Life in Darkness

"Daddy! I really like this dress! "

"It's great that you enjoy it."

Shanna smirked at me, so I turned away and went about my job.

What else am I doing here?

Because of my family?

Ha-ha-ha!

Sheena, you are hilarious.

Your parents don't love you, not even your twin. No one knows who you are. I was just shaking my head with my thoughts. Sincerely, I can't help but feel hurt.

Who would be happy if your parents didn't love you? They can't even look at me.

I've never even gone out with friends. I also lacked study skills. If it hadn't been for Mother Esme, I might not have learned to speak, write, or read.

I feel like I'm in hell.

I'm not permitted to leave the house. Because if I go out, they will punish me. They did not feed me for a week.

They are cruel to me, but I endure because I love them. But are they? Do they love me, or do they only love me once they hurt me?

They've been around me since I was a child. My mother, Esme, was the only person who looked after me and taught me proper manners.

Their rage only grew because of an accident in which they blamed me for something I did not do.

For nearly thirteen years, I've been through hell with them. I was on the verge of giving up, but I kept going.

I want to be free, free of their own world, free of their pain and misery. Because I know I don't belong in their world.

Just be patient, Sheena;You can be free, too.

"Sheena! The Israelis have arrived! They're handsome! " Tina said. My only friend, who is also Carlos' maid,

Along with everything else that my twin should do, I consider her a sister.

"Your twin is getting married?! That's really annoying! Shanna thinks she's a wonderful daughter, psh! "

I just laughed at her because, aside from Mother Esme, she is the only person who is aware of my life's problems.

"You two, hurry because Shanna's fiance is already there with his parents," Mother Esme said, her eyes fixed on me.

I just smiled at her, as if to say, "I'm fine because I'm used to it."

which is true. I'm always fine.

I wore a face mask and a hat, so no one could see my face. This is also what my parents advised me to do. They don't want anyone to know that Shanna has a twin, who is me.

I came out and bowed slightly as I served the guests. I could hear the visitor's laughter right away.

I took a deep breath and leaned over to Mother Esme, who was waiting on the side.

"When is the wedding?" Dad asked, a smile on his face.

He is the one to marry my twin.

How did I get to know him?

It's easy because I always hear Sir Ezrael coming from Shanna's mouth.

"I'm not sure, hey son?"

Mr. Ezrael called his son, Giovanni, who was staring at me.

Oh, my goodness!

I bowed right away. I'm terrified.

Maybe he saw my face and thought my parents would be angry.

"Hey, babe, Uncle called!"

He shifted his focus away from me and toward my twin. He smiled and turned to face everyone.

"Next month," he stated solemnly.

I took a deep breath and looked at them again, but it was a dangerous move because my father's gaze had already landed on me, so I simply bowed down.

I was afraid that I would be punished again.

My wounds are only now slowly healing.

"Wait, where's your twin Shanna?" questioned Ezrael's youngest daughter.

My eyes widened at her question, and almost both of my mothers, Esme and Tina, were taken aback.

I wasn't sure how I would react because I felt like my family was staring at me.

even though I froze.

How did she find out? She can't possibly know who I am.

"H-Huh? I don't have a twin, "Shanna replied.

I closed my eyes and clenched my fists.

I bit my lower lip so hard because I'm used to them not allowing me to see anyone. Because nobody knows who I am.

"Yes, she is the only child," the dad confirmed.

I can already taste the blood on my lips because I bit them hard in pain.

"No! Where is she? I just want to see her! "

No, please. Stop doing it.

"Don't be stubborn, Aphrodite!" yelled their father, but Aphrodite became even more irritated and left without saying anything.

"Sorry," Mr. Ezrael.

"It's okay, Shanna doesn't have twins, she's our only child," Dad said firmly, as they continued talking, but I knew Shanna and Mom disliked me.

It appears to be my fault once again.

Prepare for your punishment, ha ha ha...

Sheena, are you ready?

What will be your punishment imposed on you?

I chuckled. What else could I expect from them?

Will they sympathize with me? No way! They have no sympathy. While I'm in pain, they're even happier.

Others may have thought they were a happy family. Let's say yes, because they are a full family, even without me!

I once wondered, "Why was this my fate?" Is it possible that I made a mistake in my past life? It's possible that I made a mistake in making them feel as if they didn't consider me a child. Is it possible that I'm a troubled child?

I love them because they are my family, but do they still consider me a member of the family?

I can't help feeling sad because some people have happy families, even if they're not wealthy or poor.

Unlike me, I have a family, but they treat me like trash.

