroken, the thoughts that I won't see dad as often as before made me shield uncontrollable tears.

"I love you daddy". I muttered admits sobs.

"I love you too, and I will always do. Take care of yourself my love, i promise to always call to check up on you and tell me when you need anything. Daddy is always here, we might not be together but I won't let the distance to affect our relationship ". He assured.

"You too Daddy, take good care of yourself, always buy dinner from work, don't hurry to work without drinking your morning coffee and of course with less sugar remember too much sugar is not good for your heath. Don't skip any meal, make sure you drink less and don't drunk drive. Don't stay out too late and always sleep early".

"I promise my love, I won't skip meals and I won't stay out late either. I know I disappoint you gravely but I hope you can grant my request too".

"Anything daddy"

"Always take care of yourself, do whatever makes you happy, but despite that don't provoke your Mum too much. She might look very brave but she is timid. Take good care of her in my stead".

"I promise daddy". I said and we made a pinkie swear admits tears.

Making promises and waving farewell made me feel like i will never see my dad again, my only friend who understands me. Only if the deed can be undone.

I dragged my last bag downstairs to mum car and meet her waiting impatiently for me.

She look around trying to hide her tears. I remembered the day we move in here, she threw a house warming party out of excitement, but now it felt like we are leaving everything, the good memories and dad but I have no regrets.

"Are you ready honey"? She ask and wipe off a slid of tears.

I took my turn to look around and remembered the beautiful moment spent in the house with Dad.

"Will i ever have those moment again"?

"Will mum get married to another man?'

"Will my future stepfather love me as much as my Dad does "?

Those thoughts run in my head but i managed to shove them away.

"Let's go". Was all i say and went to the car.

Mum gave me a faint smile and entered the car.

"Mummy where are we heading "?

"To Los Angeles, my cousin already help us secure an apartment there, don't worry its very comfortable. My cousin once lived there before she relocate to UK three months ago and she assured me that the place is good" she said.

I couldn't believe my ears, i hate change in my environment environment and Mum is aware of that so i can't reason why she wants us to go to a new city miles away from the one am used to.

"Mummy, Los Angeles. But why are we going that far"? I shout.

She gave me a faint smile. "Honey, I want us to go far, far away from everything. I want us to start a new, just the both of us".

The mention of "the both of us" made me sigh in relief. At least she is not planning to remarry anytime soon.

I know she is trying to be strong, even though she request for the annulment she is hurt. Starting a new is great but going far to Los Angeles doesn't seems like a brilliant idea to me.

The ride to Los Angeles is long that i didn't know when i fall asleep. But i woke up when mum tap me hard.

"Gosh it's late in the evening, I wonder why we had to travel by road ". I thought.

"Honey we are here". She said all smiles.

I alight from the car and smile at the sight of a beautiful house.

"Wow" I exclaimed

"You like the house"?

"Beautiful".

"This is just the exterior you will be astonish by the interior"

•

We dragged our luggages inside one after the other, the house is dusty and i couldn't even admire its beauty knowing that we have a lot of cleanings to do.

"We still have to clean the whole place" Mum said.

"Yeah". I replied and went upstairs to pick a room.

•

We have been cleaning for hours and the only thing we ate is Pizza but have never considered Pizza as food, to me it's just refreshment although i don't eat much.

"Wow look at how beautiful everywhere look". Mum said already exhausted.

" Mum, I'm hungry".

"Come on honey, we already ate Pizza".

"Mummy i want food not Pizza". I shout.

" Alright baby relax".

•

We went to shower and change our clothes so we can go grocery shopping, i wore one of the oversized trousers dad bought for me and one of my oversized T-shirt. I have always love wearing oversized since i was a child, i am mostly comfortable wearing on my dad oversized shirt. I hate fit, i hate it when a dress fits me.

I went downstairs and met Mum waiting for me.

"Mum let's go".

" Bella you can't wear that go and change". She complain. .

That is one of the reasons we never get along. "No mum this is what i like to wear and besides we are only going to buy groceries". I shout.

"Honey this is Los Angeles".

"So"?

"My God" with that she surrender.

We went to the car and drove to the nearest grocery store.

