Lose My Heart To My Ex-wife

The rain steadily poured down against the window. Closing her eyes, Sara Huo listened to the steady pitter-patter, a chill crawling up in her heart. Her pale skin was almost ghost-like against the white tunic dress she was wearing.

Raising her delicate chin, she glanced indifferently at the man in front her. Her amber eyes glistened with remorse. The love she had for him was all in vain.

Sara Huo clenched her fists to calm herself down. Her fingernails scratched the palm of her hand, drawing out small droplets of blood.

After calming herself down a bit, she forced a faint smile.

"What's wrong, Jacob? Why do you want a divorce?" she asked, her voice as clear and as cold as the rain.

The man stared at her coldly, as if she was some stranger instead of his wife.

"Your father's company has gotten enough from me, don't you think? I think both our goals have been achieved. With all that said, it is no longer necessary for us to continue this relationship we have, wouldn't you agree?"

There was a bitterness that flashed across Sara Huo's eyes. She lowered her gaze, trying to hide her sadness. "Well, is that what you really think? Do you think that I just married you for the sake of my father's company?"

Jacob Shi rolled his eyes and snorted. "Wasn't that the whole point?" he retorted. "Come on, Sara. Don't forget the real reason why we even got married in the first place. It was mutually beneficial for us. You needed the money for your father's company, and my father just desperately wanted me to get married. That's all that was and all that ever is."

Sara Huo couldn't help looking up at him. Tears were already welling up in her eyes as her heart swelled with agony.

Seeing her like this all of a sudden made Jacob Shi's heart ache as well. But then, the face of another woman appeared in his mind. Just like that, he felt nothing again for Sara Huo crying in front of him.

"Sara, I knew you were different from other women from the beginning. That was the reason I chose to marry you. I had the impression that you wouldn't get emotionally attached like other women when it was finally time to break up. I also know that you don't want this to be any harder than it already is. Am I right?"

Sara Huo swallowed hard. She didn't think that Jacob Shi thought so lowly of her like this.

"Okay, I'll sign it," she finally said, trying her best to maintain the smile on her face. It took much of her will and strength to say those words to him. Taking a deep breath, she sat up straight and squared her shoulders.

Just as Jacob Shi said, she was different from other women. Besides, for the past four years that they had been married, he had never shown her an ounce of love and affection. There was no sense to force something that wasn't there.

Besides, Sara Huo was a woman of pride. Now that they had come to the end of their deal, she had to keep her head held high. The last thing she wanted to do was beg Jacob Shi to stay. It would look bad on her if she looked upset or tried to make their relationship work. Even though her heart was heavy, she had to leave with her chin up.

The way she agreed so easily to the divorce left Jacob Shi stunned. In fact, he had cleared out his whole schedule for today to deal with this matter. It didn't occur to him that it would only take under an hour.

Because of this, a strange emotion surged up in his heart. All of a sudden, he was no longer as willing to sign the divorce papers as before.

On the other hand, Sara Huo quickly picked papers and browsed through it. Then, without a second to waste, she got a pen and signed her name, as if she was afraid that she would change her mind at the next moment.

Her fingertips turned white from how tightly she held onto the pen.

As soon as she finished signing, it was as if a heavy weight had been lifted from her hands.

From now on, she had nothing to do with this man.

If they were going to separate, she wanted to be able to do it in her own terms.

With a small sigh, she leaned back against the sofa, her skin pale and translucent, making her amber eyes shine even brighter, even though there was a slight of despair in them. "It's still early," she said to Jacob. "Maybe we should go to the Civil Affairs Bureau and have the whole process finished today?"

It was a task that they had to do it sooner or later. If they had to do it some other time, it would be harder for her to move on and forget about him. When that happened, she might become like the 'other women' Jacob was talking about, and there was no way she was going to take her pride down with her.

Jacob frowned slightly, feeling a heaviness in his heart. Before he could think it through, he immediately shook his head. "No, I'm busy today. I don't have the time. I'll call you when it comes to the other formalities."

