LOVE, SCARS AND REVENGE

NICOLE'S POV

I sat at the dinning hall with my roommate, having a nasty breakfast as usual. I was concentrating on my lousy food but it feels like I have eyes on me. I looked around the hall and I was right, Shelly and her girls are throwing daggers with their eyes.

When I first arrived here, she was in charge and she was a bully... The first thing she tried to do was to dominate me but I didn't allow it and I became her number one enemy but I don't mind because I am fucked up in the head and I need somewhere to vent.

I don't mind a little challenge and fight every now and then but not today, for the last six months, I have been a delinquent in here but lately, I have a new focus or should I say a distraction. Something else that excites me other than having a fight...

From the corner of my eyes, I saw Shelly and her crew stand up and I know they are coming to pick a fight, ordinarily I wouldn't mind but today is not the day.

"Shit." I cursed when I remembered that my roommate Ruth is seated beside me and she can't fight.

"What's wrong?"

"Get ready to run, Shelly and her girls are coming." I sat upright as I mentally calculated how many more steps it will take before they get to me.

"Okay."

At this point, I paid no mind to Ruth, I just wanted to make sure that Shelly doesn't take me unaware... Just as I felt her presence behind me, I carried my plate of oatmeal and dumped it on her face with one swift motion.

"Fuck you bitch." Shelly screamed as she suddenly brought out a knife.

I briefly wondered how she smuggled out a knife from the kitchen but I didn't dwell on it as I maneuver her jab and held her hands.

"Argh." She screamed as I twisted her wrist till she let go of the knife and I immediately stepped on it before any of her minions could get a hold of it.

I wrapped my hand tightly on her dainty neck. "Bitch, the only reason you are still alive is because I need some form of entertainment in this godforsaken jail." I squeezed her neck even more as she tapped my hand so that I can let her go. "I have killed five grown ass men and that's not even the reason I am here, I am here only because I want to... So if you ever come to me with a weapon, you won't live to tell the story." I assured her as I pushed her away with force and she crashed to the ground with her minions.

Ordinarily, I wouldn't have let her go with one or two injuries but like I said, today is Thursday and for the last one month, it has become my favorite day and the day I looked forward to... My sentence was for six months but this is my eight month here and it's all because I am a nut case, so I was assigned a therapist and he is an eye candy, I look forward to talking and hanging with him every Thursday.

Jail now suck less since I started speaking to Asher. Well I don't talk much when I am with him, I just admire his beauty and tease him a little.

"Are you okay?" Ruth asked as soon as she returned to the table, I didn't even realize when she left in the middle of all that chaos.

"Of course, I am always fine. She's lucky I am in a good mood."

"I see, you really like him huh?" I blushed at her question as I pictured his perfect handsome face.

"No, I just like the fact that I get to do something different from my normal routine." I lied but not completely.

I hate routine and I hate being restricted and that's why I hate jail. To be honest, I hate a lot of things, like the bathroom and the dinning hall. I don't just hate the bathroom because of the bad state, or because of the nasty food... It's because in the last eight months of being here, I have had my most fights in the dinning hall and bathrooms and it's so fucking disgusting.

"Kingston 42." The warden called me and I couldn't hide the smile that spread across my face because I know that it means that it's time for my therapy.

"I will see you later Ruth."

"Have fun." She teased as I left and hurried to the warden that was waiting at the entrance of the dining hall.

"Come with me." She said grumpily before leading the way.

Jail is hades and I sometimes rue my stupid decision to come here and lay low but since last month, jail has become more suferable because I know that I will get to see the most handsome therapist in the world.

"You have one hour." The warden said immediately she led me to the door.

I have been here many times already and I know how long I have with the hot doctor, yet they keep reminding me.

"Come in." Asher's deep voice resonates from inside the office and it sent shivers down my spine.

I opened the door with a big smile on my face and sashayed into the office but something was wrong. Asher looked dull and maybe even sad.

I have never seen him in a foul mood before, he is always all smiling and he always lifts my spirits. Every time I come here, I always flirt and try to seduce him but he always turns me down even though I know he likes me too but I keep trying to get under his skin because I like how uncomfortable and flustered he gets whenever I make passes at him.

"Asher, are you okay?"

"No, yes. I mean no, I am not okay."

"I know you are the shrink but we are friends now, so feel free to tell me what's wrong." There is just something about his looks and mood that makes me a little worried.

"I ... Damn." He cursed and ran his hand through his thick black hair. "I want to fuck you."

ASHER'S POV

Fuck, I can't believe I said that out loud. Nicole is my patient and she's even in jail, why the fuck did I say that.