"OPEN THE DOOR, Sheena!"

Before opening the door, I wiped away my tears and took a deep breath.

Shanna slapped me hard and gripped my jaw, allowing her to see my face.

"How did Aphrodite know I had twins?" She snarled.

I shook my head, but then she let go of my jaw and slapped me twice more. No, maybe five times.

My cheeks are numb, but I'm still mute.

Rule #2 prohibits responding to them.

When they hurt me, I accept all the pain that comes with it.

"Perhaps she saw your face?"

I shook once again, but she kicked me in the stomach so hard that I writhed in pain.

"Just make sure, my lovely twin, we won't consider you family! And as long as you're alive, you hide in my shadow, "she said, laughing and blowing smoke in front of my face.

"Shanna."

She stopped, and my eyes widened as she burned herself, so I did nothing to intervene. I am already aware.

"D-dad, she's hurting me... look."

She sobbed as Shanna showed our father the burn. I just bit my lower lip and closed my eyes.

Sheena, you're an idiot!

Let your voice be heard!

"Fuck! Sheena!" Dad yelled, and I knew what he meant.

I'm going to get a room where I will be punished. As they followed me, I just bowed and went into a room.

When we arrived, I seemed to want to escape until they couldn't find me.

"You haven't learned your lesson, have you? Murderer! I don't want my daughter to be hurt! " Dad yelled as he hit me.

I can't help but cry and try to stop the pain because I'm in even more pain right now. I wish I had gone just to make sure they were satisfied.

I can't do it any longer, and I'm ready to give up.

"They've arrived, darling."

Dad stopped, and I only heard a few footsteps approaching my seat.

"She's our maid; do whatever you want with her; I'll pay double," mom told those present.

"Is this what you're going to ask us to do, M-Madam?"

"Yes."

"But, M-Madam..."

"Do it or I'll kill you."

What I heard made my eyes widen.

Why are there three men here?! What does this mean?!

I had the impression that they had stripped me naked.

Damn it.

Even though I fainted, I pulled over to the side. What will they do to me?

"Go! Do it! I'll watch! " I can feel my twin's excitement.

The men approached me, but one of them was still hesitant.

"W-What are you going to do? Don't p-please... " I begged them while crying, but they didn't listen.

(Cut..)

I was stunned and collapsed on the floor, sobbing with bitterness, pain, and anger.

Why did they do that to me? How can they stand by and watch their daughter beg in front of men?!? Is this how they truly despise me?

They dumped me here, on the same level as trash, on the ground.My mind was blank, and all I could hear were their moans.

I covered my ears with my hands as I sobbed.

I'm filthy.

I already despise myself.

They are damned to hell!

"Poor you, Twin. You're a dirty woman. No one will acknowledge you. Shut your fucking mouth. "

Shanna spit at me as she walked away.

I just sobbed and hugged myself. I couldn't take it any longer; my entire being had been ruined. No one will accept someone as disgusting as me. They'll despise me.

"Oh my gosh, Sheena!"

My mother, Esme, gave me a hug. I burst into tears even more. I felt the love of a mother with her.

"I-I c-can't do it any longer."

-

The Ezraels simply returned to their mansion, unnoticed.

because their youngest couldn't understand what they were saying.

'To whom is Aphrodite referring?' That is all that is going through Giovanni's head.

Earlier, he seemed to have a different point of view of his fiance's family, particularly after having caught them looking intently at one of their maids who was wearing a face mask and a hat. He had a distinct feeling earlier when he stared at that woman.

"You were wrong earlier, Aphrodite! You're looking for nothing! "their father yelled angrily.

"No, Dad! I can't be wrong! There's something wrong with that family! "an irritated Aphrodite exclaimed.

According to Aphrodite, the aura of that mansion was different.

She also does not want Shanna to be her sister-in-law. That bitch.

"They don't have any other child, dear; it's just Shanna and your older brother will marry her," Gion explained calmly.

"No! They're lying! When I was young, when Shanna had her birthday, I wanted to go around their house because it was too creepy! And then I saw her twin! Because she looks like her but has an unfamiliar face, yes! They look alike, but you can't see that person happy! I wanted her to be my friend before, but I haven't seen her yet! " "Aphrodite she exclaimed angrily to her family.

She didn't care if what she had done was disrespectful because she was irritated; she knew it was wrong with Carlos' actions.

"Are you sure?" Giovanni confirmed this, and she nodded immediately.

So Giovanni quickly dialed a P.I.

"Come back here tomorrow, and I'll have you do something."

He had been curious if Shanna's twin was wearing a face mask.

