IN LOVE WITH ALPHA.

<< You know I'm right. You need a wife or you will never be recognized as an alpha. And you know that Alex will take advantage of this to make his way, he is married with children. >>

I watched my father give me the same speech for over an hour now. I held my head in my hands. Does he really think I don't know? Since I was a little boy, I have known what my duty is, to find a mate who will rule with me, this whole pack, of which I am the leader.

I know my duty by heart. It is not easy to find a mate, and it is not for lack of trying, I went out with several favorites of the pack, they are chosen in other packs to be the wives. I've even dated humans, but none of the girls attract me to the point where I want to make them my forever companions. No, not one. Just because I really want to be alpha doesn't mean I have to give up the side in which I would be happy in my marriage, I refuse to stick with a wife just for conventions because yes, I believe in love. I lock my brain so that I don't hear any more of my father's reproaches, he was very lucky in his love life.

He and my mother married for convenience and fell madly in love with each other. So he predicted the same future for me. It is feasible, because according to him if he could do it then so can I.

I look out of the window of the small café where I am sitting with my father, I see Alex's son running with other children. It makes me smile, it's unbelievable that he already has such a big boy. Alex is my cousin by marriage, my aunt, my father's little sister married this wolf who came from another pack and already had a child to take care of. They came to live with us because Dad did not want to be separated from his only little sister. The cohabitation was not easy, with the strong character of dad and that of Uncle Tom we had some headaches. And later it was between Alex and me, always sneaking me but I don't think it's very mean, but dad always sees it as an affront. My father continues to rant about marriage, I look at him, he has aged a lot, his forehead is wrinkled, he has lost a lot of weight and I worry about his health, I am now the alpha but dad continues to interfere in the management affairs. Yet he should take this time to rest and make up for all those years lost with mom, I am a good leader, most of the time my subjects fear me, but to my father I can't forbid him anything. The door of the small pub opens on two young girls, they are human.

Here in Lakecity, the humans live with us werewolves without threatening anyone, they know who we are, of course, before allowing them to stay we make small inquiries about them, we are peaceful, but we don't have to look for us either. The first Annie, works here, she is a pretty blonde, very pretty of which Michael is secretly in love, I do not know if one day he will manage to confess it to her, besides I feel him waddling since she entered. She throws us a smile. I answer her with a nod. The second one is Penelope, she has been here for three years, I don't know why everybody likes me, except her. So I get a kick out of pissing her off, she owns a little bookstore down the street, a pretty bookstore owner, but you should hear the language that comes out of her mouth she swears more than a cartoonist. She has ebony hair with brown eyes, when she smiles it brings out her beautiful dimples, her heart shaped face makes you want to spend the whole time kissing her.

And her body, I already had the opportunity to see her in a bathing suit, and damn the wolf in me roared with satisfaction, it was blood red, I even remember the color. The little top molded her beautiful full breasts, and the bottom highlighted her ass, with her beautiful tanned skin the result was worthy of a magazine cover, and to top it all off she was soaking wet so her nipples were pointing at the bikini. Since that day, every time I see her my inner wolf comes out. As soon as she sees me, her smile disappears, I form a heart with my two hands and show it to her, she gives me the finger, I smile. What did I tell you? She loves me. My dad turns to see who I'm all making faces at, then he turns to me. << I'm talking to you and you can't think of anything better than chatting with that human. >> I swallow a glass of beer before answering him.

<< I thought you wanted me to find a woman. I said sarcastically. >>

I see my father turn red, Michael elbows me as if to say, you went too far. Maybe so, but I've had enough, my father is no longer the alpha, if I have to get married I'll do it with a girl I've chosen, a girl I like. He even went so far as to choose a fucking wife for me.

Okay I banged her a couple of times, maybe more, to be honest but I was horny, and I had her on hand. But I wouldn't marry her. Otherwise I'd have to marry everyone I've ever had sex with and the list is long, believe me.

<< But you already have a wife. >> He says.

