Lost Soul

Prologue

Have you ever been in love? I'm talking about the kind of love that makes you feel so connected to another person. The kind that lets you know you've found your soulmate. I have. Only I let him go.

I decided I rather have him as a friend then nothing at all. I didn't trust that our love could last. I kept my love hidden even though it was slowly killing me inside. I thought we would have all the time in the world to be together.

I had to work on my trust issues before I could give him my heart. I didn't want to hurt him. I knew he would always be there. He would never leave me. He was the type that was always there when you needed him.

Once I fixed my flaws, we could be together. We have all the time in the world. In the future we will be together. Only that's not what happened. I never thought my hero would be taken down by cancer. This is my story about love and loss.

About life showing me how short it truly is. I didn't have as much time with him as I had thought...

Chapter 1

Emerson's pov

Dear Diary,

I was so scared to start at my new school, but everything went fine.

I met some new kids and hit it off.

I thought it was just going to be a normal day until I saw him.

He was tall, dark, and handsome.

He looked like a real-life prince.

He was so tall that he would tower over all 5'1 of me.

His smile lit up his whole face.

He had the brownest eyes I had ever seen.

He came up to me and welcomed me to the school.

Not only was he cute, but he was also sweet.

He showed me to my class which he was in.

We even got paired up together.

It was as if the universe needed us to be together.

I could listen to his voice all day it was so dreamy.

I Emerson Rose had my first crush.

I mean don't get me wrong boys have asked me out before, but I didn't really like any of them.

I'm only fourteen so I didn't care much about boys.

That was until this tall, beautiful boy smiled at me.

He wasn't like the other boys.

He was mature in a way they weren't.

In class he was extremely focused like it was important to him.

He was so smart.

All the girls followed him around.

He was just one of those boys everyone liked.

He was so nice he even invited me to sit by him at lunch.

I have never had anyone I just met be so nice to me.

Every time he looked at me, I got butterflies.

Is this normal?

I have never felt anything like this before.

My mom isn't a person I can go to for advice, so I'm confused.

Oh, diary what should I do?

Love,

Emerson

Chapter 2

Jonah's pov

Dear Journal,

There is a new girl at school.

She seems so different from the rest.

She's beautiful but doesn't brag about it like the "popular" girls.

When she smiled, she took my breath away?

I know I'm young, but I think I found my soul mate.

She makes my heart beat out of my chest.

I loved that she was shy.

I included her in my group of friends, and she fit in perfectly.

It was as if she was meant to be by my side.

I wanted to ask her out, but I knew it was too soon.

I would have to be her friend first.

She was worth the wait.

I mean I was only fifteen, so we had our whole life a head of us.

My dad met my mom in junior high and have been together ever since.

I always thought he was crazy until I met Emerson.

I was excited to see that we had a ton of classes together.

With her being the new girl, she always wanted to set by me, and have me show her around.

The more time I spent with her the more I knew I liked her.

I saw the other guys looking at her.

I mean who wouldn't she was beautiful.

I just didn't want to lose her before I even got her.

She always looked down when other guys tried talking to her.

With me she lit up, and always seemed happy to be around me.

I asked her questions about herself.

I wanted to know everything about her.

I even talked to my mom about how I was feeling.

Big mistake because now she keeps comparing me to my dad.

I try to act like it's no big deal with my mom because I don't want to jinx this.

Plus, if I have Emerson over at my house, I don't want my mom to make it weird.

Can't have anyone scaring her off.

That's why I am writing about all of this in my journal so no one else can see this.

I mean I genuinely think I am in love.

I can't wait to see her tomorrow.

Jonah