PROLOGUE
Thump!
I hiss as my back hits the wall,Logan has me pined against it by the throat,his eyes darkening into a raging storm, swallowing their gold brown color.
"Answer me."
"Fu--ck...off." I strain when saying the words.
"Who the fuck did you let touch what's mine?" He nearly growls as he cups my most intimate part through my panties.
I glare at him.
"Fuck.You."
Instead of getting offended,he smirks.
"Wrong answer princess,but the pleasure is all mine."
Then he roughly lifts up my skirt, making the material bunch around my waist.
"W-what are you doing you bastard!" I hiss.
"Fucking the attitude out of you."
Then he slams his lips on mine, devouring me whole until I feel like I'll pass out due to lack of air.
CHAPTER ONE
MILLIE
Silence, Peace and Privacy. Those are the most important things to me. Amongst all my friends,i've always been the quiet one,the known to be shy girl,plain and reserved, who's always in the background and grabs zero attention because of her boring lifestyle. I don't mind all those things being said about me, people's opinions have never mattered to me so...whatever.
College life is addictive, people change when they go to college, even the most purest girls get tainted,sucked into the thick fog of life filled with alcohol,parties and sex. My friends Lia and Mia the twins, have never had problems with blending in, sometimes i wonder how i became friends with them,we are just freshmen in college but they seem to fit in like they've been here in like for-ever.
"Millie,are you even listening to me?"
"Huh?" I look up at Mia who's hand is hiked up on her hip.
The twins are gorgeous,Lia is slim with white smooth skin, blond hair and crystal blue eyes and Mia is on the curvy side,same eye color,natural blond hair but prefers dying it red. The two are identical to the T,minus the red hair,you wouldn't know who's who unless you get to know them extremely well. The only thing that would give them away is the slight body difference.
"See? I told you she's not here," Lia speaks while she files her perfect clean nails.
"I'm sorry,what were you saying?"
"I said there's a party happening tomorrow night,we should all go."
"I can't girls,i have to study."
"We all have to study Millie but we don't exaggerate like you do."
"Right..? Who studies like this in college?" Mia agrees.
"Me,i study like this in college."
"That doesn't mean you can't have fun Millie."
"We are going,like it or not,you can study today. We,can study today but tomorrow is night out night."
"Uh, Mia,there's no such thing as night out night," Lia points out.
"Well now it's a thing Lia,don't spoil the line,besides,it doesn't matter. All that does is we get to take miss pure and innocent here out with us."
I frown.
"Don't call me that."
"Yes,don't call her that."
"You call her virgin Mary Lia," Mia says with a bored expression.
"Okay! Whatever,i said it and i'll say it again, i will have sex at my own time,when it's the right time and that is when i get married."
"Arghhh!" They groan at the same time.
"Now, you said something about studying?" I smile up at them,they exchange looks and curse while they flop down on the sofa.
"Fine,let's get this over with," Lia says.
*The Next Morning*
"Millie,i'm proud of you,you did great on the last test."
"Thank you sir." I politely smile at the professor
"Logan," The professor says.
Heads start to turn.
"Where's Logan?"
"Not here," A student answers.
The professor takes off his spectacles,closes his eyes and pinches his nose bridge,then he sighs and puts them back on.
"Jaime?"
"Not here too."
"Alright,class dismissed."
He leaves and we all pack our books and walk out.
~Dorm~
Mia sighs and Lia moves her book further down her face to get a good look at her sister.
"You're doing it again Mia."
"Doing what?" She asks.
"That creepy thing of smiling to yourself and whispering."
"It's not creepy,it's love."
"Love?" Lia scoffs "Mia,you barely know the guy."
"I know enough."
"Yeah like? He's sexy,hot and famous?"
"He likes his coffee black,no sugar and takes it four times a day."
"Mia," Lia leans forward. "How do you know that? Have you been stalking him?"
"Not stalking sis,it's called interested, I,N,T,E-"
"Of course I know how to spell interested,but still,you know nothing personal about him,his family or background."
"I do know about his family and background," Mia frowns at Lia.
I ignore their bickering because i'm used to it already,it's kind of their own way of bonding i think. Weird but it makes sense somehow,by the way,i see nothing wrong with Mia falling in love,we have no right to judge anyway,what if this guy is a good g-
"Oh the fact that his family is mafia and he's a mafia prince?"
I choke on my saliva and cough uncontrollably, a hand pats my back and another hands me a glass of water. I take a sip and breathe in slowly.
"What...what did you just say?"
I look up at Lia with wide shocked eyes.
"About family?"
"No, about the guy Mia is in love with being-being a-a.."
