Just Another Fling

ANDREW-

"I would never kiss that slut, she just thinks she is the only one in this world. I will end up killing myself if her lips lock mine." I heard Jessie say, Well Jessie? Yeah! It's important to introduce her first even before me, because she is important. Jessie was my sister, she hates girls specifically Maddie. And the conversation happening above is me teasing her that she should kiss Maddie and I would give her $10. I personally would kiss her for $10. But Jessie being Jessie.

She is not the protagonist though, I am! Hey. I am Andrew. A basic average student who loves sports, love to hang out with friends and hates studies but still can score average marks without my mother taunting me. So that makes me average I'm not a psycho who scores good, plays good and everything. I'm just.... well average.. I'm starting to hate myself being average as I'm describing myself.. but anyways that's who I am..... average. I go to school come back home and the usual stuff watching Netflix, playing games, not touching books until it's exam the next day. Yeah I love novels and I guess they love me back... because I just eventually find a good novel in my hand. And I don't really know how.. guess it's the book who wants me not me craving for the book.

"It's just a kiss though. I would kiss her." I said behaving, I've fucked half of the world.

"Then you better have sex with her and I would really give you $1000 and if not that definitely my new iPhone." Jessie said. She knows me. I'm not someone who would fuck just anybody. I wanted love. I am a lovely person and I love...... well love.

"I don't want your iPhone or those dollars. You better shove them in your ass." I said irritated and I heard her laughing at my face which has gotten all bad because of that filthy joke which she was trying to pull.

"Okay calm down bro." Jessie said.

"Yeah! definitely, you've said beautiful things like I'm going to paradise. Anyways. Just meet me after the school, we'll leave together. And I don't want you hooking around those suckers. They are not worth it." Jessie was totally opposite of me. She would get angry like a madman. She would also fuck just anybody. Any living person on the planet earth. Well apart from me, cause of the obvious reasons.

She knew nothing about love just knew how to fuck and its modern Era so I guess I'm cool with what decisions she makes with her life until she's happy with them. Not that I knew much. I've been in a relationship with that little whore Sasha and that was enough to open my eyes that either I want love or I want nothing. I was also pretty serious for her. But she... well let's not talk about it because I'm still broken on the inside. Later Jessie and I parted ways and went to our classes.

I sat on my bench, the third last bench. So I would not call myself as a back bencher. My seat was perfect, I would hide my face from teachers, I could basically do everything that I wasn't supposed to do in a class. I was scrolling through my Instagram and saw a girl. She was beautiful as hell. Her hair long black, beautiful green eyes. She was from those 5 percent of humans who had green eyes. She was beautiful in short.

Suddenly I heard a sound which broke me from my thoughts I looked up in irritation and saw a new face. No it was not the girl I was scrolling through. It was a boy. A new face in our school, probably a transfer student. A boy looking as messed up as he directly came from a fight, totally opposite of how a new student should come on his first day. His shirt was all wrinkled, his knuckles bled, probably from punching someone, his hair all messed up like fire was put on them, but apart from all this his still managed to look hot. Like HOT.

A stud kind of a guy entered in our class. While I was thinking I heard girls started giggling as if they were impressed by him or something well I was also impressed enough but I would never giggle. I mean look at him. Is he a thug? I saw him walking towards me and in no world I would let him sit besides me. No way! I kept my bag on the empty chair next to me. He didn't give a fuck.

"Hey Kiddie! Move it." He said. Wait what Kiddie? Me? Is he sure talking about me? Because I never looked like a kid. I am a grown up 17 years old good looking tall and handsome guy. I am not a kid. Why am explaining this to myself?

"Who the fuck are you calling a kid? You-- you--" ah my luck I couldn't find a word to hurt him. That would bring him to the edge. I am bad at giving nicknames. Ugh!

"Yeah? Me what? Got nothing to say? Then move your bag. Every other seat is occupied." He said as if he had no other option. Because if he had he would never come to me. Huh? Did he just insult me?

"You Kiddie." I said. Wait what? I called him Kiddie? I cheated? And he laughed. He started laughing like there's no tomorrow. That was bad. I just humiliated myself. And he started to piss me off.

"I'm not moving my stuff. Go find somewhere else to sit." I said fast to cover up what I just said.

"Are you messing with the new kid?" He said as if he had all the rights to the world just because he was new to school. I mean who does that. He suddenly grabbed my bag from one side. But I was quick too. I took hold of my bag from the other side. Now we both are playing tug of war in the middle of the classroom. Everyone was laughing at our stupid behavior but we were too dumb to notice that we are making fun of ourselves.

