Lonely Girl

"My tears got drop. While I'm thinking about my past the past. It's already 20th years past. But they've been always Come on it in my mind."

"but I'm thankful my second mom. Is always there for me. They always gave me some helpful words to remind me is already a past. It's not a present to happen again."

Mom!. Thanks for everything. For the love, for the cares. You gave me to dad also.

Sweety!. Thank you also. You come with us in our live.

Oh!. Mom your so kind and dad. I've always thankful for what you've done in me.

No problem sweety!. Your also kind and generous. So let go the past its already a past. Focus the future of yours.

OK mom. I'll do forget it soon.

It's good to know that sweety!.

Yhe!, mom I will. "and I kiss and hug mom. Before she living out. And she kiss and hug back."

OK sweety!, I'm living now bye! bye! .

OK mom. Bye! bye!. Take good care and dad also.

"I'm alone now. And I don't have work because it's my day of. So I decided to clean the house and doing laundry."

"The times past. I finished clean the house and the laundry. I feel hungry so cooked food and I finish to cook I started to eat. And I'm so full. So I decided to take some walk."

"from the house I started the walk. I don't have an idea where I can go. so I choice my feet where it can bring me."

"a few minutes walking I see a plaza. And beside its a see. I going in the see and get some rest. I seat In the chair and watching the blue sea."

"the see is calm and the fresh air is so good."

"I wish!. I am like a bird. There's not thinking a problem, they free to fly when ever they want. They eat when they feel Hungry. Not like my past its so painful."

"THE PAST .20 years."

"Mom! Mom!. Don't leave me. I don't have anything. It's only you mom!."

"my mom is died. Im 5 years old that time. She didn't say anything even who's my father. She didn't tell anyone ot to me."

"but I don't mind it. I always cry that time because mom leave me. My aunty and uncle hates me. The don't like to accept me. They're all abandoned me after mom last funeral."

"I don't have home. I don't have what to do because I'm only kid that time. Tha time they abandoned me. I left on the street in how many years."

"I lived in the streets. I'm not the only one in the streets. They are many kids too no home they can't afford to buy there needs. Like me!. I feel jealous of them. even they are hopeless but they have a family with them. Not like me nobody else!."

"I try begging to the people I saw. They gave me food to exchange it I work to them. But they're not accept me because I'm only a kid."

"sometimes they have strangers and kind people. They gave me a food and clothes."

"sometimes I cried . If I feel miss my mom. Sometimes I trying to searching who's my dad. But I'm still kid I don't have enough for it."

"one day, the rains is strong dropping. And the wind is so strong too. And nowhere to take cover until I found a shelter. My body is wet, I seat in the floor. and I cover my all body. with my arms I fold my legs to cover my body. for better feel and more gave hot to my body. And I can't feel cold, but I can't imagine that time what happen to me. I cry that moment because I feel pity to my self. "

"Until my second parent who adopted me. They see me in the street I'm crying because it's have a typhoon that time. They ask me about my self and I say nobody likes me, nobody loves me, nobody wants me. They left me and abandoned me." and I cry louder "."

" they feel pity on me. I saw it in there eyes. "

If you want sweety!. You can come with us!.

"I look there I eyes, to make sure if they're saying a truth. I saw it the are not lie'ng they saying a truth."

It is ok with you?

Yes! Sweety. "the old man say."

OK!, I come with you!. "I smile and the old woman gave her hands. And I accept it. She pull up my hand."

"it's still raining and the wind is still strong. No cars around because the waters flooded in the road."

"but they have a good," Samaritan". He saw us. and they stop the "car, taxi", and ask where we going. And the old man Says the address of her house. "

Ok come inside. I take you there because it's to dangerous now!.

OK!, thank you!." and we come into the car. And they start to run. "

.. Few minutes..

We are here, sir!." driver say".

OK! Mr. Thank you again!. "the old man says".

"then both us get down in the car. And fast going inside the house."

"the old woman, take me to the couch."

Seat first. I find you a cloth to change. " honey you can make a food for us ok!."

OK honey!. No problem!. What if she take a shower first.

"uhm!", sounds good. Sweety!, if you like you can take a shower wile I'm looking a cloth."

" I response smiled only. because I little shy!. Then she got her finger in the wash room. "

" when I saw it. I Toward the bathroom. And take a shower. I feel good take a shower because while im in the streets. I'm not always take a shower. I take a long time to take s shower. The. "

Sweety!, how long have you been inside?.

" then I open the door. "

OK sweety!, here's your cloth. and make it faster. The food is ready.

" I smile to her. "

Ok let's go. We eat now!. "she bring me in the table."