"Okay."

Standing up, Sara straightened out her dress and flashed him a quick, indifferent smile. "I'll be leaving now then," she said.

After which, she turned around and left. The sound of her heels clacked against the marble floors, beating her fragile nerves.

Jacob just stared at her receding figure, the curves on her dress. There was a piercing feeling in his heart as he felt his chest clench painfully.

For a moment, he had thought and hoped that she was going to turn around, but she didn't. It caused him even greater pain to see her walk out of his sight so firmly.

Sara grabbed her umbrella and walked out into the rain, small splatters hitting her ankles. There was sadness in her eyes that could not be hidden.

Jacob wanted to call out to her and ask her to stay until the rain stopped. However, she was already getting inside a car, shutting the door behind her ruthlessly.

Maybe she also wanted to free herself from it. After all, the marriage between them was not for the sake of love. They just happened to be the most suitable for each other given their circumstances. There was never really love in the first place.

Four years ago, he appeared in her life at the right time, and saved her life when the company of Sara's father fell into crisis. Jacob didn't ask for anything. It was enough that he was married to her to make his father happy.

Of course, Sara was aware that their relationship was purely out of convenience. But at this moment, she realized that she was wrong. It was such a horrible feeling when they now had to finally split ways.

A few days later, she didn't expect that she would ever see Jacob again until it was finally time to settle their divorce. But there he was, in the same mall she was currently at.

"Hey, isn't that Jacob? Who is the woman beside him?" Ethan Lu frowned and said in a dissatisfied tone.

Finally, Sara knew why he broke up with her. She knew the woman. "That's his ex-girlfriend," she said matter-of-factly, a bitter smile playing on her lips,

"His first love."

"Is he cheating on you out in the open?" Frowning, Ethan Lu looked at Jacob. "What's going on between you two? Why is he with another woman?"

Ethan Lu's heart ached when he saw Sara's sad smile. It was rare for her to show her sadness and disappointment to others.

Hearing this, Sara immediately restrained her emotions and shrugged indifferently. "We got divorced. It's no big deal."

"What?! But why?" Ethan didn't believe it at all. Everyone had seen how much that man had done to marry Sara. He had hidden her well these years for fear that she would be taken away by other men. How could he allow Sara to divorce him?

As the two were talking, they didn't know that Jacob was walking close to them with the woman.

It was only then did he see Sara. As usual, she wore a plain tunic dress. The light yellow color set off her fair skin. Perhaps she was a little tired after shopping, but her cheeks were flushed flatteringly, and her lips were even redder than usual, making her look bright and beautiful.

Even before, Jacob really liked how tunic dresses looked on her. Seeing her curves against the fabric was really attractive for him. Now that he saw her wearing such clothing beside another man, he couldn't help but feel a bit uncomfortable.

'We haven't even finalized our divorce and she's with another man already?'

Thinking of this, Jacob sneered.

After explaining their situation to Ethan, Sara turned around and saw Jacob's sarcastic smile. The contempt in his eyes almost drowned her.

At that moment, Sara's heart sank.

There was a hint of jealousy in both of their eyes.

Seeing Jacob step closer, Sara found herself unable to move. The closer he got, the greater the pain Sara felt.

Maybe it was because she didn't really want to leave. She didn't know why she still loved him or what else he deserved her love.

Ethan patted her shoulder worriedly and whispered in her ear, "What's wrong, Sara? Are you okay?"

Following her gaze, he saw Jacob approach them as he held onto the other woman's hand. Seeing this, Ethan's eyes flashed with disgust.

Jacob looked back and forth from Sara to Ethan. Anger boiled up inside of him. "Sara, do you think it's appropriate for you to go shopping with this man? Don't forget that we haven't officially divorced yet," Jacob said sarcastically with a bitter smile. Then, he shot a cold and harsh look at Ethan as he emphasized his last four words.

Clenching his fists, Ethan frowned and instinctively put Sara behind him to protect her.