"Oh! Yes, about him being a mafia prince?"
I gasp.
"Mia! A maf- a crime prince!?" I whisper yell.
"Mhmm," Lia hums.
"Lia,you don't need to be so forward about it,you're freaking Millie out,by the way,they are just rumors you know."
"Oh please,you and i both know they aren't just rumors," she pouts out her lips.
"Mia, you know i love you right?"
"I know where this is going." She folds her hands over her chest and rolls her eyes.
The twins are crazy and wild,but between the two,Mia is the craziest.
"You deserve love so so much but a mafia prince? Mm mm, you deserve better than a criminal and murderer."
"He's not a murderer you guys, whether the rumors are true or not,i still feel like he was meant for me,i like him and i'll accept him the way he is,good and bad."
"You know dad won't approve of such a guy right?"
"Oh,there it is, daddies perfect girl."
The room goes silent,I jump in to loosen the tension.
"Mia,this is not your last chance at love,you can still find someone el-"
"Okay,time out." She frowns. "I don't tell you guys who to associate with,i don't tell you who can break your virginity or you who to fuck every Friday."
Silence again. Lia opens and closes her mouth,not knowing what to say.
"Mia.." I say softly. "We just want you to be safe,we want to protect you."
"Well thanks very much,i'm a big girl,i can take care of myself."
Then she walks out of the room. I rub Lia's back and lean my head against hers.
"Don't worry, she'll come around."
"We are just concerned,we didn't mean to upset her,we just want to protect her right?"
"Yes,we did nothing wrong," I assure her.
* *Later* *
Mia has been avoiding us, It's been twenty two hrs since she last spoke to us,she's locked herself up in her dorm and hasn't let anyone in, including Taylor her roommate who is currently seated on my bed with a furious expression.
I look at Lia for help,she sighs and takes a seat next to Taylor trying to have a conversation. I leave the room and go to Mia's,as expected,the door is still locked from the inside.
"Mia?" I knock twice but receive silence in return.
"Mia come on, we're sorry okay? We didn't mean to upset you."
Silence.
"Mia come on," I knock again.
"Go away," She shouts back.
"No,I'm not going away, we're sorry and we miss you,it's not the same without you out here,so please come out. Pretty please?" I beg.
I hear footsteps and sigh.
"Promise you won't shame my feelings again? You won't talk bad about my potential future relationship."
"Okay fine,we won't talk about it but that doesn't mean we're okay with it, we'll let you decide though."
There's silence on the other side for a few minutes,then the doorknob turns and the door open.
"We miss you," I pout.
"Me too," she smiles.
Taylor peaks her head and sees the door open,she rushes out of my and Lia's room to hers and Mia's.
"Finally!" She squeezes her way in and curses in spanish.
I smile.
Taylor is a cool chick,but she's not in our group,she has her own friends too.
"I'm sorry for what i said earlier," Mia apologizes to both of us.
"It's okay Mia,it's in the past now," Lia smiles faintly.
"But no more using secrets as weapons against each other," I scold.
"Agreed," She says.
"Party tonight?" Lia rubs her palms together,i silently hope for a no from Mia,since she was mad but it doesn't happen.
"Let's do it."
Oh please! I groan.
Lia grabs my hand and pulls me to our room. It's going to be a long night.
MILLIE
"What?! No no no no," I start to turn away from the mirror.
"And where do you think you're going?" Lia blocks my way with her arms spread wide.
"I can't,nope I totally can't."
"Yes you can and you will."
"No,I'm not going in this,just look at me,I look ridiculous in thiss...thing," I pull down the elastic red dress down my thighs.
"Stop ruining the dress," Mia slaps my hand away and turns me around to face the mirror.
"I'm seriously not wearing this you guys,I'm almost naked."
"That's the point, we're in college and you need to look sexy."
I look at myself again, smoky eyeshadow,short red strapless dress,red lipstick and hair gathered up in a high tight ponytail.
"Mm mm," I shake my head and turn to my suitcase.
The girls groan and lift their hands up in surrender.
"Fine,but at least choose something that will do you some justice."
"That's if she has any," Mia points out.
I roll my eyes and shimmy out of the dress then hand it back to Lia.
"Thank you,if I'm going then I'll have to do me."
"Fine,just do you."
I throw on a pair of blue jeans and a t-shirt which reads "I must be out of my mind." Then I tie my hair in a low loose ponytail and wipe off the lipstick,going for lipgloss. I'm about to wipe off the eyeshadow when a hand stops me.
"Uh uh,what do you think you're doing? The eyeshadow stays," Mia says firmly.
