Losting my feelings

Natasha Abuelo Pov.

I silently watched the closing of the bakery on the side of the road, just a few weeks after my mother kicked me out of the house, my job was going to close.

My boss said that someone has already bought the place here, that is a large amount so that they can move there to Rizal. But I can't be there anymore, it's too far away and I can't look at my father.

"I'm sorry and this is all I can give, how about it. Helda took all of your salary from me.." I nodded to my female boss, she is kind. He's the type who will really help you as much as he can.

"Thank you.." he smiled at me, that was the last smile I saw before they completely left the place where I had my first job.

I sighed, It was only ten o'clock in the morning and it was already very hot. Add to that the unpleasant smell in the surroundings that I passed.

I tried to walk and thought of looking for something to go to again, On the other side there was the newly opened supermarket. I walked there and immediately went to the cashier.

"Did you catch it?" The woman with thin eyebrows looked up, she stroked my body before stopping again with her eyes.

"Your resume?"

"W-I don't have a resume.."

"Are you a high school graduate?" I was stunned, I couldn't answer right away because I didn't finish high school. I want to graduate as much as my brothers, so I study with them.

I shook my head. "N-no.."

"Then you can't come here, and then I guess you're not of the right age yet.." I looked down, I'm only fifteen and tomorrow I'll be sixteen, but here I am looking for a job instead of studying .

I should have graduated by now, but when I was fourteen I stopped studying because my father was unable to work due to an accident.

I let out a violent breath on my way out, took the hot road again and resumed my job search.

But in my few hours of searching it seems that my day was unlucky, I was not hired because like my first attempt they were looking for my resume.

"Please buy it.." I was at the side of the market where I bought ice buko, the man smiled at me before giving me five pesos buko.

"Did the bakery close?" I nodded while drinking, he often buys there every morning. We have made him a customer at pandesal, but it's just sad that I won't be able to enter the bakery again.

"Are you looking for a job?" I put down the empty glass.

"Yes, I wish.."

"I know something, just in case. The pay is low.."

"Really, where?"

"Over there at the cellphone store, he's looking for a salesperson.." he easily got my interest, so I almost agreed and let him help me that day.

We went to a cell phone store, it was small but my new boss said that the food is free but the salary is only one thousand per week, it depends on the sales every day.

"How old are you?" My boss asked a girl, that same day I started because they needed a babysitter.

"Fifteen.."

"You're still young, aren't you studying?"

I shook my head. "No, I need to work."

He sighed, I noticed his soft gaze on me causing me to look away.

"My son is almost the same age as you, he will graduate from high school in Fatima.."

I didn't say anything anymore, I knew it was a good school but there was no chance for me to get into it. Besides, I'm more focused on work now and how to earn money just so I can give something to my mother.

Especially with dad's diabetes medications.

"This is your only salary.." you can hear the displeasure in the mother's voice, I nodded. It's been a week since I got a job, and even though the shop's income was low, my boss still gave me a thousand.

"The salary is low there because the food and snacks are free.."

"It's good that you're having a snack, while we're not here!" I held my breath, I wanted to scold him for gambling. Instead of buying a snack, why didn't he just gamble?

But I can't answer him, I don't want to be kicked out again just because of that. And then I have respect for him even though he treats me like this.

"Change your job, go to Dahlia's!"

"Yes!" My eyes rolled. "I don't want to!"

"What don't you want?" mom's voice is high. "Look abby, your daughter of Juliana, the salary is high and she has already built a house!"

"But mother, I don't want to!"

"No, follow me because I know you will earn a lot, a thousand is not enough for medicine and expenses here at home!"

My heart was bad, my mother turned away from me while the tears gradually formed in her eyes.

From the curtain, the father removed it as he was leaving the room, I came closer so that it would not be difficult for him to roll the wheels of his wheelchair.

"Why are you still awake?" I pushed his wheel chair in our small living room, our barong baro house seems like it's going to fall down because it's been too long. Since my father lost his job, there was no chance to build this house.

"I'm sorry, son.." I sat on the wooden chair and smiled at my father.

"Where are you asking for forgiveness?"

"Because you scrubbed for me, I'm sorry because I can't help you.."

I smiled. "It's okay, don't think about that. This is really what the eldest does.."

Father sighed. "Your daughter is very kind, Natasha. Forgive your mother if she often scolds you.."

I looked down. "W-that's nothing.." I was still upset even though I said that, I was doing everything but for him it was nothing.

"I will never get tired of working, father. Just like what you used to do with this family, I will save money so that you can walk again.."

