I'm Fixing You

chapter One

I woke up early to bake a cake. Manang and I also went shopping early. Today is Tristan's Birthday my loves. That's why I will bake him a cake. I will give it to him year after year even though I don't know if he eats it or not.

I was maybe 11 years old when I had a crush on Tristan. This is Kuya's friend. They were young men when they hung out at home. All of them have good looks, handsome and muscular bodies, but it was Tristan who really made my heart skip a beat. He is also a gentleman and kind. just thorny with women

I have confessed to him several times but he just laughs at me. Now I intend to confess to him. I confessed to him for the first time now that I am 16 years old.

Around noon we finished the cake. I put it in the fridge first. I quickly went upstairs to take a shower. I will soak in soap!

I prepared my arrangement. I took the Pink Dress that Mom gave me. And then I put make up on manang.

I sent our driver to the Venue where Tristan's birthday was. I saw a lot of people wearing a black tuxedo. Help! The whiteness of the appearance is smooth! And most of all the beautiful smile.

I approached him and handed him the cake. He immediately turned his gaze to me

"Oh Nyda. Thank you" he smiled sweetly at me

"Ahh. I hope you can enjoy that food. I baked it myself."

"Sure. By the way, thank you again."

When the party started I was alone in the corner. Kuya is busy with his girls.

I saw Luke go up on stage with his guitar.

he sat down in the middle and started playing. Everyone was silent listening. I can also hear the screams of the women behind me. Luke is so handsome! I can't stop blushing every time it's sung. I thought I was the one he was singing about.

"Thank you everyone for coming." He said when the singing was over. He stood up holding the mike and went down to the stage. He went straight to the tables. My eyes followed where he went

it stopped at a table.. in front of a woman in a white dress and I can't deny she's beautiful

"Camille.. This is one of my most special birthdays...Having you in my life completes me. and I want to be completed. Will you marry me Camille?"

The girl immediately nodded. I looked away and wiped my impending tears. I know they are but I didn't expect Luke to propose like this.

I went out to talk to Luke. I can't give up my feelings until now.

"Luke, can we talk?" I approached him outside where he was talking to a man. It said goodbye and followed me to the back of the garden

"Why Nyda?"

"You're getting married? Why didn't you tell me? I thought she was just your girlfriend" he sighed and stared at me as if confused

"When I confessed my feelings to you the first time I really mean it. And every time I do it again I really mean it. When I said I wouldn't give up. That was true. But why would you marry that girl??"

"Don't call her like that. I love her. I can marry her. I've told you several times that we can't. And you can't even like me Nyda. No matter what happens, what I said will not change. I won't accept your feelings... ever. Now that I'm getting married, can you please me? And you take care of your feelings?"

I slapped him. Along with my continuous tears. I can't talk about the pain I feel. I couldn't even find my breath properly and I was sobbing one after another.

"Do you think it's easy for me?it's hard every time you reject me it's like you killed me over and over again. But I didn't throw you up."

"You know I didn't tell you to put up with your feelings for me Nyda. You are still young and spoiled brat. You think you can get everything you want."

I covered my face and cried when Luke left in front of me.

I can't take the pain. My whole life. He is the one I loved....

chapter Two

Present Time

"Nyda!!" Gracielle, my best friend, turned her back on me.

"Beautiful! I miss you so much!" He told me and hugged me even tighter. I also miss this friend of mine so much! We've been friends since childhood

"How are you?? You look even better Nyda? How is it?" Her voice is excited and I can't stop smiling. I missed her so much and everything in here. I also lost 4 years here and I had to leave for reason

"I'm fine Gracielle what are you doing I'm excited for you! I miss you Witch!" I hugged it again and we jumped. We both came to our senses when someone honked at us

"Miss you are not allowed to hang out here!! You are there!!! You will be run over!!!!" The body guard shouted at us. We quickly picked up our luggage and went to the taxi way.

Gracielle drove me to my condo. Well, he arranged everything for me to come home here. I don't want to live with Kuya either. I don't care about that and all I hear is grunts and all I can see is his woman. I think the house is turning into a Party Club because of him. My brother couldn't do anything sane

"I designed it Nyda. I know your style.."

"Ahhhh Witch, I'm going to cry oh stop it! I really miss you so much. It doesn't matter that I'm staying here, we can go Boylet Hunting again.."

"Promise me! Let's always party people!" I nodded and we hugged.

As the night wore on, Gracielle decided to eat here. We ordered pizza chicken and something else and we played loudly.

we party the whole night and dance like no one can stop. Even if it's just the two of us together, the fun is different. The living room was a mess. When we were tired, we both lay down on the carpet

"Nyda..."

"Oh?"