•

When we returned, we prepared rice and veggies and then i could say i ate dinner because is already late.

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I finished washing the dishes and went to the living room there i overheard mum on the phone talking about school and others.

She drop the call and gave me a smile. "Honey that is the principal in charge of the estate school".

"School?" I said questioning.

"Yes i want you to resume on Monday so you will meet up with others ".

Today is Friday and the day is almost over which means i barely have two days to prepare for my new school.

"Mum can't i resume next week"? I complain.

"Come on dear".

I don't hate school but the thought of resuming to a new school in a new city is making me feel uneasy.

"I already did everything necessary for your transfer so you will be resuming on Monday".

I glare at her and ran upstairs to my room. "Mum never understands, she never". I cried and started missing dad.

I took my phone and saw two missed calls from dad. Am not in the mood to talk to anyone so I decide to return the call later.

The following day after breakfast, i wash the dishes and went to join mum in the living room.

"Honey am going to the salon to make my hair, you should come with me". She said already annoying me.

"No mum am fine at home". I replied paying more attention to the novel am reading.

"Come on dear, you are resuming to a new school, and remember, first impression matters". She said trying to sound convincing.

"To you not me". I shout.

She knows how to annoy me, FIRST IMPRESSION MATERS, I've never gave that a thought.

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Bella P. O. V. continues...

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After reading some novels, i went upstairs to take a nap and meet my phone ringing. Dad and mum are the only one who have my number so am sure it's dad.

"Hello Dad." I said, when i pick up

"Fine Dad"

"We are in Los Angeles"

"Alright Dad"

We talked for a while and I could tell through his voice that he is sick.

" I love you too bye". With that I end the call.

•

I had a long nap and wake up later in the evening. I went downstairs and meet mum in the living room on the phone with someone.

"Mum". I called after she drop the call.

"Bella come here". She said and i went to seat beside her. "I already ordered for your uniforms and it's going to be delivered shortly".

My face twist in a frown. "Ok". I manage to mutter.

"And i have another news for you".

"What Mum?"

"A friend I met at the salon today introduced a job to me so i applied online for it and will be attending the interview on Monday. Who knows i might be lucky to get the job". She said obviously excited.

"Ok mum" I replied not so happy

She noticed am not pleased with the news and pat my back.

"Come on dear stop acting like a child".

"Mum remember you stopped work years ago and a recap on when you were working was the worst moment spent with you but i was able to adjust because Dad was with me but here am alone". I complained.

"Come on dear, the job am applying for is different, i will be working in an office i won't travel around like my last job. And besides you have a point, your Dad isn't here meaning we have just ourselves and i have to work to provide for your expenses. I can't depend on the monthly allowance your dad will send for our upkeep ".

"I understand Mum, i also want you to work, but i don't want you to be away".

She drew me in her embrace. "Come here my love, we have just ourselves now and i will always be here whenever you need me".

I hope she is able to keep to that promise because i h*te the feeling of being alone which Dad has never made me feel.

The hug lasts for minutes before we disengaged

"Have you eaten?" She later ask

"No".

"Go and prepare something to eat because i already ate Pizza". With that i ran to the kitchen

•

I was in my room reading a novel when mum came in without knocking.

"Mum".

She dropped a plastic bag on my bed "Bella here are your uniform".

I opened the bag which contain two oversized and one fitted uniforms

"You shouldn't have bother buying the fit" I complained but she only smile.

She is used with buying me fitted clothes even though she knows i won't wear them, but she never give up looking forward to the day i will wear any and am sure that day can never come.

I arrange the uniforms neatly in my closet looking forward to my resumption.

The following day is Sunday, Mum proposed we go on a date but I protest, a date with Mum is hell, because she will never be satisfied with my choices. I was in the living room reading a novel when her new friend invited her out and she left the house happily, and promised to come back early.

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The next day, my alarm woke me up by 6am, i sluggishly get dressed for school and wore one of the oversized uniform before going to the kitchen to assist mum.

•

After breakfast, she drive me to school.

"Take care honey".

"Mum won't you come inside with me?" I whine, like a scared little child.