<< You mean that girl with no personality that you brought to my house? There's no way I'm claiming her as my wife. >>

<< But... She told me that you had... >>

My father can't pronounce the word, he's much too uptight for that.

<< Fornicate? Fucking? Yeah, Dad, I did Laurie, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna marry her. Come on, you banged a lot of women before you married my mom, does that mean you married them all? >>

I think I see smoke coming out of his ears, or not. One thing is for sure, my father is very, very angry that I may have gone a little too far.

<< That doesn't mean I'll let you marry anyone. By anyone, I know he means a human. But I don't care so much today what he thinks that just to piss him off I'd marry even a witch. >>

All my life I've tried to make him proud of me, but today I've stopped, because I realized that it was time to stop living my life according to him.

Today I do what I like, if he still interferes in the management of the pack it is only because I want to please my mother and nothing else, otherwise I would have kicked him out long ago. With these last words my father gets up and leaves the small café. Michael sighs.

<< You shouldn't have pushed him around like that. >>

<< How much longer, Mich? How much longer do I have to act like nothing happened? When I'm tired of my father's behavior ? >>

<< Look, do it for your mother. You know she'd die if anything happened to her, and you know the only thing your dad really cares about is the pack and your mom of course, if we take her away... >>

<< Well thank you. It's nice to know that I don't matter to my dad. >>

<< Sorry man,he says, taking a sip of beer, you know I'm right. >> I glare at him, the tension between me and my dad is no secret, and now that this marriage thing is coming into play, it's making things even worse.

Annie comes towards us, I see it as an excellent way to get back at my friend.

<< Hey, beautiful. >>

<< Hey, Cal. You okay? >>

<< Yeah, I'm fine. You know what, I have something Mich would like to say to you. >>

I feel my friend's fingers on my jeans, you should never have provoked me, that will teach you. I pretend nothing, I finish my beer and I slip away.

I hear Annie ask Mich if everything is ok, I turn around and see my friend sweating profusely, he gives me a murderous look. I give him two thumbs up and give him my most innocent smile. I walk towards Penelope. << Hello Penelope. >> I know she hates it, it's way too sexual for her. << Fuck you Calvin.>> << Don't say that baby. >> << Is that what you call them all ? >> << Yeah, but only with you do I mean it.>> She finishes her cup of coffee and gets up. Her flowery dress, color lilac, suits her so well. It is indented at the level of the waist and puts her chest in value. Moreover her breasts swing with each movement which she carries out. My wolf growls.

<< You are a big idiot. >> She turns and heads for the door, blows Annie a kiss and leaves me standing there like an idiot.

Once I got out of the coffee shop, I could breathe normally again. I didn't even realize I had stopped breathing. It's like that every time I'm close to him, I lose my means, I become all thing so I hide my embarrassment behind salacious retorts.

I never felt that way, not even for Mason, who I loved more than anything else in the world. He was my fiancé, we went to college together, he was the insecure geek and I was the coveted cheerleader. I immediately wanted to bring this uptight boy out of his shell and finally I fell in love with him, we were supposed to get married when he came back from Afghanistan.

But he never came back, I was in our house in Los Angeles, we had chosen this city because of the sun, the beaches, far from the hell that was the life of soldier of Mason.

He had been in Afghanistan for six months, he had been there for two months, I was in the garden stroking my belly, imagining his reaction when he came back and found my belly huge. I had learned about my pregnancy just a few weeks after he left and I wanted to tell him in person, not in a letter. So I waited impatiently for his return, the doorbell rang, I was going to open it thinking it was my mother, what was my surprise when I found myself in front of Mason's superior, my face decomposed at once. An unparalleled fear knotted my guts, my greatest fear since he had joined was coming true. He came to tell me that Mason had been killed by a vehicle bomb in Afghanistan. Everything became black around me, when I woke up I was in a hospital, my relatives around me, my mother's face was bathed in tears, my father was giving me a pained look, everything came back in my memory, the coming of the General, the death of Mason.