"Don't stop, son.."

"I will do that, father. So let's go to sleep so you can rest.."

I took my father to the room, the house is small and has three rooms. In one, the mother and father were together, in the other, my youngest siblings, Chloe and Brandon, were separated.

I helped father to lie down, I opened the fan and I put the mosquito net myself while mother was away.

I don't know where he went, but I have a bad feeling from our last conversation.

THE MORNING, there was a car horn in front of the house. The breakfast that I cooked before I went to work is ready.

The mother came out of their room, she peeked through the window and I was surprised to see a beautiful smile on her face.

"Come here. Come in!" he opened the door while I was watching from the side of the kitchen, a woman his age and three men with big bodies entered.

"Sit down, I'll make you something to drink."

"Don't worry, we're just passing by here to get what you're talking about.."

Mother's guests were no longer seated, she turned to me. He walked smiling at me before taking me on his arm to his guests.

"Here he is, already dressed.."

I turned to my mother, my eyes widened as she pressed her hand on my shoulder.

"This is a good child of mine, dahlia. Your head won't hurt.."

"Okay, I gave you the money last night so we'll take him with us.."

"B-but!" I appealed, but the mother didn't listen, instead she herself pulled me out to where they were riding.

"Stop being so mean, Natasha! You will not be taken there!"

"Mother, I don't want to say!"

"They are already paid, and whether you like it or not, you will come and work there!" mother turned me away, even when I wanted to leave, the men immediately came to me and put me in the black car

I couldn't do anything but cry silently

I feel sorry for myself while bowing, are they just like that with me because I'm not their real child?

Yes, and I am father's daughter with another woman, but I also accepted mother when she and father were together. I just couldn't imagine that my fate would be like this at his hands.

"Hasn't that gotten dressed yet!" from the door I heard the voice of the ruler here, I did not turn to him, nor did I look.

"He doesn't want to get dressed, ma'ma.." the girl next to me answered, I noticed that the girls here were almost the same age as me.

The young, but in the club that enters.

"Why, that hero is useless! He even said that he would break because he said this is a good son of his!"

"Are we going to bring that boy back!" A man's voice protested, but I remained averted. Don't want to follow what they are doing.

"Yes, take the money from helda, if she can't give anything then bring one of her daughters!"

I quickly looked up, I stood up and immediately approached Mrs. Dahlia.

"Don't, don't my brother.." he raised an eyebrow at me.

"Then why don't you go to work and let me benefit from you!" My lips trembled from the uncontrollable crying I was doing. I bit into it before nodding.

"S-go ahead.."

"You'll earn a lot and we'll split the percentage, you won't dance, you'll just accompany the customers to their table!"

I swallowed hard, the shiver in my chest continuing to live.

And in the end, I did nothing but dress in the clothes that Abby gave me.

My neighbor and classmate in grade five.

"You think we're going to be here together?" I didn't say anything to him, I was silent while watching him tie my hair. "The wages are high here, Natasha. Magnificent! Not only that, because there are also many handsome ones!" my eyes rolled.

"Even if the man looks like a monster, he is handsome for you, as long as he has money.."

"Of course, you know. Nowadays, money is the most important thing in people's lives, and that money is what I worship.."

"That's why you look like money, you should be called benchingko.."

"He's terrible.."

I stood up, I was not in the mood because I was doing this against my personality. I don't like it but I have no choice. I don't know how much the mother took because Mrs. Helda didn't mention anything to me.

"You are there with the young man sitting at the end, he is with someone.."

I nodded, the noise was due to the music playing around. Add to that the fiddling of the light causing my eyes to hurt.

"Come with me.." Abby helped me walk to the costumer I was going to, and when I saw who it was, I almost froze in my tracks.

He is the man I saw when it was raining.

He also gave me a jacket that I still have today.

Who is he, Nico? Noah?

Noah.

"Natasha!" before the young man turned to me and Mrs. Dahlia called me again, he approached me when I faced him.

"Yes?"

"You're in the VIP room, don't come here.."

He grabbed my hand, pulling me out of there. And before we completely walked away, I looked at the young man.

And then our eyes met again and even he was surprised.

Natasha Pov.

Life is unfair?

Being poor is unfair too?

But the saddest part is being dumped by your own family, is that the unfair part.

You almost did your best but for them, it's still nonsense. You're still the unlucky person who is willing to give your best, but unfortunately. They don't care, none of them appreciate your effort.

How poor are we? Right?