She smile and help me adjust my hair well. "Come on dear, i don't have to go inside with you. Just go to the principal office and submit the file i gave you".

"Alright Mum". Was all i say and alight from the car. I know better than arguing with her.

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I went inside and everyone seems to have known each other as many walk and chat in group. Not really different from my former school. It was easy to find the principal office through the sign board.

I went inside after greeting her. She collected the file from me and did a brief screening before asking someone to take my passport. She questioned me about my uniform, and I lied to her, saying I get sick whenever I wear fitted clothes, although I couldn't tell if it was a lie or not. She gasped at my reply and only exhaled lightly, not bothering to push further. She gave me a key to my locker, books, the school map, timetable, and other necessary things, then instructed me to come back later for my ID card.

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I went to the hallway to find my locker, and kept all my books in it after taking the books i need for today's class.

I report to the staff room and ask after Mrs. Goodwin my class teacher as instructed by the principal. She welcomed me warmly and I trail behind her to class praying not to get bullied on my first day.

We get to the class and everyone attention drawn on me with disgusting gazes. I bowed my head frustrated because I already get the message.

"I'm not welcomed meaning GOLDEN HIGH SCHOOL isn't different". I thought

"Good morning class"

"Good morning Mrs. Godwin"

"As you can see we have a new transferred student, introduce yourself "

"Good morning class, my name is Bella George, am 17 years old transferred from Nora girls college in Nevada city". I said and the whole class start murmuring.

"What size of dress do you fit"? A girl ask. The questions was quiet embarrassing and the whole class laugh except the teacher.

"Daisy be warned". The teacher caution.

"I'm sorry ma'am, I'm just curious if there is no uniform of her size, maybe that's why she bought an oversized". The bully added making all the class laugh again.

"Enough". The teacher shout and the classroom become silent again. "Bella there is an empty seat over there, go have a seat". She added and I found my way to the seat.

The girl next to me hised aloud and turned the other way.

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The rest of the class was boring untill it gets to recess, the period i h*te most because i always spend it alone. It's always boring to watch others have fun while you are lonely.

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I trailed after some students to the cafeteria and ordered for lunch, I took a seat and was already halfway in my meal when three boys took the table next to mine.

"Who do she thinks she is"? One of the boys with hair dyed red said.

"There are many girls out there so forget about her". Another one with blonde hair added.

"Bella". The one with dark long hair called making me look at him.

Our gaze met, and i couldn't stop staring at his beautiful brown eyes.

"To he!l girly, you are not included as one of the girls am referring to". The one with blonde hair said referring to me. The blonde am sure are fake.

"Who cares?" I found myself said quite loud.

Oops this is the first time i talk back, never, not once have i talked back when am insulted.

The three boys continue their conversation while i mind my business.

Bella P. O. V. continues...

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I walked home in the hot afternoon, the news in Golden high school isn't different to other schools i attended.

The hours spent in school was boring, no one want to be my friend and i didn't intend to make friends.

"Can i ever have a friend?" I thought sadly.

All my life i have just one friend and that is my dad, whenever am with him i never gave the feeling of having a friend a thought because he is more than a friend to me.

"When your father is your best friend, you shine more". Was the slogan i always use whenever am with him but now we are far away and am alone without a friend because am sure Mum can never fill up that space.

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I get home and saw another car in the compound which means mum have a guest. I went inside and saw a woman about mum age in the living room. I wonder how it's so easy for Mum to make friends, i wish it's same with me.

"Good afternoon". I greet them both, mum respond but her friend keep checking me out in disgust.

"I thought you said you stay alone with your daughter?" The woman said referring to mum with her gaze still on me.

Mum look at her quiet embarrassed. "Yes, she is my daughter Bella".

"Oh! The woman exclaimed eyeing me in disgust. I didn't utter a word before going upstairs to my room.

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I get to my room, after changing to a casual wear i did my assignment and started reading a novel, i don't know what to read for tommorow class because am yet to copy the scheme of work. After reading for an hour i started getting hungry but am embarrassed to go downstairs and watch mum friend eye me again so i decide to take a nap.

"Mum friends are just like her and Dad friends are like him too". I thought.

