Lost in Amsterdam

**Muriel's Pov**

Ever since I lost my father, my joy and happiness ceased and I felt so dead and numb or should I say I've been a robot. It hasn't been easy for me to understand myself and I can't even remember when last I had my bath.

"Muriel we want to talk to you" Anna said after knocking on my door without getting any response.

Anna is my mother, my biological mother but I despise her so much because she never truly loved my father. It wasn't up to 6 months before she started seeing Ben, my soon to be step father, Ben has been trying to be nice to me but hell he will never replace the love I have for my father. It's fine if Anna wants to move on already but I won't be part of any of these stunts they're trying to play, I will never become a Müller.

There was another knock on the door "Muriel are you in there, Ben and I have something to tell you". Said Anna.

Sigh I guess I'll have to answer them, I walked sluggishly and lifeless towards the door of this gigantic room in Ben's house . I could hear them whispering behind the door. I opened the door and saw both Ben and Anna standing in front of the door with a suspicious smile on their faces.

"What do you want?" I ask them

The smile on Anna face slightly turned to sadness but I care less.

"We've been thinking about this and we think you have all right to know about our decision" Anna said and paused. She gave Ben a kind of look and Ben nodded his head like he was motivating her to say whatever the fuck she wants to say.

"Well..Muriel you're well aware of the fact that Ben and I have been courting for the past few months and he has been supporting us with everything we need" Anna took a deep breath and continued "We're getting married in 2 weeks time Muriel" she smiled.

I don't get why she was smiling, what's happy about her getting remarried in just some few months. What's happening right now? Well I should have expected such from the beginning of everything expecially when Ben told us to move into his house because our rent was due.

I was lost in my thoughts that I didn't realize I was getting mad and my face was changing it's colour to a red demon.

Anne noticed my facial expression but at this point I don't give a fuck about whatever they think.

"Okay" I managed to say even tho the words came out broken, I had expected it to sound tough but I guess I was being too emotional.

"Muriel I love you n Anne so much and I don't want to see you suffering in pains, trust me I'll take good care of the both of you" Ben said.

At this point my anger subsided and my colour was back to itself and all that was left was numbness the feeling of no feeling . My face was pale and emotionless as I stared at the soon to-be married couple in front of me.

"Congratulations" I said with a fake smile on my face. They're not as dumb as not to notice the smile was fake. Ben sighed and gave me a "take care" look as he left to his room and I was left with my mom who was standing in front of me with her eyes piercing through my skin.

"Your husband has left here, go meet him. I need to sleep" I said as I shut the door.

I stood by the door till I heard her footsteps moving away from the door then I completely broke down and tears from no where started to rush out. "How could she?" Was the only question I kept on asking myself.

I don't think I can continue in this house anymore. I walked towards my closet and packed most of my needed clothes and underwear with some shoes into my dad's old box. I don't want to ever loose this box. I sniffed the catarrh that was trying to slip down my nose while I was staring at myself in the mirror.

"You got this Muriel, you're no longer the kid you used to be". I said to myself.

**Authors note**

*Do you think Muriel is making the right decision? What's going to happen to her*

*Let me know what you think*

*So this is the first chapter of the book and I hope you enjoyed it because I really want to know what's going to happy next too (─.─||)(─.─||)btw XOXO*

**song(s) for the chapter**

> >>>>>Lonely by Justin Bieber

**Muriel's pov**

Today I'm eighteen and today is the day I'll take the first big step of my life. I'm an adult now and I'm capable of making my own choices.

"Where are you going to Muriel" the voice inside of my head asked.

"Anywhere far away from my mum" I whisper under my breath.

"Are you sure your ready for this? Where will you stay? You haven't even gotten into college yet and how do you think you'll survive alone. Heck you don't even know where you're going to.". Okay the voice inside my head needs to shut up right now because I'm trying to think.

I stare at the huge art frame in my room and I'm just noticing how beautiful it is. It's a place with waters and lights and very beautiful houses. The kind I like.

"Amsterdam!!!"

That's it I'm going to Amsterdam, it's not far from my country Germany. And it's just perfect. But I need some money to at least leave this place.