However, regardless of Jacob's scornful eyes, Sara looked at him with the same amount of coldness. "But it's already inevitable that we're going to get divorced no matter what happens. Besides, it's none of your business with whom I go shopping with."

Even though she said this to Jacob, it was as if she was saying this to herself, as if to remind herself that it was over between them.

The woman next to Jacob coughed and looked at Sara frivolously. She held Jacob's hand tighter and looked at him with a pure and pitiful smile.

"That's true. But don't forget that it's not formally over yet. You're still married to me," Jacob said through gritted teeth.

Everyone was stunned by his words. Even Jacob was surprised in himself as he didn't expect he would say something like that, as if he loved her.

Frowning deeper, he shook his head and sighed.

"I mean we haven't divorced. You are still my wife and whatever you do in public still reflects on me. You should think things through first for the time being," he explained.

'What on earth is he saying?' Sara wondered. 'That's ridiculous! It's like he's saying that I'm having an affair even though I just went out shopping with a friend!

Isn't he the one who appears to be having an affair?'

Her grievance, humiliation and stubbornness surged out from the bottom of her heart. Lifting her head slightly, Sara raised her eyebrows at him. "Jacob, just so you know, I have done nothing to disgrace the Shi clan and I never will. Not before, and definitely not now."

After saying that, she suddenly burst into laughter. The smiling curve at the corners of her mouth was intoxicating, but her tone was contemptuous. "Besides, don't you think you're the one who needs to behave?" she added, throwing a sharp look at the woman beside him.

Jacob narrowed his eyes at her, his gaze like ice. After being together with him for so long, Sara knew that he was enraged with what she had just said.

Even though he was six feet tall, making her half a foot shorter than he was, Sara kept her ground and didn't faze. Because of this, Jacob couldn't help but be taken aback.

Sara then turned her head slightly to look at Ethan, and saw that he was smiling warmly at her, as if to say that he had her back.

Seeing this scene, Jacob couldn't help but sneer, "Are you telling me that you are not disgracing the Shi clan with this behavior?"

Although his breath was steady, there was a murderous look in his eyes.

"Huh? Even if you think this is disgraceful behavior, don't you think you're also in the same position?" Sara retorted as she pursed her lips, casting a sidelong glance at the other woman.

Alice Mei snuggled up defensively to Jacob. Her physique was so lovely and delicate that any man's first reaction would be to protect her.

"I have been in love with Jacob for many years. We were together even before you got married," Alice Mei said softly, but the meaning in her words was not as innocent as her expression.

Raising her eyebrows, Sara couldn't help but think that Alice Mei was implying that she was the third party in this relationship.

"Now, we all finally get what we want. We've been blessed to finally have the people we truly love beside us," Alice Mei added. Then she leaned her head gently on Jacob's shoulder.

'Is this bitch really trying to call me a mistress?' Sara screamed in her heart. There was no way she could bear it anymore. "Is that how you see it? Well, if you two have been lovers since the start, why did he marry me instead of you? Don't you feel pathetic at all?"

Of course, since Alice Mei was the apple of Jacob's eyes, there was no way he could allow Sara to say something like that.

Besides, it was difficult for him to face the past.

"Look at you," Jacob said to Sara callously, "I thought you knew your place when you entered this marriage with me." Each word was like a knife piercing through her heart.

As if that was not enough, he snorted in disgust. "You were just the most suitable woman for me to marry at the time. But you were definitely not the woman I loved. You never will be."

These words were the final straw. With a stern look, Sara gritted her teeth and left without hesitation.

Was her existence really that dispensable to Jacob? It was a lot worse than being just a mere stranger.

Sara felt a sharp pain in her chest.

A few days later, Jacob called her.

His voice was even colder than before, like a bottomless abyss. "Wait for me at the Civil Affairs Bureau," he said. After that, he quickly hung up, not even waiting for her reply.

The sun was shining brightly today, and the flowers all around bobbed gently against the breeze. All of the people who came out of the Civil Affairs Bureau seemed to have happy smiles on their faces.