"Is Tristan still the one you brought back here?" I was paused for a while.

my life there was nice. I have friends I started working and I was living my life. But every day that passes in my life I always think about Tristan. Not a day came that he didn't cleanse my heart and mind.

sometimes I close my eyes and ignore him but my feelings for him are still alive. Luke is my first love.. one sided love.. unrequited love and probably my last love. I tried to distract my self and date but nothing. I always see Luke in them.

but then he married and I needed to fix myself. I had been abroad for one year when I found out that his wife and son had died. I'm hurt for him and I really want to go back but for what else and I won't go back there either. he loves Camille and I want to know if he still loves her? Some part of me wants to hope no.

"Actually, Yes.. I want Luke back.."

"Maka I want Luke Back! Have you been?"

"It's Gracia!!! I'm here, I'm going to emote, you broke it" I got up and hit him, he laughed softly and got up from lying down

"Hopia Mani popcorn si nyda na assumera!" It rapped. wow It's really mental

"Stop it. I'm going to date him. He's single, so maybe I'm not too young in his eyes" I gasped. I can't stop worrying. What if he still doesn't want me.

"Don't flirt. Just go. Give up when you can't. It's up to you. He won't laugh at that, so don't let him shake you."

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The next day, Gracielle went home and I arranged my things and cleaned. I don't like the nanny. As long as I can, I'll do it or not, my wisdom is wisdom.

When I got ready, I showered, put on makeup and got dressed. Of course you're naked, right?

I wore my Offshoulder black lace dress. It's just that I didn't grab it and just wore flat shoes.

I went to Jake's bar alone. He is the one who knows that I have gone home, well my brother knows but does he even bother.

well anyway I was welcomed by the body guard and I saw Jake near the counter where he was drinking

"Hey Jake!" I greeted him and sat on the high chairs next to him.

He smiled at me and continued to mix the squeeze lemon and I don't know wine in a glass "Is that you? where's my cutie? You're not cutie anymore.." The glass was handed to me. Wow he made a drink for me.

"She's Hot." From behind I heard Rowin's voice. Well Rowin's still handsome. Hot sexy Rowin. That's how Jake got bigger and more handsome

Rowin sat next to me, it didn't matter that I was in the middle.

"Well. Nyda. Nice to see you again." Jake said

"Oh well. I felt your lovey dovey already so stop staring at me boys." It's been a while since it's just a matter of time. well, when I was a child, I was treated more than just staring, but now I seem to have been counted.

"Luke's coming." I trembled at the voice I heard from my ears. I looked at it and it was Gab.

"Where?" I was still standing when I felt them looking at me. I saw your laugh too Gab! You leech!

"He's tired. He'll probably go tomorrow. Why haven't you moved on yet? Well, that's trendy, Nyda." Gab raised an eyebrow at the same time. I didn't answer him and continued to drink what Jake gave me

"So, how are you now? i mean do you plan to work?" Rowin

"There is, but I'm still looking. Why did you offer it to me?" I said here. He just smiled and continued drinking

"Welcome home little sister." We all turned to the voice that rumbled inside.

Tyrone my brother.

"I don't need your welcome." I glanced at him. He just grinned and sat next to Rowin.

"I still have to go somewhere." Jake said goodbye. "Just order and I'll take care of it." He said before he finally left

"Me too. I have duties.." Rowin left his seat and patted Tyron's shoulder.

"I'm going to clean the bathroom." Gab said and left too.

My awkward moment with my brother was outside.

Since I left. We don't get along anymore. He also wanted me to leave and I couldn't do anything but decide to leave. I don't know but since then our brotherly relationship has been broken. When I was in California he didn't even say hello to me. And if possible he doesn't want to send me back

"Do you have a place to stay?" It spoke from the silence we were carrying

"There is." I answered this sparingly. He just tipped the wine glass and didn't say anything.

But I couldn't stand this time so I took my bag and left but

"Nyda..."

I looked at him. He was still sitting with his back to me

"No..Alright."

I still don't know what he's going to say. that's why I continued to go out.

When I got out, I stopped walking when I saw him standing in front of the bar and leaning on his car

My skipped a beat. I was frozen and couldn't move.

"Luke..."

It just stares at me and so do I.

he still has the same effect on me. But everything has heightened. My feelings were magnified. I was so eager to run and hug him just like the old times but.. I couldn't.

He just smiled at me and passed me.

I followed him with my eyes.

I still love you so much Tristan...

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chapter 3

Morning! My morning is beautiful. Just kidding. I went to MoonVenus to visit Aunt Mira. She is also my godmother in marriage and I am really close to Rowin's mommy. When I was young, it treated me like the youngest child. Because he was not blessed with a female child.

"Aunt!" He greeted me with a tight hug. I hug back here. Aunt Mira still looks like a child. Its smooth skin is still beautiful and does not fade

"Oh Sweetie, do you know that I missed you so much, And Look at you...." She even covered her mouth in joy. "You are so Beautiful Nyda! When did you learn to dress up? Dress up!? It seems like just yesterday you were Maria Clara" She looked at me from head to toe. Yes I've changed actually. I learned to take care of myself and obey the Head. My life was like a princess before, but now I want to take care of myself and move according to what I want

"Aunt, of course I'm getting older. I'm a certified Woman now." I promise here.