It's sad when you realize you aren't as important to someone as you thought you were. It's sad, but it doesn't mean you already give up.

I'd never give up because of this bad chapter of my life, I'll keep going. Keep the flow to the normal and get the joyful life you want, because I know someday. I've gonna be finding the most amazing chapter part of my life.

"Said I don't want!" it's almost ten pm in the evening but the show is still not opening, ma'mang lacks a dancer. And since this new girl can't force herself to get dressed, I motioned for Abby to leave, who is forcing the new girl to get dressed.

"It's me.." Abby sighed, she stood up and turned her back.

"Too bad, you're still beautiful!" she almost hissed the new girl, new and it looks like her aunt also sold her here.

Thank you

I shook my head while leaning on the side and looking at him, It's almost a year. How many years have I been here?

Four years? Maybe that's how long I've been here.

I have learned, I earn money by the others man wallet. Just a table, sit next to them and share a drink.

And I can say it's a bad influence if you work here, why? Because you can learn to drink, be with any guy and be wild, but I'm not that wild. Maybe it's just my brain that has been infected by my friends.

Do you get what I'd point out?

I'm still a virgin, but my mind is already creating a lot of imagination.

That's it!

"If you just cry all night there you won't get anything.." that's what I said to the beautiful girl, she was miserable. Why do you have such an attitude girl? I cried too, maybe I had about ten buckets of tears but there was nothing I could do.

Here I am, my mother has thrown me up looking like ten thousand.

Look, I only cost him ten thousand, it looks like money.

"You can't force me, I don't want to be here!"

"Oh, you don't want to. But I'll tell you, ma'mang won't let you go because he paid a lot to your aunt.." he looked up at me, his cheeks wet but still beautiful, tsk. Poor girl. His future will be ruined here.

"You know, almost everyone who works here is like you. You have no choice but to follow the wishes of that old man.." I turned back, I could not convince him because I knew it would be difficult in the beginning.

But I know that he will also accept in the end if there really is no other choice.

"I really don't want to, ma'mang.." that was my opening to Mrs. Dahlia, that has changed. It's a bit old but still looks like money.

"Alright, start it even if it's not enough.." I nodded, I didn't want to dance. Because I'm just for the table and that's what Mrs. Dahlia wants because besides being an entertainer for the customers, I also help to take their orders.

I know how to dance, I just don't know how to dance.

"There are many customers, The three will be the first to dance." kate nodded at what I said, followed by faith who entered here with her.

We women are in the sampo here, the new one is eleven if he agrees to dance.

But I think it's unclear, how can I convince him? All the newcomers want to escape, only limited to them who are lucky enough to get out of it because of the large amount of beading.

"We need to add women.." I sat on the side while watching them dance, the old men were comforting as if they didn't have a wife to go home to.

I even wonder if their entire salary is given to their husband, tsk. Loves women, so I talked to ma'mang not to place me among his elders, isn't it too demanding of the boss.

But that was followed by my regular costumer. Maybe it's just about my age that often goes here.

"I don't know anything to film, ma'am, and besides. Maybe it's better to just post it outside that we're being caught.." he looked at me, seeming interested. of a large amount, it would be better if they entered here willingly.."

"I did that, didn't I? I don't get any good ones, the interested ones hardly look good, you pimps are better.."

I was tormented, I really wanted it in a violent way. You thought she was beautiful, but her face was covered.

"Apollo is here.." Abby slipped in front of me, ma'mang nodded before looking back at me.

"Go to your customer, he will give you a lot of money for sure." I mumbled without him seeing, because Apollo Reivas is rich, and a student of Fatima, I think he is in the secondary school of being a criminology student.

That's money, I know.

"He's also with us, we're regular customers.." I raised my eyebrows. "Monteclaro.." ma'mang grinned, I know that monteclaro. It's always here and I'm annoyed because he doesn't even recognize me. It's just a miracle and Apollo is with him. Do they know each other?

"Alright, go.."

Abby and I walked towards it, wearing a gold and black sleeveless skirt with one inch sandals.

Apollo smiled when he saw me, but I thought it was with the guy who didn't seem to remember me. As for me, I still remember that night.

"Hi.." Apollo greeted me, he smiled at me and the waiter served a drink at their table, I also smiled before sitting next to him.

Abby stood next to the tall man with a beautiful smile.

"I didn't go out last night, because enrollment was yesterday.." I nodded to Apollo, this is all he wanted. He drank while I was next to him, he singled me out. I can't have someone else at the table because he wants to be my only customer.