"But-"
"The eyeshadow stays," Lia supports.
"Fine, I'll keep the eyeshadow on this time."
After we finish dressing up,we head out.
* *The Party* *
The place is packed,it's just outside but there's a lot of people.
"Come on,let's go inside."
"Why don't we just stick around outside?" I say nervously.
"What's the point of coming if we are going to stay outside?" Lia pops her gum.
"It looks too crowded inside."
"Come on,don't be such a party pooper," Lia drags me inside.
If I said it was crowded inside,then I didn't say it right. The house is packed to the fullest,full of people dancing, playing games and drinking. Oh,making out too, in public,ew.
"Mia!" A girl from Art waves her over,she waves back and turns to us.
"That's my project partner,I'll be right back."
"Okay," I say.
"Come on,let's loosen up a bit," Lia drags me through the people. Almost everyone we come across says hi to her since she's the dorm captain.
She comes to a halt in front of a container where red cups are flipped downwards next to it. She pours the contents in two cups and hands one to me.
"What's this?" I take a sniff and my nostrils burn, scrunching my nose,i hand the cup back yo her. "Take it,I'm not drinking whatever poison this is."
She rolls her eyes and pushes my hand back.
"One,it's not poison. Two, it'll help you chill a bit, would you rather look like a lost puppy?"
I stare at her without blinking.
"Come on,it's not that bad,just one sip,take your time."
I stare into the cup and sigh. Fine. I take a gulp and instantly wait for the regret but it never comes,it tastes like...mint, my eyes widen.
"Uh uh boo,don't let that mint and apple deceive you."
"Not bad,it tastes good." I take another gulp and then another and another, until the cup goes empty. Then i hand it back to Lia.
"More," I say after I swallow.
"Okayyy..." She trails off and pours more of whatever magic that is into my cup.
"Here."
"Thanks," I peek inside and realize the colour is pink not green like before.
"Pink? Is this another flavor or something?"
"Yeah, another flavor."
I take a sip and it tastes different,a good kind of different.
"Mmmm, how do they make this?" I take another sip.
"Millie,I think you should slow down a bit."
"You wanted me to "chill," an hour ago."
"Of course,but this is your first time drinking,you should probably take it slow before it hits you har-"
"Oops.." I spill some of the liquor and lean against the table. "I feel funny."
"Yep,it's too late," Lia nods.
"Hi babe." Peter flings his hand around Lia's shoulder.
Peter is one of Lia's no strings attached fuck buddies.
"Hi," She smiles at him.
"Hi Miriam."
"Millie," I correct.
"Right. Millie, you wouldn't mind if I stole Lia for a while would you?"
"Noo,it's all good,just...go do your thing,I'll be right here," I nod.
"Are you sure you'll be okay?" Lia asks with concern.
"Of course."
"Okay,I won't be long. If you see Mia, just call her over, she'll keep you company once she notices that you're all alone."
"Yes mom," I salute and they disappear into the crowd.
I look around,my head feels so light and I'm on cloud nine, everything is calm, better than I expected.
"Hey," A deep male voice speaks over me, I lift my eyes and narrow them to get a better look.
The guy standing in front of me is freaking handsome,not the normal type of handsomeness but scary handsome,he looks so serious,like he's angry even. Oh and he's well built and tall. His lips seem to be moving,is he speaking? Then,a smirk pulls at his lips,a sinister one.
"Excuse me."
I stand still, finding it hard to hear what he just said because of the music and numbness of my mental state at the moment. His eyes move to my chest and I consciously wrap my hands over my breasts, feeling uncomfortable. His eyes lazily move back to my face,then he leans down and my heartbeat picks up.
What the hell is he doing?
"Wh-what are you doing?" I stutter.
His face lingers a few inches from mine,close enough for our breaths to mix. He reaches his hand around my waist and I hold my breath, I don't know what I expect but he straightens back up again,then he tips a cup filled with alcohol at me. It's then I realize he was just getting himself a drink behind me since I'm leaning against the table, so that means I'm blocking his way.
I clear my throat.
"If you thought I was going to kiss you just now, then you really Must Be Out of Your Mind."
He uses the line on my shirt. He wasn't ogling my breasts but reading what's written on my t-shirt. That's the second mistake. Embarrassment builds inside me and I'm sure a bright red creeps up my cheeks. The guy turns and walks away, leaving me inwardly slapping myself.
"Mille,oh my gosh I'm so sorry I took long,are you okay? I thought I'd find you having a panic attack."
"Well,I'm alive and well,without you and Lia keeping me company," I make sure I point out the without.
"Come on, don't be mad,I won't leave you alone again."