I checked my bank balance on my phone and I think I can survive out there as long as I get a job. Ben has been funding my account every week and I have never spent any of the money he gives me. But thank heavens because now im in need of them.

I didn't realize it was already 1 am. I was carried out with my thoughts. I think I should rest a little then set out by 4am before anyone wakes up.

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"Thank you" I said as the Taxi drove away from the hotel.

I walked towards the hotel and heaved a sigh of relief, finally away from home. But I don't think I can afford to stay in a hotel room for more than a week because I was already short of money.

I went to the reception, a lady was standing in the counter

"Hello ma'am how can I help you?" She asked with a broad smile

"Hi, I'd like to Lodge here for about a week" I replied returning the smile.

We discussed about the price and holy cow I never knew hotels were this expensive. So that's it I have to look for a job tomorrow. Hopefully I get one.

She handed me the key to my room and directed me to where I can find it.

"Thank you" I replied as I went up the stairs.

The hotel isn't much of a 5 star, the walls are old and I could spot some cobwebs on some of the huge paintings on the wall.

I just hope the room will be manageable for me.

I inserted the key into the door knob and opened the door hoping to see a room that would be manageable to use. As I opened the door the image before me was breathtaking, who knew the rooms if this hotel would be as beautiful as this.

"Wow" i said after surveying the whole room. It was like I was in a movie, an ancient royal movie. The beds were gigantic more like a king size bed, the wall paper was astonishing and it's hard not to notice the huge chandelier hanging above my head.

A smile crept on my lips and I couldn't help but just smile. This is the life I want, to be free from the sad world with my mum. I'm sure I'll do just fine here in Amsterdam.

I opened my box and brought out somethings I might need for the night including a night wear.

I pulled off my clothes it was a jean trouser, a tank top and a jacket. I was left in my underwear as I walked towards the mirror, it's really beautiful just like the ones I watch on TV.

I stood in front of the mirror staring at my half naked body from my perfect and moderate boobs to my tiny waist and very flat tummy to my widely curved hips, sometimes I get uncomfortable with the way guys stare at my huge butt and my curved hips expecially when I was still in high school. I have the perfect body shape and sometimes it's really cool to just admire yourself since there's no one to actually compliment your body.

I have never had a boyfriend in my entire eighteen years and I've never got to have the feeling of being with a boy. Heck I haven't even kissed a guy talk less of having sex with one.

But I'm in Amsterdam now and I'm free from my mum and her dumb fiance so I might as well give a shot to the thought of having a boyfriend.

I walked away from the mirror into the bathroom, I think I should probably have my bath now, it's been a long day and I'm tired already. The bathroom is actually less what I expected from the room but more off what I expected from the hotel itself. The thought of how many people used this bathroom irked me because I wasn't used to public bathrooms but again I'll have to start learning since I don't really have an option.

I went under the shower and turned it on. I heaved a sigh of relief as the water touched my body, from my head to my toe and I was really enjoying the feeling. At this point I don't really care if my hair gets wet, it'll dry off by itself.

After minutes of enjoying the touch of the water on my skin I turned the shower off and wrapped a towel around my body. I dried off the wetness of the water from my body as I wore my night dress. It's a wine silk gown, I tied the robe of the night wear then I fell on the bed. I adjusted myself to the position that I was comfortable.

"You'll be fine Muriel" I whispered as I zoned off to dream land.

**song(s) for the chapter**

>>>>>**Wake me up by Avicii**

**Levels by Avicii**

**The nights by Avicii**

**Muriel's POV**

The sounds of the birds chirping outside the window woke me up and for a moment I was asking myself where I was. When I remembered I was in Amsterdam I smiled excitedly and I think I've actually been smiling ever since I left Germany that means I'm still on the right track to eternal happiness.

I stood up from the bed and this time it wasn't sluggishly I brought out my phone to play some music because I am really excited right now.

I searched for Avicii because I really love all of the music from Avicii, they're filled with life. The first song that popped up was 'wake me up'. let's start from this little guy here.