I feel so ashamed and disgusted with myself for even harbouring the thought, I can't deny that Nicole is sexy and tempting even in her orange uniform but I just buried my wife and here I am fantasizing over another lady... I am too ashamed to even look at her but I have to do my job and I can't do it by avoiding her gaze.

I looked at her but she doesn't look offended, rather she has a hint of smile on her face , damn she's pretty and she knows it.

"I'm really sorry for what I said, I wasn't thinking. Can you please sit and let's start?" I politely gestured to a chair across from mine.

"Of course handsome, whatever you want." She slurred before sitting with her legs crossed and all I can think of is what it will feel like to have her sexy legs wrapped around my waist.

"Hem." I cleared my throat. "You were sentenced for six months and you should have been out two months ago, why are you still here?" I wondered because I have been seeing her for a month now and I still don't know what's going on in her head.

According to her file, she's a delinquent. Shes always in trouble at least twice a week but the lady I have been talking to for the last four weeks is nothing like they described in the file, although I haven't been able to get her to actually talk yet.

"I don't want to leave."

That's a new one and I am surprised because in all my practice, I have never seen a prisoner that is not eager to leave.

"Why, don't you have family to go back to?" I am curious because according to the file, she has never received a visitor.

"I do and they are the reason I am here, staying in here means they will be safe and I am willing to sacrifice my freedom to keep them safe."

"So if I understand you correctly, you are purposely being problematic just to extend your stay?"

"Correct." Honestly this is new to me because I have had patients desperately begging and eager to leave because prison was fucking with their mental health. Some even offered to give me money so that I can recommend them to be out on parole.

"Can you explain to me why your family is in danger and why do you think staying in here is the best solution?"

"I don't like thinking about it but like I said a while ago, I will do anything you want." She paused and winked at me. "Six years ago, on my 20th birthday, I was having a birthday celebratory dinner with my parents and younger brother at home." Her eyes watered and I felt bad for asking. "Six men... Six masked armed men broke into the house and disrupted our dinner and life. We were so scared when they came in but we were ready to cooperate with them and we did, we gave them everything they asked for, every single thing and just when they were about to leave, the gang leader stopped because he wanted more."

Nicole paused and I know it's not funny but I almost laughed when she stubbornly cleaned her tears... She's obsessed with always wanting to be seen as tough but all I can see is just how cute she is.

"He grabbed me by the neck and held me against the wall with his left hand and with his right hand, he ripped my to shred. I screamed and my dad got up to help but he was shot by one of the gang members... I was standing naked with my back against the wall and his hand tightly wrapped around my neck then he ripped off my pants. I was so scared and I was crying as I looked at all the guys ogling at me. They were all masked and dressed in black, the only visible thing was the same tattoo they have on their forearm... My mom tried to help too but she was shot as well."

Tears was rolling down her cheeks like water fall and I feel so sad for her, she lost her parents in one night just like me.

"With no one left to stop him, he raped me mercilessly and took my virginity in front of all his guys and my baby brother. After they left, I promised to have my revenge even if it's the last thing I do. It took time but I did."

"I'm so sorry for everything you had to go through, it's terrible and you didn't deserve it but are you saying you went after them?" I asked because I don't really understand.

"Yes I went to every tattoo parlor in the city till I found the person that drew the tattoo for them, I got their information and realized that the are cultists, I went after them one after the other and I killed five of them, aside from the gang leader that raped me. I have looked everywhere but I can't find him, he must have heard that his gang members are dying enigmatically and he went into hiding but I won't give up because even as I am here, I have people on the outside looking for him."

Truthfully maybe I would have done the same thing, in my own case, my brother took laws into his own hands before I could do anything but I am confused because she wasn't convicted for murder, if she was, her sentence wouldn't have been six months.

"But you were not convicted for murder."

"Of course not, I killed the five of them personally and I did a clean job. The cops didn't get me for that, infact they didn't get me at all. I am here by choice... Look after I killed the fourth guy, I noticed that someone started digging into my life and I knew it was a matter of time before they find out who I am and find what's left of my family. So I started making research and I found out that in Florida, theft of property worth less than $750 is a misdemeanor punishable by up to 6 months in jail and a $500 fine, so that's why I am here, I stole." She smiled like all she just said is nothing.

I know I should be scared of her after everything I just heard but instead I am more tired and intrigued, she's interesting... I feel ashamed to admit it to myself but I want her badly.

"Wow, we will have to continue this next time cause your time is up." This is the most difficult time of every session I have with her, watching her leave.

"Sure." She got up and after staring at me for a while, she suddenly removed her orange top and I couldn't take my eyes off her perfect boobs.

"What are you doing?" I stared at her as she moved closer to me in just her nude color bra and orange trousers.