"It's okay," I finish the last drop in the cup and place it down.
"Wait..." she stops walking.
"Hmm?"
"Millie,are you drunk?"
"I had two cups of that."
"What? Two cups? Are you okay?" She places her palms on my cheeks and I slide them off.
"I'm good."
"Okay," She smiles goofily. "I'm proud of you, finally,one down one more to go."
"No no no,we talked about that,I'm not having se-"
I get cut off when Lia slams into Mia's back.
"Hey!" Mia shouts.
Lia tries to catch her breath.
"What's going on Li-"
"Cops!" A guy shouts over the music. Commotion starts and people start to run out of the room.
It's normal to have college parties right? So why is everyone in panic mode and running away?
"Shit! Is there?" Mia asks.
"Yes,there's drugs in this place,we need to go."
My eyes widen,drugs?
"Shit!" Mia curses and grabs my wrist, pulling me with her as she starts running for the exit.
🌟
"That was close."
Mia says while we're seated in Peter's car driving off. Sirens ring in the air a few yards from where we are as Peter keeps driving.
"I feel sorry for those who've been caught," Lia says.
I sit still and quietly in the car, trying to process what just happened.
"We could have been caught,I would have been in jail right now and-and-"
"Millie,calm down."
"And it would have been over,done,completely."
"Millie."
"What would I have told my parents? How would they have-" before I can finish,a hot slap lands on my cheek, immediately silencing me.
I gasp and hold my burning cheek.
"I'm sorry okay,you went into panic mode,you wouldn't stop so I had to do it," Lia quickly explains.
"What a shame,a good night wasted just like that," Mia pouts.
"Righttt...." Lia agrees.
"But! We can still make it worth it." Peter adds.
"No," I say. "I've been traumatized enough for the night,I want to go back to the dorm."
"Don't be such a nun Millie,we are going clubbing,and no arguments," Lia points at me. "You're coming with us."
"A club? No way am I stepping inside a club!"
"Oh come on,there's a first time for everything," Mia smiles sinisterly.
I sigh and slump back in the seat.
long night indeed.
MILLIE
I stand still in a dark corner, afraid to move,it's like the crowd is going to swallow me directly to hell. I sigh and look around,it's been an hour since I last saw the girls,I have a little hope that Lia will show up and save me from the uncomfortability threatening to swallow me whole. As for Mia..well that's another case,I might as well consider her "see you in a bit," a "see you tomorrow."
I get on my tip toes to see if I can spot the girls or at least anyone I know who might get them for me.
"Well hello there?" A voice speaks from behind me,his hot breath fanning the back of my neck.
I jump and spin around to stare at the source of the voice,Julien. As in the Julien I trusted,the Julien who I shouldn't have trusted. He was so kind and sweet to me at the beginning of the semester,he invited me to study with him at his place,I mean...it was sweet,kind Volleyball player Julien,untill he wasn't.
The perv switched from sweet to...well,a pervert. He literally jumped me, forcing a kiss as he gripped my thighs tightly. Memories flow back in and my anger rekindles. My eyes turn to slits as I glare at him.
"Hey,come on,don't tell me you're still holding a grudge for what happened last time,I was just asking for a simple kiss."
"Yeah?" I fold my hands over my chest.
"Besides,I stopped when you told me to."
I lift a brow.
"Well that's not how I remember it."
"I stopped though."
"Yeah,you did,after I broke a lamp over your head."
Thank the heavens it was made of plastic,rich breakable plastic as a matter of fact.
"You owe me for that one,you could have murdered me you know."
"It would have been self defense."
I sneer at him,he instead looks at me with lust. Why am I even still talking to him? I walk past and stare at him with a blank face.
"I hope we can study together again!"
He shouts over the music but I ignore him and keep walking. I need to get some air,this place is too crowded.
I see Matt,one of Mia's flings standing next to the counter with a beer in hand,busy watching the people dancing. Our eyes meet and he tips his cup at me in greeting. In order not to be rude,i decide to walk up to him and say hi.
"Hey," He takes a sip from his cup.
"Hi," I wrap my hands around my middle.
"Wanna join? Here,have some,you seem like you need it." He offers the cup to me but I shake my head. Matt works part time at this bar,he's hot for sure,just not my type, he's too big and gangstar.
"All I need right now is some fresh air,it's so hot in here," I massage my temples.
"Well,you can use the back door." He points at a door that reads "EXIT." "That's the only quick and easiest way out."
He's right,If I decide to use the main door,I might faint before I reach it.
"Thanks."
"Don't mention it, but don't go far,this might be a safe place,but you never know, risks aren't good,so stick to the door."