<< Mama Mase. >>

She knelt down and put her hand on my forehead. << My little darling, she said, crying. I am so sorry. >> I didn't cry, I didn't have the strength, I just looked at my mother without saying anything, I put my hand on my belly and I started to caress it. My mother's sobs grew louder. My father took my hand and began to caress my arm. << My darling, he said with emotion. You have lost the baby. The shock was too brutal, the baby didn't survive. We are so sorry. >> There too I had not cried. I just looked at my father and mother, without saying anything. I just took my hand away from my stomach. Then it all came together, the funeral, my depression, my decline.

I sank without really having mourned my family, drugs, alcohol, everything was good to anesthetize the pain. Until Annie came to pick me up like a wreck and brought me to this particular city. Lakecity. She told me wild stories of werewolves, at first I didn't believe it, they don't exist, they are fictional creatures. Until I met him. I had managed to escape Annie's surveillance, who was watching me a little too much. And I was going into the forest to get drunk, when suddenly I saw someone or rather something in the bushes. I moved forward slowly to see better, and the thing metamorphosed into a man, naked. And what a man. The lines of his back were drawn, his buttocks were round and shapely, a soft wetness spread between my thighs.

<< Who is there? >> Had he asked while turning. I was tetanized, I did not understand what was happening. His face was austere, his black hair in disorder, he had a square jaw, and an authoritative look. Fear clenched my gut, but something was wetting my panties further down.

<< I can feel your excitement from here. >>

He looked down at his sex, my eyes following his. Oh my God! He was perfect. I had only known Mason, compared to his, the sex I had in front of me was the representation of the image I had of a man's sex. The glans wide and pink, the length and size perfect. Imposing, to say the least, I wonder if it could enter me. Impossible, it's too big. He put a hand on his sex and moved back and forth, closed his eyes and moaned.

<< Is that what you want? Because if it is, come your smell also turns me on. >>

I closed my eyes and counted to three, then started running in the direction of the house. Why? Because his words really made me want to give in, to put my hand on his to accompany him in his movement back and forth, I wanted so much for him to take me there, in that forest. But what kind of person was I? My fiancé and my baby had just died and already I was wetting myself for another man. I disgusted myself. And I decided to change, to stop this drug lifestyle I had started to take my life back. I opened a bookstore, which is doing quite well, I even have an assistant. It was much later that I learned who this mysterious man was.

Calvin Lloyd, the alpha of the twilight pack. He had given me a naughty look before holding out his hand, eyes as blue as the sky, he must have been twenty-eight. It was his hand that he had caressed his sex, I think I blushed when I recognized it.

I didn't grab his hand and for three years now we've been fighting a cold war, me to hide the attraction I have for him, and him because he's a big jerk. I wonder if he knows it was me, that day in the forest. I'm walking towards my store when I run into Alex who is also a werewolf. Calvin's cousin. Sometimes I catch him looking at me strangely, if he wasn't married and I wasn't friends with Cyndie, his wife, I'd almost think he had a crush on me.

<< Hi there. >>

<< Hi Alex, how are you this morning? >>

<< Much better now that I've seen you. >>

I'm embarrassed by all the confusing remarks.

<< Is that how you seduced your wife? >> I say as I open the door to my store.

<< Maybe so. >> He enters behind and closes the door. I take off my coat and my handbag and put them on the dresser.

<< So tell me, what can I do for you? >>

<< I brought you a present >> he says, taking a package out of his bag and handing it to me.

<< Oh, but what is it? >>

I take off the cloth that covers the package, it's a very old book with a blood red cover and that despite the years is still in good condition. I caress the cover of the book, on this one we can read the pack of the twilight.

<< It is a very old book, the family tree of our pack. >>

I opened the book, my fingers trembling. I had been wanting to know everything about this community that piques my curiosity for so long, I couldn't believe it.