She claimed my lips and I didn't hesitate to kiss her back, fuck she smells so nice. How can she smell this nice in prison... I deepened the kiss and she placed my hands on her soft boobs and I just wish this moment won't come to an end but then she pulled away and wore her shirt back.

"Giving you something to think about it because next time, I want you to fuck me senseless."

"Kingston 42, it's time to leave." The warden arrived and took her away and I wish I can take her home instead, fuck.

NICOLE'S POV

As the warden led me back to my cell, I had a big smile on my face... I have wanted to kiss his perfect lips since the first time I saw him and he has never been more hurt than when he said he wanted to fuck me.

The statement was so unexpected and so unlike him, ordinarily I wouldhave jumped at the offer but he looked sad, like he regrets saying it but the way he kissed me back didn't seem like he regrets it. It was brief but very heated and it took all my will power to stop myself from going further... Damn he made me so horny.

"Someone looks happy." Ruth noted as soon as I entered the cell.

"Am I that obvious?"

"With the huge grin on your face, hell yeah." I laughed as I sat beside her on her bonk bed.

"Well this is the kind of smile you will have after kissing the hot doctor."

"You are so nasty, you are really going after him." Ruth said in disbelief.

"No I am not, he is already mine." I said confidently.

Because after everything those six bastards took from me six years ago, I no longer wait for things to be handed to me, I take whatever I want and as for right now, I want Asher.

"I don't doubt that, I just don't know why you are here. With all the power and class, you shouldn't be here." Ruth has been curious to know things about me since I became her cell mate but I can't tell her, I don't even like discussing my past with anyone.

Although the hot doctor got me spilling just by mentioning fuck, it was like I was under his spell.

"It's a boring story but just know that I am still here because I want to." I will leave when they find the last bastard standing because once I kill him, I am confident thaty family will be safe.

I climbed the top bonk and spent the rest of the afternoon laying in bed and fantasizing about my hot doctor. When I first saw him, he was so confident, bold but with time, I brought out the playful and friendly side of him but what I enjoy most is how flustered he gets when I flirt and tease him and I can't wait to get the fuck out of here and have full access to him.

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SATURDAY MORNING...

Yesterday was boring as hell and today will be even worse. Today is visiting day and Ruth is very hyped as usual, just like Thursday became my favorite day because of the hot doctor, Saturday is Ruth's favorite day because her parents and fiance usually comes to visit her everyday Saturday... I sat on my bonk bed as I watched her try to make herself look as beautiful as possible.

"You already look perfect Ruth." She's a very pretty lady besides she's in jail and she has no makeup, so what more can she possibly do.

"Are you sure?"

"Of course besides you were not this eager last weekend." I pointed out because last Saturday, she was usually chill.

"Well that's because I knew that Peter wasn't coming but he is coming today and I need to look good." Peter is her fiance and she's crazy about him.

"Well you look great already." I said as she started styling her hair again.

I stayed quiet and just watched as she kept on fixing herself even though it's totally unnecessary but knowing her, she won't stop until they are here.

"Benedict 84..." The warden called and Ruth got excited. " Kingston 42." The warden added and the smile on my face vanished.

"You have a visitor too?" Ruth asked as the warden started opening our gate.

"No this is probably a mix up." I have been here for eight months and I have never had a visitor...

I don't have any approved names on my list, I didn't even give my immediate family members for placement on the automated visiting record.

"There is no mix up Kingston but you can refuse to see the person if you want." She suggested but honestly, I am curious.

"No, I will come."

I am nervous but I am very curious, I have no approved visitors, yet I am stepping out of my cell for the first time since I got here on visiting day.

"I can't believe you have a visitor." Ruth held my hand excitedly as we left the cell together.

"I can't believe it too."

As soon as I got to the general visiting area, I saw a lot of inmates with their families talking and laughing and it feels weird to be here.

"Have fun Nicole, see you later." Ruth practically ran to her family while I stood at the same spot.

I looked around the hall, looking for a familiar face but to my surprise, my eyes landed on the last person I expected to see here... I took conscious steps closer till I got to his table but I still don't know why he is here.

"Hot doctor." I smiled and sat across him. " What are you doing here?"

"To see you."

"I can see that but why?"

"Well I know that you have never received a visitor since you got here and I just wanted to change that and..." He paused and looked around with a shy smile on his face. " Nothing."

He changed his mind and I am curious to know what is on his damn mind.

"It's sweet of you to come in as my guest just to make me feel good but there is more, this is not therapy, so you are free to say anything."

"I know, I am here because I miss you and I can't wait till Thursday to see you again."

"Well I am glad you are here, my hot doctor." He laughed and my entire body tingled.

I want him so bad, I need him...