I'm BACK!! My Betrayed Alpha

As you know by now, my name is Evelyn Rots, one hundred percent werewolf, member of the Crescent Moon pack. I'll be a rogue in ten minutes. You wonder why? Well, right now I'm deeply depressed. You see, I've been cheated by everyone who matters most to me. The ones I loved, the ones I needed to survive and succeed in life. I gave them my ultimate trust, they took it but gave nothing in return.

Betrayal has marked my entire life, from childhood to now.

My father, mother, childhood best friends and pack members, the love of my life, even my mate, they have all deceived me, contributed to my current state of mind.

Some say that when you give, you should never ask for anything in return. The Almighty will compensate you by blessing your path. Others argue that you should not count your misfortunes, only the blessings. I have yet to find out if all of that is true. But what I am truly convinced is that the Almighty has never consented to this deep pain that I now feel from this constant betrayal. NEVER! I strongly believe that He wants His creation to live a happy life and to prosper.

But maybe it was me who couldn't distinguish between good and fake. Since this Higher One and the Moon Goddess are in control of creation, I am so sure there must also be love and purity on this piece of rock called earth.

So, here I stand at the border of Crescent Moon, looking back one more time before breaking the bond with my pack and going rogue. Rogues are abandoned or runaway members of a pack, usually werewolves. And while I know that werewolves only survive in packs, I'm taking my chances.

My plan is to leave and live with humans, try a different culture, a different level of trust. I've read a lot about their way of life and I think I can do this.

Yes I can!!

Leave this stabbing pain behind and start over.

My experiences in this pack will definitely have some impact on my future life, damn sure of that! But I will protect myself this time and make sure that no one can ever harm me physically and emotionally again. Won't be difficult since I'm an experience expert, I can already smell those busters from afar.

I have no regrets. I will change and my life will be better. I will be better!

I'm in charge now, I'll fix it.

I know that no one in this pack will miss me or even want to look for me. My disappearance will be one of shrugs. That's why I didn't even bother leaving a note for someone to avoid another fake drama.

Bye Crescent Moon. I wouldn't say it was a pleasure to be a part of you. Still, I wish you the best.

My father was the alpha of Crescent Moon, but after he was murdered his sister's oldest son, my cousin took over. But he didn't hold the title for long. Months after his coronation, the second son of the Blue Moon alpha challenged him for the title, killed him and became the new alpha of Crescent Moon.

Blue Moon and Crescent Moon have ancient old family ties. That may have prompted the Blue Moon alpha male to challenge my cousin. Blue Moon is California's largest and strongest pack, they have the most skilled and loyal warriors and a sophisticated infantry. Financially strong, they have invested millions of dollars in advanced security systems and other essentials to keep the pack safe. Conquering Crescent Moon, the second largest, was an excellent strategic move to bolster the alpha family's power in the werewolf community.

And guess what, on the night of my eighteenth birthday, after I first shifted into a pure white wolf with a golden moon around one eye, it turned out that this alpha's only son Marcus von Dyke is my mate. My wolf Becca was ecstatic, I wasn't so much. Maybe for a reason.

My father was a strong and fearful alpha, he led the pack with an iron fist, yet managed to bring prosperity to each of his subordinates. My mother was as selfish as one can be, she only pursued her own desires. Not really luna material. My two sisters are the bitches of all time. We're a product of my mother's divide-conquer power play, so she could have her way with us.

Deeply emotional as I am, after the death of my father, life for me in this tricky family has never been satisfactory.

So, my first blow of betrayal was the sudden death of my father.

I was only six, when I was told that my father, my hero, was gone. I was heartbroken when I heard this. How could that one person I loved so much left at this moment when I needed him the most and so easily without even saying goodbye?! My childish mind could not comprehend the concept of death. Cowardly wounded by an unknown sniper, my father was sent for medical treatment to a better equipped hospital with specialized personnel in the human city. Unfortunately, he succumbed to his injuries. My siblings and I were unable to attend the funeral. This human city was nearly three days away, not safe for an entire alpha family to travel to. Another disappointment for a broken six-year-old. Left alone to consume my sorrow, no one to comfort me, I run to the forest.

Walking as far as my little feet could carry me, I found myself two hours later on a hidden cave near a lake. It was all furnished with a stove, kitchenware and a bed with the softest mattress I'd ever felt. Tired as I was after that long walk, I lay down and rested for a while, when a noise disturbed my sleep. When I opened my eyes, I saw a middle-aged man with a boy sitting on a small wooden log in the cave. They didn't see me right away. When I greeted them in a low voice, they turned their heads at me in surprise, eyes wide.