<< Oh my God! I said, looking at him, are you sure I can read it? >>

<< Yes, you can! Since I gave it to you. >>

<< Thank you Alex >> I said, taking him in my arms. He didn't answer anything and just hugged me. A little too long for my taste. But I don't say anything, he made me happy today so I can allow him that. Except that at some point I pull myself out of his arms and head behind the counter.

<< I promise you that once I've finished reading it, I'll give it back to you. >>

<< Oh, don't rush. >> I continue to look at the book in question, fascinated by everything I'm going to learn in it, when I raise my head it's still there. An awkward silence settles in. I thought that once he had given me the book, he would have left.

<< Well, goodbye then. I'll give it back to you when it's finished. >>

<< Goodbye Penelope. >>

Once outside, he continues to wave at me, which of course I return out of courtesy. Olivia, my assistant, enters. I hand the store over to her and go to the back. I sit on the floor with the book in my hands, once again I caress the cover of the precious treasure, and open it. It looks like a physics book.

There are drawings on the first page that caricature the wolves' physique, and they talk about their transformations and the stages of those transformations. I continue to leaf through and I come across a portrait of my beautiful alpha, a drawing of him as a child, then as a teenager and finally one of him that is very recent. There is even a portrait of him once transformed into a wolf. A huge auburn wolf with a beautiful coat, huge eyes, it seems that he also stares at me.

I find myself caressing the drawing. My phone vibrates in my bag. It's Annie.

<< We are invited to the wolves' house tonight. >>

<< Us or just you to spend time with your handsome Michael ? >>

<< Both of us. And he's not My Handsome Michael. >>

<< If you say so. What time? >> I know she's got a thing for the handsome werewolf.

<< 8:00 p.m. I'll meet you there. By the way your mom called, call her back she's worried.>>

<< Love you. >>

<< Kisses. >>

It's been a long time since I called my mom, not that I didn't miss my family. It's just that sometimes I'm so comfortable here that I forget about them. I know that's no excuse. So I dialed my mom's number.

Mich had found nothing better than to organize a party in his cabin to avoid admitting his feelings to Annie. And since I'm the one who got him into this mess, I had to help him organize it and invite as many people as possible. I pull out my phone and text all our contacts.

I don't text Alex, it would ruin everything, right now his relationship with some of my friends is tense. Planning a party in two hours? What a jerk that one is. I go to the cellar to look for some wine, Michael always had good taste in alcohol, the worst thing is that he doesn't even consume it.

Tons of bottles of alcohol are arranged by brand. I choose a few of his best bottles that I take back to the lounge. There is already a lot of people, the party has already started. To make matters worse, Laurie is there too! Who invited her? I thought I could have fun here quietly but even that is impossible. As soon as she sees me Laurie comes up to me and hangs on my neck.

<< Baby, I've been looking for you. >>

She gets me drunk, seriously, she's so... clingy. I take her hands off my neck and turn to sit down. I pick up a glass of juice on the way.

My favorite, yeah I'm the only guy at a party who drinks juice, it would be nice to say it's mango. I love this fruit in all its forms. Mich sees me and he smiles. The reason, the image people have of me is different from who I really am. I sip my drink, fiddling with my phone.

I go into my messages, not knowing why I stop at Penelope's name. I smile at the thought of knowing I'm going to write to her.

- Calvin: Hi Peni.

- Penelope: Hi, you big jerk. I smile before I answer her, she is the only one who talks to me so badly.

- Calvin: Always so polite, tell me.

- Penelope: I'm only polite to people who deserve it. - Calvin: So I don't deserve it?

- Penelope: What do you think?

- Calvin: You're coming to the party tonight.

- Penelope: Maybe I am. You want to see me?

- Calvin: No, I just want to check out your bimbo breasts.

And indeed she has quite an attractive chest, she doesn't answer me anymore. Laurie comes and sits on my legs and starts stroking my face.

<< You look so tense... If you want after the party, I could help you relax... >>

She almost makes me want to throw up. Seriously, what was I thinking sleeping with that girl? I must have been really in need these days, there is no other explanation. I look at everything but her, she still risks to bewitch me or something like that, she could be excited, my inner wolf who recently is in need of feminine warmth growls.