We both grunted when he suddenly pulled the bag into his direction. And I came along with it. I would never let him take the dominance. I pulled the bag back towards my direction and he came along with it too. But this time too close. Way to close. I could see his eyes. No? They were also green? He was also from those 5 percents? But they looked so beautiful as if I could see the forest in HD. His messed up hair came up to his eyes blocking his way a little bit. His lips were red with slight pinkish effect on them as if he just had put some chapstick on it, but they were natural of course. His jaw was perfect. I can not find any other word to describe it. Because it was perfectly Sharp. Sharp enough to melt all the hearts of the girls.. but mine too? The teacher finally came in. Yeah she had the perfect timing. Mrs. Rose was all about timing. She saw us fighting/flirting.

"Andrew." She said my name. I looked at her pushing him back from me. Are you trying to fuck him with your eyes. She said sarcastically. And the whole class started laughing.

"No! He was. He just-- he did it." I acted as the most dumbest person when I heard the teacher say that I fucking him with my eyes.

"He did what? Fuck you with his eyes?" The whole class started laughing again at us but this time breaking lease. Clearly at her joke. I told you she is all about timing. She just had the sense of humor to make anyone laugh. But why on us? I mean why me? Why do I have to be the one people are laughing at. During all this I saw him. He sat next to me. While I was too busy dealing with the humiliation for the 3rd time in last ten minutes.

He had the sense to take a seat. Which means he doesn't give a fuck about what people thinks. And just had to think about himself. He was the opposite of me. Later the teacher told us to open our books and start studying.

"Hey Kiddie! Care to share the book?" Not again. He can't call me kid. Well he was around 6'3 and I was 5'11 but being few inches shorter than him doesn't make me a kid. I had a good amount of height. Yeah so he can't fucking call me a kid.

"No! Not! Never! Clearly you are dumb. Because we were fighting just seconds ago. You even have the nerve to ask me for a book?" I laughed and he looked irritated. I guess I've won a match. I was happy defeating him and that moment i knew that I hate him. I hate his presence.

If only he could've been a little nice towards me. I would never hate him and he might get to share the book with me. But no. Under no circumstances I am going to share my book with him. I pulled my book onto the other corner and suddenly saw him coming near me slightly. He came near my ear and whispered the words that left me in a limbo. My eyes widened as broad as they can get. My mouth opened like I am waiting for the dentist to say open your mouth a little more. I could sense the heat reaching to my face and it started getting red. No way I was blushing.

"We were not fighting we were, EYE FUCKING..........."

JAKE-

I was so annoyed as it was just 8 in the morning. And I had to wake up and go to Halton. Yeah. My new school, again. I was expelled from my previous schools because of my bad behavior. But it was totally fine with me. I knew I was shit. I was fully aware about myself, yet proud of it. I woke with the unusual irritation on my face. Maybe because I haven't fucked anyone in two days. And my body started acting up which is leading to mood swings.

Jake you need to get your shit together you look like a girl on her periods. It's just sex I mean. You'll find someone in your new school. I talked to myself. But it was not helping. I went to bathroom sulking and got ready.

I went downstairs said hello to her. Yeah my aunt Beck. I live with her for some reasons you'll find later on. And she used to hate me. Not only because I fucked her girlfriend once which lead to serious break up, so yeah I fucked her ex- girlfriend but also I am a troublemaker. And I continuously get expelled.

She has so many reasons to hate me and I was fine with it. It's not that I have to beg her or something I just had to say 'hi' and leave without even waiting for her to reply. I also knew she would not, which was fine by me. I hate people. I hate crowd. I hate to put fake smile around them. So I never bothered to sit or have any contacts with them. That's why I was kind of a no strings attached person. I would warn the person that whatever is going to happen won't have any meaning to it. And you are not allowed to fall for me. Simple? Yeah pretty much. Because I don't fall in love. And I don't want people obsessed over me.

I slowly reached school taking my time. As I was not interested in going inside staring at the school from outside. But just because Beck has spent money on me I just out of shame that I eat her food went inside.

I saw I have a class of Mrs..... yeah Mrs. Rose. I just thought that she might be interested in me. And I should try my luck. I went to my class expecting her, she was not here. But every other girl stared at me. Oh I realized boys are also staring at me. I was shocked. Yeah because of my attire I guess. I just had a fight with the guard standing at the main gate of the school. But it wasn't having any importance so I didn't bother putting it out there.