He wanted to be certain.

-

SHEENA

For several days, I was confined to Mother Esme's room.

After that night, I had nightmares for a few days.

where they dumped me like garbage. No matter how many times I clean my body, a dirty person like me will never be clean again.

It's okay if I disappear.

They may even be satisfied. They might even be relieved that I was slowly dying.

They're my family, right? But why would they treat me like this? Do I deserve this pain?

This is excessive. Too much pain.

"Sheena, eat that; you haven't eaten in a few days; don't do this to yourself," she says.

I've been acting like an idiot for a few days now, and I can't speak properly because I'm afraid they're all going to hurt me.

I'm worried that what happened that night will happen again.

I don't want anyone touching or sticking to me.

Is it possible that I'm insane? I'd rather go insane than rot in this hellhole.

"I feel bad for Sheena; can't we just get her out of here? They're torturing her too much! "

"Tina, don't you want us to be ruined? And she'll be even more destroyed if we leave her and Sheena with nowhere to go. "

"However, mom..."

"Tina, just come here first and feed Sheena, okay?"

I bowed and hugged myself. I don't want to hurt them, but I can't speak to people right now.

I also do not want them to be involved in what is going on in this family. I don't want them to be harmed.

They left me in this dark room once they realized I needed to be alone. This is my existence! I live in a dark world known as hell.

It brought back memories of just how my life had been hell for them, how they had hurt me repeatedly, how they had beaten me.

I want to vanish to put an end to it all. I want to lose, so I won't have to go through all of this.

I stopped when I saw scissors and grabbed them. I brought it up to my wrist and slowly injured it until the red liquid oozed out.

I smiled as I exhaled a sigh of relief. My life is finally drawing to a close.

"Sheena, OH MY GOD! STOP! "

I was stunned when I noticed Tina had caught the scissors I must've been holding. I sat down, panting.

"What are you, Sheena? Do you want to die? "

When I saw her angry eyes, I hugged myself because I knew I'd be punished again.

"I'm sorry! Please don't punish me! " I cried as I hugged myself.

"Oh, my gosh! Sheena! " I just felt her hug me, and all I could do was cry.

Why am I still going through this? My pain would be over if only I could completely disappear.

-

APHRODITE

"Omg, Babe! Is this real? "

Tsk, I just rolled my eyes at her.

What makes my older brother want to marry her? Tsk. Obviously, her family seems like money.

She said sweetly, "Hello, sister-in-law," but I just glared at her, though I simply smiled.

"Yuck, I'll never accept you as my sister-in-law," I said, smiling. Brother Vanni scolded me right away.

"B-Babe... She doesn't like me," Shanna cried, telling my older brother Vanni that she was clearly acting tsk.

"You know, bitch, don't make fun of me, okay? We're not in the TV dramas! Besides, I already know that job, "I said to her, looking at her.

"Do you know what I don't like at all?" I asked, smiling as I noticed her turn pale.

I smirked as she became even paler.

"The one who seems like money and a liar," I said, smirking, as she turned even paler.

"Aphrodite,"

I simply rolled my eyes at my brother.

"Whatever," I sighed as I made my way to my room.

I have a feeling the family is keeping something from us!

They will, alas, taste the Ezrael deluge! I can't wait for Shanna and her family to leave our lives.

"Sheena! GET OUT! What Is That Drama? "

"Sheila, Sheena needs to rest first,"

"I DON'T CARE! GET HER OUT! "

"But-"

"Are you deaf? Get that flirty out! "

"Sheena isn't feeling well."

"What? Do you want to be hurt? "

I heard the screams and covered my ears.

Is this the feeling of death? I shuddered as I heard a loud knock on the door.

Badump... Badump... Badump...

They have already arrived.

'Oh My God'

I close my eyes as my entire body trembles and I hug myself against the wall.

"OPEN THE DAMN DOOR, Sheena!!"

"Come out, Sheena; mommy won't hurt you."

I do not also want to

You're bad!

"SHEENA!"

I burst into tears and covered my mouth so they couldn't hear what I was saying. They are only a few steps away from me.

Badump, Badump, Badump...

"SHEENA!"

The door swung open, and quick footsteps approached, pulling me upright.

"Don't make fun of us!" my twin yelled, clutching my arm tightly.

"P-Please... Don't..." I cried to her, but instead of feeling sorry for me, Shanna hit me hard, causing me to sit down and cry.

"Get dressed! A visitor is coming! Get ready! " She yelled at me before walking away.

"Sheena, get dressed, okay? Someone is going to buy you, so you have to look good in front of them, "mommy said softly to me as she smiled and exited my room.