She waddles her ass on my thighs, my inner wolf appreciates. But what is he doing? He must feel that I don't want her, right? But after all, animals are like people. They jump on anything that moves. My pocket starts to vibrate, at least my phone, new message from Penelope.

- Penelope: Don't tell me you're planning to see my chest with that turkey waddling on your thighs... I look up, my eyes anchored to hers. She has just entered with her friend Annie, she is beautiful. I smile.

-Calvin: Don't tell me you're jealous...

- Penelope: No... You're just a sight to behold.

She turns and mingles with the people at the party, they even brought another bottle to Mich.

These humans and their kindness. When Laurie sees Penelope she intensifies her little ride, caress here, hug there. I release her from my thighs, I really don't intend to spend the evening with this pain in the ass on my lap. I observe Penelope from afar, I notice at once that she has undone her long hair. It does not happen often then, I am pleasantly surprised. She wears a mini skirt in leather, with a red bustier and boots. It is a call to the rape, of back I see very well her bottom which is perfectly emphasized by this skirt. She smiles with Lloyd, the cousin of Mich. She never talks like that with me, always on her guard and wary of any little word that comes out of my mouth. I see Mich chatting with Annie, at least he's trying because right now I just see him babbling. What a wimp that one is! He can fight a lot of vampires, the best warrior in my pack, but he can't talk to a girl.

The door opens on Alex and his campaign. The atmosphere changes immediately. Discussions fade, ever since he expressed his desire to become alpha, people are wary of him. He's my cousin, I can't just turn my back on him. So I kept on acting like nothing was wrong and kept going to him. But everything has changed since then.

<< Alex >> I say, handing him a drink and to his campaign as well. He grabs his glass before answering me.

<< You're having parties now without inviting me? >>

<< I didn't invite you because I knew the mood would be ruined. >>

He frowns and his eyes fill with anger. I hate seeing him when he's like this, we were so close when we were kids and now I don't recognize him at all.

<< What are you implying? >>

<< You know very well what. >>

He grunts as he sticks out his fangs, his wife takes his arm and he tucks them in right away. I'm not afraid of him anyway. I've always been the stronger of the two of us, but to see his totally childish behavior because he wasn't invited to a party makes me drunk.

<< Dare to disrespect your alpha again and I will teach you a lesson. >>

<< You're not fully alpha yet, so you can stick your respect where I think it belongs. >>

I smile, not one of those knowing smiles you get when you're happy. But one of those smiles that a predator gives you before it kills you. My eyes turn red with anger, I'm going to do him, my wolf doesn't appreciate being disrespected at all, so I let him take control, I let him use me to teach Alex a lesson. Suddenly I feel a warm little body slide against mine, he snuggles in and whispers to me.

<< Calm down, he. He's not worth it. >>

I feel my anger subsiding, my wolf instantly calms down as soon as he breathes in that scent and I do too. I feel his warmth through my shirt and his hands so thin that they press against my neck. By reflex my arm is put on his waist, serious error my body is traversed of shivers and I feel immediately the goosebumps covering my body. A lump is formed in my pants. She pushes me a little and drags me in a corner.

<< What's the matter, you big jerk? I thought it would take more than that to make you mad. >>

I look at her without saying anything, still confused by everything this girl makes me feel. What she did was completely stupid, I could have hurt her. Everyone knows that you should never approach a wolf when they are in this state. I stare at her, then my gaze goes down on her chest highlighted by her corset. The red of this garment brings out the brightness of her clear skin. And damn, she has freckles on her chest. She looks down embarrassed.

<< Why do you look down? >>

<< I thought that was what females were supposed to do in the presence of the alpha. >>

<< Not you. >>

She looks at me surprised. I'm surprised at my own answer, I would never allow any other woman to look me in the eye and I would never allow her to talk to me the way she does. But this is Penelope, not just anyone. And it's time for me to admit the attraction I feel for her.