However, no matter how nice the day was, it was as if there was a cloud over Sara's head.

The pleasant day wasn't meant for her, not right now. Her heart was cold and broken, and it made it even worse that she had to keep a straight face.

She took a deep breath to calm herself down. The gentle sunshine shone on her face, and for a moment, she let herself relax.

She straightened her back and strode into the Civil Affairs Bureau on her four-inch stilettos.

As soon as Jacob saw her enter, he gave her a bitter smile. "So, from today on, we have nothing to do with each other ever again."

He said this not only to Sara, but also to himself.

At any given time, he didn't want others to see his weaknesses. Even now he was in an indescribable panic about the divorce. Deep in his heart, he truly wanted to escape.

"Good! I expect nothing more, nothing less. You have no idea how difficult it has been for me to be with you for four whole years!" Sara retorted. She was not a person who would yield to anyone. Especially in this case, she couldn't help but snap back at Jacob in order to cover up her broken heart.

The smile on Jacob's face froze as he glowered at her menacingly.

The divorce formalities were over quicker than they expected. When the two came out, they both had an unspeakable expression on their faces. With their backs slightly turned to each other, they didn't see the downcast look on each other's faces.

Even though Sara looked calm on the outside, she still couldn't wrap her head around the fact that she and Jacob were now divorced. It was impossible for two people not to develop feelings for each other, especially since they had been together for over four years.

Rubbing her chest, Sara felt the pain getting greater and greater.

Looking over to Jacob, she saw that he had his back to her. 'I bet he must be very happy now that I'm out of his life,' she thought. 'He can finally be with the woman he truly loves.'

Sara thought all this was over. However, she didn't expect that this man was not only unwilling to be with her, but also reluctant to let her off.

"Don't announce our divorce yet for the time being." Jacob's sudden voice startled Sara. Coming out of her daze, she looked at him with her eyes wide in shock.

Disbelief was written all over her face. What was she supposed to do now?

Turning around, Jacob looked at her, his eyes looking a bit gloomy. "What's wrong? I have supported your father's company for four years. Is it too hard to make a small request like that from you?"

With a pale face, a weak smile suddenly appeared on Sara's face. Her red lips looked even more gorgeous. "You have nothing to do with me now. Why should I listen to you? Besides, you helping out my father's company was all part of the agreement we made when we got married. I have spent four years on you. Isn't that enough that I wasted my youth on you?"

After saying that, Sara bitterly looked down at the divorce certificate in her hand. What was the point of not letting anyone know that she was no longer married? It was as if he was asking her to be both a chaste widow and his bitch.

Narrowing his eyes, Jacob frowned deeply at the woman in front of him. Although her face was pale, her skin was delicate and smooth. The corners of her eyes, which were slightly raised, looked exceedingly fascinating even without makeup. But, her most enticing feature was the color of her amber eyes. He could distinctly remember the tenderness in those eyes when they first got married.

It went without saying that she had an indescribable charm.

At this moment, Jacob had to admit that she was much more beautiful than Alice. Not only did her appearance have visual impact, but also she exuded an inner charm and temperament. People often found themselves staring at her in awe.

"Your youth?" Jacob scoffed, "Alice has wasted seven years of her youth, but she hasn't uttered a single word of complaint. Not to mention that she hasn't even gotten anything from me! In comparison to her, you are a second-grade woman! What do you have to show for in this world?"

At that moment, Jacob's thoughts flooded with his memories with Alice, his first love. Thinking of this, he wanted nothing more but to destroy the woman in front of him.

'A second-grade woman? Is this guy for real?!'

This man, who had just become her ex-husband, dug up her heart in front of her in order to protect another woman?

Sara lowered her eyes, her thick and long lashes hiding the hurt and sadness she felt. When she looked up again, there was nothing but detachment.

"My dear ex-husband, I don't have time to talk to you anymore. I'm just a second-grade woman, right? In that case, I have to make our matter public. Otherwise, how else can I get out of your high-standard life?"