He's kind and too talkative, he talks about everything that happens to him all day even though I have no idea.

"This is Noah by the way.." he introduced the man with him, even if he didn't introduce him, I already know his name.

Noah smiled at me, I was still surprised when he extended his hand to me.

"Hi, are you?" I accepted that, I didn't say my name because his hand was cold, soft and like a rich man's son.

"Oh, are you a waitress here?" I took my hand back, do I look like a waitress here?

"No, he's with us.." Abby answered, she nodded while I worked on it. He didn't even recognize me and mistook me for a waitress here.

A different class.

"I just saw him here.." he drank from the glass he was holding, just saw him? Is his brain damaged to forget my appearance? We've met a few times, and not often. But he will say that he just saw me?

Why is this guy going to lie down?

"Did you have someone at the table yesterday?" I shook my head at Apollo.

"I just served yesterday, there were a lot of customers.."

"Every night.."

"Day and night there are many customers here.." Apollo nodded, apart from the club at night, it is also a restaurant in the morning. A lot of people eat and I work extra as a server in the morning.

Mrs. Dahlia is sure to be rich.

"Do you want to go with me?" I heard Noah's voice whispering, I don't know why my hearing becomes sharp when he speaks.

Annoying. It would be beautiful but I'm disgusted.

It's annoying the part that he can't notice me.

"I can't, giovanni will come later.." Noah seemed disappointed with Abby's answer.

"Ow, that martinez.." I cried, the voice was hoarse.

"Yes, it's that your friend right?"

Noah nodded. "Yes.." he sipped from the glass he was holding and then he looked at me. In our place we were facing each other, I could see his body, even his face that had gotten younger over time.

"How about you?" he's looking at me, how about me?

"Huh?"

"Nevermind.." he leaned on the sofa, I was a bit irritable for cutting off what he wanted to say. thx,

At that time, Abby left, and Noah's friends, who are called Adonis, arrived.

Adonis, they are handsome, especially the guy with thick eyebrows.

"The club is too wild, can we go outside?" I was in the bathroom when I heard the familiar voice, I left Apollo because he might be coming home and it won't be long.

"Sure.." I heard the woman's voice, I opened the door and there was Noah with his back to me as he kissed the neck of the woman with us.

Ice covered my feet, this is not the first time I saw a scene like this. But why now that I see him I seem to be delirious.

Sh*t.

The way he leads his lips on that woman's neck, is making me amused. He's an expert?

An expert playboy.

"Let's go?" they're even not noticed me, they didn't see me or they just didn't care because they were eager to go wherever they were going.

I wonder where they go when they leave the bathroom.

And I'm still wondering why that image of noah can't be erased from my mind.

Damn it, Natasha!

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"Do you know what you can earn.." I looked at the woman who had been locked in the room for almost a week.

"I will never do what you want.." he struggled, that's it again and turned me away from where he was lying.

Really good attitude.

"Your name is Shaira, right?" He doesn't say anything, but I intend to convince him just to follow ma'mang's wishes.

Besides, if he doesn't obey Mrs. Dahlia and continues to disobey that old man, ma'mang might sell him for a large price, I don't want that to happen either because he is too innocent. It is better for me to convince him to work than to sell it to someone else.

"I'll help you escape from here when you've saved up, I'll take care of you.."

And that's what I left him with so I convinced him to work. I don't know if I can do that, but he did follow ma'mang's wishes.

Mrs. Dahlia's money became a pile of money because of her, many customers are eager for Shaira because her face is hidden in mascara while she dances.

And that's the night she starts to be trained as a dancer. But one day he was crying after talking to his parents.

And I know what she needs, I asked her for a beading. He will get a lot of money there but the only exchange is his body.

That's the work I can't do. For a long time, ma'mang wanted me to make beads with the costumer, but I didn't want to. I can still make money somehow.

"Relax, Shaira. It's okay, I'm sure the person who buys you is kind.." I don't want him to do this, even though the time we knew each other was very short, I became close to him. I felt more at ease with Shaira than with those I have been with for a long time.

Maybe it's because we both have the same experience.

"I-I'm nervous.." her voice was shaking, I couldn't do anything but cheer her up. Especially when ma'mang came out to instruct me to speak on stage, the club is too exciting for this beading. They are eager and want to get the woman behind the mascara.

But while I was on stage and I looked at Noah on the side, Is he interested in Shaira?

He will join the beading because he has a paper, And ofcourse. He didn't even notice me again. It's always, when we meet, he often asks me if I'm new here.