"they serve me a food. And feed me too."

"I feel happiness that time. That how many years past I've never feel it again. The last time it happened when my mom is alive that time.im with mom."

"my tears flowed."

Are you OK sweety?. "the old woman ask me."

"I just nodded"

Maybe you want to tell a story we are ready to listen!.

"I smile to them!." I miss my mom!.

Where's your mom?.

She's already died. I don't know how many years past. I remember I'm 5 years old that time. but now I don't know how old I am!.

Ohhh!, sorry for that sweety!. "and she messed up my hair."

"I just nodded."

It's OK! To finish eating first. So you can sleep well.

" I just nodded again."

You can Tell us what is your name?. "the old man say it."

"uhhmm", they call me Dianne!.

"Owwww!! ", nice name Dianne!.

So!, I'm Sheila, and his Arthur. And you can call us mom and dad if you want

"the old woman say it."

"Uhhmm!", it is okey with you?.

Yup!, we are sure of it. " and there both smile."

"I smile too."

"We finished eating and headed to the bedroom."

"they have two bedroom. There is a one vacant room. And no one uses it."

"So she took me. to that vacant room. and she let me use it"

You will have a room from now on. And this room is yours.

Are you sure for it?.

Yes!. " and she nodded." fell at home sweety!.

Continue.......

"I woke up suddenly. Because I'm naughty. I thought, I'm just dreaming. But when I looked around me, it was true."

"Everything I thought was true. It's just a dream."

I've Made a decision, get going downstairs. And I caught up with them mom and dad in the Living Room."

O'h, sweety!. You re awake now. Come here eat your Breck fast.

"I nodded to her."

"From that day on I was considered their real child. They cared for, loved and educated me. Until now, mother, they still take care of me."

Reality......

"I heard a voice so. So I woke up in being stupid."

Are you crying lady? "He handed me a handkerchief". "

"I looked at him first. before taking the handkerchief."

Thank you!.

"I feel him. His kind so I allowed him to talking with me."

Can I seat here?.

Sure you can!.

So why are you crying?.

Nothing for it it's a past already.

Oh!, I see.

Then!, what are you doing here?.

I've nothing to do so, I take a walk and I see this place. So I take a look over the sea.

Yes you are right. This place make you realize. If you are lonely. I've always here too if I'm lonely. Guess what I've always sitting here!.

Oh!, really so you come now because your lonely?.

Yup!, and I saw your crying.

I'm sorry if I took your seat.

No problem!.

"I didn't feel ashamed of him. so I thought about talking to him."

Uhm, so why your feel lonely?

Uhm! Little while a goo yes but now no!

Why?. It's so fast gone!.

Yes, because I saw you! I'm not feel alone.

Oh!, I see!

Can we be a friend?..

Uhm! Sure, but I'm a busy person I can't go anywhere so we don't always meet.

It's OK me too, busy person.

OK nice meeting you!. I'm Dianne I need to go!.

Nice meeting you too Dianne. I'm Carl

"I left him. Because I remember it's already dark. Mom and Dad got home in a few minutes."

"while I'm walking. I remember what happened while a go. I feel happy if you know someone can understand your feelings. And Carl too his feel like what I feel."

"I got home, from a short walking and saw a viewing around."

"mom and dad it's not home yet so I decided to cook for dinner. While I'm cooking mom and dad got home."

"Knock! knock!" "I heard someone knocking the door. I tough it's mam and dad. So I open it."

HI sweety!

Hello mom and Dad. How's your day?

It's fine even it's feeling tired.

Uhm. I said it you don't need to work had. I've already doing job. So you need to take a rest here in the house feel" chelax!."

Sweety You know how long we've been doing this. So we can't help but do it even when we are old." dad say it"

" I didn't say anything. I've always say it to theme. But they always say like that. So I keep silent about it."

OK dad!. So let eat dinner.

Oh, sweety your so sweet. Let's go! "He messed up my hair."

"I prepared the plates, spoon, glasses and the food. And now we started to eat dinner."

"because of my day off. We can eat together."

"I'm on my way to my work. I use walk only because we are not reach. But mom and dad can afford my tuition fee of my school college that time. So I don't need a car. I need is finishing study that's all."

"while I'm walking. They have car stop in beside in me. He open the car window and I saw Cal."

Hey! Dianne come inside I drop you off in your work.

"I feel his a good person so I Come inside the car."

"I nodded him"

Nice to see you again.

Me too!.

So where's your work?

In st. Lou, hospital.

Oh, that place ok.

Why?, what's the problem?

Uhm!, nothing

Really or do you have business there?