I saw a boy, well a boy who's breathtaking. Looked smart as fuck. But what the fuck is he doing? Is he not staring at me like everyone else? How could he not give me his attention while everyone else is popping their eyeball out looking at me. He suddenly looked up. Yeah! That's my boy! Wait is he judging me now? Yeah he is. He is guessing if I had a fight or not. I quickly went near him and he kept his bag to occupy the chair besides him.. aww he looked like a baby hiding his chocolate and the word 'Kiddie' slipped from my mouth. I guess I hurt his ego. He snapped back at me. But was not able to find any humiliating word. He is cute definitely. Should I ask him if I could fuck him?

We were inches apart. He was looking at me in shock. And I was going to do the same but was not shocked. I was admiring his features. The way his eyes were moving from my eyes to lips and then jaw. He was taking a full closure of my face. And I was doing the same. His hair were styled properly and he smelled really nice like lavender and mixture of cocoa. He had his buttons open revealing his collarbone. Which was so turning me on. Yeah I can fuck boys too. But Mrs. Rose destroyed our pretty little moment. And she also insulted us. Mrs. Rose really had thorns built in her. I couldn't care less. The whole time I was looking at him and he acted as if he was not. Which was pretty cute. But wait. I am not into cute. So I suddenly snapped back and gave looks to girls who were to dying to suck it.

After class ended I found this girl. Maggie? Maddie? Saying hi and being all touchy touchy with me. I got the hint. I held her arm and ran with her to find some unexplored place. Where there was no crowd to disturb our fuck.

"Are we doing it here?" She said looking at me and biting her lips.

"Yeah! I guess. No one's here. Pretty much you and me." I said seductively. Grabbing her waist and pulling her closer to me. I slowly kissed her on her neck and she started making sounds that meant she is going to give me her everything in few seconds. She held my collar and went for my lips I slightly moved backwards letting her not kiss me.

"No kiss and feelings attached, baby girl." I said. I never wanted anyone to kiss me. Or wanted to kiss anyone. I just hated lip kisses. It's a sign of love and I don't do shit like love.

"Okay!" She said, and was too horny to feel bad about not getting kissed. Girls can actually feel bad. But not Maggie. I guess.

I then slid my hands into her skirt and touching the wet area right in between which made her moan loudly. Yes I had the power over her now. I started moving my fingers back and forth which made it impossible for her to stand. Then I pushed her behind the wall. I started unzipping my pants, and suddenly heard a sound.

"Who is it?" I said slowly to Maggie. I still don't know what is her name. But I was close.

"It might be Andrew. He comes Here often. He reads here I guess." She said. "Nevermind just focus on me."

"Why does he come here? Is he a psycho? We are fucking here." I said.

"He won't bother he's the guy you sat with in English class, never bothering looking at you once even when you just fought." She said, her hands reaching to my boxers. I suddenly stopped when I realized it was the him. Kiddie.

"What happened?" She said in shock as I brushed away her hand from me. And moved a few steps backwards.

"Nothing. I lost my mood." I quickly fixed my clothes and started moving away from her. I don't know what happened to me. As if my mind automatically went blank and screamed I can't fuck her. I felt horrible to let my snack leave. I was so hungry for it since morning. And when I found it I just let it go. My heart started racing and I went to look if it was really him or I just lost my meal because of a stupid assumption. I went out of the room and looked it was him. He was sitting on the grass and reading. What?

"I've loved you more than love itself?" I said loudly. He was reading such a creepy book. I couldn't stop my laugh.

"What do you want?" He said growling at me.

"Nothing just, I love u more than love itself looks like a really fucking fucked up book. And I never knew you could be so fucked up as well. Are you looking for your juliet in that book of yours? Mr. Romeo?" I said irritating him.

"What are you doing here? Haven't you had enough? I was insulted in the class because of you. You dumbass." he said while raising an eyebrow at me.

"That was not done intentionally. And you saw it coming eventually. You never gave up fighting me. Kiddie." I said mocking at him again.

"You ruined my mood to study. I am going now. You better stay here. Cause I can't stand you near me." He was pretty angry but cute. I am not into cute. What the fuck is wrong with me?

"You ruined my mood too!" He couldn't care less what mood I was talking about and vanished into thin air.

××××××

The school was about to end. The day was average as I had fun but not amazing. I was happy the time I was with him teasing him and irritating him and I don't really know why and I didnt care to get into the details because that's just too much of homework for me.