In the meantime, Tita bid me farewell to attend to the sudden arrival of her guest. I was left at the table near the window. Aunt also served me cake and drinks. I stared at the window. It seems as if the Landscape and surroundings of California are in front of me. Now I'm finally home. And everything has changed.

"It's like that when you come home. you seem to be changing." I turned to the voice I heard. I saw the man smiling at me. He has a gentle face, sharp features like a foreigner but beautiful eyes.

"Evesdropping is rude." I glared at him. But he kept smiling at me "Can't help it." He pulled out a chair and sat in front of me. Is it bad? You didn't say it was okay for him to sit, right?

"Jero. Jero Benitez. I'm a member of the regular band that plays here every night" Introducing it. You suddenly become speechless. Have I asked?

"Nyda." I say this sparingly.

I ate the cake and drank the cocktail drink that Tita gave me. From the Glass window I saw Jake get out of his car with Luke. I was turned upside down. I immediately went to the front and met them

"Hi Tri-Jakeee!!" I came here and hugged his arm. why is that what I'm saying!

"Oh Good morning you're going to miss me? I'll report you to Tyron do you want?" He looked down at me because he was taller and I looked up at him. Jake's pogi. That's why there are so many who stumble here. the type with a squint in his eyes.

"I'm on my way home, I'll pick up Grae later." I pouted. Jake looked away and his smile widened "Strangely your cute lips still work on me. Okay fine I won't report you! You really haven't grown up yet!" It squeezed my cheek. I feel like I'm blushing! I turned to Tristan, he wasn't looking at us, but that was bad, didn't he put up with my beauty? Oh My, I don't know if this headache is normal or not

"Oh? Are you a taxi?"

"Yeah maybe..."

"Luke? Why don't you take her home now? to make sure this lakwatserang will not go to another place. I'll just wait for Rowin and the others. Rowin and I also have something to talk about. I'm glad he caught up here. Take my car." Then he threw the key. Jake turned and winked at me. Jake and his cleverness. I was secretly happy. He's really good

Meanwhile I noticed the opposition that Luke felt. He took a deep breath and looked at me. I followed him outside. I stifled my smile. I was staring at his back. The pogi is behind him. What a town!

"Get in." he opened me up. I bent down to enter. I watched as he turned around to sit in the driver's seat. He drove the car quietly. Not even looking at me!

"21 That's still delivered"

"I didn't say anything, take me.."

"Do I have a choice?" we were both silent. He just keeps driving but I don't know how handsome he is to drive? He can be a car model promise!

"We're just fuel."

We stopped at a Gasoline station, what's wrong with that, right? Just kidding. smile now :-)

because I was hot, I got out of the car. Luke was talking to someone on the phone, so I just waited for the car to be serviced for fun! Just kidding again. Why do I seem to have a hard time paying attention to Luke now?

"Hey, your boyfriend?" A man approached. as long as he's a man, he's handsome, that's the period

"Not yet." I shook my head. He grinned "He has the courage to wait for you."

"He's hard to tame. Believe me." We both laughed. "Okay See you around" Letting it go. Did I see Tristan staring at me? Or in the car?

"Come in" he ordered. Very commanding. I went inside. I was even surprised when he slammed the closed car shut, what was that? Does it make me angry?

"It's your problem?" I yelled at him but he just drove his car and ignored me.

"Hey Tristan why? What's wrong?"

"You! I have a lot of things to do but here I am. I'm babysitting a 21 year old woman."

"You really blamed me. As I have said Mr. Villiarde, I didn't say anything, take me!"

"Urghh! Just Shut Up Okay!" My eyes really widened at what Luke asked me. Are we aligned?

I feel sad, But I shouldn't be. Things are really changed. When I was in high school, he used to fight to pick me up and take me to Kuya or Jake. Jake and Rowin are my guardian angels to them. if I'm doing something they cover me up from Kuya. as well as my feelings for Luke. They also hid me and they secretly conspired sometimes to make an alone time with Luke. Now Luke seems to have changed a lot.

When we reached my condo, I jumped out of the car. I slumped my shoulders and went to the door

"Hey Nyda... I'm--"

"Apology accepted." I craned my back to see him.

"You're mad at me because you don't want to be with me. You're mad because you shouldn't be obligated to take me. Okay, okay Luke. Hate me all you want for all I care.." I hissed. he shut his mouth and stepped closer to me

"What were you talking about that guy? ?"

"Huh? WHO?" He stepped closer to me. My heart beat faster. but I tried hard to stand straight and faced him. It's hard to be sane at a time like this

"We were just talking. I don't randomly flirt." He stopped approaching me

"Nyda. We have to be cool."

"About what?" He glared at me. It's like I'm melting in his eyes. That's when I realized how much I missed him. How much I miss seeing him again every day

"Us.I don't want you to repeat some mistakes in the past. I'm hoping everything has been taken care of."