I want to slap his face, I'm annoyed and pissed off that he always doesn't remember me.

"250'000.." the mid's 50 raised the money higher, I was nervous because he might be the one to get Shaira, but when Noah intervened and gave the old man more money I was speechless.

"500'000.." that's too cost of money, he can lose thousand to take Shaira out. Rich indeed, but I seem to be against what is happening.

I do not know.

"This is the money percentage.." Noah handed something to Mrs. Dahlia while Shaira and I were by the side, I could feel Shaira's hand shaking while holding it.

"Hey, it's okay. He was the one who bought you.."

"I-I'm still nervous.."

I sighed, but when Noah approached me, I suddenly seemed to shrink. His height, I almost sank while he was by my side.

"Let's go?" noah asked shaira gently, shaira was wearing a robe before noah approached. "I'll put it on you, okay?" he's voice was too soft, why is he being kind to shaira now, is it because she is beautiful and smooth.

I am also beautiful and smooth.

I blinked, he ignored me when they left. Shaira was unable to turn to him because of her blindfold.

And that was the last day I could see Shaira and that monteclaro.

"Someone will order, Natasha.." it's dianneya, a regular customer here when she approached me because apollo wasn't there.

I sighed, the last time I was with apollo was when there was trouble here because of stanlee and jacob.

And the surprising thing is that it wasn't Noah who bought Shaira, I'm happy for my friend, he was free from this while I was still saving up to leave my sickening job.

"Who?" I asked, grabbing the paper and pen.

"It's at table 15.." I nodded, I walked to see what he was talking about but when I saw who it was, my eyes just rolled.

It's been a while since we met again.

"Will you order?" I said it calmly, but inside I seemed to feel annoyed. Where does my annoyance come from? Because he doesn't recognize me.

Shaking his head, he patted the sofa before looking up at me. "No, but sit down.."

"I can't be tabled now.." he raised his eyebrows. "Do you order or not, you are wasting my time.."

"I'm not going to order, sit here first and sit next to me.." he smiled, but I wasn't in the mood because I was irritable.

"Do you want to repeat what I said?" his smile disappeared from his lips. "You don't need anything, so I'm leaving.."

"Oh, I knew it. Are you Natasha?" I raised my eyebrows, does he know my name? How did he know. "That's why you're familiar, you're the one who hosted shaira's beading, right?" I nodded, did he ask shaira my name. Why would he ask Shaira?

"Well, I am also a friend of shaira. Sit here first, I'll take care of you.."

I smirked, dropping the paper I was holding before looking at him again. "I don't have time to talk to you, if you want a tablemate, I'll call you.." I noticed that he was insulted, but I don't have time to laugh at him.

"Your art.." my forehead furrowed. "You're not beautiful.." I was taken aback by what he said, out of all the men I've met, he's the only one who said I'm not beautiful.

"Do you think you're handsome?" I want to kick him but I might get angry because of his wealth. "You look like a grasshopper!"

"W-what did you s-say?" he couldn't believe what I said, until now I can't even believe that he told me it wasn't good.

"The eyes are still small.." I just whispered, but he seemed to hear.

"Do you think that makes you beautiful, your body is just ugly, the art.."

I blinked, it's twice insulting for him. How dare he said that to me, I'm beautiful and I know I'm sexy because my breasts are blessed. And here he insulted me arrogantly.

"You think I'm going to show my body because you said so, tseeh!"

I ran away from him, I was insulted so much that I can hardly forget it. And that night I promise that I will prove that he is wrong in what he says, get ready.

Natasha Pov.

(meant to fight)

"I need money.." I sighed when my mother visited my work, it had been several months since she last came here and she asked for a large sum of money to pay for electricity and water, add that she needs medicines father

"I will use the money, mother. Maybe next time.."

"No way!" immediately his voice was high, it was heard inside while we were outside the club. "Give me even five thousand!" I closed my eyes, only five thousand? What did he think of me, I was picking up the money.

"What are you going to do with five thousand?"

"Chloe's enrollment is open tomorrow, she needs someone to measure her for a new uniform!" I sighed, it's good that my brother is already in the second grade of college, while I'm still here and have nothing to prove.

"Alright, but next time I might not be able to give it to you.." His eyebrows rose at what I said.

"You can't give me the strength of your income here!"

"I'm planning to leave here.."

"What!" mother doesn't know how to be calm when she's facing me, but I've decided to leave here because I want to build my own business, I won't be here forever.

"I bought a space near Fatima, I will build a shop there.."