Show me your friends and i will tell you who you are. That saying is truth after all and am only realising it now. Dad friends never made me feel like an outcast.

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Later in the evening i am already up when mum came to my room looking paled.

She sat beside me on my bed and managed to force a smile. "Bella".

"How did your interview go?" I ask.

"Good, i get the job". She replied not so excited.

"Wow so when are you resuming?"

"Tomorrow" she replied and my joy die,Tomorrow seems too soon for me.

"My friend didn't make good comments about you". She said and i already knew that is why she look so sad.

"Who cares?" I muttered within my breath.

"When are you going to change Bella"? She ask already raising her voice.

I glared at her. "Mum if you are ashamed of me quit bringing your friends home".

She breath in trying to calm down." Am not ashamed of you, but your choice of dressing doesn't suit my standard".

I look at her unsure of what to say "I'm sorry mum". Were the words that escaped my mouth.

"Sorry is not all i want from you Bella, i want you to change". She held my hands. "I want you to change, make me proud to call you my daughter".

Tears form in my eyes. "I know you hate my personality mum". I sniff in and wipe off my tears. "But if i am a shame to you, i can go back to dad".

She drew me in her embrace. "Oh! Bella this is all my fault". She cried.

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Mum always blames herself for my personality because, when I was a child, she was barely around. She worked as a pilot assistant, and her work always made her travel around. Dad was the one I grew up with, and he always went to work early and came back late at night, which meant I grew up alone with our young maid, who always let me have things my way. As the odd child I am, I have always loved oversized clothes; most of the time, I preferred wearing my dad's shirts. Whenever I came back from school, I was mostly comfortable in his clothes rather than mine. Dad considered it a sign of love that he set aside most of his clothes for me to make me happy until I grew up and started loving oversized clothes. I hated it when something fit; it always made me feel uncomfortable. Mum was later forced to resign from work when I was 13 years old, after much persuasion from Dad and her relatives, but by then, it was already too late.

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Mum left my room after consoling me. I love to make Mum proud, I love to be proud of myself. But if wearing fit is the only way, i don't think it can ever happen.

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Later at night, i went to join Mum in the kitchen to prepare dinner, after supper i wash the dishes and retired to bed.

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It was a short night as my alarm woke me up by 6am, i was still feeling sleepy so i relax a little before getting up from bed. I admit i hate school, not because of the lectures but the students. After getting dressed for school, i went downstairs and met my breakfast on the dinning and mum already clad in a nice official suit that fit her perfect body.

"Good morning Mum". I greeted and sat to consume my meal.

"Morning dear, from tommorow i will be going to work earlier, so you will have to follow the school bus".

"Ok".Was all i could say hoping tomorrow don't come sooner.

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Mum drop me off at school and drove to work. I entered inside the school very sad thinking of what will become of me if i start following the school bus, i was lost in thoughts that i didn't notice the wall in front of me untill i hit my head hard on the wall making me almost fall but someone held me. I turned to look at my savior and saw an handsome looking guy.

"Thank you". I said trying to get my balance. But he pushed me down making me fall and everyone laugh.

"You welcome". He said laughing and walked away.

"I hate my life" I lament and let out my tears.

*

I get up and carry my bag then picked to my heels, i ran away in tears, i don't know where i am running to, but i am still within the school. I ran far then found myself somewhere.

"Where is this place?" I ask myself.

"Oh! I am lost" i cried and sat on the ties already tearing up. I sat down there for few minutes before falling asleep as i felt myself lie on the cold ties and slept peacefully. I wake up when i heard voices and laughers that made me get up. I yawn aloud and everyone around laugh louder. I quickly carried my bag and started finding my way out. I succeed out and found myself in the school garden.

"Awwww... Nice smell". I comment touching the beautiful flowers making the butterflies fly around my body. I was busy admiring the flowers and playing with the butterflies before i remembered that i have a class. I picked to my heels and found my way to the hallway while i went to my locker to get the things i need for the next class because i already missed the first class. I went to seat somewhere till it's time for the next class.

When i went to class everyone look at me followed by laughter and I went to my seat in tear.

"Why does everyone hate me". I cried.

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