When I understood everything she said, I had to wipe away my tears. This life is a mess! Isn't it still enough for them to torture me? They punished and hurt me. Then what now? They've sold me?!

What else is there? What else should I go through at their hands?!

Go!! makes me suffer even more!

Until you're satisfied, I gave up everything.

-

When Shanna was fixing me, she kept smiling in front of me, as if she truly considered me a sister.

Does she not have a heart? Aren't our lives intertwined? But why is she treating me that way? Why is she so angry with me?

"We're done! Oh my! Even if you're a dirty woman or a flirt, someone will buy you! "She chuckled insultingly at me and firmly slapped my face.

"You're so ugly! You don't belong in a Carlos! Like duh! You look like trash! You're a trash thing! " She laughed, so I bowed down and said nothing.

Perhaps I'll be punished again if I speak.

"Just be obedient and kind. I promise I won't hurt you, and a wealthy old man paid for you! "

My world stopped when she said that. They sold me to a wealthy old man? Is there truly no mercy for them? Are they never going to change?

I was completely taken aback and burst out laughing...

They show no mercy... They're already abusing me; what else can they do? They're monstrous.

"Shanna, darling, hurry, the guests have already arrived," mom said, and Shanna nodded, excited about what was about to happen.

"Sheena,"

I turned to look at Mother Esme and Tina, who were concerned about my well-being.

"I'm sorry I can't help you," Mother Esme admitted sadly.

I gave her a sad smile.

"Perhaps it's my destiny, Mom," I said as she shook her head and stroked my hair.

"There's still hope that you'll come out of this room in a few seconds to be picked up by the old man who will buy you," she cried and hugged me, even though Tina joined us in our embrace.

"We'll get you out of here,"

Tina's words to me surprised me. I couldn't believe it when I looked at them in surprise.

"My child is correct. You cannot live in misery; you must be free from the hell of this life... " Mother Esme sobbed while hugging me, rendering me speechless in front of the mirror.

They could be killed if they let me out. I'm aware of what my family is capable of, and I don't want them to be involved in what's going on with me. I don't want them to hurt me the way they do.

"Don't worry, Sheena. We'll take care of how you escape later, " Tina said, smiling as if to tell me to trust them.

I'm not sure whether I'll be happy or nervous about what they want to do. I'm glad even though I finally have hope that I'll be free in this life of mine. Or fear because they are in danger, and my parents can kill them. They can inflict pain on others.

Not at all. I will not put their lives in danger just because of me.

"Mom, Tina. I accept my fate, so don't risk your life just for me. Assure me you can leave this hellish house. Don't worry about me, I can still do this, "I said with a smile. I went to them and simply patted them on the back.

We're the same from every angle; eyes, nose, and lips. We have the same characteristics.

Except for her hair, which is naturally curly and dark, mine is long and straight and not nearly as dark. And it's because of this face that I've been hiding in my twin's shadow. In addition, this face is the source of my pain.

My eyes welled up. The tears were full of resentment, hatred, and bitterness.

Is there a day when I, too, will be free? And see the real world?

Tina told me that the world is as beautiful and colorful as she said.

where you can make a lot of real, fake, and user friends

Mother Esme always says that the world isn't fair because people aren't equal. Some are poor, some are wealthy, and some are unlucky.

What makes that unfair? Why can't everyone be treated equally? Why not be satisfied with what you have?

There would have been no hardships, and no crimes might have existed. There would have been no evil people who would have done anything against him.

And there would be no slaves, but what would make me different from others?

I, too, am a slave who is abused, exploited, and punished.

They can play with me because I am a slave.

Is it possible for me to live normally again?

Those who go through childhood and engage in street games, as well as those who go through virginity and have a 'crush' or boyfriend.

I'm not yet sure if I'll be jealous of other people because they didn't go through what I did, or if they're really lucky because their family isn't like mine, because what if they've seen it all? There, I can say that I am not the only one who can get through what others cannot.

"Sheena, it's time," Shanna said, smiling as she leaned against the door.

My twin is blessed in every way. My mom and dad and many of his friends adored her and anything else she could get her hands on.

Not at all like me... Her twin's life is a living hell.

"I'll follow you," I said hesitantly, forcing a smile.

She simply rolled her eyes and walked away.

"Are you certain about what you're going to do, Sheena?" Mother Esme inquired.

I held her hand and said, "I'm fine," even though I wasn't.

I'm concerned about what might happen to me tonight.

But I have to face everything. Faced with the darkness, This might be my last chance.