"Are you going to do business?"

"Yes.." it was difficult, I just wanted their support but it seems that they really only want money.

"I thought you would be looking for a low salary, but. That's good, just make sure that your shop makes money and that you still give us money.."

I sighed before looking away, this is my role. To support them as long as I can, my ultimate need is that I can no longer provide for myself. As long as they have what I have is enough for me.

That morning, my mother also left with the five thousand she wanted, as I was here for a long time, I was able to save money. But if it wasn't for my mother's frequent requests, maybe I wouldn't be here long ago.

"Are you leaving here?" I was in Mrs. Dahlia's office after lunch, I informed her of my plan. I also have a dream in life and I will not always be here.

I don't want other people to look down on me.

"Yes, I will go abroad.." that's the reason I told him, he laughed. He put the cellphone down before focusing on me.

"What is your job abroad, DH? caregiver or also an entertainer?" I just thought, the old man is really bad. Does he look down on such a job, I would rather be DH than stay here.

But that was not my plan.

"I'm at the hotel.." I have already witnessed the old man's lie, after this it will probably be our last meeting, I will never come back here.

"You will go abroad, and you will be far away from your family. Maybe you want that more just to get away from your madastra.."

I gasped for air. "I'm leaving next week, ma'am. Thank you for embracing me.." out of the nose all the words I let go, he gets a bigger percentage from me, he should be the one to thank.

"Oh, hey! You still have a week left, I'll let you leave but I want to get fifty percent before that day comes.."

I didn't say anything, I just thanked him and he allowed it. Besides, I don't have a problem with the place I will take. Apollo himself was the one who searched for a space for me and he is the reason why I found it near Fatima.

When night fell, Apollo visited me again, he was not here often because the class was about to start. He also told me that he is dating a woman whose name is Trixie Domingues.

"She's beautiful, but she's rude to me.." that's what Apollo said while we were drinking, he didn't have anyone with him, of course the handsome man himself wasn't there either.

In short GGSS!

"There is a girl who is really rude at first, but if you really show your good motives to her, that will also soften.."

"Really?" he lowered the glass he was holding.

"Yes, if it offends you, just let it.."

"He is too English, he often tortures me and seems like he wants another man.."

" Gosh, if you want a way, you can get it too.." I leaned forward while looking around, noisy again because it was midnight, having fun and watching every beauty who was terrified on the stage.

"You, isn't anyone trying to woo you?"

I grinned. "Yes, but I still have a lot of responsibilities, my two brothers haven't graduated yet.."

He was staring at me while I looked directly at him, he knew the course of my life. So here he is all about protecting me as much as he can, he is also the one who convinced me to leave here and encourage me to do business.

"Don't think too much about your responsibility, it might make you an old lady.."

"H*ll no!" I was stunned by what he said. "Even though I'm just this low type of woman, I also dreamed of having a happy family!"

"Hey, easy!"

"Your mouth is really delicious.."

He laughed at me while shaking his head. "Why don't you just study.."

"Gosh, I told you that I'm feeding a family, he's still receiving treatment, father, and until now I haven't fulfilled my promise.."

"I offer you help but you don't accept it.."

"Tsk, you're going to spend money again. Don't worry, I'll be able to save again.."

He sighed, he often said that but I also didn't want him always helping me.

It's enough for me that he takes part in my work.

"Are you really leaving?" I smiled at Abby at her question, a week has passed and here I am about to move to that space. It's just that the place I bought is still almost vacant, I still need to start from the top, I hope I don't run out of money.

"I have a dream in life, if I just come here I won't be able to fulfill it.."

"Gosh, you haven't even experienced stepping into heaven.."

"I will experience that too, of course with the right person, not just anyone!"

"Wow, fast talk huh?"

I blinked, kate laughed at what I said because I know their work. But me, never. Never touch my chest, first kiss, still flying in the air, hug? There are also, but except for those.

"That's a good excuse, ma'am, how about passing it through your shop?" I grinned at Abby.

"What now, I can say hello to her. If I say I'm going to build a business, he might not allow me, and besides. That's over, I've said goodbye and babush to you guys!"

I stood up, I had two suitcases with my belongings as if I was going abroad. But those bags are only second hand, it's not enough for the poor to buy a brand new one.

"Natasha will really get rich outside, but if I'm with you. I'll just do what shaira did, pinching a millionaire!"

I looked at Abby, who was smiling while wearing the beautiful dress that Shaira and I bought once in Divisoria.