Uhm!, actually the owner of it is my close family.

Oh!, sounds good.

Yhe! I think I can always visit you there if you don't mind.

Uhm! It's ok no problem.

Really sure of it?.

Yhe! I am.

OK! OK! I visit you there!

"he stop the car in front of the hospital. And I step out in the car."

Thank you again Carl.

"he nodded and smile in me"

"I waited for him to get away before I went inside the hospital then my friends saw it what happen while ago."

Dianne, whose that man? "Mae ask it"

Uhm!, new friend.

Really? When you have a meet friend?, they have lots of boys here's and they like you. But you ignore them. " Lukas say it."

Yhe! When that happen girl? "Abby ask it"

I meet yesterday in the park.

Oh!, really yesterday how he fast I you!.

Lukas!, he saw me in the street. Then he stop the car. And he said you ride I'll take you to your work.

OK! OK! No comment it. " Mae say it".

" they both keep silent when I tell them the story. Because they know I use walking than use transportation. Because if I use taxi and jeepney it so traffic Im late in my work."

Uhm!, you understand it all?. So let's go to work now.

"they us get going to the locker room, and preparing for work. And doing sign in the log book."

"I've start my work".

"I have a patients a cute baby. Every time he smile me and i feel happy too."

"I like work in nursery department because I like children's".

"shes a premature baby, I taking care it in 4 hours. Then rotate in nursery room after In" ICU".

"when I saw this baby, her name is Nathalie, 6 months old. She's my first patient until now we are still here together."

"shes strong baby. Because I believe she can survive. And I will do everything that she live long life."

"I treat the same to my patients. But who wants more need the attention. I more focused to them".

"the time past to take care of Nathalie. Her mom is there to. I take care the medicine of Nathalie and her mom the rest. Sometimes I carry Nathalie and she make smile. I feel she's my little angel".

"The way she look at me and smile. I feel like my life is full of happiness. And that is my life now".

"because I have new life. And new future with the kids here in the hospital. They are my 3rd family. I feel every excited to come here in work. Because I feel they need me. That's why sometimes I rimember my past. I'm hopeless that time. And now I'm here they from od them because I know they need me here! ".

" not like my past. What If mom and dad didn't saw me. In the street what I am doing now. And what is my life now".

"i feel I like to theme. Needed a new life but in defferent ways. Me in the street I need someone to care of me. But nobody if I didn't survive Im sure I'm died already in the street. And theme in the hospital they are someone taking care of theme".

"they support there needs. They import need is they survive. If they can't survive. They're died.".

"because of that I feel thankful. Because I'm still living in this world. I have job. House, I can buy of what I like, and food. I can eat what I want."

"I'm so very blessed I have a send family. And they love me so much. So can't pay back theme in a money. But I can pay back to theme to taking care it the time come."

"Nathalie is crying, so I put it back and feed her. Then she fall sleep".

"and my Breck time is come. I said goodbye to Nathalie mother. And she nodded In me. So I'll get going out in the" ICU" room. And I get going to the lucker for take rest in a while. "

" I little tired. So a Take a rest first in my nurses resting room. I thinking I want take a nap. Before going out to buy food".

"I have 2hrs Breck because I am Over Time. That's wy I have long break time. Because the other nurse is absent so need to do a Over Time".

"I take a nap, then I wake up because I heard someone calling my name. And it's Kristina my best friend".

"she opened the door and start make a noise".

Dianne, I knew it!. I can find you here!

Uhm, why? What you want?

Uhm someone need to see you?

Uhm, who is he, she??

I think you need to see him outside!.

Him?

"Nathalie nodded"

Uh! I gues its Carl.

Who's Carl?

Never mind it.

Oh! Common Dianne.

Yhe!, I know what you meant. But later ok!.

OK!.

"I fixed my self first before I going out. I left Nathalie".

" I get going in the whole way because Nathalie didn't mintion where the man waiting in me. I can't find him where he is. So I decided to go in left side door. Where Carl drop me".

"and I saw it. It's Carl"

Hey Carl what brought you here?

Uhm, nothing I bring you food.

Oh really why?

I just like to buy you a food.

"then he get a pack of food inside the Car. And he gave it to me.".

"I accept it".

Thank you! If you want you can joined me it eat.

It's OK! I'm already full.

OK, thank you again Carl!.

Uhm!, Dianne can I ask you a favor?

Yes sure say it.

Can I invite you a dinner later?

Uhm, actually I have over time now. So I still have work.

Uhm. I visit you later and we eat together.

Sure, Why not!.

So!, I get going inside I have Manny things to do.