The final bell rang and human became animals. They ran as if a zombie is coming after them. And I couldn't really figure it out why humans were behaving like animals. The whole lot of students from their classrooms were coming towards me. Well not at me but in my direction. And I knew if I didn't run they would definitely crush me in order to protect themselves from that fucking zombie's ass. I was about to run and I saw Andrew coming into to corridor unbothered that he was also going to get smashed into the crowd. He was looking at his phone. I saw the lot running towards me and I ran towards Andrew. I quickly grabbed his hand and pushed him with me into a classroom. And the lot ran into its direction leaving us unharmed.

I realized we were safe and took a sigh of breath. Until I saw him below me. Did we fall?

"Get off of me. You idiot." He said pushing me.

"Thank me, I just saved your life from those hungry monsters. They would've crushed us by now. What is this all about?" I asked due to curiosity. Still lying above him. Not bothering to move.

"Just stuff. I don't have time to tell you. Just let me go." He grunted putting his hands on my chest and pushing me.

"I say and you explain things. That's how it works for me." I said looking him dead in the eye. He moved his eyes away from me and started looking nowhere. I felt angry when he avoided my eyes. I took both of his hands and pressed them towards the floor. I moved my face towards him and we didn't even have space between us for the air to pass. I stared at him. He was looking at me now, a smile left from the side corners of my mouth.

"What are you doing can't you let me go?" Of course I can let him go. But I don't want to let him go. He started breathing a little faster than before. I could feel his breath on my neck and it was stingy I would pretty much shiver from it and lose control, which I probably was. We breathed the same air. The tension was starting to build up between us. He just went silent and was staring at me like either I am going to kiss him or maybe he is. I suddenly broke the eye contact and he rolled us over the moment he noticed my weakness. Now he was on top of me.

"You think you can do whatever you feel like? Just because you think you are stronger than me. Well you definitely aren't. And fighting me won't get you anywhere. So you better stop messing with me before the shit gets really dirt---" I cut him off in between as I came back to my senses and rolled us over again. I was on top again and I smirked at my victory. He can not beat me. He was so short of words now. He could barely even speak.

"What happened to the brave little boy? You are no match to me. So better mind it before challenging me." He started grunting again but it was of no use. A few minutes of stare and I realized I said something which was too weird. Not that I haven't said it before but because I said it to him. I don't how it was weird. But it certainly was. I said-

"Have sex with me."

WARNING 18+ - Rape, violence.

ANDREW-

I sat on my bed throwing my car keys in some random direction. I felt weird and awkward as hell. I rolled on my bed from left to right. Yeah that's what I do when I am nervous and confused and messed up in my brain. And I was fucking messed up. I couldn't get Jake's words out of my mind. Rolling in the bed really helps me, but this time. No! My remedy was not working. All I could see was the anger inside of me.

I sat on the corner of my bed and grabbed my hair in frustration. Because I literally hated that guy when I first met him. How could he have the guts to say that to me... I don't know why I was feeling this way. Because if some random person would've asked me to have sex with them. I would've said no and then get past through it. I would never think about them again. But today I felt like Jake was living in my mind rent free.

"I remembered his lips saying... what? "Have sex with me"." How could he say that? I can't explain what I was feeling and it was blur in my mind. I needed distraction and then I heard a knock.

"Hey! Andy you there? Can I come in?" Jessie was at my door. I think she saw that I was messed up on my way back home. Because she was knocking. Usually she would just barge in and laugh at me for no reason. Yeah she kills my privacy.

"Uh! Yeah! Weird of you to knock!" I tried to play cool as possible. But it was visible clearly on my face, that I was fucked up. She came in with some snacks and lemon juice. Too weird of her. Because she never did that before. Making my favorite juice for me? That's way too much. I need to get my shit together. Because 'the jessie' was literally caring for me. Wow.

"Here! Have it. I'm not gonna ask twice." She tried to cool the environment by mocking and I smiled a little for her sake.

"So? What happened Andy? Who did this to you? Are you having your phase again? Is it because of some girl again?" She asked a bit worried.

"Definitely not because of some girl. I don't really feel like talking so-" she cut me in between and gave me a hug by wrapping her arms around me.

"I'm here for you Andy! No matter what! If you don't feel like sharing that's okay. But don't get too tensed up. I've seen how things go wrong when you behave like this." She was talking about my past. And then I realized that I really am in a mess because the last time I was like this was when my girlfriend Sasha, who cheated on me and left with the other guy in front of my eyes. I was broken. I even wanted to die. That's how much I loved her, or at least I thought. That I even had to go see the therapist to calm the rage and thunder inside of me..