"What if I grab something else, you know. It's just like a mango tree. You're at the bottom and you can't see the ripe and bad ones!"

"Gosh, it's even passed through the mango!"

"Besides, that's not what I was meant to do. Because the lord is still busy with my love life.."

I grabbed the two suitcases, I didn't have time to mess with them because I was excited to get out of this cave.

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At eight o'clock in the morning when I was able to say goodbye to ma'mang, I only said a little drama and chena to convince her that I was happy there in this rotten club.

But since I have already earned money there, enough of the insults.

I put the two suitcases on an iron bed in the room, two floors of the shop I bought. There is a bathroom downstairs as well as upstairs. The space underneath is clear so I can think of building a flower shop and a coffee table.

I sat on the iron with no bed, I still need to buy household items but the other table and chairs I ordered have not yet arrived.

That needs to be prioritized so as not to be short on money.

"Where are you now, Shai?" That's what I told Shaira when she answered my call, I was planning to go with her to look for materials for this shop.

"At Jacob's house.."

"Wow, at home? Meaning to say at Jacob's house!" I'm really amazed by what shaira answered, if before she was only in the condo. Now she's in Jacob's house?

I think my friend has hit the big time.

"That's why he said home.." I laughed a little at his answer, feeling excited to see wherever he was.

So when it said Jacob's place, I easily took a taxi and briefly closed the empty space.

"Here it is!" the taxi stopped at the big gate where shaira was leaning there, I was laughing a little at the clothes she had because her body was wrapped.

I kissed her cheeks after I greeted her. "What fashion is that, shai, are you planning to attend the meeting?"

"This is what I was going to tell you earlier.."

"Is that it? Are you going to ask me how to shop for fashion everyday?"

He mumbled, as long as he had an attitude. "It's not that, tsk. Let's go inside first.."

"Wie, okay!" I was the first to enter their said mansion, no. Monteclaro Mansion by the way, and the goddess shaira was clutching a ripe mango!

"You live here!" I was amazed as I turned my eyes, the chandelier in the middle was magnificent and my eyes really sparkled.

"Just temporarily while I study.."

"Oh my god, you really are a jackpot with Jacob, the house is beautiful, a palace!" shaira grimaced at me, but what! I'm just amazed by what I see, I don't think my little feet deserve to set foot in this place, I should have gone to a foot spa first, but of course don't!

"I know I'll get you something to drink soon.." he was about to turn away when I squealed.

"I don't want water, I want juice!" I laughed again at his reaction, because of the beauty of this house. They must also be rich in food.

"Yes, you want it with a sandwich."

"With cake, nothing?"

"With kotong you want?" is the harsh one, but don't be chossy balasi. My little pet in the stomach is also hungry, I guess I haven't had breakfast with my savings.

"Alright, just with a sandwich.." he turned around with a grimace still on his face, but his outfit was really weird as if he was hiding something in his body.

I walked to the side where I could see the picture frames, the ostentatious because there were some family pictures of the Monteclaros. And what makes me even more curious is why the scumbag Noah is here.

Someone whispered behind my back, but I ignored it because of the man's photo. He was there with jacob and dianneya, the handsome grasshopper.

"Excuse me?" I looked at the male voice that spoke to me, and when I saw who it was, I almost frowned.

"YOU!" We still have the same pronunciation, but. What is he doing here!

"What are you doing here?" My forehead was still wrinkled when I asked, but here he was and laughed.

"I should be the one to ask that, what are you doing here?" I just raised an eyebrow at him, is it right to take my question back?

"Oh, I know! You're the new maid here, gosh. I already know!"

"W-what did you say?" I can not believe. "I'm fine with this, you maids?"

"Which side is beautiful?" He caressed my body while raising his eyebrows, continuing to lower until his eyes stopped on my chest, tsk. What are you doing now?

He looked away. "Get me something to drink, better, call your boss too.."

"I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE!" I was surprised by my sudden shout, it was just irritating because this waitress had mistaken me for her before and now she is an assistant.

Is there a sexy maid dressed up?

"W-why are you shouting?"

"Because your annoying, ugly chinito!"

"W-what!"

"I HATE YOU!"

I turned away from him irritable, my footsteps were heavy as I entered where Shaira had gone earlier.

"You thought he was handsome, he looks like a janitor wearing this!" I sat in the empty seat, Shaira was with someone who was preparing food at the guild.

"Who looks like a janitor?" Shaira placed some prepared sandwiches in front of me. I took one before answering.

"Do you still know the guy who took you to the club?"