He changes his standing posture and my eyes drop,I find myself checking him out because of the conversation the girls had two days ago,well...not the girls alone,I was included by force. He's really hot for sure.
My eyes unintentionally move to his sweatpants and land on his member,I instantly snap them back up and find him watching me,I fumble with my fingers and he winks at me. Being a gentleman that he is,he doesn't pin me about it,now I get why Mia has him saved as Big *cucumber emoji.*
"Okay, thanks again."
I use the exit door and find myself in the alley,I rest my back against door with my hands placed behind on the doorknob. I look up at the sky,then I take deep breaths in. Finally, some fresh air.
After a few minutes,I turn around,ready to go back in when something catches my eye. No,not something,someone. A shadow. I squint my eyes to get a better look and my feet move on their own. From where I'm standing,I can hear muffled sounds.
I move closer and my eyes land on the back of three guys,they all have black head socks on,which cover their entire heads up to the neck. It's those types which criminals use,and they're all dressed in all-black. One has a Leather jacket on,another a t-shirt and the other a long sleeve casual shirt, they're all in jeans and army boots. One of them moves and my eyes land on a blonde haired guy,I think I've seen him before,he's a student at the University I go to and next to him is another guy.
The scene is unpleasant,the blond guy's face is swollen and one of his eyes is closed and purple,the blood alone speaks for him on how brutally beat up he is,as for the other one, he's kneeling in front of the guy with a t-shirt,so i can't see his face from this angle. The blonde spits blood on the ground and looks up at the three guys,it seems like an ambush,they're just two and the other's are three of them. Although honestly speaking, even if it was only one of them,he'd still be able to take them down without effort.
These guys look scary from behind,their posture and presence scream "Run."
I should run right? No,I won't make it if I make any tiny bit of noise. But again,maybe I should go and call for help instead?
"One more chance,looks like it's your lucky day,I don't do chances," the t-shirt guy speaks.
"I don't fucking care about your chances,you're not getting anything out of me," the blonde spits.
The guy in a t-shirt cranes his neck to the side.
"Hmm..maybe I should kill your lover instead?" He points a gun at the other guy.
"Just tell him what he wants! He's going to kill us."
"See? Your lover has some sense,you should learn from him."
"Fuck.You." he sneers up at the three of them.
"Very well,any last words?"
"I would rather di-" before he can finish his sentence,a low sound shot rings and a bullet goes right between his eye.
His body thumps to the ground and blood flows in a stream from his head. I let out a small gasp and then immediately cover my mouth with both hands.
I'm about to turn when the blond guy's eyes lift and find mine. He looks at me asking for help,he literally silently mouths "Help."
It's good I'm sharp at reading lips. I lift my pointer finger and place it on my lips as a sign of silence. I slowly retreat backwards but I hit into something that rolls over and I freeze then look down. My eyes follow the empty can of coke as it keeps rolling until it hits the trashcan, making it's final stop.
Silence fills the air, everything around me pauses and my blood turns to ice. Slowly, calmly,the three men turn to face me,the blond guy sees that as a chance so he gets up and starts to run,I don't know where he gets the strength from but he runs for his life.
"Fuck!" One of them curses,the one wearing a long sleeve shirt.
"Get him." The one with a long sleeve shirt orders.
The other one though? The one in a leather jacket? he doesn't look fazed at all,his posture remains the same but this time around, he's facing me, intimidatingly. I start to shake like a leaf in winter.
"Pop!" Another low shot rings and the blond screams in agony as he falls down to the ground, holding his wounded leg,no one can hear the sounds because of the loud music in the club,which I can loudly hear even from out here.
"Gotcha, slimy mouse." The one with a t-shirt speaks as he drags him back to where he was.
I can't properly see their faces because of the masks covering their heads and faces, only leaving their eyes visible.
"My father will kill you and your entire family if he finds out about this."
The t-shirt guy chuckles in mockery.
"Let's test that theory then,shall we?"
He hits the back of the guys head, knocking him out.
I gasp again at the brutal impact,then their attention comes back to me.
"Well well well,now what do we have here?" the t-shirt guy addresses me, it's like he's the talker of the group or gang,or whatever they go by.
My mind instantly tells me to run,I retreat two steps back,my eyes don't move from the leather jacket guy. He's calm but i don't know why I feel that he's the most dangerous,the one I should look out for. I turn around and run,I don't even get far when a hand shoots out and grabs me by the hair,fisting it tight enough to the point where I feel some roots snapping out of my sculp. My back slams against his chest,then his hot breath fans my neck followed by his sinister words.
"Gotcha,your turn now baby girl."