"Thanks Jes. By the way. You are being way to cute now. Do I look like shit?" I asked to change the topic.

"Well not shit! But--" she was cut in between when I heard another knock.

"Oh it must be max. I called him as you were feeling low." she said again and smiled in order to smooth my pain.

"Thanks for the concern. But I really wanted to be alone Jessie. Come in max." I really wanted to be alone.. but Max is my go to friend. He is caring, and honest the kind I like to keep besides me. I never liked fake people. Those who tried to become good in everyone's eyes and be two faced unlike Max.

"Hey bud! You okay?" He asked with concern.

"Yeah I guess! School was shit today. And I couldn't find you when life felt horrible there." Where were you?

"I bunked school today. I thought it would be normal to do that. But I'm sorry I left you alone. Who was it?" Max asked while Jessie left the room for us to talk.

"Max I don't know what am I feeling. I just feel this empty feeling inside of me, that I can't find a word to explain it." I said.

"Do you feel like explaining?" He asked if I was okay to share. And I definitely wanted to let it out.

"So there was this guy! Jake-" and I told about Jake to him and what happened at school.

FLASHBACK

"Have sex with me." He said. And came to kiss my lips or neck. I could not decide as he was looking at my lips and coming closer but then went towards my neck. I snapped and pushed him before his filthy lips could touch me.

"Have you gone crazy or something? How could you think of me like that?" I said. He looked puzzled. As if he couldn't recognize what he had just said. But later I saw anger and frustration or lust to be more precise in his eyes. Maybe it was the first time someone rejected him. Or because whatever reason I don't want to know. He pulled me from the floor and pushed me towards the wall. I hit my head but not hard, I felt his hands on my collar and he was looking at me.. seductively?

"It's good that you know I'm crazy. Because you have no fucking idea what I'm about to do to you." He bit his bottom lip seductively like he was going to eat me. And I was just standing there like a dead body. My eyes were on his pink lips. He slowly pushed his dark brown hair back giving a full view of his green colored eyes. They look nasty yet beautiful. I was so lost admiring his features and noticed that he came so close to me that I could feel his breath on my neck. He came near and whispered in my ear.

"Be ready to get laid on. Kiddie." My eyes widened hearing him say in such a seductive manner. He didn't give it a second thought and kissed me on my neck. He came back to look me in the eyes, and then again starting kissing my neck like I was his favorite food. And it was driving me crazy. I tried to push him back but I felt powerless with his kisses. My arms got weak as I wasn't able to push him anymore. I hated that I was liking him on me. But I wanted him to get off of me because of his intention. He wanted to fuck me. And I am the type who makes love. I don't fuck people and I felt like I was getting raped.

"I know you are liking it too. Just give in." He broke the kiss and started biting my ear. He opened the button of my shirt and started kissing my collarbone and chest. He would roll his tongue on them, like he knew what he was doing. It felt good but disgusting at the same time. Then, I could feel his lips on my nipple biting and sulking them very hard that I let out a moan. He smirked.

"Fuck Jake. Let- me- go-" I said trying to catch my breath. He slid his hands pressing my chest stiffly again allowing me to groan in pleasure and going down on my crotch, he started pressing it with his hands really tightly but not hurting me. I could feel myself getting hard and I was embarrassed that he knew I was turned on. I could feel my legs shaking and my heart started racing fast like a sports car. I still tried to push him because I did not want to lose myself in this situation which has no meaning to it.

"Get off of me. I did nothing wrong. I'm not the type you should have sex with." Tears started rolling down my cheeks to my neck and touched his skin. I started to push him again wiping my tears. He heard my teary voice and moved a step back. Like he realized that he nearly raped me. I slapped him hard on his cheeks. And he stood still looking down at the floor.

"You have no idea, what you've done to me. You are a piece of horny shit. Who just know how to fuck people without their consent." I said breaking down. I couldn't help my tears. I was not able to stop them. But I quickly wiped them away. And pushed him while walking past him. I was not able to realize what he has done to me. I saw regret in his eyes. Like he felt like crap when he came back to his senses. But I couldn't care less about how he felt. Because I was broken.

This was the first time I let someone touch me after Sasha. I didn't have sex with her but we did some fun. Maybe that's why she cheated on me because I didn't have sex with her. I tried sleeping with her but I just couldn't get myself to look at her naked. I loved her but I didn't wanted to have sex with her. It's not that she was not Beautiful. She was gorgeous. Her figure would turn on even saints but not me. I didn't care at that time. But now that I was turned on by him. I guess... I am.... gay? I didn't look back to what he was doing. Was he following me or crying there. It didn't really matter to me. Because I felt like I wanted to get out of here if I want myself to live.