"Noah?"

I laughed, he must have known that, maybe he is related to Jacob.

"Is that his name?" I just found out its name, but I knew it for years. "His name is as ugly as this.."

"Sir Noah ma'am is handsome.." I raised my eyebrows at the maid next to Shaira.

"Are your standards for handsome already that low?"

"Yes?"

"That's not handsome for me, those squinting eyes, he looks like a grasshopper!" she was stunned by him, he bit his lip and didn't answer. I must have said something funny to make him stop smiling.

"By the way, what is your good news?" Shaira suddenly changed the subject, I looked at her, smiling.

"I left the club.."

"Since when?"

"It will be two days.."

"Really? It is good that you are allowed?" he pulled out a chair and sat next to me.

"I paid mamang to allow me to leave, you know. I have also saved a lot because of the time I was there.."

"Money has really swallowed that old man.."

"True.." we both sighed, but here he was asking something again.

"Is that the good news?" I smiled, before shaking my head.

"No of course, this is the good news.." I took the cellphone from the pouch and easily looked for the photo of the space I bought.

"What is that?" he was surprised at what I showed.

"I bought.."

"Wow, really?" I nodded "Are you going to build your own house?"

"No, I will make it a mini flower shop with a coffee tambayan.."

"When do you plan to start?"

"Tomorrow!" my voice is friendly, tomorrow I will start fixing because I am so excited, I will buy some things because my orders will definitely arrive tomorrow.

"It's close to Fatima because there are only a few coffee shops there, plus I'm the only one who sells flowers around Fatima.." I added.

"So you bought it for so much?"

"Swak in the pocket.."

he nodded. "If I'm not busy I'll visit you, I won't miss the opening.." I smiled before putting my hand on the table.

"I didn't think I would be able to buy it, my father spent a lot of money on treatment, my mother is always taking money from me.."

"How is your father?"

"It's still the same, there's still pain.." I sighed. "We have three siblings, I'm the eldest but why is everyone always on me? Your brother of mine even brought home something to eat.." I sighed again, my brother is in his twenties and he is bringing home a bride.

It's not that I have a bad attitude, I'm already busy with work and my income is not enough, that's in addition to the expenses, I wish they would help but they don't.

"Because you are the only one with a job.."

"Brandon also has a job, both he and his wife. But the burden is all mine, I'm not at home with all my cargo.." I'm in a bad mood, I think I'm only resentful now since my mother drove me away and sold me.

"Just ride and don't complain" my eyes rolled before looking at the clean road, are there really no taxis in this area?

If anything, instead of getting a massage, I'd rather not waste his sudden kindness.

"I'm going to a marketing, take me there." I voluntarily entered the back seat, he was looking at me with a frown.

"Why?"

That's a flash, you thought his eyes were perfect, but they were just narrow. Tsk, it's just funny that I can hardly see the road because of his height, the road is blocked so I just look out the window.

The car still smells, I hope everyone.

When can I buy a car?

"Why are you going to the market?" suddenly he asked, what is that fc?

"I was just going to hang out.." I winced a bit, what am I going to do there? Natural consumer.

"Oh, really?"

"Tsk, I'll probably go shopping, I need foods and things to use!"

"You really have a big voice.."

"W-what?" he didn't repeat what he said, but what did he say? I have a big voice.

Is my voice loud?

I frowned as I looked out the window, wondering if my voice was right. All I thought was that I had the same voice as Shaira, whose voice, even though it was loud, was refined.

While I?

"Get down.." I realized in Noah's voice, his voice was not that loud. That's right, boy boy.

"Tsk.." I don't know why he was doing that, he opened his door and got out of the car, I was just dumbfounded until he opened the door for me.

"Your already here.." I looked away, eventually stepping down before looking around.

11-11 Marketing

That was the name of the big mini mall he stopped on the side of.

"Thankyou.." I still thanked him even though we were at war earlier, but I just couldn't take it that he could talk to a woman who is not beautiful and has an ugly body.

I'm so beautiful that I'm sexy.

"Are you going in there dressed like that?" I raised my eyebrows.

"Well, what about you now?"

"Your bo*bs is waving when your walking.." I mumbled, smiling slightly.

"Why are you looking at my chest?" I raised both breasts with my palm, she was blinking.

"M-I'll probably look at that because of what you're wearing, it's too getting more attention, you look braless.."

"I don't have a bra.." he suddenly coughed, coughed completely because of what I said.

"You unbelievable!"

"Yeah, I'm available.."

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