OK sure!, I'll get going to

"He rais his hand and he wave it".

"I rais my hands too and wave him. For say goodbye".

"then I got to the locker room. And they have small table in the side. I saet there and eat the food. Because I don't need to go out and buy food it's I have already food."

"I finished my break time. Then I going on my way to my next schedule. While I'm in the whole way Kristina saw me. And she ca me"

Dianne! What happened about the man?

It's fine!, he brought me a food.

Oh, really? How sweet! And there's something between the two of you?

Uhm! Nothing. I think it's just a friend. Or he wants me to be her friend.

Oh, Really only like that?. What if he wants you to be her "girlfriend ".

I don't mind that Kristina. I meet him last day.

I'm just saying only if what if?. Your so defend him.

Not like that Kristina! But if that happened she his a good person why not!, and he accept me too of what I am.

OK fine! I'm satisfied your explanation, "and she smile"

So!, you didn't bothered me again about this?

Not sure!, Dianne it's depend the situation either

Ow! You're so annoying Kristina

"and they both laughed"

Then I'll get going Kristina I need to start my job

OK Dianne,! see you around

OK or maybe we eat together with Carl.

Really?, but I feel like I'm a third wheel

"hahahaha" your so annoying again. They are not couple to think like that Kristina, " I rolled my eyes"

OK fine!, I joined with you later

OK good

The see you later! " and I start walk and open the door of nursery room".

"they have a new born baby. He's a healthy baby but under observation because his body color is not normal. I focus the baby boy. And her mother is not yet her, because her all strength is gone. She need to recover first. An her daddy is taking care her wife. So baby now is alone. My co-worker said it. That's why I focus her, to feed, and change diaper. I'm happy if I'll do things like this"

"sometimes I remember I hope my real mom if she still a live I'll to things like this I take care of her. I'll do what she doing while I'm a baby. And my mother is she's not here with me anymore. So I focus the kids to take care the most"

"because the other kids here, there's mom or dad is with him or her. So that's why I monitor only and chek the status only".

"the Time past, I need to go in the other room. Like nursery but they have ah special sickness"

"not to much work for them. Because there mothers is with us. I only chek them and observe there healthy or Not. I talk to other mom If I feel bored. They're a good parents too. So that's why I'm not shy to talk to them".

The past again for the day. E feel hungry and it's my time to for the break time. I'm off for my job now. And to find Kristina or she's already waiting at me.

I've already in locker area. I wait for the second if Kristina come here and pick me here!. Few minutes pass and shes not yet come. So i try to call here! And her number is busy. I thought shes still have work so I decided to go out. Because I feel so hungry, then I saw theme Kristina and Carl they are talking. And I make someh noise.

"urgh!, kristina your already here?."

" ohh!, sorry Dianne, I saw Carl here already so talking to him. "

"that's not the problem here, Kristina! I'll be waiting at in you in locker room then I call you how Manny times. But you didn't pick up the call."

Kristina hug me tight. "I'm sorry besh I was so careless, I almost forgot you!."

"Forget it. It's already past, your so annoying me again. "

"I know! but I'm so sorry, again." she kiss me in my cheek.

Then I look to Carl. And he smile at me.

"oh! Sorry for the long waiting on me. Uhm! It's ok for you if kristina joining with us. I inviting her because she's annoying me about you."

"it's ok, and she already told me you invite her, so let's go!."

Kristina, smile wide at me.

I rolled my eyes to kristina, your annoying me again. I look back to Carl and i nodded him. Kristina and me getting inside the car. And Carl has already started running the car. Few minutes he stop the car in front of a exclusive restaurant. I amazed the view of the restaurant its so elegant.

"where here!" Carl say it when he stop the car.

Then we start get off in the car and get going inside the restaurant. I still amazed even where already inside the restaurant. So beautiful, the decoration, the things inside the restaurant.

Free to call me what you want to call me. But I'm not ignorant of all things. But yes this is my firstime to eat in the super exclusive restaurant.

I'm not rich enough, to eat like this kind of restaurant. My friends invited me a dinner in a class restaurant but not like this. I thought they don't have like this restaurant. I thought when my friends bring me in the exclusive restaurant that is enough class restaurant. Then I saw this kinds of restaurants so that's why I feel amazed.

I wake up my stupid thinking, when Kristina call my name.

"Dianne, are you OK?."

"Yhe!, I'm fine. Just to much in my mind thinking a stupid things." and I smiled them.

"then!, what is your order?."

"uhm!, garlic chicken."

"ok!, me is salted shrimp."

Then! I ask, Carl. "how about you what your order?."