Biting her teeth, Sara said this with sarcasm pouring out her voice. She wanted to stimulate him to say something more hurtful. Only in this way, her love for him for four years would gradually disappear, and she would leave the world of his existence.

"Fine!" Jacob spat out, gritting his teeth, "Since you want to sell yourself, I'll buy you back. You are not allowed to announce our divorce to the public. I will continue to support your father's company and cooperate with him as many times as it takes to ensure that his company will get more benefits."

'Is he threatening me now?' Sara thought in disbelief.

He wanted to divorce her for the sake of Alice, but the pressure from the media and other outside factors did not allow him to reveal the news. Suddenly, Sara wanted nothing but to expose him ruthlessly.

"You did this all for Alice's sake, didn't you? When that woman abandoned you, why didn't you let her stay like now? All of a sudden, she came back. You didn't care about anything. You didn't even know why she came back to you! Do you honestly think that's love?" Regardless of the look in his face, Sara spoke out her thoughts in one breath. Her question was something Jacob dared not to face the most.

Jacob's face darkened, and the blue veins on his forehead pulsated angrily. He clenched his fists angrily, walking closer and closer to her. "You'd better take back all your words, or I'm not sure what I'll do next!" Sara retreated step by step until her back finally hit against the wall. By now, Jacob was merely inches away from her.

"Take back my words? Why? Did I hit your sore spot? Are you really a fool to be so blind? No matter what she does, you still like her, don't you? We have been together for four years. And yet you still try to compare me with her!" After blurting out every hateful thing she could muster, Sara had sadness wash over her again.

Jacob was also stunned. He didn't expect that Sara would say something like that at this time. For a moment, he didn't know how to respond. "I..." Thinking of the sad look in Alice's face, he made up his mind and shook his head. "We just got married by then because it was convenient for both of us. You should know that better than anyone else," he said in a low and solemn tone.

Now, Sara was starting to regret everything she had blurted out. It was all a spur of the moment, and she wasn't thinking before she spoke. But still, she could help but wonder in her heart... Did he really not have any feelings for her after all those years? She tried her best to hold back her wild thoughts. Taking a deep breath, she looked at him straight in the eye with the same vigor she had before.

"I do not need listen to you. You have no right to ask me to do that now," she said firmly. Jacob stood back, holding his gaze.

It was only then, standing inches away from her, did he realize that he had not looked closely at her before.

He noticed that her eyes were slightly red and swollen, and there were pink blood streaks around her amber eyes.

Her clean and fair face did not have a heavy makeup, making her look a little haggard than usual.

Somehow, his heart softened. "Sara... Did you --"

Before he finished his words, a charming voice sounded behind him.

"Jacob!" Standing not far away, Alice waved at him in the car.

Jacob didn't have time to think about it carefully. He quickly walked over to Alice, looking over his shoulder to say one last thing to Sara.

"If you don't want anything to happen to your father's company, just listen to me."

A gust of wind blew, ruffling Sara's hair.

Her eyes were downcast and filled with pity for herself.

After the divorce, life was ordinary. Sara tried her best to relieve the sadness, but she couldn't help but feel lonely all the time.

Ethan tried so many things to make her happier.

"Let's go to the suburb today. I know a very beautiful place," Ethan suggested one day. His bright smile had a way to light up the haze in her heart.

It seemed like such a long time since Sara got a breath of fresh air. Looking at the scenery outside the car window, Sara no longer felt depressed. "This is actually a really good idea, Ethan," she said brightly, forcing herself to cheer up.

Before they got past the city border, their trip was abruptly interrupted by a call.

Glancing at the number on her phone screen, Sara frowned slightly.

She didn't want to answer it at first, but when she thought of the threat he left in the end, she took a big breath in and answered it. "Hello, what can I do for you?"

Her tone was polite and alienated, maybe so that no one could tell the true feelings that were now surging up in her heart.