"Who are you, little one?", the mid-age man asked. "I'm Peter and this is my son Michael". That's how I met my boyfriend for the first time. I learned that his father was the chief warrior of the pack and that they often came to the cave for camping. Because I was not of the age to be trained, Peter has not seen me before.

After this encounter in the cave, Michael and I became inseparable.

The second betrayal and the rest of them came several years later.

Through the years, Michael helped me tremendously in coping with my father's 'early leave'. Our bond grew closer and closer, and when I was 16, we confessed our love to each other and became lovers.

No, it was actually me who poured out my heart for him.

Everyone expected us to be mates on my eighteenth birthday. Not happened.

Michael is two years older than me and on his eighteenth birthday we already didn't feel the pull. So it won't be there when I'm eighteen. After this setback, I felt a change in Michael. By asking him about this several times, he denied that anything was bothering him. "It's all in your head, honey," he would say. "We may not be destined mates, but I'm so damn grateful for your love. It couldn't get any better", Michael assured me time and again. On the night of my seventeenth birthday, we became intimate. It wasn't as hot and steamy as the girls' story, but gosh, what you don't know, you don't miss, right?! I loved Michael very much. We promised to work on our relationship, move in together after graduation and build our own little family. The right things girls like to hear, our dream life.

It was the new academic year when the siblings Mark and Annelise enrolled at our university. They were children of the second warrior in command of my pack, just came back from living abroad. Michael and I instantly clicked with them. Annelise and Mark became our best friends. We were a team, often had sleepovers, went on camping trips and studied together. When someone saw one of us, they were sure the rest must be somewhere nearby. We were that close.

Michael continued with that weird behavior, but still brushed it off like a fantasy from my side. It one time I called Michael on the phone to tell him I planned to stay in bed all day. "Honey, I want a long deep rest. It's raining outside so my warm sheets are so tempting", I told him. Michael joked about my laziness and decided to do the same. "Just think of us in bed together, enjoying this sweet cold afternoon, okay?!" After reading a bestselling novel for three hours, I was feeling a little restless.

Against our plans, I decided to spend my night cuddling with my boyfriend. Planning a surprise visit at Michael at night, I whistle my neighbor friend Nick, and with puppy eyes I beg for a ride on his wolf.

Nick is five years older than me, had me on his back since he first shifted. I think he loved it as much as I do, he never refused me when I asked him for a ride. "Are you sure you want to surprise your boyfriend, Eve?", he warned. I should have paid attention to that specific tone in his voice, but I was so excited about my surprise that I honestly missed it.

So, I stepped off in the yard of Michael's house, pecked the wolf on his snout, and returned to my mission. To access my lover's bedroom, I climbed the drain pipe to his bedroom window. Just as I drew one foot into the room, half hanging over the windowsill, my eyes widened in horror. 'What the hell!!', it buzzed through my head. The love of my life was banging hard on someone's back, I could see the ass go up and down from the ramming strokes.

Michael's head was thrown back in ecstasy and his fierce actions dealt hard blows to his partner's butt. That one was holding onto the desk, wearing a black leather bandage suit with cuffs and ropes. Michael pulled on two ropes that were connected to the neckband of the costume. "Harder, go faster!" I heard a husky, stimulating voice. I could not believe my eyes!!. In their sex, they used a lot of lewd words that I had never heard in my life. I must have made cried out loud, because Michael yanked his shaft out of the ass he just worked out and immediately jumped in protective mode in front of his sex partner. Rooted to the ground, I kept staring at him. "I'm so so sorry you got to know it this way", Michael stammering apologized. When I bent my head to see who my sex rival was, I expected to see at least one of the pack sluts who were always challenging me for Michael. But I almost went into cardiac arrest when I saw none other than Mark. Marc, a man!!!

'Michael is gay!!', my subconscious registered.

Betrayed AGAIN!!

It was the last I saw of Michael. I cut all ties with him, as well as the rest of my team, because I strongly believed they all knew about this. For me they were involved in this betrayal, because they never told me or even hinted at it. They just fake a friendship, never came clean with me. I blocked them in the pack mind link and phone contacts. After this I stop attending college physically and continued my studies online. All went good and I graduated on time with good grades.

Michael often tried to contact me. He left notes in the mailbox, on my car and even sent one with a delivery person. Neglected.

Later, when all the tongues were ready to come loose, I heard that the whole pack knew that Michael was gay. He moved on with me because that was an opportunity to be close to the alpha family. Mating with me would upgrade his status and authority in the pack.