END OF FLASHBACK

"What? He did what? Are you crazy Andrew? Why didn't you tell me earlier. I should literally break his dick so he would never be able to fuck anyone." Max looked pretty angry. And he was right.

"Max, sit down for a bit please and listen to me." I started tearing up again. He looked at me with pity and sat beside me holding me in his arms.

"Okay! Let your heart out. I'm here Andrew. Tell me." See? He was the most caring person.

"Max I felt like I was raped. And the worst part was that I was turned on. One part of me wanted to stop him badly. But all my demons were crying to let him do what he wants. I've never felt this way. Even with Sasha. And I don't know what to do anymore with myself." I cried out loud. And he was just holding me. He was the only person who has seen me cry. He was there when things happened with Sasha. I cried like this.

"I can't feel myself anymore. I don't recognize this person. I thought I loved Sasha. But I was never turned on by her. Just by his bare touch I wanted him to devour me fully." I said sobbing.

"If you think we won't accept you if you are gay. Then please take these kind of thoughts out of your mind. Maybe you thought you loved her because you never had anyone else caring for you. And Sasha really cared for you at some point in your life. So you thought you loved her. But it's okay if you feel like this. The problem is this guy who made you feel this way. If it was any other guy I wouldn't have to urge to kill him. But he fucking tried to assault you." He said in anger. And I stopped him before he could actually get more angry because I really needed support. So I hugged him tightly and cried.

He explained how or what I was feeling and I tried to calm myself down from this feeling of being used as I was torn in between having sex with him and pushing him away from me. At that point of time all I wanted was to hate him with all my will.

JAKE-

I was on top of him looking at his lips. And this was the first time ever I wanted to kiss someone. Kiss someone so bad that I was even ready to eat him. I snapped back from the thought of kissing him because I don't kiss. I don't make love. I fuck. And I fuck really hard. So I went for his neck. But he started pushing me. I felt this huge amount of rage inside of me. I wanted him to be mine. I wanted to have him all, suddenly I can't explain what I was feeling. I heard the devil roar inside of me so I used all my strength and found me pushing him towards the wall. I was so busy eating him that I couldn't hear him struggling. He tasted like sweet candy and I wanted to have it all. I could feel his heart beat which was beating for me. It was only driving me crazy. I really loved it when he moaned and I knew he wanted it too. I couldn't resist myself and started moving my hands down and touching his crotch. But then,

I felt his tears that rolled down from his eyes to his neck and touched my cheeks. Realization hit me and I saw him in tears. I realized that I was abusing him for my hunger. He slapped me and looked me in the eyes, he was broken. He really was. And I felt shit for making him feel this way. It was the first time I cared for someone other than me. I didn't knew what I was feeling. Guilt filled inside my heart and I was short of breath.

I saw hatred in his eyes. He was looking at me in disgust and it was bothering me. How can I be bothered by someone's looks? I am Jake Reynolds. Why should I care what he thought of me? But as I saw him walking away from me, I was barely able to breathe. I held onto some support or else I was going to fall or maybe collapse. I wanted to delete the memories of me assaulting him. But I was pretty much sure he wanted to let me have my way with him. Thinking this won't even calm the thunder growing inside me. How can I be so reckless. How can I act like this. I am just regretting for giving in to the devil. I should've resisted. I should've tried harder and not become the worst version of myself. But I wanted him. All of him. As much as I could have. I was going crazy with the look he gave me. Like he would spit on me.

In the starting teasing him was fun. Calling him Kiddie and the way he reacted was attracting me towards him. But what was this irresistible lust? What was I feeling I really wanted to know what was happening to me. Should I go stop him? Should I say sorry? I probably should. But should I care for hurting him? He is just any other guy I could fuck randomly. But he didn't give me his consent. I was in the wrong. I am so messed up. The first time in my life I felt so fucking lonely that I needed someone in my life to give me some advice that would put me out of my misery. But I was so alone that I had no one to talk to.

I reached home, sadness was stamped on my face. I saw Beck sitting on the chair reading her book and she stood when she saw me. I was about to fall on the ground but soon she held onto me. I was so pathetic that it even shook Beck. She was so shocked at my state. I didn't know what happened to me and I held onto her for support and hugged her. She was made with stones. She didn't hug me back but I still felt the warmth. And then she suddenly said.

"Have you fallen for someone?"