I danced around the hotel room laughing as I was brushing my teeth. This morning all I could feel is happiness, I took my bath, wore my clothes, this time it was a gown because I wear gowns when I'm in a good mood. I applied some light make-up on while sitting in front of the mirror and I can actually see for my self my glooming eyes and my face was bright.

I walked towards my box,opened it and brought out a small framed picture of my dad.

"I'll make you proud dad"I said as I rubbed the picture with my thumb. I kept it back in the box and zipped the box. My stomach growled, I should probably go find something to eat.

I stepped outside my hotel room, and went down the stairs.

I peeked at myself on the mirror along the stairs.

"Good morning" I said to the receptionist. It wasn't the one that attended to me yesterday but I guess today might be her off day.

I went outside the hotel and I could see people on their bicycles preparing to go to their daily jobs. I'll probably search for a job after I eat something because I'm actually starving right now.

I checked Google map for any place I could eat something this morning. I saw one that looks good maybe it attracted me because the name of the restaurant was actually ' cravings ' and hell I'm craving for a food right now.

The restaurant wasn't far from where I was so I just looked at the directions and walked towards there. I got there in less than 10minutes. I could see the big sign saying cravings at the top of the restaurant. I walked into the restaurant and it was actually a café but with yummy cakes because I could actually perceive the aroma of baked foods. Holy shit I'm salivating already,I cleaned my mouth and looked round to check if no one saw me. fortunately for me no one saw that.....well except for the lady staring at me rn.

Great, now she's going to think I'm one weird girl, she was still staring at me but later averted her attention to the espresso she was making.

She looked more of my age with short hairs that was packed in a pony tail. She's pretty.

I spotted an empty sit and sat down there. The lady that was staring at me earlier walked towards me.

"What can I offer you?" She asked.

"Uhmmm...."

I looked at the huge menu board on the wall

"I think I'll have some milkshake and cupcakes, make it 3 cupcakes".

" That'll be 5 dollars"

"Okay" I said.

She left and I was still sitting staring outside the glass windows. I saw a job vacancy sign on the glass I stood up to check what it reads from outside the café.

"Wow" I'm happy already

It's more like everything is in my favor. I went back into where I was sitting and the lady from before came with my orders. Immediately I saw the food my tummy growled again but this time it was really loud.

"Thank you" I said to her.

She was about to leave when I came back to my senses that I needed to ask her of the job.

"Excuse me" I said

"Yeah!!?" She responded. I think I'm bothering her already because her face looks like she can flip the table right in front on me right now.

"Is there a job vacancy?"

"Yes"

"How do I apply?"

"There" she pointed towards a door with a 'manager' tag on it.

"What's your name?" I asked

But this time she didn't reply she went back to the counter. There was a guy there also of maybe my age or a year older, he was staring at me and now I'm curious to know what they're talking about.

He gave me a smile and I returned the smile.

I rushed the food I was eating because I needed to apply for this job already.

I stood up and walked towards the manager's office.

I knocked twice and opened the door, the manager which is a man looked at me.

"Good morning sir" I said

"I assume you're here for the job"

"Yes sir"

"Please do call me John, I'm not comfortable with all the 'sir' coming from you".

He sounds nice, aren't I lucky.

"Okay si.... okay John" I smiled.

"You're getting it already" he smiled too

"About the job, you're to come here 4 times a week and you'll be paid every week"

"You'll be paid 50 dollars for the first 2 weeks of you being here then afterwards you'll be paid a hundred dollars and if you're really dedicated to this job you might be lucky to be paid 200 dollars after your first 3 months"

"Let's just say your pay increases as your dedication increases"

"So are you in for the job or you're not interested"

"Hell I'm in for the job, when do I start?"

"Tomorrow morning 7am"

"Okay, thank you John" I said while smiling happily. He saw the smile and he smiled too

"You're welcome" he said

"So I should see you here by 7am tomorrow, you don't want to be late on your first day".

"Yes sir" I chuckled after realizing I said sir

"You'll get used to it" he replied with a smile.

*Author's note*

*okay I'm so happy that Muriel got a job already but who could be that gentleman staring and smiling a her at Cravings*

*how bout we find out in chapter 4*

*Xoxoxo*